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There are 4 main reasons I’m emotionally repressed.

1. My mom (bless her heart) has bad anger issues. Sometimes, she got so mad that she beat the fuck out of me. This made me view emotions as dangerous, and hate emotional people.

2. I was an emotional kid. When I got excited, I lost control. My mom compared me once to a kid who had it more under wraps than me with good manners. That made me afraid of losing control.

3. I’m shy, and care a lot about what people think of me.

4. I’m a guy, and men are taught to repress their feelings.

But I just realized I don’t want to live like this anymore. My heart hurts sometimes from holding it all in. Literally. My heart actually fucking hurts sometimes.

And here’s the crazy thing. I don’t even feel happy when I feel happy. I get scared when I feel happy, because I’m not used to feeling happy and fulfilled, like “What is this feeling lmao?” I actually feel a twisted sense of happiness when I’m miserable. It just feels right to be deep in the shit. It feels right to be scared, lonely, shocked out my mind while imagining me cutting myself to shreds. Maybe I don’t do that anymore. Maybe accept happiness, at least when it comes?

I want to be free and let go. I realize this is a bit backwards. Usually, you make your emotional mistakes as a teen, or a kid, and you dial it back as you get older. I’m an adult. But better I make my mistakes now, rather than later, right? I want to feel what I’m feeling again. I want myself, to be honest with myself. I don’t want to live the rest of my life in a dissociative daze, in an out of body experience where I’m looking at myself from the third person. If I’m being honest, I was probably too concerned with looking like a model student, and a model son, and a model Christian as a teen and a young adult. And I was way too good at hiding my emotional baggage and the shitshow in my brain from other people for my own good. I tricked pretty much everyone.

By trade, I’m currently a programmer, but ironically, I think this will also make me better at programming. Programming isn’t just about writing code. It’s also about being good at making snap decisions with intuition, because sometimes, you don’t have time to really think your decisions through. Intuition is feeling, and feeling is loosely connected to emotions. I think too much, don’t feel enough.

I’m so used to hiding in an emotional shell, even from myself. Sometimes, I’m feeling an emotion, and I’ll become too self-aware of myself, and it’ll recede back into my heart. I don’t know how to fix this. I don’t even know where to start. But it’ll take some time.

Maybe one thing I’ll do is write a feeling diary. But instead of dissecting my emotions and explaining the thoughts behind why I felt that way in the moment like I usually do, I’ll just start writing some whimsical bullshit. Like, “I felt magenta, then aquamarine-yellow, and a butterfly grew out of my bellybutton when I laughed.”

This seems very sudden, and out of the blue, so I’ll write a note for myself on how this thought germinated in my mind. A couple things happened.

1. I was writing some short fiction, and realized I lacked a creative spark that I used to have, that excitement of embarking on a new adventure, that joy of creation, that whimsy, the JUICE that breathes feeling into my characters, deep emotion into them, the lifeblood of vivid description gushing from my pounding, trembling heart onto the page.

2. I gave up on myself. I got wrapped up in a bunch of neurotic spiritual bullshit, and looked at the people around me that were serving God better than me, that loved Him more than me, and were… happy. I looked at myself, and said, “What the fuck am I doing wrong? I’m a shitter. I’m miserable. Rarely happy. I’m missing something.” The answer is I don’t fucking know. But I did realize I need to take 50 steps back, reinvent my whole jive, and blow everything in my head the fuck up. I’ve built, brick by brick, a thought-library of bullshit in my head. If God is real, and truly with me, I trust that He will lead me through this, and save me in the end.

3. What catalyzed this realization was this. I was watching the opening of City the Animation, and it was just so fucking beautiful. The vibrant colors, the exuberant overture explosion of sound, and the sweet emotional bond that binds the cast together culminated in a joyous experience that blew out the receptors in my frontal cortex. It affected me so much emotionally, that I felt alive again for the first time a in a long time, and I began to wonder why. I began to wonder if, this experience, of me watching the opening to this anime was also part of God’s plan. And oh how happy would I be to believe that.

I give up on myself! But I don’t do it with the defeated expression of yesterday night, when I told myself it was all over. I give up on myself joyously with a smile on my face, and tears trembling in my eyes! I WIN! I feel like I can fly again! I haven’t smiled for real in forever! I feel like a bright yellow-white! Or maybe it’s just this song I have on repeat that’s the one doing the talking :P

I hereby renounce my previous favorite color green. Now, my favorite is YELLOW

In Summary: * Very much an Advent Monday, today. Which is fitting. The changes in my prayer routine are both time-consuming and keep my attitude properly oriented.

Prayers, etc.: * My daily prayers

Health Metrics: * bw= 224.93 lbs. * bp= 125/78 (64)

Exercise: * kegel pelvic floor exercise, half squats, calf raises, wall push-ups

Diet: * 05:55 – 1 banana, ½ McDonald's double quarter pounder with cheese sandwich, pumpkin pie * 09:35 – 1 fresh orange * 10:50 – 1 cheese sandwich * 12:00 – green bean caserole * 16:50 – rice-based stew, cooked with different meats and vegetables

Activities, Chores, etc.: * 04:30 – listen to local news talk radio * 05:50 – bank accounts activity monitored * 06:05 – read, pray, listen to news reports from various sources * 10:45 – start my weekly laundry * 11:10 – listening to the Markley, van Camp and Robbins Show. * 11:45 to 13:00 – watch old game shows and eat lunch at home with Sylvia * 15:00 – have resurrected the oldest machine from my graveyard of dead computers, am trying to put it back into service * 17:00 – listening to The Joe Pags Show * 18:00 – listening to relaxing music, folding and putting away laundry * 19:00 – quietly reading until bedtime

Chess: * 10:35 – moved in all pending CC games

When the Biden administration unveiled sweeping export controls on advanced AI chips in October 2022, targeting China's access to cutting-edge semiconductors, it triggered a chain reaction that continues to reshape the global technology landscape. These restrictions, subsequently expanded in October 2023 and December 2024, represent far more than trade policy. They constitute a fundamental reorganisation of the technological substrate upon which artificial intelligence depends, forcing nations, corporations, and startups to reconsider everything from supply chain relationships to the very architecture of sovereign computing.

The December 2024 controls marked a particularly aggressive escalation, adding 140 companies to the Entity List and, for the first time, imposing country-wide restrictions on high-bandwidth memory (HBM) exports to China. The Bureau of Industry and Security strengthened these controls by restricting 24 types of semiconductor manufacturing equipment and three types of software tools. In January 2025, the Department of Commerce introduced the AI Diffusion Framework and the Foundry Due Diligence Rule, establishing a three-tier system that divides the world into technological haves, have-somes, and have-nots based on their relationship with Washington.

The implications ripple far beyond US-China tensions. For startups in India, Brazil, and across the developing world, these controls create unexpected bottlenecks. For governments pursuing digital sovereignty, they force uncomfortable calculations about the true cost of technological independence. For cloud providers, they open new markets whilst simultaneously complicating existing operations. The result is a global AI ecosystem increasingly defined not by open collaboration, but by geopolitical alignment and strategic autonomy.

The Three-Tier World

The AI Diffusion Framework establishes a hierarchical structure that would have seemed absurdly dystopian just a decade ago, yet now represents the operational reality for anyone working with advanced computing. Tier one consists of 18 nations receiving essentially unrestricted access to US chips: the Five Eyes intelligence partnership (Australia, Canada, New Zealand, the United Kingdom, and the United States), major manufacturing and design partners (Japan, the Netherlands, South Korea, and Taiwan), and close NATO allies. These nations maintain unfettered access to cutting-edge processors like NVIDIA's H100 and the forthcoming Blackwell architecture.

Tier two encompasses most of the world's nations, facing caps on computing power that hover around 50,000 advanced AI chips through 2027, though this limit can double if countries reach specific agreements with the United States. For nations with serious AI ambitions but outside the inner circle, these restrictions create a fundamental strategic challenge. A country like India, building its first commercial chip fabrication facilities and targeting a 110 billion dollar semiconductor market by 2030, finds itself constrained by external controls even as it invests billions in domestic capabilities.

Tier three effectively includes China and Russia, facing the most severe restrictions. These controls extend beyond chips themselves to encompass semiconductor manufacturing equipment, electronic design automation (EDA) software, and even HBM, the specialised memory crucial for training large AI models. The Trump administration has since modified aspects of this framework, replacing blanket restrictions with targeted bans on specific chips like NVIDIA's H20 and AMD's MI308, but the fundamental structure of tiered access remains.

According to US Commerce Secretary Howard Lutnick's congressional testimony, Huawei will produce only 200,000 AI chips in 2025, a figure that seems almost quaint compared to the millions of advanced processors flowing to tier-one nations. Yet this scarcity has sparked innovation. Chinese firms like Alibaba and DeepSeek have produced large language models scoring highly on established benchmarks despite hardware limitations, demonstrating how constraint can drive architectural creativity.

For countries caught between tiers, the calculus becomes complex. Access to 50,000 H100-equivalent chips represents substantial computing power, roughly 700 exaflops of AI performance at FP8 precision. But it pales compared to the unlimited access tier-one nations enjoy. This disparity creates strategic pressure to either align more closely with Washington or pursue expensive alternatives.

The True Cost of Technological Sovereignty

When nations speak of “sovereign AI,” they typically mean systems trained on domestic data, hosted in nationally controlled data centres, and ideally running on domestically developed hardware. The rhetorical appeal is obvious: complete control over the technological stack, from silicon to software. The practical reality proves far more complicated and expensive than political speeches suggest.

France's recent announcement of €109 billion in private AI investment illustrates both the ambition and the challenge. Even with this massive commitment, French AI infrastructure will inevitably rely heavily on NVIDIA chips and US hyperscalers. True sovereignty would require control over the entire vertical stack, from semiconductor design and fabrication through data centres and energy infrastructure. No single nation outside the United States currently possesses this complete chain, and even America depends on Taiwan for advanced chip manufacturing.

The numbers tell a sobering story. By 2030, data centres worldwide will require 6.7 trillion dollars in investment to meet demand for compute power, with 5.2 trillion dollars specifically for AI infrastructure. NVIDIA CEO Jensen Huang estimates that between three and four trillion dollars will flow into AI infrastructure by decade's end. For individual nations pursuing sovereignty, even fractional investments of this scale strain budgets and require decades to bear fruit.

Consider India's semiconductor journey. The government has approved ten semiconductor projects with total investment of 1.6 trillion rupees (18.2 billion dollars). The India AI Mission provides over 34,000 GPUs to startups and researchers at subsidised rates. The nation inaugurated its first centres for advanced 3-nanometer chip design in May 2025. Yet challenges remain daunting. Initial setup costs for fabless units run at least one billion dollars, with results taking four to five years. R&D and manufacturing costs for 5-nanometer chips approach 540 million dollars. A modern semiconductor fabrication facility spans the size of 14 to 28 football fields and consumes around 169 megawatt-hours of energy annually.

Japan's Rapidus initiative demonstrates the scale of commitment required for semiconductor revival. The government has proposed over 10 trillion yen in funding over seven years for semiconductors and AI. Rapidus aims to develop mass production for leading-edge 2-nanometer chips, with state financial support reaching 920 billion yen (approximately 6.23 billion dollars) so far. The company plans to begin mass production in 2027, targeting 15 trillion yen in sales by 2030.

These investments reflect a harsh truth: localisation costs far exceed initial projections. Preliminary estimates suggest tariffs could raise component costs anywhere from 10 to 30 per cent, depending on classification and origin. Moreover, localisation creates fragmentation, potentially reducing economies of scale and slowing innovation. Where the global semiconductor industry once optimised for efficiency through specialisation, geopolitical pressures now drive redundancy and regional duplication.

Domestic Chip Development

China's response to US export controls provides the most illuminating case study in forced technological self-sufficiency. Cut off from NVIDIA's most advanced offerings, Chinese semiconductor startups and tech giants have launched an aggressive push to develop domestic alternatives. The results demonstrate both genuine technical progress and the stubborn persistence of fundamental gaps.

Huawei's Ascend series leads China's domestic efforts. The Ascend 910C, manufactured using SMIC's 7-nanometer N+2 process, reportedly offers 800 teraflops at FP16 precision with 128 gigabytes of HBM3 memory and up to 3.2 terabytes per second memory bandwidth. However, real-world performance tells a more nuanced story. Research from DeepSeek suggests the 910C delivers approximately 60 per cent of the H100's inference performance, though in some scenarios it reportedly matches or exceeds NVIDIA's B20 model.

Manufacturing remains a critical bottleneck. In September 2024, the Ascend 910C's yield sat at just 20 per cent. Huawei has since doubled this to 40 per cent, aiming for the 60 per cent industry standard. The company plans to produce 100,000 Ascend 910C chips and 300,000 Ascend 910B chips in 2025, accounting for over 75 per cent of China's total AI chip production. Chinese tech giants including Baidu and ByteDance have adopted the 910C, powering models like DeepSeek R1.

Beyond Huawei, Chinese semiconductor startups including Cambricon, Moore Threads, and Biren race to establish viable alternatives. Cambricon launched its 7-nanometer Siyuan 590 chip in 2024, modelled after NVIDIA's A100, and turned profitable for the first time. Alibaba is testing a new AI chip manufactured entirely in China, shifting from earlier generations fabricated by Taiwan Semiconductor Manufacturing Company (TSMC). Yet Chinese tech firms often prefer not to use Huawei's chips for training their most advanced AI models, recognising the performance gap.

European efforts follow a different trajectory, emphasising strategic autonomy within the Western alliance rather than complete independence. SiPearl, a Franco-German company, brings to life the European Processor Initiative, designing high-performance, low-power microprocessors for European exascale supercomputers. The company's flagship Rhea1 processor features 80 Arm Neoverse V1 cores and over 61 billion transistors, recently securing €130 million in Series A funding. British firm Graphcore, maker of Intelligence Processing Units for AI workloads, formed strategic partnerships with SiPearl before being acquired by Softbank Group in July 2024 for around 500 million dollars.

The EU's €43 billion Chips Act aims to boost semiconductor manufacturing across the bloc, though critics note that funding appears focused on established players rather than startups. This reflects a broader challenge: building competitive chip design and fabrication capabilities requires not just capital, but accumulated expertise, established supplier relationships, and years of iterative development.

AMD's MI300 series illustrates the challenges even well-resourced competitors face against NVIDIA's dominance. AMD's AI chip revenue reached 461 million dollars in 2023 and is projected to hit 2.1 billion dollars in 2024. The MI300X outclasses NVIDIA's H100 in memory capacity and matches or exceeds its performance for inference on large language models. Major customers including Microsoft, Meta, and Oracle have placed substantial orders. Yet NVIDIA retains a staggering 98 per cent market share in data centre GPUs, sustained not primarily through hardware superiority but via its CUDA programming ecosystem. Whilst AMD hardware increasingly competes on technical merits, its software requires significant configuration compared to CUDA's out-of-the-box functionality.

Cloud Partnerships

For most nations and organisations, complete technological sovereignty remains economically and technically unattainable in any reasonable timeframe. Cloud partnerships emerge as the pragmatic alternative, offering access to cutting-edge capabilities whilst preserving some degree of local control and regulatory compliance.

The Middle East provides particularly striking examples of this model. Saudi Arabia's 100 billion dollar Transcendence AI Initiative, backed by the Public Investment Fund, includes a 5.3 billion dollar commitment from Amazon Web Services to develop new data centres. In May 2025, Google Cloud and the Kingdom's PIF announced advancement of a ten billion dollar partnership to build and operate a global AI hub in Saudi Arabia. The UAE's Khazna Data Centres recently unveiled a 100-megawatt AI facility in Ajman. Abu Dhabi's G42 has expanded its cloud and computing infrastructure to handle petaflops of computing power.

These partnerships reflect a careful balancing act. Gulf states emphasise data localisation, requiring that data generated within their borders be stored and processed locally. This satisfies sovereignty concerns whilst leveraging the expertise and capital of American hyperscalers. The region offers compelling economic advantages: electricity tariffs in Saudi Arabia and the UAE range from 5 to 6 cents per kilowatt-hour, well below the US average of 9 to 15 cents. PwC expects AI to contribute 96 billion dollars to the UAE economy by 2030 (13.6 per cent of GDP) and 135.2 billion dollars to Saudi Arabia (12.4 per cent of GDP).

Microsoft's approach to sovereign cloud illustrates how hyperscalers adapt to this demand. The company partners with national clouds such as Bleu in France and Delos Cloud in Germany, where customers can access Microsoft 365 and Azure features in standalone, independently operated environments. AWS established an independent European governance structure for the AWS European Sovereign Cloud, including a dedicated Security Operations Centre and a parent company managed by EU citizens subject to local legal requirements.

Canada's Sovereign AI Compute Strategy demonstrates how governments can leverage cloud partnerships whilst maintaining strategic oversight. The government is investing up to 700 million dollars to support the AI ecosystem through increased domestic compute capacity, making strategic investments in both public and commercial infrastructure.

Yet cloud partnerships carry their own constraints and vulnerabilities. The US government's control over advanced chip exports means it retains indirect influence over global cloud infrastructure, regardless of where data centres physically reside. Moreover, hyperscalers can choose which markets receive priority access to scarce GPU capacity, effectively rationing computational sovereignty. During periods of tight supply, tier-one nations and favoured partners receive allocations first, whilst others queue.

Supply Chain Reshaping

The global semiconductor supply chain once epitomised efficiency through specialisation. American companies designed chips. Dutch firm ASML manufactured the extreme ultraviolet lithography machines required for cutting-edge production. Taiwan's TSMC fabricated the designs into physical silicon. This distributed model optimised for cost and capability, but created concentrated dependencies that geopolitical tensions now expose as vulnerabilities.

TSMC's dominance illustrates both the efficiency and the fragility of this model. The company holds 67.6 per cent market share in foundry services as of Q1 2025. The HPC segment, dominated by AI accelerators, accounted for 59 per cent of TSMC's total wafer revenue in Q1 2025, up from 43 per cent in 2023. TSMC's management projects that revenue from AI accelerators will double year-over-year in 2025 and grow at approximately 50 per cent compound annual growth rate through 2029. The company produces about 90 per cent of the world's most advanced chips.

This concentration creates strategic exposure for any nation dependent on cutting-edge semiconductors. A natural disaster, political upheaval, or military conflict affecting Taiwan could paralyse global AI development overnight. Consequently, the United States, European Union, Japan, and others invest heavily in domestic fabrication capacity, even where economic logic might not support such duplication.

Samsung and Intel compete with TSMC but trail significantly. Samsung holds just 9.3 per cent market share in Q3 2024, whilst Intel didn't rank in the top ten. Both companies face challenges with yield rates and process efficiency at leading-edge nodes. Samsung's 2-nanometer process is expected to begin mass production in 2025, but concerns persist about competitiveness. Intel pursues an aggressive roadmap with its 20A process and promises its 18A process will rival TSMC's 2-nanometer node if delivered on schedule in 2025.

The reshaping extends beyond fabrication to the entire value chain. Japan has committed ten trillion yen (65 billion dollars) by 2030 to revitalise its semiconductor and AI industries. South Korea fortifies technological autonomy and expands manufacturing capacity. These efforts signify a broader trend toward reshoring and diversification, building more resilient but less efficient localised supply chains.

The United States tightened controls on EDA software, the specialised tools engineers use to design semiconductors. Companies like Synopsys and Cadence, which dominate this market, face restrictions on supporting certain foreign customers. This creates pressure for nations to develop domestic EDA capabilities, despite the enormous technical complexity and cost involved.

The long-term implication points toward a “technological iron curtain” dividing global AI capabilities. Experts predict continued emphasis on diversification and “friend-shoring,” where nations preferentially trade with political allies. The globally integrated, efficiency-driven semiconductor model gives way to one characterised by strategic autonomy, resilience, national security, and regional competition.

This transition imposes substantial costs. Goldman Sachs estimates that building semiconductor fabrication capacity in the United States costs 30 to 50 per cent more than equivalent facilities in Asia. These additional costs ultimately flow through to companies and consumers, creating a “sovereignty tax” on computational resources.

Innovation Under Constraint

For startups, chip restrictions create a wildly uneven playing field that has little to do with the quality of their technology or teams. A startup in Singapore working on novel AI architectures faces fundamentally different constraints than an identical company in San Francisco, despite potentially superior talent or ideas. This geographical lottery increasingly determines who can compete in compute-intensive AI applications.

Small AI companies lacking the cash flow to stockpile chips must settle for less powerful processors not under US export controls. Heavy upfront investments in cutting-edge hardware deter many startups from entering the large language model race. Chinese tech companies Baidu, ByteDance, Tencent, and Alibaba collectively ordered around 100,000 units of NVIDIA's A800 processors before restrictions tightened, costing as much as four billion dollars. Few startups command resources at this scale.

The impact falls unevenly across the startup ecosystem. Companies focused on inference rather than training can often succeed with less advanced hardware. Those developing AI applications in domains like healthcare or finance maintain more flexibility. But startups pursuing frontier AI research or training large multimodal models find themselves effectively excluded from competition unless they reside in tier-one nations or secure access through well-connected partners.

Domestic AI chip startups in the United States and Europe could theoretically benefit as governments prioritise local suppliers. However, reality proves more complicated. Entrenched players like NVIDIA possess not just superior chips but comprehensive software stacks, developer ecosystems, and established customer relationships. New entrants struggle to overcome these network effects, even with governmental support.

Chinese chip startups face particularly acute challenges. Many struggle with high R&D costs, a small customer base of mostly state-owned enterprises, US blacklisting, and limited chip fabrication capacity. Whilst government support provides some cushion, it cannot fully compensate for restricted access to cutting-edge manufacturing and materials.

Cloud-based startups adopt various strategies to navigate these constraints. Some design architectures optimised for whatever hardware they can access, embracing constraint as a design parameter. Others pursue hybrid approaches, using less advanced chips for most workloads whilst reserving limited access to cutting-edge processors for critical training runs. A few relocate or establish subsidiaries in tier-one nations.

The talent dimension compounds these challenges. AI researchers and engineers increasingly gravitate toward organisations and locations offering access to frontier compute resources. A startup limited to previous-generation hardware struggles to attract top talent, even if offering competitive compensation. This creates a feedback loop where computational access constraints translate into talent constraints, further widening gaps.

Creativity Born from Necessity

Faced with restrictions, organisations develop creative approaches to maximise capabilities within constraints. Some of these workarounds involve genuine technical innovation; others occupy legal and regulatory grey areas.

Chip hoarding emerged as an immediate response to export controls. Companies in restricted nations rushed to stockpile advanced processors before tightening restrictions could take effect. Some estimates suggest Chinese entities accumulated sufficient NVIDIA A100 and H100 chips to sustain development for months or years, buying time for domestic alternatives to mature.

Downgraded chip variants represent another workaround category. NVIDIA developed the A800 and later the H20 specifically for the Chinese market, designs that technically comply with US export restrictions by reducing chip-to-chip communication speeds whilst preserving most computational capability. The Trump administration eventually banned these variants, but not before significant quantities shipped. AMD pursued similar strategies with modified versions of its MI series chips.

Algorithmic efficiency gains offer a more sustainable approach. DeepSeek and other Chinese AI labs have demonstrated that clever training techniques and model architectures can partially compensate for hardware limitations. Techniques like mixed-precision training, efficient attention mechanisms, and knowledge distillation extract more capability from available compute. Whilst these methods cannot fully bridge the hardware gap, they narrow it sufficiently to enable competitive models in some domains.

Cloud access through intermediaries creates another workaround path. Researchers in restricted nations can potentially access advanced compute through partnerships with organisations in tier-one or tier-two countries, research collaborations with universities offering GPU clusters, or commercial cloud services with loose verification. Whilst US regulators increasingly scrutinise such arrangements, enforcement remains imperfect.

Some nations pursue specialisation strategies, focusing efforts on AI domains where hardware constraints matter less. Inference-optimised chips, which need less raw computational power than training accelerators, offer one avenue. Edge AI applications, deployed on devices rather than data centres, represent another.

Collaborative approaches also emerge. Smaller nations pool resources through regional initiatives, sharing expensive infrastructure that no single country could justify independently. The European High Performance Computing Joint Undertaking exemplifies this model, coordinating supercomputing investments across EU member states.

Grey-market chip transactions inevitably occur despite restrictions. Semiconductors are small, valuable, and difficult to track once they enter commercial channels. The United States and allies work to close these loopholes through expanded end-use controls and enhanced due diligence requirements for distributors, but perfect enforcement remains elusive.

The Energy Equation

Chip access restrictions dominate headlines, but energy increasingly emerges as an equally critical constraint on AI sovereignty. Data centres now consume 1 to 1.5 per cent of global electricity, and AI workloads are particularly power-hungry. A cluster of 50,000 NVIDIA H100 GPUs would consume roughly 15 to 20 megawatts under full load. Larger installations planned by hyperscalers can exceed 1,000 megawatts, equivalent to a small nuclear power plant.

Nations pursuing AI sovereignty must secure not just chips and technical expertise, but sustained access to massive amounts of electrical power, ideally from reliable, low-cost sources. This constraint particularly affects developing nations, where electrical grids may lack capacity for large data centres even if chips were freely available.

The Middle East's competitive advantage in AI infrastructure stems partly from electricity economics. Tariffs of 5 to 6 cents per kilowatt-hour in Saudi Arabia and the UAE make energy-intensive AI training more economically viable. Nordic countries leverage similar advantages through hydroelectric power, whilst Iceland attracts data centres with geothermal energy. These geographical factors create a new form of computational comparative advantage based on energy endowment.

Cooling represents another energy-related challenge. High-performance chips generate tremendous heat, requiring sophisticated cooling systems that themselves consume significant power. Liquid cooling technologies improve efficiency compared to traditional air cooling, but add complexity and cost.

Sustainability concerns increasingly intersect with AI sovereignty strategies. European data centre operators face pressure to use renewable energy and minimise environmental impact, adding costs that competitors in less regulated markets avoid. Some nations view this as a competitive disadvantage; others frame it as an opportunity to develop more efficient, sustainable AI infrastructure.

The energy bottleneck also limits how quickly nations can scale AI capabilities, even if chip restrictions were lifted tomorrow. Building sufficient electrical generation and transmission capacity takes years and requires massive capital investment. This temporal constraint means that even optimistic scenarios for domestic chip production or relaxed export controls wouldn't immediately enable AI sovereignty.

Permanent Bifurcation or Temporary Turbulence?

The ultimate question facing policymakers, businesses, and technologists is whether current trends toward fragmentation represent a permanent restructuring of the global AI ecosystem or a turbulent transition that will eventually stabilise. The answer likely depends on factors ranging from geopolitical developments to technological breakthroughs that could reshape underlying assumptions.

Pessimistic scenarios envision deepening bifurcation, with separate technology stacks developing in US-aligned and China-aligned spheres. Different AI architectures optimised for different available hardware. Incompatible standards and protocols limiting cross-border collaboration. Duplicated research efforts and slower overall progress as the global AI community fractures along geopolitical lines.

Optimistic scenarios imagine that current restrictions prove temporary, relaxing once US policymakers judge that sufficient lead time or alternative safeguards protect national security interests. In this view, the economic costs of fragmentation and the difficulties of enforcement eventually prompt policy recalibration. Global standards bodies and industry consortia negotiate frameworks allowing more open collaboration whilst addressing legitimate security concerns.

The reality will likely fall between these extremes, varying by domain and region. Some AI applications, particularly those with national security implications, will remain tightly controlled and fragmented. Others may see gradual relaxation as risks become better understood. Tier-two nations might gain expanded access as diplomatic relationships evolve and verification mechanisms improve.

Technological wild cards could reshape the entire landscape. Quantum computing might eventually offer computational advantages that bypass current chip architectures entirely. Neuromorphic computing, brain-inspired architectures fundamentally different from current GPUs, could emerge from research labs. Radically more efficient AI algorithms might reduce raw computational requirements, lessening hardware constraint significance.

Economic pressures will also play a role. The costs of maintaining separate supply chains and duplicating infrastructure may eventually exceed what nations and companies are willing to pay. Alternatively, AI capabilities might prove so economically and strategically valuable that no cost seems too high, justifying continued fragmentation.

The startup ecosystem will adapt, as it always does, but potentially with lasting structural changes. We may see the emergence of “AI havens,” locations offering optimal combinations of chip access, energy costs, talent pools, and regulatory environments. The distribution of AI innovation might become more geographically concentrated than even today's Silicon Valley-centric model, or more fragmented into distinct regional hubs.

For individual organisations and nations, the strategic imperative remains clear: reduce dependencies where possible, build capabilities where feasible, and cultivate relationships that provide resilience against supply disruption. Whether that means investing in domestic chip design, securing multi-source supply agreements, partnering with hyperscalers, or developing algorithmic efficiencies depends on specific circumstances and risk tolerances.

The semiconductor industry has weathered geopolitical disruption before and emerged resilient, if transformed. The current upheaval may prove similar, though the stakes are arguably higher given AI's increasingly central role across economic sectors and national security. What seems certain is that the coming years will determine not just who leads in AI capabilities, but the very structure of global technological competition for decades to come.

The silicon schism is real, and it is deepening. How we navigate this divide will shape the trajectory of artificial intelligence and its impact on human civilisation. The choices made today by governments restricting chip exports, companies designing sovereign infrastructure, and startups seeking computational resources will echo through the remainder of this century. Understanding these dynamics isn't merely an academic exercise. It's essential preparation for a future where computational sovereignty rivals traditional forms of power, and access to silicon increasingly determines access to opportunity.

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15. Bloomberg. “Race for AI Supremacy in Middle East Is Measured in Data Centers.” April 2024. https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2024-04-11/race-for-ai-supremacy-in-middle-east-is-measured-in-data-centers

16. Government of Japan. “Japan's Pursuit of a Game-Changing Technology and Ecosystem for Semiconductors.” March 2024. https://www.japan.go.jp/kizuna/2024/03/technology_for_semiconductors.html

17. Digitimes. “Japan doubles down on semiconductor subsidies, Rapidus poised for more support.” November 2024. https://www.digitimes.com/news/a20241129PD213/rapidus-government-funding-subsidies-2024-japan.html

18. CNBC. “India is betting $18 billion to build a chip powerhouse.” September 2025. https://www.cnbc.com/2025/09/23/india-is-betting-18-billion-to-build-a-chip-powerhouse-heres-what-it-means.html

19. PatentPC. “Samsung vs. TSMC vs. Intel: Who's Winning the Foundry Market?” 2025. https://patentpc.com/blog/samsung-vs-tsmc-vs-intel-whos-winning-the-foundry-market-latest-numbers

20. Klover.ai. “TSMC AI Fabricating Dominance: Chip Manufacturing Leadership in AI Era.” 2025. https://www.klover.ai/tsmc-ai-fabricating-dominance-chip-manufacturing-leadership-ai-era/

21. AIMultiple Research. “Top 20+ AI Chip Makers: NVIDIA & Its Competitors.” 2025. https://research.aimultiple.com/ai-chip-makers/

22. PatentPC. “The AI Chip Market Explosion: Key Stats on Nvidia, AMD, and Intel's AI Dominance.” 2024. https://patentpc.com/blog/the-ai-chip-market-explosion-key-stats-on-nvidia-amd-and-intels-ai-dominance

23. Microsoft Azure Blog. “Microsoft strengthens sovereign cloud capabilities with new services.” 2024. https://azure.microsoft.com/en-us/blog/microsoft-strengthens-sovereign-cloud-capabilities-with-new-services/

24. HPC Wire. “Graphcore and SiPearl Form Strategic Partnership to Combine AI and HPC.” June 2021. https://www.hpcwire.com/off-the-wire/graphcore-and-sipearl-form-strategic-partnership-to-combine-ai-and-hpc/

25. Tech Funding News. “SiPearl scoops €130M: Can Europe's chip champion challenge Nvidia?” 2024. https://techfundingnews.com/sipearl-european-chip-challenge-nvidia/

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Tim Green UK-based Systems Theorist & Independent Technology Writer

Tim explores the intersections of artificial intelligence, decentralised cognition, and posthuman ethics. His work, published at smarterarticles.co.uk, challenges dominant narratives of technological progress while proposing interdisciplinary frameworks for collective intelligence and digital stewardship.

His writing has been featured on Ground News and shared by independent researchers across both academic and technological communities.

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Over the last few weeks, I've been migrating my thoughts page^* and my blog^† to WriteFreely, hosted by Write.as.

I love thoughts so much, and I’ve praised it constantly. I’m so grateful that it’s gotten me back into writing short little blog posts, something I loved doing as a younger person but somehow lost interest in, maybe because simplicity and fun have taken a back seat in the world of blogging. At the same time, I’m now looking for features that thoughts doesn’t provide, like pagination, dedicated pages for individual posts, email signup, RSS, tags, and more. I still think thoughts is amazing, a beautifully simple blogging platform with an “old internet” feel in the very best way, and for that reason, I still wholeheartedly recommend it. I don’t recommend everyone switch to WriteFreely. It just seems like the better fit for me right now.

Medium, on the other hand, I could do without. They sometimes display giant banners above free blog posts to encourage readers to sign up for Medium, which is really annoying. I'm a paying subscriber to Medium as a reader, actually. I think that should exempt my blog from their advertising, but it doesn't. Also, their recommendation engine is horrific, and it encourages endless clickbait nonsense. I don’t want to support a company that does that, and I don’t want that perverse incentive to change my writing.

WriteFreely isn't perfect. It uses an odd Markdown parser, just like thoughts does, it doesn't provide search functionality, the navigational menus presented to authors are pretty confusing, and development is pretty slow at this point, among other things of varying importance. But it's a much better fit for me right now. Even just having a separate page for each post is great. I'm sure that's what readers and search engines expect. By contrast, thoughts shows all posts on one page and uses URL fragments to link to particular posts (e.g., https://thoughts.johnkarahalis.com/#1762540598).

WordPress was another option, of course. I have mixed feelings about it, and part of me thinks it might have been a better choice given the issues mentioned above. WordPress can do everything WriteFreely can do, I think, the usability and user experience are a bit better, it's more stable, and it's a very active project. However, it's also big, bulky, and it has a bit of a “serious” feel to it, which I fear would take some of the joy out of writing. For whatever WriteFreely lacks, it's elegant and fun. Perhaps I'll migrate to WordPress some day when the tradeoffs become worthwhile (another migration, hooray!), but for now, I feel pretty good about WriteFreely.

Over the next little while, you'll see posts disappear from those places and re-appear on this blog. I expect I'll be done somewhere around the middle of January, 2026, but time will tell.

#Business #Communication #PublicNotice #Technology #Usability #UserExperience

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* When this post was published, this linked to my thoughts page. However, once the migration is complete and all of my thoughts posts have been migrated to this blog, the link will probably redirect to this blog's homepage.

† Similarly, after I migrate all posts from Medium to this blog, this link will not load my Medium page. It's not possible for me to redirect from Medium to this blog, though, so it will probably just lead to a Not found page.

The last few hours have been quite the adventure. Realizing that the laptop I've been using as my primary work horse is becoming frequently unstable and may not have too much useful life left (hardware failure I don't want to deal with right now) I've resurrected the very oldest laptop from my graveyard of dead computers and am trying to bring it back into service. So far so good, but it'll take me awhile to get used to using this old version of Debian again.

And the adventure continues.

Hello everyone

I’m feeling tense in the head, like there’s too much in there

There are spikes of doubt and nausea shooting through the brain like acid reflux leaving a headache in its wake

And yet I stand erect, feet planted firmly in the muck like a V.

It will be better up there, the molten gold I have pieced myself together with will solidify

That is part of my challenge: to stand firm like an adult

This is my reality: I see it clearly, but sometimes even I get acid reflux of the brain but I mustn’t move an inch until

The gold is solid

I cannot afford to fail

I cannot be wrong this time

This is all I have !

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There is a truth so simple that most people overlook it, but so profound that once you hear it with your spirit awake, it can change the way you live every single day of your life:

You can’t add days to your life, but you can add life to your days.

This is not just a phrase. This is not just a motivational line. This is not something you slap on a coffee mug or a wall calendar and forget about.

This is a spiritual principle. A wake-up call. A reminder straight from the heartbeat of God that the value of your life has never been measured by how long you walk this earth, but by how deeply you walk with Him while you’re here.

We live in a world that counts everything—calories, steps, dollars, minutes, deadlines, achievements—but somehow forgets to count the things that actually make a soul come alive.

People spend their days trying to stretch time, bargain with time, manage time, escape time, and outrun time. But the truth is this:

Time was never meant to be your master. It was meant to be your servant.

And when you finally understand that, your entire relationship with life changes.

Let’s go deeper. Let’s explore what it really means to “add life to your days” and how God invites you into a joy-filled, purpose-packed, love-saturated way of living that has nothing to do with the length of your years and everything to do with the depth of your soul.

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The Silent Tragedy: Living Without Really Living

Most people don’t realize they’ve stopped living. They don’t recognize when real life slipped out of their hands. They don’t notice when passion faded, dreams stalled, joy dimmed, purpose drifted, and spiritual hunger became a quiet ache buried under busyness.

They wake up exhausted. Go to work empty. Come home overwhelmed. Scroll through life instead of experiencing it. React instead of reflect. Stress instead of grow. Sleep instead of live.

And it happens so slowly that they don’t even feel the death of their own joy. They just feel the numbness.

You can be surrounded by people and feel alone. You can accomplish everything society celebrates and still feel hollow. You can be breathing but not alive. You can have years ahead of you but not truly have “life.”

This is the tragedy Scripture warns us about—not physical death, but spiritual sleep.

Ephesians 5:14 calls out:

“Awake, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.”

This is not a call to the grave. It is a call to the living who have stopped living.

God isn’t trying to extend your time— He’s trying to awaken your soul.

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Jesus Lived a Short Life, But a Full One

If life were measured by duration, Jesus’ earthly life would look shockingly short:

Only about 33 years. Only about 36 months of ministry. Only about 1,000 days of walking, teaching, healing, and transforming the world.

And yet no other life has ever had more power, more love, more purpose, more weight, or more eternal consequence.

Jesus proves something the world constantly forgets:

It’s not how long you live— it’s how deeply you love, how boldly you serve, how purposefully you walk, how surrendered you are to God, and how fiercely you shine in the days you’re given.

Jesus did not try to stretch time. He filled time. He infused every moment with intention.

When He walked into a village, something changed. When He touched someone, something healed. When He spoke, something awakened. When He prayed, heaven moved. When He loved, eternity took shape.

Jesus didn’t live long. Jesus lived well.

And the question every believer must wrestle with is this:

If the Son of God Himself focused on fullness instead of length, why would we chase the opposite?

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Adding Life to Your Days Starts by Adding God to Your Priorities

You add life to your days the moment you begin to put God at the start of everything rather than the edge of everything.

When prayer becomes your first instinct instead of your last resort— you add life to your days.

When worship replaces worry— you add life to your days.

When gratitude washes away grumbling— you add life to your days.

When Scripture feeds your mind more than social media— you add life to your days.

When compassion arrives before criticism— you add life to your days.

When you surrender instead of stress— you add life to your days.

Life becomes richer, deeper, and more meaningful not because circumstances change, but because you do. Your walk with God defines the quality of your days far more than the conditions around you.

A life that is spiritually awake can find beauty in a storm, joy in suffering, purpose in pain, and gratitude in the ordinary.

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Love Is the Oxygen That Fills Your Days With Life

Adding life to your days means adding love to your days—intentional, real, God-saturated love.

Every time you love someone well, your soul expands.

Every moment you forgive instead of holding on, you free yourself.

Every time you encourage someone who’s weary, you breathe life into another heart.

Every moment you prioritize presence over distraction, you honor the time God has given you.

Every time you choose kindness over convenience, you align yourself with the heart of Christ.

Love is not an emotion. Love is your ministry. Love is your calling. Love is your greatest contribution to this world.

At the end of your life, people won’t remember your accomplishments, titles, or possessions. They will remember how you loved them.

Love is the one thing that keeps living after you’re gone.

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Stop Waiting for a Perfect Season Before You Start Living

One of the biggest lies the enemy whispers is this:

“You’ll really live… later.”

Later… when you feel ready. Later… when things calm down. Later… when the timing feels right. Later… when you’re healed. Later… when you’re successful. Later… when your problems shrink. Later… when life finally slows.

But later is not a season. Later is an excuse.

Life doesn’t start later. Life starts now.

Joy begins when you choose it. Healing begins when you allow it. Purpose begins when you step into it. Obedience begins when you stop resisting it. Love begins when you decide to give it freely. Abundance begins when you remove what is draining your soul and add what fills it.

Every day you postpone your purpose, you lose a day of living.

And God, in His mercy, invites you to stop waiting for perfect conditions and instead walk in His perfect grace.

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Healing the Heart Creates Room for More Life

Some people don’t add life to their days because their heart is so full of pain that there's no room left for joy, gratitude, or purpose.

You cannot live fully while carrying the weight of:

• Past wounds
• Old betrayals
• Toxic memories
• Deep resentment
• Self-blame
• Guilt that should have been surrendered years ago
• Shame God already forgave
• Bitterness that poisons every new blessing

Life becomes lighter when your soul becomes empty of the things that kill life from the inside.

Forgiveness is not a gift to the person who hurt you. Forgiveness is the gift that returns your life to you.

Healing from God does not change your past— it changes the meaning of your past and restores your future.

When God heals the broken places, life flows again. Joy breathes again. Hope stands up again. Purpose wakes up again. Your days become sacred again.

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Presence Is the Secret Ingredient of a Full Life

You cannot add life to your days if you are never in the day you’re living.

Presence is spiritual obedience. Presence is worship. Presence is gratitude in action.

Life is happening:

• In the child who wants your attention
• In the spouse who longs for connection
• In the conversation that could lead to healing
• In the quiet moment where God whispers to your heart
• In the sunset that lasts only a few minutes
• In the kindness you show a stranger
• In the prayer you whisper while doing ordinary things

When you are present, small things become holy things. Ordinary moments become eternal ones. Your days feel longer not because they are extended, but because they are lived.

The person who is truly present experiences ten times more life than the person who is always distracted.

Presence is the art of honoring the moment God has already blessed you with.

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Purpose Turns Every Ordinary Day Into Something Sacred

You don’t add life to your days by accident. You add life by intention.

Every morning, before your feet hit the floor, you have the power to declare:

“God, I don’t know how many days I have left, but I want this one to reflect Your heart. Use me today. Guide me today. Speak through me today. Let me make today count.”

Purpose does not need applause. Purpose does not need recognition. Purpose does not need ideal conditions. Purpose does not wait for clarity. Purpose walks with faith even when the path is dim.

You add life to your days when you see every moment as an opportunity to honor God, love people, and grow into the person He created you to be.

A life of purpose is a life that refuses to waste what God has entrusted to you.

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A Fully Alive Life Begins in the Presence of God

When you walk closely with God, everything becomes more vivid:

• Gratitude becomes deeper
• Peace becomes stronger
• Joy becomes warmer
• Love becomes easier
• Stress becomes smaller
• Pain becomes endurable
• Hope becomes unshakeable
• Moments become meaningful

Walking with God does not guarantee a long life, but it guarantees a full one.

A life anchored in Him carries a richness the world cannot duplicate.

You don’t need more time to live beautifully. You need more God in the time you already have.

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A Prayer for a Heart That Wants to Live Fully

“Father, thank You for this day— a day You handcrafted with intention, hope, and purpose. Teach me to stop counting the days and start filling the days with Your love. Help me live present. Help me love boldly. Help me forgive quickly. Help me walk closely with You. Heal what has drained me, revive what has died in me, and awaken what You planted in me. Let today overflow with Your life. Make my heart fully alive. In Jesus’ name, amen.”

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A Final Word: Life Begins Where Fear Ends and Faith Begins

You don’t need a longer life to make a bigger difference. You don’t need more time to leave a deeper impact. You don’t need a perfect season to start living.

All you need is a heart awake, a spirit surrendered, and a willingness to say:

“Lord, I want to live fully in every day You give me.”

Because the truth stands strong:

You can’t add days to your life. But when God is your source… your strength… your purpose… your joy… your peace… your anchor…

you can absolutely add life to your days.

And starting today— you will.

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Let's start with the #AdventOfProgress.

Today I have planned out the frame of the application. The tech stack will be Expo.dev (React Native) and Supabase. This stack is what I had in mind for most of the time. First, I also wanted to add NativeWind for styling, but for now I want to start as clean as possible and focus on what is really needed to get out an MVP.

I've started with setting up expo.dev. I quickly run into some problems with the simulator, which was unable to start.

Error Message:

› Opening on iOS...
Error: xcrun simctl boot <DEVICE-ID> exited with non-zero code: 2
An error was encountered processing the command (domain=NSPOSIXErrorDomain, code=2):
Unable to boot device because we cannot determine the runtime bundle.
No such file or directory

So this needed a fix first. The web version was booting quite nicely with the expo-router.

The quick and dirty one was removing the .expo folder and running pnpm expo run:ios with a fresh simulator. I needed to delete the broken one. I got the ID from the error message, so I had to run xcrun simctl delete <DEVICE_ID> and if I did not forget anything, this was it. Sadly, I wasted around an hour on this. :(

Moreover, the simulator needs to be booted so Expo can work with it.

The flow is now that I boot the iOS Simulator and run pnpm start followed by a keypress of i to open the app inside the Simulator. For this, I've added a script "boot:ios": "xcrun simctl boot \"AppName\"

The simple way is now pnpm boot:ios followed by a pnpm ios. 🥳

Here is the first screenshot:

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59 of #100DaysToOffload
#log #AdventOfProgress
Thoughts?

JOURNAL 1er décembre 2025

On va se coucher de bonne heure. La vie des Japonais c'est se lever manger travailler manger dormir. Et encore, ma chérie fait partie des privilégiées et moi aussi, on n'est pas abruties de travail on a le temps de vivre et réfléchir et même de méditer sous les arbres en oubliant de manger.

Je reviens sur ma vie sous l'autorité de mon frère aîné de 6 à 12 ans. J'y ai beaucoup réfléchi ce matin dans la forêt. Oui il m'a traitée très durement, trop durement, on traite pas comme ça une petite fille, mais je ne lui en veux plus. Il n'imaginait pas, il était incapable de réaliser les souffrances qu'il m'imposait, les efforts qu'il me demandait, c'était pour lui quelque chose de naturel c’est ainsi qu'on devait former une fille de samuraï, car c’est ainsi qu'il concevait alors les choses, entièrement sous l’influence de la mythologie familiale. Il avait 18 ans faut pas oublier. La brutalité de notre père était la règle à la maison, tout le monde devait s’y conformer, de plus en tant que seule fille de la famille j'étais considérée comme rien, et le fait de vouloir me former aux techniques de combat traditionnelles était une façon de me revaloriser, de me viriliser en quelque sorte, et donc mon frère mettait le paquet pour rattraper l'erreur fondamentale de la nature qui ne m'avait pas donné une quéquette, et de plus m'avait dotée d'un caractère rêveur, comme du reste mon troisième frère et lui aussi avait dû se réformer avant moi. À douze ans quand j'ai été confiée à mon oncle pédophile, j'étais très en avance pour mon âge dans la maîtrise des deux sabres, comme ces personnages de légende des romans médiévaux. Et je suis aujourd'hui persuadée que la dureté impitoyable de ce dressage m'a sauvé la vie et permis de supporter trois ans de mauvais traitements dans la secte plus tard. Je pense que moralement je n'aurais pas pu tenir et sans doute, pas physiquement non plus. Je vois donc maintenant les six ans d'entraînement forcé d'un autre œil. Par ailleurs je ne crois plus comme je l'ai supposé un temps que ce soit là que je doive chercher l'origine réelle de mes troubles, ni la négation de la douleur ni le refus de mon apparence féminine. C’est plus ancien, plus profond, plus refoulé, comme me le suggèrent mes psys et comme ils pensent que je le sais au fond de moi, et que je commence à l´entrevoir après y avoir profondément réfléchi ce matin dans cette séance de méditation particulièrement profonde au point d'en oublier ma faim. Et je sens un grand soulagement d'avoir définitivement effacé toute rancune à l'encontre de mon frère. Je crains pour lui qu’il reste beaucoup plus marqué que moi par ces souvenirs douloureux sur lesquels je ne reviendrai plus ici. Je lui dirai : « Frangin c’est définitivement réglé pour moi, ces cicatrices-là ne marquent plus mon âme, ne t’en fais pas, tu m'as en fin de compte permis de survivre et je dois t'en remercier, et c’est cela que tu dois maintenant considérer puisque les bienfaits ont compensé les erreurs de jugement. »

La vie le destin se rient de nous et nous enseignent à ne pas nous arrêter aux apparences, mais à apprendre à lire les voies compliquées des relations entre les faits.

As a former mac user, I always liked the dock. Since I am now back at niri, I wanted to have not only a statusbar (with waybar), but also a kind of dock again.

As I now had a lot of experience with customising the waybar, it made sense to convert it into a kind of dock.

One quickly reaches the limitations of waybar, but with 1-2 tricks I can be quite satisfied (at the moment).

DotFiles:

You can find the whole setup in my dotfiles on codeberg: https://codeberg.org/Nasendackel/dotfiles

Step 1: A “Start” Menu

You need to create a custom module that accesses an XML file. The commands are specified in the config of waybar and the XML provides the menu structure in GTK.

waybar conf:

"custom/startmenu": {
    "format" : " ",
    "tooltip": false,
    "menu": "on-click",
    "menu-file": "~/.config/waybar/startmenu.xml",
    "menu-actions": {
		"about": "~/.config/niri/bin/about.sh",
		"info": "resources",
        	"shutdown": "systemctl poweroff",
        	"reboot": "systemctl reboot",
		"suspend": "systemctl suspend",
		"lock": "swaylock -f",
    },
},

startmenu.xml:

<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?>
<interface>
<object class="GtkMenu" id="menu">
 	<child>
		<object class="GtkMenuItem" id="about">
			<property name="label"> About</property>
    		</object>
	</child>
	<child>
		<object class="GtkMenuItem" id="info">
			<property name="label"> Ressources</property>
    		</object>
	</child>
	<child>
      		<object class="GtkSeparatorMenuItem" id="delimiter1"/>
    	</child>
    	<child>
		<object class="GtkMenuItem" id="lock">
			<property name="label"> Lock Screen</property>
        	</object>
	</child>
	<child>
        	<object class="GtkMenuItem" id="suspend">
			<property name="label"> Suspend</property>
        	</object>
	</child>
   	<child>
        	<object class="GtkMenuItem" id="reboot">
			<property name="label">󰑓 Reboot</property>
        	</object>
    	</child>
  	<child>
        	<object class="GtkMenuItem" id="shutdown">
			<property name="label">  Shutdown</property>
        	</object>
	</child>
</object>
</interface>

Step 2: Taskbar Module

The taskbar module lists all open apps. Unfortunately, you can only create shortcuts or list open apps with the Waybar. A classic dock is not possible. However, since I have assigned all important apps to shortcuts, only the display of open apps is sufficient for me.

It is important to set ‘sort-by-app-id’ to true so that the apps are grouped and sorted accordingly (see Step 4).

waybar conf:

"wlr/taskbar": {
	"format": "{icon}",
	"icon-theme": "Papirus",
	"icon-size": 32,
	"on-click": "minimize-raise",
	"active-first": false,
	"sort-by-app-id": true,
	"app_ids-mapping": {
		"kitty": "10_kitty",
		"librewolf": "20_librewolf",
		"firefox": "21_firefox",
		"chromium-browser": "23_chromium",
		"thunderbird-esr": "30_thunderbird",
		"dev.geopjr.Tuba": "31_tuba",
		"org.gnome.Fractal": "32_fractal",
		"signal": "33_signal",
	},
},

Step 3: Style

CSS is great because I understand it. The waybar and its modules can be customised easily.

waybar style.css:

#custom-startmenu {
  font-size: 24px;
  background-position: 6px center;
  background-repeat: no-repeat;
  background-size: 38px;
  border-style: hidden;
  padding:6px 20px 4px 20px;
  border-radius:1rem;
  background-image: url('niri-icon2.svg');
  background-color: @accent;
  margin:0 0 0 4px;
  border-bottom: 2px solid transparent;
}

#custom-startmenu:hover {
  background-image: url('niri-icon0.svg');
}

#taskbar {
  margin:0;
}

#taskbar button {
  font-size: 24px;
  background-position: center center;
  background-repeat: no-repeat;
  background-size: 32px;
  border-style: hidden;
  padding:6px 8px 4px 8px;
  margin:0 0 0 12px;
  background-color: @theme_base_color;
  border-radius: 1rem;
  border-bottom: 2px solid transparent;
}

#taskbar button.active {
  border-bottom: 2px solid @accent;
}

#taskbar button:hover {
  border-bottom: 2px solid @accent;
}

Step 4: Sorting icons

Now it's getting dirty. Sorting / grouping by app-id has the disadvantage that waybar here goes bluntly by alphabet. But I would like to sort by the workspaces ... is not possible!

So a little trick ... Rename the app-id with a numbering. I follow the assignment in config.kdl in niri. Terminal is always on workspace 1, browser on 2 and everything with communication on workspace 3. (See step 2).

But now there is another problem. By renaming the app, the waybar can no longer find the icon.

This means that .local/share/applications according .desktop files with the same name must be created.

Example 10_kitty.desktop:

[Desktop Entry]
Version=1.0
Type=Application
Name=kitty
Icon=utilities-x-terminal
NoDisplay=true

NoDisplay=true is important to not display it in dmenu (like rofi).

Wed-3-DK 🇩🇰

By Nightflight upon range Mixed landing for the Sanhedrin Prayers for the African Be it who made each detainment In a century of war There are mechanics at leisure And places for attack Impressionable feasting without servants Mystery bars of gold Kushner in peril Courthouses and cars and cars and cars The putin dilemma is for oil to keep on spilling At last there is nothing but war And we invited the Russians to Russia Why fly when there is fever Plain yogurt on offer Bring lead Why, trying times You are art and you are bust And the terror-man is generally for admiration To courses about corruption Russians swinging with society Apple knows exactly what happens, when in Russia Pre-Cambrian dinner With no photo op For thoughts about when to invade

Wander, Saunter Blue

In times of proportion A Maliseet friend And irving makes no apologies To the detriment of time Screaming No mercy I had the time of a Canadian Truly Apostolic Unfair to my Yukon ways Unto four men in an apartment All were certain for existence Making presents by limelight Scraping just to get by

I am circled by a friend And have new relations with Santa On my bigger lay would recognize The assumptions of a roofer But there were days between promise And I mostly stole men’s pride For dancing reindeer-like On account of new Prime Minister Like the big one in the States But grand omen Queen and Country There was certainess to this being Mostly seeing hearts in pair While relying on Good Europe

But enough of the ale There are men who die for Winter As chefs, and trumpeters, and clowns A fortune in Jamaica — not here The right hand of a sauntering man Likes to see what goes Into the coin return and the palace it built No luckier than me

And boots and bonnets clear In time for secretary’s win I print by day and use the stars For winningness and beauty

But farewell to Europe War In months a man is beheaded To the Kings and Queens, A royal regard, That not all days are hell

Once a powerful earthquake In the logic of Aberdeen Waiting days and nights, but no more The hell to pay is prediction Absolute a money win And Jenga’s Craig This ruthless ally knows

In City and by the papers A polite and wicked people Who give no sonnet of opinion Of Royals and the Other Thinking Spare A man who prays And causes Heaven Bits of consular, And knighthood, And respite .. And Respect

Off with days of indignity To the fully qualified Sir Keir I blip til days are better still In respect and seeing blue- The time of year In Others’ Winter And landing like life, Like new

In the days of elder firm belief There are heroes like the Lithuanian- The One who fell Six hundred floors While praying Search In Christ For the missing in light And props for mere prayers A Queen to rescue mayhem But six across is in the net, I’m dreaming and I know

Love for London,

Jeff

Stranger Things Season 5, Part 1 Netflix

The Stranger Things franchise is a hot mess. Bloated, convoluted plot, a chorus of characters to track, and the stars are now adults playing teens. But by the fourth episode of Part 1, I was back in.

The epic Boss Battle of Part 1 is the best action sequence I’ve watched all year. The Sorcerer twist was a solid payoff of nine years of loyalty and character development.

The show is a crockpot stew of nerd nostalgia, 80s revivalism, and theme-park thrills. That flavor remains even as the show expands, both in the story and its megawatt popularity.

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