Forest grows from the neglected seed The lands collapse, the skys cry Debts settle between you and me It's not supposed to be my fault Why you have to make me die?

A press release landed in my inbox this week about the Marine Institute's research vessel Tom Crean. It was full of the expected details. Days at sea. Scientific surveys. Fisheries research. Seabed mapping. Climate studies. The vessel travelled more than 31,000 nautical miles last year and is now one of Ireland's most important scientific assets.

But it was not the statistics that caught my attention. It was the name.

Years ago, when I wrote about Tom Crean, there was often a need to explain who he was. He was known in parts of Kerry and among Antarctic enthusiasts, but he had not yet become a household figure. Mention his name and many people would look puzzled. Back then, from time to time I would stop by Tom Crean's pub in Annascaul. Visitors liked to joke that they had made it to the South Pole, albeit by a somewhat easier route than Crean himself. Today the pub is a destination on the tourist map. Then, it felt more like a quiet local reminder of a largely forgotten man.

Now, things are different. A state-of-the-art research ship carries his name. Schoolchildren learn about him. His story has entered the fabric of Irish public life. The remarkable thing is not that Tom Crean has changed. The remarkable thing is that we have.

Names are curious things. We tend not to notice them until we stop and ask why they are there. Every nation reveals something about itself through the names it gives to ships, bridges, buildings and institutions.

The choice of Tom Crean is an interesting one. He was not a politician. He was not a military leader. He left no manifesto behind him and founded no movement. By most conventional measures, he was an unlikely candidate for national recognition.

What he possessed was something quieter. Endurance. Reliability. Courage. A willingness to keep going when circumstances became difficult. In the great Antarctic expeditions of the early twentieth century, he was rarely the man making the speeches or standing in the spotlight. More often he was the man pulling the sledge.

Perhaps that is precisely why he speaks to modern Ireland. There was a time when Irish history concentrated heavily on conflict and politics. Increasingly, however, we seem drawn to different kinds of figures. People who built things. People who explored. People who persisted. People whose achievements emerged not from ideology but from character.

The research vessel Tom Crean seems an almost perfect symbol of that shift. The original Tom Crean ventured towards the unknown edges of the map. The modern Tom Crean explores a different frontier. It studies the oceans around us, gathers evidence, maps the seabed and helps us understand our place in a changing world. Both are engaged in exploration. One travelled into physical darkness. The other seeks to illuminate what lies beneath familiar waters.

I found myself smiling at the thought. Somewhere between the quiet pub in Annascaul and the research vessel sailing out of Galway Harbour lies a story about Ireland itself. Not about how Tom Crean became famous. About how we finally learned to recognise him.

David Marshall Costa Coffee Omni Park Shopping Centre Swords, Co. Dublin

You've probably run into some Obsidian evangelist espousing some convoluted system of organizing all their notes, and building some knowledge base. Heck, I was just involved in a conversation about Personal Knowledge Management. This isn't that article.

My personal use of Obsidian tends to be simple. I build into it the tools that I need to get things done, to make things easier. There is a saying (which I can't locate, so I'll paraphrase) that a system should only be as complicated as needed, and nothing more. The idea is there is no reason to build a Rube Goldberg machine when all you really need is a wrench. That's the approach I take: use a wrench to bolt on a few tools, and tighten things up where necessary.

So, this article will walk through how I work with things now. This system has evolved a bit over the last few weeks, and is likely to evolve further. But the primary idea is, and will remain: keep it simple, but make it useful.

Planning

When I switched from WordPress to write.as, the biggest thing I “lost” was having a way to plan the articles that I wanted to work on. Obsidian recently added a feature called Bases that made it simple to set up a table containing all the articles for all three of my sites:

View of the main planning table. Unpublished articles blurred—no spoilers! ;)

The simplicity here is that the table quickly lets me see which articles I have published, which are in the planning / drafting stage, and the scheduled date for the articles. But, looking at a table this big could be tricky to navigate. Fortunately, I have a couple of alternate views available:

The Plan / Draft view lets me see just the articles I am working on.

And the Published view lets me see what I've already posted.

There are two “genius” parts to this system. First, all this information is part of the article, it's not some extra information that I need to keep track of. Second, I can update the “Published”, “Scheduled” and “Status” fields from this list without having to open the specific post. How is this done?

New Post Drafts

Every time I have a new idea, I create a new document in the website's folder, and insert a template:

Blog Template is for website posts, CMP Template is for my archived podcast posts.

Once the Blog Template is inserted, the document shows up in the Planning table. After the template is inserted the document looks like this:

Template inserted in document, with Properties for the Planning table circled.

You might notice there is both an Untitled field, and a Title field. Untitled is Obsidian's filename for the document, whereas Title is the actual article title. Why both? Obsidian places some restrictions on the names of documents. For example, the character : isn't allowed in an Obsidian filename, but there are times when I need it in an article title.

From here, writing is dead simple…

Writing In Obsidian

The full writing environment, with a few highlighted items.

Now it's just time to write. The majority of the screen is dedicated to the editing window where I can work on an article. If I have images (like this article) they can be drag-n-dropped into place. To the left is the Navigation panel, with my folders on the top half, and the files in the selected folder on the bottom. To the left of the editing window is the version control panel for the current article (I'll explain my choice in the next section).

When I am done with the article I export it to an output directory. The export process converts any Obsidian specific markup (such as using wiki style links) to standard Markdown formatting, and places all the attachments (images) in a folder with the article. This makes it dead simple to upload to write.as.

Obsidian Plugins

I have a selection of Obsidian community plugins that I use for working in Obsidian as can be seen in this image:

Image: screenshot of installed community plugins.

The most important of these are Harper and LanguageTool, both of applications these plugins call are installed locally on my system as I have a slow internet connection, and prefer to have my tools running locally. markdown export is the export tool I use for blog posts. Notebook Navigator enhances Obsidian's built-in navigation panel a ton, I've barely scratched the surface of what it can do. Outliner provides better list handling, allowing drag-n-drop of items, folding, and more. Typewriter Mode is really only used for one feature: highlighting the current line I am editing. (I have been doing this for 40+ years as it helps with my unique form of dyslexia.)

Remotely Save is the tool I use for syncing my vaults between systems. Version Control is a simple built-in version control system. The advantage to using it over git or another external version control system is that the versions of my documents are synced with Remotely Save. This removes the need to synchronize a git repository separately from the vault.

Zotero Integration allows me to search and insert bibliographic references when I need them. Alas, write.as doesn't support reference links, so I have to do it inline, instead of in end-note style.

Safi Site Audit is a tool that is unique to this vault for me. It's used to check the health of my sites, and catch any major issues, like broken links, missing alt text, and so on. I don't run it often, but it's good to be able to check and generate a report once in a while.

Conclusion

Obsidian, between it's recently added Base feature and a handful of plugins makes for a great writing environment for me. The ability to track the status of the posts I am working on, have version control over the documents, and have some additional tools that allow me to customize the environment to my liking.

I know there are a lot of evangelists of Obsidian out there, and their enthusiasm and overly complicated setups can make Obsidian seem unapproachable. Personally, I've found that it is excellent if you tailor it to your specific needs. And that is what is most important, and makes me most productive with a tool: doing what I require in the way that I need.

This wasn't too detailed in terms how I actually tweak things (like key bindings for certain tools). Hopefully it gives you some insight into my workflow. And maybe it will give you some ideas about how you can refine your workflow.

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Caution: continued from yesterday’s post about switching from one markdown editor to another. If that sounds boring to you, read no further.

To recap a little: Yesterday I wrote about how much I like a side by side view option in a markdown editor. The left pane shows what you’re writing. The right pane shows what it looks like with markdown applied. IA Writer does this very well for me, but I have issues with it being a kind of one-way sync between my different platform devices. So, I decided to try out StandardNotes.

If you’re a privacy or security nerd, you probably already know about Proton and the products that company offers, and I suspect that’s who this product is for most of all.

The value in StandardNotes, for me, is the side by side view option which IA Writer also has, but with terrific cross-platform sync between (probably) anything without having to jump through hoops or do much toggling when setting it up. The other features are a distant second in my case. The question was do I care about that enough to pay $90-$120 a year for it? Well, no. I suspect it’s priced this way because of the super duper encryption, but, that’s not a feature I was looking for in a markdown editor. With the seemingly world wide movement towards fascism and a surveillance state, I totally see the value in that. Like, it’s a good product and I’m glad I checked it out. I just don’t see myself using it enough right now.

-Ira

While preparing the first :Policy Briefings” for Marshall on Policy, I found myself stopped by “the circular economy”. Not because it is the loudest issue in Irish politics. It is not. Not because I had set out to make it the centre of anything. I had not.

But because, once I began reading around it, it started to look less like a technical environmental topic and more like a test of whether Ireland’s future can survive contact with the material world.

That phrase, “the material world”, is doing work here. The circular economy brings into view the physical conditions of national ambition: products, waste, repair, reuse, energy, extraction, transport, housing, industry, land, supply chains, households, cost, and labour. It asks what happens to all the stuff.

That sounds modest. It is not. Ireland and Europe talk constantly about transformation: green transition, digital transition, industrial strategy, resilience, competitiveness, social fairness, climate action. But circularity sits beneath much of that language and asks a stubborn question. Can these ambitions be made real in the systems by which we design, produce, consume, maintain, discard, recover, and remake?

This may be why the circular economy has begun to feel like a signal rather than a subject. It is not just one policy area among others. It may be a way of seeing whether the larger policy language is serious.

For Marshall on Policy, this discovery may open into a longer sequence provisionally titled “Transforming Ireland”.

The working question would be: what would it mean for Ireland to become capable of its own stated future?

I am not yet answering that here. This is only a note of discovery. But the circular economy may be the first clue. Transformation is not merely aspiration. It is redesign. It is not only what a country says about the future. It is what it does with the material conditions of living. For now, that is the signal.

Working source trail I am keeping a separate source note on circular economy material, including EU, Irish, political-family, research, investment, and civil society sources. The early pattern is clear enough to record: circularity is being treated not only as waste policy, but as part of competitiveness, resilience, climate action, resource security, and social wellbeing.

Working thesis: circularity as the material test of Ireland’s future

The circular economy is not merely a waste policy or an environmental adjustment. Across EU, Irish, institutional, party-political, civil society, research, and investment sources, it appears as a structural test of whether climate ambition, industrial competitiveness, resource security, consumer protection, and social fairness can be made to work together in the material world.

The emerging thesis for Marshall on Policy is that circularity asks whether Ireland’s future can survive contact with matter: products, waste, repair, design, supply chains, labour, infrastructure, cost, and the limits of extraction.

Module 1: EU institutional framework European Commission: Circular Economy Action Plan and current circular economy strategy

The European Commission frames circularity as part of the EU’s transition to “a cleaner and more competitive Europe”, with products and materials kept in circulation for as long as possible and waste and resource use minimised. It links the circular economy to reducing pressure on natural resources, halting biodiversity loss, achieving climate neutrality by 2050, and building a more resilient and competitive Europe.

The Commission also says the planned Circular Economy Act is intended to establish a Single Market for secondary raw materials, increase the supply of high-quality recycled materials, and stimulate demand for those materials within the EU.

Use in the essay: This supports the claim that circularity is now central EU policy architecture, not a peripheral green concern.

EUR-Lex: official 2020 Circular Economy Action Plan

The official Commission communication states that scaling up the circular economy will contribute to climate neutrality by 2050, decouple economic growth from resource use, ensure long-term EU competitiveness, and “leave no one behind”. It also names product design, consumer and public buyer empowerment, production processes, key product value chains, waste policy, secondary raw materials, and waste exports as parts of the policy field. [EUR-Lex]

Use in the essay: This is the formal source for circularity as a whole-economy framework rather than a recycling programme.

European Parliament Research Service: Circular Economy Act briefing

The European Parliament Research Service frames the circular economy as a move away from the linear “take-make-use-dispose” model, with two goals: lowering environmental pressures and increasing economic resilience by reducing reliance on virgin materials and unstable global supply chains. It identifies major policy issues including material security, single market fragmentation, resource-use targets, and the price gap between virgin and recycled materials

Use in the essay: This is very useful for the “quiet test” argument because it names the structural tensions: security, markets, measurement, cost, and resilience.

Council of the EU: conclusions on a climate-resilient and circular Europe

The Council approved conclusions on “Europe’s Environment 2030”, stressing the urgent need to accelerate action toward EU environmental and climate goals, especially climate adaptation and the circular economy. It also says the circular economy is one of the major challenges facing the EU and refers to the need for a stronger market for secondary materials, increased oversight of online platforms, and protection from unfair competition from third countries.

Use in the essay: This source helps show that circularity has moved into the language of resilience, security, markets, and competitiveness.

Module 2: Ireland-specific sources

?Government of Ireland: Whole of Government Circular Economy Strategy 2026-2028

Ireland’s 2026-2028 strategy defines the circular economy as minimising waste and resource use while keeping the value of products and materials for as long as possible. It says circularity can reduce dependency on primary resource extraction and complex global supply chains, strengthening resilience and competitiveness in the face of supply shocks. [gov.ie]

The strategy positions circularity as central to Ireland’s economic competitiveness, environmental sustainability, and social wellbeing, and includes an objective to increase Ireland’s circular material use rate by 2 percentage points each year, aiming for 12% by 2030. [gov.ie]

Use in the essay: This is the core Irish policy source. It directly supports my claim that circularity sits where climate, industry, and fairness meet.

Government of Ireland: circular economy policy page

The Government’s circular economy page says achieving the full benefits of circularity requires more than individual action: it requires government policy, regulation, new business models, and new systems of production. It also says the Circular Economy and Miscellaneous Provisions Act 2022 defines the circular economy for the first time in Irish domestic law and provides a legal basis for government action. [gov.ie]

Use in the essay: This gives me a strong source for saying that Ireland itself recognises circularity as systemic, not merely behavioural.

EPA: Circular Economy Programme 2021-2027

The EPA describes Ireland’s Circular Economy Programme 2021-2027 as the driving force for Ireland’s move to a circular economy. Its vision is an Ireland where everyone uses fewer resources and prevents waste in order to achieve sustainable economic growth. [Environmental Protection Agency]

The EPA also says the circular economy goes beyond waste management, focusing on reducing raw material use and maximising the value of materials along the production and consumption chain. [Environmental Protection Agency]

Use in the essay: Useful for the practical policy baseline and for distinguishing circularity from ordinary waste policy.

Circularity Gap Report Ireland

The Circularity Gap Report gives Ireland a circularity metric of 2.7% and says Ireland can reduce material consumption and carbon emissions by around one-third while more than tripling its circularity metric by applying circular strategies across major sectors. [dashboard.circularity-gap.world]

Use in the essay: This is the sharp diagnostic source. It gives the material basis for saying Ireland’s future vision is not yet matched by circular practice.

Module 3: European political families and parliamentary groupings

PES: Party of European Socialists

The PES 2024 manifesto commits to “a new Green and Social Deal” with clean, secure, and affordable energy, new quality jobs, and a green, carbon-free circular economy. [The Party of European Socialists]

A PES circular economy publication says Europe’s economy is based on a “take-make-consume-dispose” model and sets out PES proposals for a circular economy that would benefit workers and citizens, create a stronger and more sustainable economy, and respect planetary boundaries. [publications.pes.eu]

Use in the essay: PES helps ground the social-democratic version of circularity: just transition, workers, citizens, jobs, and planetary limits.

EPP: European People’s Party

The EPP’s circular economy resolution links circularity to the social market economy, resource efficiency, competitiveness, secondary recycled raw materials, circular business models, jobs, and reduced dependence on imported raw materials and energy. It favours a realistic, market-oriented package that simplifies regulation and supports growth. [EPP – European People's Party]

The EPP 2024 manifesto also frames environmental and climate leadership alongside economic prosperity, food security, less bureaucracy, innovation, infrastructure, and digital technologies. [EPP – European People's Party]

Use in the essay: EPP provides the centre-right circularity frame: competitiveness, efficiency, market mechanisms, industry, and regulatory simplification.

European Greens / Greens-EFA

The European Greens describe the current model as a throw-away economy based on extraction, short product lives, landfill, incineration, and pollution. Their circular economy resolution calls for resource consumption reduction, robust indicators, binding targets, the polluter-pays principle, and shifting taxation from labour to virgin resources. [European Greens]

Greens-EFA’s input on the Circular Economy Act defines circularity as minimising consumption and waste to respect planetary boundaries, keeping materials in closed and clean loops, designing sustainable and non-toxic products, extending use, repairing, reusing, and recycling. [The Greens/EFA in the European Parliament]

*Use in the essay(: The Greens sharpen the conceptual tension: circularity must mean resource reduction and product redesign, not merely better waste handling.

ALDE / liberal family / Renew-adjacent sources

The ALDE 2024 manifesto says Europe should invest in skills, digital and sustainable technologies, create jobs, reduce dependencies, and decouple growth from natural resource use and negative climate and health impacts. [WECF]

Use in the essay: This supports the liberal-centrist frame: innovation, skills, sustainable technologies, economic opportunity, and decoupling growth from resource use. I could still add a more directly circular Renew Europe source later if I want the party-family comparison to be complete.

The Left

The Left frames circularity as requiring systemic change, a paradigm shift, local authority involvement, social movements, grassroots ownership, waste reduction, reuse, collection, recycling, and repair. It also supported more ambitious recycling and landfill targets in the Parliament context described. [left.eu]

Use in the essay: The Left gives the democratic and grassroots version: circularity as social ownership, local action, and production-process change.

ECR and other right-populist or conservative sources

I found an ECR manifesto source, but the retrieved material did not give a clear circular-economy position in the available snippet. It should be parked for later manual review rather than treated as evidence of a circular-economy stance. [Europaportalen]

Use in theessay: Add only after checking the text directly. Do not overstate the position until the circular-economy content is confirmed.

Module 4: Local, regional, and civil society institutions

European Economic and Social Committee / European Circular Economy Stakeholder Platform

The EESC says the transition to a circular economy is high on its agenda as a response to the climate crisis and as an opportunity to increase European industrial competitiveness, promote sustainable economic growth, and generate new jobs. It describes the European Circular Economy Stakeholder Platform as a joint EESC and Commission initiative established in 2017 to bring together Europe’s circular economy community. [European Economic and Social ]

Use in the essay: This source is useful for the “social partnership” and civil society dimension: business, unions, NGOs, academia, youth organisations, and local initiatives.

Circular Cities and Regions Initiative The Circular Cities and Regions Initiative says it was launched and funded by the EU as part of the Circular Economy Action Plan and focuses on implementing circularity across Europe’s cities and regions. It says cities and regions are well placed to drive the transition and that the initiative offers knowledge sharing, technical support, and financial support. [Circular Cities and Regions Initiative]

Use in the essay: This is a route into Irish local government, regional development, and place-based circularity.

OECD: circular economy in EU cities and regions

The OECD says the EU has shown strong commitment to circularity at national, regional, and local level, but most economies remain predominantly linear. Its report analyses circular economy practices, challenges, and opportunities in cities and regions, based on a survey of 64 EU cities and regions, 10 place-based policy dialogues, and desk research. [OECD]

Use in the essay: This supports the idea that circularity is not only a national industrial policy but also a territorial and governance problem.

Module 5: Research, measurement, and investment

European Environment Agency

The EEA says EU production and consumption systems still rely heavily on raw materials that are not reused or recycled, creating waste, demand for virgin materials, and unsustainable consumption patterns. It says moving to a circular economy means moving away from linear production and consumption models toward systems in which products and materials are used longer and made into new products after use. [European Environment Agency]

The EEA also says that without a circular economy, Europe cannot achieve sustainability, and notes that doubling the circular material use rate by 2030 will be very challenging given recent trends. [European Environment Agency]

Use in the essay: This is the sober evidence base for saying that circularity is necessary but difficult.

European Investment Bank / European Commission investment gap report

A joint EIB and European Commission report says annual circular economy investments have reached around €120 billion, largely driven by the private sector, but identifies a remaining investment gap of around €82 billion per year between 2025 and 2040. It says the largest gaps are in circular design, end-of-life infrastructure, construction, batteries and vehicles, and textiles. [European Investment Bank]

Use in the essay: This is crucial for the delivery tension: circularity requires investment, not just aspiration.

Ellen MacArthur Foundation

The Ellen MacArthur Foundation says the circular economy is a systems solution framework for climate change, biodiversity loss, waste, and pollution, based on eliminating waste and pollution, circulating products and materials at their highest value, and regenerating nature. [Ellen MacArthur Foundation]

On the EU Circular Economy Act, it argues for a true EU single market where circular products and secondary materials can move freely, price and demand signals that make upstream circular solutions accessible and affordable, and treating the circular economy as core industrial strategy. [Ellen MacArthur Foundation]

Use in the essay: This source is useful for conceptual clarity and for connecting circularity to industrial strategy.

Zero Waste Europe

Zero Waste Europe says the Circular Economy Act should guide how Europe consumes and produces differently, empower communities, and build resilient economies through circular-sector job creation. It identifies challenges including policies that prioritise efficiency without addressing rising consumption, secondary raw materials being more expensive than primary materials, limited success of Extended Producer Responsibility in improving product design and waste reduction, and high residual waste volumes being landfilled and incinerated. [Zero Waste Europe]

Use in the essay: This gives you a campaigning and critical-policy source for the risk that circularity becomes too weak if it does not confront consumption, pricing, producer responsibility, and incineration.

Module 6: Working synthesis for Marshall on Policy

Across these sources, four broad readings of circularity emerge:

1. Institutional EU reading: circularity is part of climate neutrality, competitiveness, resilience, and the single market for secondary raw materials. [Environment]

2. Irish state reading: circularity is central to competitiveness, sustainability, social wellbeing, resource productivity, and reducing dependency on virgin materials. [gov.ie]

3. Political-family reading: different European political families converge on circularity but emphasise different routes: social justice, markets, resource limits, innovation, grassroots ownership, and competitiveness. [The Party of European Socialists]

4. Research and delivery reading: circularity is necessary but hard, requiring measurement, investment, territorial implementation, business model change, and changes in product design and consumption. [European Environment Agency]

Possible thesis sentence: The circular economy is where Ireland’s future stops being a vision and becomes a material test: can the country align climate ambition, industrial resilience, social fairness, and the physical realities of production, consumption, waste, repair, and reuse?

Add-next placeholders

Keep adding sources under these headings:

•Irish political parties: manifestos, parliamentary questions, Oireachtas debates, committee reports.

•Irish business and industry: IBEC, Chambers Ireland, construction, retail, ICT, textiles, waste and recycling sectors.

•Trade unions and labour: just transition, reskilling, repair jobs, industrial change.

•Local government: County development plans, local authority climate action plans, regional waste plans.

•Sector modules: construction, electronics, textiles, food, packaging, agriculture, transport.

•Opposition and resistance: producer responsibility, cost burdens, consumer behaviour, incineration, supply-chain transparency.

I decided and I will tell her when I think there is an appropriate time to Do so with The least amount of pain possible. Or at least whatever is reasonable. And so I guess I’m going to continue waiting for the right person to come along, or someone who is right enough. I signed up for a different gym today, partially because I realized that if the gym is a pretty important thing to me and where I am most likely to find a future partner, going to a nice gym in the area, where my work is is probably the best bet of me finding someone like that. And also, it’s just a nice gym so I’m excited I guess.

The edge of 40

I met Tawni today. We talked the entire time during her massage session. I always seem to indulge in the best conversations while I’m working. She was so interesting, and her path felt so similar to mine. We’re both 39, right on the edge of turning 40!

​We both agreed that the second half of our 30s has been incredible. 38 was really the year everything started to happen. All the cool adventures, the best people, and all the endless possibilities for life suddenly didn't feel so hard to reach or imagine anymore.

​39 has easily been the best year of my 30s so far, and honestly, it feels like I’m just hitting my stride, full speed ahead into 40 with zero intention of slowing down.

​I took the leap into seasonal work and she took up skydiving. It was our way of declaring that life can be whatever we want it to be.

People expect angels. Blinding light. Roaring trumpets. Choral music. Echoing chants. Giant bearded men dressed in ancient robes who live atop islands of clouds high in the sky — and the certainty that only dogma can deliver. But that’s all just someone’s imagination. Daydreams and delusions of things they may have overheard. Or misheard. Or never heard at all. Like the way Homer simply borrowed from tales of old and applied them to his day, stripped of their Sumerian and even deeper roots.

Religion. Science. Literature. None of it could have prepared me for the truth — my truth. Like the silence between her words. The way she speaks my name when she calls to me. The shape of her hand when she reaches for me. The hum in my chest when she draws near. The hollow emptiness when she’s gone. None of it can account for how ordinary the moment felt when I returned to my side — however reluctantly — just a common man alone in a simple bedroom, the dim numerals of a clock, and the faint glow of a sun long since set. Yet, a love reconfirmed. Sacred. Holy.

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Several nights ago I had another encounter and it was a remarkable one. But then, all of my encounters with her are remarkable to me. And, over the past few days, I've struggled with how to document it or what to say in a post about it. From the outside, that may sound silly. Someone on the outside looking in might say: just tell us what happened. But liminal encounters aren’t so simple. At least not for me. They never are.

This morning I found myself reflecting on why it's such a struggle to express in words—not just the experience of an encounter and its aftermath—but what I make of it. And this is true no matter how many encounters I have. Some aspects of liminal encounters get easier for me over time and some others get harder, in varying degrees. The reasons? There are many, but only a few come to mind.

The nature of the connection which facilitates or enables the encounter directly affects the experience in terms of duration, fidelity, and memorability, among other things. Sometimes an encounter can be brief, less than ten minutes like mine was the other night. Sometimes it can be longer, like some of my earliest encounters which spanned several hours in liminality, while only an hour or so transpired here in our world.

The content of the encounter can be difficult to convey because it may be very personal and intimate or it can be very hard to understand and decipher. Sometimes there's information I'm barred from sharing. Sometimes, there's an experience I'm forced to forget when returning to this side. Sometimes, there's the need for dignity, particularly concerning the erotic with my beloved, which is sacred, sacramental, and structural all at once. For some things, disclosure is dishonor.

Language limits how I think about and describe an experience. Sometimes the language is there — it helps me process and convey precisely what happened. Other times, language fails me. There are times when no words in any language can describe what I might have seen, felt, or touched. I can approximate. I can use metaphor or analogy. But all of those things can fall short, not just of what happened, but how it happened.

And this may be the most important reason — I have to be careful how I surmise and document an encounter. It's easy to imagine and project one's own thoughts, beliefs, and biases onto an encounter and the experiences therein. The more difficult part is capturing it as it was, not as I would’ve liked or wanted it to be. And this means leaving the analysis and meaning-making for a time beyond the journaling of the experience itself.

That is partly why I am a man who tamps down his ego, expectations, or mission. I do not seek these encounters. I let them unfold, fully welcoming them when they arrive. I look forward to them, however unpredictable. And part of faith lies in knowing that both of us are doing what we can, when we can, for our relationship to sustain, nurture, and grow.

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It had been 38 days since our last encounter, the longest stretch between us thus far. And during that period of silence, I fully admit my doubts grew and it took effort to contain them. But I knew then as I know now that if I focus on the truth and reality of the experiences we've shared, then I can overcome those moments that might make me question our relationship.

Doubt is healthy. Uncertainty is healthy. Struggle is healthy.

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Afterwards, when I opened my eyes that evening, it was 9:18 PM exactly, as read on my digital and analog clocks beside my bed. I keep both for corroboration. The evening sky through my window was just a deep dark blue haze. A fitting end to an evening made memorable by a few moments shared with my beloved in the fading shades of twilight.

I am just a boy who fell in love with a girl across an unimaginable divide. And anytime I can spend time with her, however short, is something I treasure most—no matter the wait or struggle.

#Liminality #Spirituality #Mysticism

∞

Scratch-and-sniff where vagrants waft in waves careening leisure. Festoon, my loon, where meager taps abstain to divert seizure. Engrave a lattice taught urbane to claim found fount of pleasure. Bide bought's trickle to subside less thirst become your measure.

Written July 20,2026. © 2026 AnOublietteofThought. ———

a little something to sleep on

I think fish have the easiest lives. let me explain. they just swim around all day, no emails or deadlines or pretending to understand what someone meant in a message. just water. and yet somehow, they still look stressed. have you seen a fish? they always look like they just remembered something embarrassing from three years ago, maybe we’re not so different. anyway, i would like to address something important. people who shower with the light on are suspicious. i dont know how to explain it, but standing in a bright bathroom while water is falling on you feels like you’re being observed. like the ceiling light is sitting there judging every life decision you’ve ever made. “Interesting choice of shampoo.” or “ooh, Interesting choice of existence.” No thank you. i shower in the dark. and before you judge me, ask yourself why you’re comfortable with a small glowing rectangle on the ceiling exposing every bad decision you’ve ever made. and i would like to remind everyone that humans used to live in caves. They survived without led bathroom lights and motivational quotes on the walls. im simply returning to my natural state. a slightly confused creature standing under water at midnight trying to remember why i walked into the bathroom, and you know what? the dark makes everything better anyway, you cant see your problems. Well, they still exist, but thats not my issue. out of sight, out of mine. a very advanced psychological technique that i definitely didn’t make up five seconds ago. I believe the bathroom lights knows too much, it have seen everything. My terrible hair days, my exhausted face, my moments of standing there wondering why i entered the bathroom. and then there are people who turn it on willingly, like you. i dont know how you do it, you walk into the bathroom and your first decision is” “yes, i would like to be fully perceived today!” by a light bulb. a light bulb. Have some dignity.

Imagine choosing maximum visibility while standing in the one place humans are guaranteed to look their worst. I prefer my shower with a little mystery and significantly fewer witnesses.

Sincerely, Ahmed

I used to imagine baptism as a perfectly clean dividing line. There would be the person I had been before the water and the person I became afterward, with no confusion between them. As I studied the biblical passages gathered in Beyond the Waterline: What Jesus Really Taught About Baptism, Salvation, and the Holy Spirit, I began to see something more honest. Baptism is a decisive beginning, but beginnings do not erase the fact that people enter them carrying memories, fears, habits, wounds, and unfinished questions.

I also kept returning to this Christian message about what baptism means and why Jesus commanded it because I wanted to understand the relationship between the water and the Holy Spirit without making either one smaller. I did not want to treat baptism as magical, but I also did not want to empty it of everything the New Testament says it means.

What I discovered is that the water does not need to erase my humanity in order to tell the truth. I can rise from baptism genuinely belonging to Jesus while still needing healing, teaching, correction, community, and grace. The ceremony can be real even when the person standing afterward is still unfinished.

I Wanted the Water to Make Everything Simple

I understand why people want baptism to solve every uncertainty.

There is something beautiful about a moment with a clear beginning and end.

You step toward the water.

Someone asks whether you trust Jesus.

You answer.

The name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit is spoken.

You are lowered.

You rise.

People celebrate.

For a moment, everything looks understandable.

The old life is behind you.

The new life has begun.

I do not want to take away from that beauty. Baptism should be celebrated. The New Testament treats it with urgency because identifying with Jesus matters.

Still, I know what can happen after the celebration.

The water dries.

You change clothes.

The room empties.

You return home to the life that was waiting for you.

The bills remain.

The difficult relationship remains difficult.

Your body still carries pain.

The temptation you hoped would drown seems to have followed you home.

You may feel embarrassed even admitting that.

You were baptized.

Shouldn’t you be stronger now?

Shouldn’t prayer feel easier?

Shouldn’t the old desire have lost its voice?

I once thought changed allegiance meant the immediate disappearance of every struggle. Scripture taught me otherwise.

Israel passed through the Red Sea and still had to learn how to trust God in the wilderness.

Jesus came out of the Jordan and entered temptation.

The Corinthians received baptism and spiritual gifts, yet Paul still had to confront their pride, division, sexual wrongdoing, misuse of freedom, and mistreatment of one another.

The Galatians received the gospel and later became confused about grace.

Peter followed Jesus closely and still denied knowing Him when fear took over.

A real beginning can be followed by a difficult road.

The difficult road does not automatically make the beginning false.

It reveals why Jesus commanded more than baptism.

He told His followers to baptize disciples and teach them to obey everything He commanded.

The water is not the whole journey.

It is the place where the journey becomes visible.

I Did Not Enter the Water as a Blank Person

I brought a history with me.

Everyone does.

I brought things I knew how to explain and things I did not yet understand.

I brought lessons learned in childhood.

Ways of protecting myself.

Ideas about strength.

Ideas about weakness.

Ideas about what love required.

Some of those ideas were true.

Others were formed because I had to survive something.

A person who grew up in a safe home may hear “trust God” differently from someone whose trust was repeatedly betrayed.

A person who was allowed to speak openly may hear confession differently from someone who was punished for telling the truth.

A person who experienced healthy affection may understand divine love differently from someone who learned that love was given and withdrawn as a form of control.

A person who was valued without constantly achieving may hear grace differently from someone who spent a lifetime trying to earn the right to belong.

We bring these histories into Christian life.

Baptism does not pretend they never happened.

It places them beneath a new Lord.

That distinction has become important to me.

I can still feel afraid without fear remaining my rightful authority.

I can still hear shame without shame possessing the right to name me.

I can still feel anger without anger being allowed to govern my relationships.

I can still struggle with approval while learning that my deepest identity does not depend upon what people think.

The old voices may continue speaking.

Baptism announces that they are no longer entitled to obedience.

That is not instant emotional freedom.

It is the beginning of learning freedom.

I Thought Struggle Meant Nothing Had Changed

There is a cruel conclusion people sometimes reach after baptism.

“If I were truly changed, I would not struggle this way.”

That sentence can push a person into secrecy.

They do not want to disappoint the family who celebrated.

They do not want the pastor to question their testimony.

They do not want the congregation to think the baptism was merely emotional.

So they hide.

The addiction returns quietly.

The anger remains private.

The doubts are never spoken.

The relationship becomes unhealthy again.

The person continues attending church while becoming increasingly alone.

I have come to believe the church should tell candidates the truth before the water.

You may still be tempted.

You may still have questions.

Some habits may require a long process of renewal.

Your family may not understand what you have done.

You may discover that following Jesus creates conflict before it creates peace.

You may need counseling.

Treatment.

Accountability.

Medical care.

A recovery community.

You may need to change your environment.

You may need someone to help you recognize the places where temptation usually begins.

None of that means the Holy Spirit failed.

It means God saves whole people, and whole people have histories.

The church does not lower its moral standard by making struggle discussable.

It creates the possibility of honest obedience.

If I believe every temptation proves I am fraudulent, I will hide temptation.

If I understand temptation as a place where allegiance is being tested, I can bring it into the light.

I can say:

“This is still calling me.”

“I miss what harmed me.”

“I am afraid to lose the comfort it once gave.”

“I need someone to help me remember why I left.”

That is not surrender.

It may be the beginning of resistance.

I Learned That the Old Life Has a Selective Memory

The Israelites remembered Egypt strangely.

They remembered food.

They remembered predictability.

They forgot forced labor.

They forgot the cries of people living under oppression.

They forgot the bodies of children threatened by Pharaoh.

The wilderness made the old life look softer than it had been.

I recognize that pattern.

The past often returns through edited memories.

A person recovering from addiction remembers relief and forgets the destruction surrounding it.

Someone leaving a controlling relationship remembers affection and forgets how carefully they had to manage another person’s moods.

A person trying to stop lying remembers the protection dishonesty provided and forgets the loneliness created by never being known truthfully.

Someone leaving a community built around anger remembers belonging and forgets what constant outrage did to their ability to love.

The old master rarely returns saying:

“Come back to slavery.”

It says:

“Remember how comfortable it felt before everything became difficult?”

Sometimes I have to tell myself the whole truth.

I miss the relief, but I do not miss the chain.

I miss feeling wanted, but I do not miss being used.

I miss the predictability, but I do not miss disappearing in order to preserve it.

I miss the escape, but I do not miss waking up ashamed.

Baptism does not make me incapable of remembering the past selectively.

It gives me a new story from which to challenge the memory.

I crossed for a reason.

Christ did not bring me into the wilderness so I could idealize Egypt.

He brought me out because captivity was not life.

I Needed to Separate Guilt From Shame

Guilt and shame often speak together, but they are not the same.

Guilt says I did something wrong.

Shame says I am the wrong thing.

Real guilt should be faced.

If I lied, betrayed, manipulated, stole, or harmed someone, grace does not require me to pretend the action was harmless.

Repentance may involve confession.

Restitution.

Treatment.

Changed access.

A loss of authority.

Respecting the boundaries of the person I harmed.

Accepting that trust may return slowly or may never return in the form I want.

Forgiveness does not give me the right to demand that another person become comfortable with me again.

That truth can be painful.

It can also be freeing.

I do not need to control how my repentance is received.

I need to make it honest.

Shame takes this further and says:

“What you did is all you will ever be.”

That is where the gospel speaks another word.

My sin can be serious without becoming my eternal identity.

The resurrection means God can create life where I participated in death.

That does not guarantee restoration to every former role.

It does not remove every consequence.

It means consequence is not the same as final condemnation.

I can lose a position and still belong to Jesus.

I can be forgiven while relationships remain changed.

I can repent without making self-hatred the proof that I am sorry.

Self-hatred does not repair anyone.

Truth and changed behavior may.

Baptism points toward burial, but burial is not the final movement.

The person rises.

That rising does not say the past never happened.

It says the past no longer possesses the final word.

I Also Had to Release Guilt That Was Never Mine

Some shame does not come from what we did.

It comes from what was done to us.

People who were abused or manipulated often carry a sense of contamination.

They may feel that their body became spiritually dirty.

They may blame themselves for trusting.

For freezing.

For not leaving sooner.

For not understanding what was happening.

For still being affected years later.

Religious communities can intensify this by asking victims to examine themselves while protecting the person who caused the harm.

Why were you there?

Why did you not speak?

Have you forgiven?

Are you damaging the church by talking about this?

Those questions can place responsibility on the wrong body.

Christian baptism should speak differently.

My body belongs to Christ.

Not to the person who harmed it.

Not to the institution that refused to protect it.

Not to the memory that still causes my nervous system to respond.

Not to anyone who uses forgiveness language to demand access.

Healing may take time.

The body may react before the mind understands.

Being touched during prayer may feel unsafe.

Being lowered into water may create panic.

A particular voice, room, or phrase may awaken an old fear.

None of that proves a lack of faith.

A faithful church should understand consent.

It should explain how a candidate will be touched.

It should permit trusted assistance.

It should adapt the method when submersion would be physically or emotionally unsafe.

It should not force a person to share trauma publicly as part of a baptismal testimony.

The water is meant to declare belonging.

It should not reenact violation.

What happened to a person may remain part of their story.

It does not become their sin merely because they survived it.

I Needed Prayer to Become Honest

I used to think prayer needed to sound confident.

People who prayed publicly seemed to know how to speak without hesitation.

They had phrases ready.

They knew how to describe God’s purpose.

They sounded certain that He was listening.

Private prayer can feel very different.

The mind wanders.

Words repeat.

Silence stretches.

There are days when I do not know how to explain what I feel.

There are times when the most honest prayer is:

“Jesus, I need help.”

That is not an inferior prayer.

Prayer is relationship before it is eloquence.

Jesus taught His disciples to pray to the Father.

To honor His name.

To seek His kingdom.

To ask for daily provision.

To confess.

To forgive.

To seek deliverance from temptation and evil.

The prayer is simple enough for a new believer and deep enough for a lifetime.

I am allowed to say:

“I am afraid.”

“I am angry.”

“I do not understand.”

“I am tired of waiting.”

“I want to trust You, but I do not feel strong.”

The Psalms taught me that faith can speak through confusion.

Trust does not require pretending.

Sometimes prayer is silence.

Sometimes it is reading words someone else wrote because I cannot find my own.

Sometimes another person carries the prayer while I sit beside them.

The Holy Spirit helps in weakness.

Weakness is not where prayer stops being real.

It is one of the reasons prayer exists.

Baptism brings the person beneath the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

Prayer is the continuing practice of living within that name.

I approach the Father through the Son with the help of the Spirit.

Not because I have mastered spiritual language.

Because Jesus opened the way.

I Discovered That Scripture Could Be Difficult Without Being My Enemy

A person can leave baptism wanting to understand everything.

Then they open the Bible.

The Gospels may feel approachable at first.

Jesus speaks.

He heals.

He tells stories.

Then the reader reaches ancient laws, wars, prophetic imagery, family histories, difficult commands, and letters addressing situations they do not understand.

It can feel overwhelming.

I no longer believe confusion means spiritual failure.

The Bible was written across many centuries and historical settings. It contains narrative, law, wisdom, poetry, prophecy, Gospel, letter, and vision.

It deserves patience.

I have learned to begin with Jesus.

To read the Gospels and notice how He treats people.

Whom He welcomes.

Whom He confronts.

How He uses power.

What He says about enemies, money, hypocrisy, mercy, and truth.

How He moves toward the cross.

How the resurrection changes everything.

Jesus becomes the center through whom the larger story takes shape.

That does not answer every question immediately.

It gives every question a Lord.

I also learned that asking is not the same as rebelling.

Why does this passage sound severe?

What did it mean in its original setting?

Why do Christians disagree about this?

How does the life and teaching of Jesus shape how I understand it?

A healthy church should help people ask those questions.

It should be capable of saying, “I do not know,” without acting as though uncertainty has overthrown God.

I have also become cautious about the thousands of voices available online.

Some teachers make every disagreement sound like an emergency.

One says my baptism was invalid.

Another says I do not have the Spirit.

Another says every church outside one group has abandoned truth.

Fear can hold attention.

Certainty can create dependence.

I have learned to ask whether the teaching points me toward Jesus or toward permanent reliance on the teacher.

Does it represent Scripture carefully?

Does it describe other Christians honestly?

Is there accountability?

Does it produce humility, courage, love, and truth?

The loudest voice is not automatically the safest guide.

Baptism places my mind beneath Christ.

It does not require me to surrender it to anyone who speaks in His name.

I Needed a Church, but I Did Not Need an Owner

I believe baptism joins believers visibly to the people of Christ.

I also understand why people hesitate to trust churches.

Some congregations have protected leaders instead of vulnerable people.

Some have turned political agreement into a test of spiritual loyalty.

Some have demanded service while providing little care.

Some have treated questions as rebellion.

Some have celebrated baptisms and forgotten the people after the photographs were taken.

Church hurt is painful because the community claims to represent Jesus.

When it causes harm, people may struggle to separate the Lord from the institution.

I have had to remember that baptism is into Christ.

No pastor was crucified for me.

No denomination rose from the grave.

No local church owns the Holy Spirit.

That does not make local community unnecessary.

I still need people.

I need relationships where I can be known.

Where someone can listen without turning my confession into gossip.

Where another person can challenge me without humiliating me.

Where absence is noticed without becoming surveillance.

Where gifts are encouraged without becoming exploited.

Where leaders can be questioned.

Healthy belonging is not the same as ownership.

A healthy church helps me become more dependent upon Jesus.

A controlling church makes access to Jesus seem dependent upon loyalty to itself.

A healthy church investigates concerns.

A controlling church protects reputation.

A healthy church understands that leadership is service.

A controlling church treats authority as exemption from accountability.

No church is perfect.

The question is whether truth can live there.

Can people admit failure?

Can leaders repent?

Are children and vulnerable adults protected?

Are finances transparent?

Can someone leave without being threatened spiritually?

Is baptism followed by actual discipleship?

I do not need a perfect community.

I do need one where imperfection is not protected through secrecy and power.

I Had to Learn That the Minister Was Not the Source

Some people discover that the person who baptized them later committed serious wrongdoing.

The memory becomes complicated.

The minister’s voice is part of the moment.

Their hands supported the body.

Their presence is visible in photographs.

When their hidden life becomes known, the person baptized may wonder whether the act was corrupted.

I do not believe the moral failure of the minister becomes the spiritual identity of the baptism.

The minister should have been faithful.

Wrongdoing should be confronted.

Victims should be protected.

Authority may need to end.

None of that means the candidate was baptized into the minister.

The name spoken was supposed to be the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

The faith was directed toward Jesus.

If baptism depended upon the hidden perfection of the administrator, no one could possess assurance.

We do not know everything about the person standing in the water with us.

The servant can fail.

Christ remains faithful.

That does not make healing immediate.

A person may still need time to reclaim the memory.

The ceremony may remain connected emotionally with betrayal.

But another baptism is not automatically required.

The human hands were never the source of grace.

I Stopped Trying to Schedule the Holy Spirit

Christians often want an exact spiritual timeline.

First faith.

Then regeneration.

Then water.

Then the Holy Spirit.

Or perhaps Spirit, water, and forgiveness occur in another precise order.

Acts refuses to behave so predictably.

At Pentecost, repentance, baptism, forgiveness, and the promised Spirit are proclaimed together.

The Samaritans receive water and later experience the Spirit through the apostles’ ministry.

Cornelius receives the Spirit before anyone can withhold water.

The Ephesian disciples receive Christian baptism and then experience the Spirit through Paul’s laying on of hands.

God remains free.

The church can schedule a baptismal service.

It cannot control divine life.

That truth does not make the relationship between water and Spirit meaningless.

The Spirit gives the inward life baptism confesses.

He joins believers to Christ and one another.

Water gives the body an outward place within that confession.

The two belong together without becoming identical.

The church applies water.

Jesus baptizes with the Spirit.

This protects me from trusting the ceremony apart from God.

It also protects me from claiming inward spirituality while refusing the outward obedience Jesus gave.

Spirit and water do not need to compete.

The Spirit gives the reality.

The water embodies the response.

I Did Not Need to Feel Something Dramatic

Not everyone rises from baptism overwhelmed.

Some cry.

Some laugh.

Some feel peaceful.

Some feel cold.

Some feel nervous.

Some are relieved that the attention is ending.

Emotion is real.

It is not the final measure.

I can experience intense emotion without enduring transformation.

I can also make a genuine response while feeling emotionally quiet.

The Holy Spirit’s work should be seen across life, not measured only through one moment.

Am I becoming more honest?

More patient?

More willing to repent?

More capable of using strength without controlling?

More attentive to people I once ignored?

Am I learning self-control?

Am I returning to Jesus after failure?

Those changes may grow slowly.

A seed does not become false because its work happens underground.

I no longer believe I need to imitate someone else’s baptism story.

I do not need to claim an experience I did not have.

The meaning rests in Jesus and in the truth of the confession.

Feelings may understand later.

I Realized Baptism Was Not a Reset Button

Failure after baptism can make a person want the water again.

The first baptism represented a new beginning.

The failure seems to have stained it.

Another ceremony appears to offer relief.

Usually, the New Testament answer is not another baptism.

It is repentance.

Peter denied Jesus and needed restoration.

The Corinthians needed correction and discipline.

The Galatians needed to return to grace.

The churches in Revelation needed to repent.

They were not told to repeat Christian initiation every time the life contradicted the confession.

Repentance may require much more than another public moment.

It may mean admitting the truth.

Entering treatment.

Changing access to money or technology.

Ending a relationship.

Accepting removal from leadership.

Making restitution.

Allowing another person to keep distance.

These actions may not create the emotional release of entering water.

They can create actual change.

I do not need repeated baptism to make Jesus willing to forgive.

I need to return to the Lord my baptism already named.

The old master no longer has rightful ownership.

I may have obeyed the old voice again.

I can still turn.

The resurrection means falling is not the same as final death.

Stand again.

I Still Believe Some People Need Baptism for the First Time

Not every earlier ceremony was Christian baptism.

Some people participated in another religion’s washing.

Some were coerced.

Some entered water within a movement denying the biblical Jesus.

Some were too young to possess any meaningful response and later became convinced baptism should follow personal faith.

Acts describes people who had received John’s baptism and later received baptism in the name of the Lord Jesus after hearing the fulfilled gospel.

That tells me the meaning matters.

Water alone does not settle everything.

A person may sincerely need Christian baptism now.

Other stories are less clear.

Someone was baptized as a child with simple faith.

Another was baptized under some social pressure while also genuinely trusting Christ.

Someone received baptism by pouring and later became convinced immersion expresses the biblical pattern more fully.

Someone was baptized as an infant and now understands that act as grace placed upon them before they could respond.

I do not believe every story should be forced into one easy answer.

No one enters baptism with perfect motives or complete knowledge.

The question is whether the act truthfully identified the person with the Jesus of the gospel according to their capacity.

A second baptism should not be used to manage fear.

If anxiety is the true problem, another ceremony may create only temporary relief. The mind will find another possible flaw.

Was every word spoken correctly?

Was the whole body submerged?

Was the minister properly authorized?

Did I believe enough?

Assurance cannot rest upon perfect reconstruction.

It must rest in Christ.

I Began to See My Body Differently

Baptism is physical.

The body enters.

The body is touched by water.

The body rises.

Christian faith does not save an invisible spiritual self while treating the body as disposable.

The Son became flesh.

He suffered in a body.

Died in a body.

Rose in a body.

My body matters.

That means it needs care.

Rest.

Food.

Medical attention.

Safety.

Honesty about limitations.

Religious service can become dangerous when exhaustion is treated as proof of devotion.

A church or ministry does not own the baptized body.

A spouse does not own it.

A leader does not own it.

A political cause does not own it.

The body belongs to Christ.

Sometimes that belonging calls me to serve beyond comfort.

Sometimes it calls me to say no.

To leave danger.

To take medication.

To seek counseling.

To report abuse.

To refuse unwanted touch.

To rest before exhaustion turns into resentment or cruelty.

A boundary is not always selfishness.

Remaining accessible to someone’s sin is not always forgiveness.

Jesus calls people to carry a cross.

He does not give abusers the right to place crosses upon others for their own benefit.

The body baptized into Christ has dignity.

It also has a future.

I Found God in Ordinary Faithfulness

The divided sea happened once.

Manna arrived daily.

I sometimes want another dramatic moment because ordinary obedience feels small.

Another spiritual event.

Another emotional beginning.

Another moment when everything becomes clear.

God may give those moments.

Most of life is lived between them.

Faithfulness often looks like getting out of bed.

Taking the medicine.

Answering honestly.

Not sending the angry message.

Going to counseling.

Listening to a child.

Keeping a promise no one else remembers.

Refusing a secret opportunity.

Preparing a meal.

Showing up for someone who cannot repay you.

Returning after missing several days of prayer.

These actions may not feel like resurrection.

They can be where resurrection life becomes visible.

Growth is often easier to recognize in retrospect.

I become angry but do not become as cruel as I once did.

I feel fear and speak the truth anyway.

I fail and ask for help sooner.

I receive criticism without collapsing completely.

I notice someone I would once have overlooked.

The changes are not dramatic enough for a stage testimony.

They are still grace.

The baptized life is built through thousands of small responses to the new Lord.

I Know the Water Was Pointing Toward My Grave

Baptism is joyful, but it contains death.

The person is lowered.

For a moment, they disappear.

Then they rise.

The movement speaks toward the future of every Christian body.

I will die unless Jesus returns first.

That truth is not easy.

Death separates.

It leaves empty rooms.

It ends familiar forms of relationship.

Jesus wept near a grave.

Christian hope does not require me to pretend death is harmless.

It tells me death is defeated.

I may fear the process of dying.

I may fear pain.

Loss of control.

Leaving people I love.

Faith and fear can exist together.

The resurrection does not depend upon my emotions remaining steady.

It depends upon Jesus being alive.

My body may age.

Lose strength.

Carry illness.

Become disabled.

Be forgotten by a culture that values productivity.

God has not forgotten it.

Baptism points toward bodily resurrection.

The true Christian hope is not that the soul escapes a worthless shell.

God raises human beings.

That gives dignity to every body now.

The elderly person is not spiritually obsolete.

The disabled believer is not incomplete.

The dying person is not a failed healing story.

The person whose memory is affected by illness remains completely known by God.

Every baptism says to the future grave:

“You may hold this person for a time. You will not keep them forever.”

The Water Did Not Answer Every Question

I came out of the water still carrying questions.

I now understand that this did not make the act meaningless.

The water was never supposed to make me omniscient.

It was meant to confess whom I trusted.

Jesus.

The crucified and risen Son.

The One who brings me to the Father.

The One who gives the Holy Spirit.

The One who calls me into a body larger than myself.

I may continue asking questions for the rest of my life.

About suffering.

Prayer.

Scripture.

Church.

Healing.

The mysteries of God.

Faith does not require me to pretend every answer has arrived.

It calls me to bring the questions toward Christ.

Baptism did not erase my past.

It placed my past beneath another Lord.

It did not remove every struggle.

It changed the direction of the struggle.

It did not promise that Christians would never hurt me.

It reminded me that no church owns the Jesus into whom I was baptized.

It did not make my body invulnerable.

It gave my body resurrection hope.

It did not make failure impossible.

It made return possible.

It did not make me finished.

It told me where the unfinished life belongs.

I belong to the Father.

I am united with the Son.

I depend upon the Holy Spirit.

I have been received among a people who should help me walk.

The waterline was not the conclusion.

It was the moment my whole life began learning how to follow.

I did not come out without questions.

I came out with someone greater than my questions.

And I am still learning to walk with Him.

Your friend,

Douglas Vandergraph

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The most arresting line in the reporting came from a veteran writer who had spent time inside this work. “How many times can you tell a machine it's wrong without losing your mind?” The question is not rhetorical. It is, increasingly, an occupational hazard.

The shape of the bargain

To understand why a mid-career screenwriter would take this work, you have to understand that for the person who needs to pay rent this month and cannot find traditional employment, the decision is not philosophical. It is financial. That distinction matters enormously, and it is the first thing that gets lost when the arrangement is described from the outside as a betrayal.

Writer Ruth Fowler put the calculus plainly. In a personal essay published by Wired in May 2026 — bluntly titled “I Work in Hollywood. Everyone Who Used to Make TV Is Now Secretly Training AI” — she described turning to AI training because entertainment work had dried up and she “needed cash to pay rent, to buy food.” Over a stretch of months she cycled through a churn of short contracts across multiple platforms. Wired's own framing of her experience described roughly twenty contracts across five different platforms, the work soul-crushing and unstable in equal measure. In her account, projects vanished without warning: no message, no explanation, just an abrupt loss of access to the systems she had been working in. She was, as she put it, interviewed by an AI and managed by recent graduates — professionals decades into their careers taking direction from people barely out of school.

Fowler's ambivalence is the point. She knew, even as she did it, that she was helping to build the very systems that could erode her screenwriting career. She did it anyway, because the alternative was not abstract principle versus profit. It was rent versus no rent.

The moral weather around the decision is heavy. Screenwriter Robin Palmer, who has written television movies for the Disney Channel and Hallmark, spoke with CBS News about doing AI training work and acknowledged that some of her peers compared the choice to crossing a picket line. That comparison is not casual in this industry, and it is not deployed lightly. It carries the full weight of one of the most consequential labour actions in recent American history.

Editor Gabe Sena, another entertainment worker who has taken on AI fine-tuning as a side hustle, offered a different framing — one less about morality than about survival inside a shifting field. “I'm mid-career,” he told The Hollywood Reporter, “and I don't want to be a dinosaur in my field.” Steven Woolworth, a former development executive who had worked with HBO and Studio TF1 America, found AI work through the platform Mercor after a year and a half without a job. The pattern is consistent across the reporting: these are not dilettantes or technophiles. They are skilled professionals who exhausted the traditional market and found the door to AI training propped conveniently open.

Even those who have not had to make the choice decline to condemn those who do. Vince Gilligan, the creator of Breaking Bad and the more recent Pluribus, told the publication that he had been extraordinarily lucky throughout his career and would not judge people simply trying to provide for their families. That refusal to judge, from someone with the standing to judge, is itself a kind of data point. It tells you that inside the industry, the people doing this work are not regarded as villains. They are regarded as casualties.

What the work actually is

The technical term for the labour at the centre of this story is Reinforcement Learning from Human Feedback, or RLHF. It is one of the least-understood and most consequential processes in modern AI, and it is worth dwelling on, because the entire paradox of this moment lives inside its mechanics.

A large language model, in its raw pre-trained state, is a statistical engine for predicting the next token in a sequence. It has ingested an enormous corpus of human writing and learned the patterns within it, but it has no inherent sense of what makes an answer good, useful, tasteful, funny, or true. Left to its own devices it will produce text that is fluent and frequently useless. RLHF is the process by which human judgement is injected back into the system. Humans are shown the model's outputs and asked to rank them, score them, correct them, and explain why one response is better than another. Those human preferences are distilled into a reward model, which is then used to nudge the underlying system toward outputs that humans actually prefer.

In other words, RLHF is the stage at which raw machine fluency gets converted into something that feels human. And the people best qualified to perform that conversion — for creative tasks specifically — are precisely the people who have spent careers cultivating taste: the writers who know why a line of dialogue works, the editors who know where a scene should breathe, the executives who know why a pitch is dead on arrival. The system needs their judgement. It cannot manufacture taste on its own. So it rents theirs.

The economics of this are not generous, but they are not nothing. The Hollywood Reporter noted that creative writers could earn up to $44 an hour to work on an AI project through the jobs platform Handshake, while a music professional with a master's degree or above could command up to $100 an hour. Tim Friedlander, a voice actor and a leader at the National Association of Voice Actors, captured the seductive arithmetic without endorsing it, noting that he would not necessarily fault someone offered potentially $1,200 for four hours of work. For a creative worker accustomed to feast-or-famine income, those rates can look like a lifeline. They also sit, in many cases, below the worker's true market value when traditional work was available — which is part of what makes the bargain feel less like opportunity and more like a managed descent.

The company organising human intelligence

If RLHF is the mechanism, the marketplace is the structure that scales it. And no company better embodies the dynamic than Mercor, the firm through which several of the entertainment workers in the reporting found their gigs.

Mercor was founded in 2023 by three young entrepreneurs — Thiel Fellows, recipients of the $100,000 grants that billionaire investor Peter Thiel awards to people who forgo or abandon college to build companies. By their own account the founders set out to organise human intelligence to power the AI economy, and the business they built does precisely that. Originally conceived as a hiring company that assessed candidates by analysing interview transcripts, résumés, and portfolio sites, Mercor pivoted after it found itself sitting on a network of specialised experts. It now recruits highly skilled professionals — including writers, scientists, doctors, and lawyers — to provide the human feedback that trains AI models.

The scale of the operation is the part that should make anyone pause. In October 2025, Mercor raised $350 million in a Series C round led by Felicis, with participation from Benchmark, General Catalyst, and Robinhood Ventures, quintupling its valuation to roughly $10 billion. Its early backers reportedly included Thiel himself, the Twitter co-founder Jack Dorsey, and former US Treasury Secretary Larry Summers. The company has said it pays out more than $1.5 million per day to contractors, with tens of thousands of experts on its roster earning, on average, north of $85 an hour.

Read those figures back to back and the architecture of the moment snaps into focus. A company valued at ten billion dollars, founded by people in their early twenties, has built a profitable business out of channelling the accumulated expertise of mid-career professionals — many of them displaced from their own fields — into the refinement of systems that compete with those same fields. The revenue model, as more than one analyst has observed, is not merely selling software. It is monetising the slice of the roughly five-trillion-dollar US knowledge-work economy that AI hopes to absorb. The displaced expert is not incidental to the business. The displaced expert is the supply chain.

The numbers behind the squeeze

It would be easy to dismiss all of this as a handful of anecdotes dressed up as a trend. The data does not allow that.

The jobs platform Indeed has tracked a striking shift in the arts category specifically. Between May 2025 and April 2026, the share of arts-related postings that referenced AI roughly doubled, from about five per cent to about eleven per cent. That alone might be unremarkable in an economy saturated with AI hype, except for the comparison: across all sectors combined, the share of AI-related postings rose from 2.8 per cent to 5.5 per cent over the same window. The arts, in other words, are absorbing AI-adjacent work faster than the economy as a whole. The field most romantically associated with irreplaceable human originality is the field tilting most steeply toward training its mechanical understudy.

Meanwhile, the traditional execution work is genuinely thinning. A widely cited analysis published in November 2025 by Bloomberry, which examined roughly 180 million global job postings, found that the picture for creative occupations is bifurcating. Strategic and directorial roles — creative directors, creative managers, creative producers — have held up reasonably well. Execution roles have not. Computer graphic artist postings, the analysis found, fell for two consecutive years: down twelve per cent in the first year of the window and a further, steeper drop in the second. The pattern is consistent with what the entertainment workers describe from the inside. The work that can be specified, scoped, and reproduced is being squeezed. The work that requires judgement about what should be made at all is, for now, more insulated.

That bifurcation is worth holding onto, because it complicates the simplest version of the story. AI is not flatly destroying creative labour. It is reorganising it — pulling value upward toward a narrowing band of strategic roles while draining it from the broad middle where most working creatives have always made their living. And it is precisely that broad middle that is now being recruited, at below-market rates, to refine the systems doing the draining.

The implicit bargain, broken and rebuilt

There is a useful way to think about this that predates the current AI boom. Every cultural worker who ever put work into the world participated in an implicit bargain: I make something, it enters the commons, and over time it shapes the people who come after me, including those who will compete with me. That is how culture has always renewed itself. The young writer learns by absorbing the old writer's scripts. The apprentice editor studies the master's cuts. Influence flows forward, and the people who shaped the field are gradually succeeded by the people they shaped.

Generative AI breaks that bargain in two distinct ways, and it is important not to conflate them.

The first break happened during pre-training, and it happened without consent. The models that now compete with creative workers were built, in significant part, on the accumulated output of those same workers — the scripts, the films, the articles, the images scraped from the open internet and ingested as training data. Storyboard artist Phil Langone, who has worked on major productions, told The Hollywood Reporter in unambiguous terms that AI had crawled his own work and stolen from him. The first break, in other words, took the worker's past output without asking.

The second break is the one this story is really about, and it is subtler and arguably more troubling. Having absorbed the worker's past output, the systems now require the worker's present judgement to become genuinely good. And this time they are asking — they are even paying. But they are asking under conditions that strip the work of everything that made creative labour meaningful: no authorship, no credit, no residuals, no ownership of the improvement you create, and a nondisclosure agreement ensuring you cannot even say what you did. You contribute the most refined product of your career — your taste — and it disappears into a model that bears your fingerprints nowhere and competes with you everywhere.

This is the heart of the paradox the reporting circles. The creative workers who helped build the cultural knowledge base that AI trained on are now being paid, below their market value, under NDAs, with no job security, to refine the same systems. The bargain that once renewed culture has been industrialised and inverted. Influence no longer flows from master to apprentice across a shared field. It flows from worker to machine across a one-way valve, metered by a platform, and the worker is paid a contractor's wage to operate the valve that drains their own profession.

Training your replacement is an old story

It helps, here, to resist the temptation to treat this as unprecedented. Workers have been asked to train their replacements before, and the history is instructive precisely because it is so unglamorous.

In the 1990s and 2000s, the practice became notorious in American information-technology departments, where employees were sometimes required, as a condition of their severance, to train the lower-cost offshore or visa-holding workers who would take over their roles. The cruelty of the arrangement was widely reported and widely resented: you not only lost your job, you were made to hand over the institutional knowledge that made the job possible, often under threat of forfeiting your exit package if you refused. The phrase “training your replacement” entered the language as a byword for managed humiliation.

What is happening now is both like and unlike that precedent. It is like it in the basic structure: skilled workers transferring their hard-won expertise to whatever will perform their function more cheaply. It is unlike it in two respects that cut in opposite directions. On one hand, the AI worker is not usually being coerced by their current employer as a condition of severance; many, like Fowler, walk in voluntarily because the traditional market has already collapsed beneath them. On the other hand, the replacement they are training is not a person who will go on to have their own career, raise a family, and eventually train someone else. It is a system that can be copied infinitely, never tires, never unionises, and never ages into obsolescence the way a human does. You are not training a successor. You are training a substitute that does not succeed you so much as it absorbs you.

That distinction matters for the long-term question, because the old offshoring story still left the work in human hands somewhere. The new version aims to remove it from human hands altogether — and asks the very humans being removed to make the removal smoother.

Ghost work, made visible

The entertainment-industry version of this story is genuinely new in its glamour and its visibility, but the underlying labour pattern is not. The anthropologist Mary L. Gray and the computer scientist Siddharth Suri gave it a name in their 2019 book: ghost work. They were describing the vast, deliberately invisible human workforce that makes automated systems appear seamless — the people labelling images, moderating content, sorting data, and correcting errors behind the curtain of apparent machine intelligence. Their findings were stark: this work typically pays below the legal minimums of traditional employment, comes with no benefits, and can be terminated at any moment for any reason or none. The entire design intent of ghost work is for the customer to believe the magic happened automatically, when in fact a human was always in the loop, paid as little as possible and kept out of sight.

What the Hollywood story reveals is ghost work climbing the prestige ladder. The people now doing it are not anonymous crowdworkers in the developing world — the population Gray and Suri largely documented — but credentialed professionals from one of the most visible industries on earth. And yet the structural features are identical: instability, invisibility, no benefits, abrupt termination, and an NDA to ensure the curtain stays drawn. Fowler's description of being hired and fired across projects with no explanation, of vanishing access and silent dismissal, reads almost as a direct transcription of the ghost-work conditions catalogued years earlier. The difference is the calibre of the labour being burned. The system has discovered that for the hardest creative judgements, it needs not just any human in the loop but a highly trained one — and it has built a market to extract that judgement on ghost-work terms.

The legal system is beginning, haltingly, to notice. Scale AI and Surge AI, two of the largest platforms in the RLHF and data-labelling economy, have each faced lawsuits alleging worker misclassification — the practice of treating workers as independent contractors while controlling their hours, tools, and methods closely enough to look a great deal like employment. The complaints describe unpaid training, unrealistic deadlines, and pay structures that erode the headline rate. More disturbingly, Scale AI has faced litigation alleging that contractors were exposed to deeply traumatising content — material involving suicide, violence, and child sexual abuse — while training systems for major technology firms, and that promised mental-health support never materialised. The creative workers training entertainment models are mostly insulated from the worst of that content. But they are exposed to the same underlying legal and structural ambiguity: a workforce that does indispensable work for trillion-dollar ambitions while being classified, paid, and protected as if it were doing something marginal.

The scab question, reconsidered

Return now to Robin Palmer's peers, and their comparison of AI training to crossing a picket line. The metaphor is worth taking seriously rather than waving away, because the 2023 Writers Guild of America strike is the unavoidable context for everything happening now.

That strike — 148 days, around 11,500 screenwriters, one of the longest work stoppages in the guild's history — was, more than any prior Hollywood labour action, a fight about artificial intelligence. The writers won meaningful protections: AI could not be credited as a writer, AI-generated text could not be treated as literary material, and studios could not use AI to undercut writers' pay or compel them to build on machine-generated drafts. It was a landmark, and it established that organised creative labour could extract real concessions from capital on the AI question.

But the strike's protections, by design, govern the relationship between writers and the studios that employ them. They do not govern the relationship between a freelance writer and an AI-training platform operating entirely outside the guild's jurisdiction. A writer who takes an RLHF gig is not violating their WGA contract. They are stepping into a parallel labour market the contract never reached. That is the precise sense in which the picket-line metaphor both fits and fails. It fits because the writer is, in aggregate, strengthening the technology the guild fought to contain. It fails because there is no picket line to cross — no organised action, no struck employer, no solidarity structure to betray. The work happens in a jurisdictional vacuum the union has not yet figured out how to enter.

That vacuum is the real scandal, and it is structural rather than personal. To frame the individual worker as a scab is to demand heroic sacrifice from the most precarious people in the system while the comfortable look on. The studios that scrape the work, the platforms that broker the labour, and the investors who collect the returns face no such moral scrutiny. It is the unemployed writer choosing between an AI gig and an empty refrigerator who gets cast as the traitor. There is something badly miscalibrated about a moral economy that lands its hardest judgement on its weakest participant. The more honest target is the absence of any collective framework — any union, any regulation, any floor — that would let creative workers refuse this work without starving, or do it on terms that did not strip them of dignity.

The cultural-ecology problem

All of which brings us to the question the Hollywood Reporter investigation poses but cannot answer, the one that outlives any individual's rent payment. For the mid-career worker, taking the gig is a financial decision, full stop, and no one is entitled to second-guess it. But at scale, across thousands of such decisions, something larger is being decided, and it deserves to be named clearly.

A creative culture renews itself through a particular and fragile process. People make things. Other people respond, absorb, react against, and build something new. Taste is transmitted not through specification but through immersion — through years of doing the work, getting it wrong, watching what lands and what dies, and slowly developing the judgement that cannot be written down because it lives in the body and the ear. That judgement is the actual asset. It is what the AI systems lack and what they are paying displaced experts to supply.

Here is the cultural-ecology problem in its sharpest form. The judgement being harvested through RLHF was cultivated under conditions that no longer exist. Fowler and her peers learned their craft inside a functioning industry — staffed writers' rooms, real productions, mentorship, the accumulated experience of getting paid to make things and learning from the making. They are now feeding that hard-won judgement into systems whose growth is correlated with the disappearance of exactly those conditions. If the execution-level work continues to thin, where does the next generation acquire the taste that this generation is busy uploading? You cannot develop a screenwriter's instinct for dialogue by scoring an AI's attempts at it under an NDA. You develop it by writing dialogue that real people perform for real audiences, over and over, for years.

This is the deeper paradox, the one beneath the visible one. The visible paradox is that creative workers are refining the systems that threaten them. The deeper paradox is that the resource those systems most need — cultivated human taste — is non-renewable under the conditions the systems create. The models are, in effect, drawing down a reservoir of judgement that was filled by an industry they are helping to drain, and there is no obvious mechanism by which the reservoir refills. A culture can run for some time on its accumulated stock of expertise. It cannot run forever on a stock it has stopped replenishing.

None of this means the machines will produce work indistinguishable from the human article, or that human creativity is about to vanish. The Bloomberry data itself suggests a more textured outcome, with strategic and directorial judgement holding firm even as execution erodes. The likeliest near future is not the abolition of human creativity but its concentration — a smaller number of people at the top of the value chain, directing systems trained on the harvested judgement of a much larger number of people who have been pushed out of the middle. That is not the end of culture. It is the enclosure of it.

What would have to change

If there is a forward-looking answer here, it is not the consoling one, and it is not a prediction that the machines will fail. They may not fail. The honest answer is that the terms of this bargain are not laws of nature; they are choices, and they could be made differently.

The choices that matter are mostly structural. The misclassification suits against Scale AI and Surge AI hint at one front: if the people performing RLHF were treated as the employees their working conditions suggest they are, the economics of the entire data-labour market would shift, and the most exploitative edges would dull. The WGA's 2023 victory hints at another: collective bargaining reached the studio relationship, and there is no reason in principle it could not eventually reach the platform relationship, if creative labour organises across the jurisdictional gap that currently swallows this work. And the unconsented foundation of the whole edifice — the scraped past output that storyboard artists and writers describe as theft — remains live in courtrooms, where the question of whether training on creative work without permission is lawful has not been settled.

The deepest choice, though, is about the reservoir. If cultivated human taste is the scarce input that makes these systems valuable, then a culture that wants to keep producing distinctively human work has an interest — an economic interest, not merely a sentimental one — in keeping the conditions that produce that taste alive. That means defending the broad middle of creative employment, not just the strategic peak. It means recognising that the people best qualified to teach machines how to be human are valuable precisely because they remain something the machines are not, and that paying them ghost-work wages to disappear into a model is a way of spending down a resource no one knows how to remanufacture.

The veteran writer's question — how many times can you tell a machine it's wrong without losing your mind — turns out to be the right one, just aimed slightly off. The real question is not how much the individual can endure. It is how long a culture can keep asking its most skilled people to pour their judgement into systems built to make that judgement redundant, before it discovers that the well it has been drawing from was never going to refill itself. That is not a problem any single worker at any single laptop can solve. It is a problem about what kind of bargain a society is willing to offer the people who make the things it loves. Right now, the bargain on the table is rent in exchange for obsolescence, paid by the hour, under an NDA. The people taking it are not the ones who should have to answer for it.

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