from Mémoires et Notes

Qui suis-je ?

Qui suis-je ? Ou plutôt, qu'est-ce qui se manifeste au travers du concept de “Qui” ? Afin de me présenter, il me paraît naturel de séparer le “Qui” du “suis-je”. Si une partie de moi en arrive à se poser cette question, c'est donc qu'elle serait en mesure d'observer le “Qui” ainsi que le “Suis” et le “Je” .

Allons allons... essayons autrement : “Que suis-je ?” Voilà qui me plaît. Je dirais même “ voilà qui me ressemble ! ” . “Qui est Que ? ” “Comment en suis arrivé à être le 'Que' ?” .

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C'est au travers de récits, d'histoire, créés à partir d'une multitude d'expériences internes, aussi lumineuses que sombres, qu'il est possible de trouver une réponse satisfaisante.

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De quoi suis-je certain ? Qu'en moi se joue un véritable théâtre de pensées; elles arrivent, elles repartent d'elles-mêmes. Dans les rêves, elles manifestent des parties de “Que”, ce que je suis . Des désirs, des tourments, des hontes, des fantasmes, des peurs, des souvenirs, des inventions... Mais c'est aussi ici qu'ont lieu les plus majestueuses transformations, mes créations et solutions les plus abouties. J'en suis arrivé à considérer que ce “lieu” peut être un véritable enfer comme un lieu magique de transformation . N'est-ce pas dans les flammes que le Phoenix retrouve la vie ?

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Dans ce grand Théâtre s'affrontent des dualités, jusqu’à se rejoindre et ne former qu'un : simple et complexe, haut et bas, ordre et chaos, sainteté et cruauté, victime et héros, l'or et le plomb, la création et la fin ... Elles se détruisent afin de se donner naissance .

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Il serait donc, dès à présent, sage d'en déduire que je suis celui qui assiste à la “ Grande représentation de ma vie ” depuis plus de vingt-cinq ans déjà. Je pense que c'est le fait d'en avoir conscience qui peut être impressionnant. Se sentir “une fonction de” . Un petit bouton de rose attaché à un grand rosier .

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La vie intuitive, bien que riche, est aussi “complexe” à “vivre”.

Dès l'adolescence, se manifestait en moi un sentiment d'évoluer dans un environnement “vide” ou l'humain semble se croire être le créateur de son propre imaginaire et d'en avoir un contrôle absolu. Curieusement, il semble rechercher la “liberté” via “l'autre”, mais sera il libre de ce qui se joue en lui ?

Ici est le Drame ! Plonger dans l'ombre des pensées qui ne nous donnent pas satisfaction ne les rend que plus puissantes et autonomes !

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Avant de conclure, il me semble important d'indiquer le “pourquoi je fais cela?” (écrire) . Qu'est-ce qui m'amène à penser que de ramener à la surface certaines de mes expériences au plus proche de l'inconscient mérite une certaine importance au point de les partager ?

Tout simplement car je crois en ceci : Ne pas donner d'importance à ce qui créer “les pensées” et à nos perceptions de ces dernières, c'est accepter de prendre le risque de se trouver un jour à jouer le rôle de la “Grande Victime” au sein de sa propre pièce de théâtre.

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Pour terminer et en dire plus sur ce que je suis . Je me suis intuitivement orienté vers la psychologie, la psychanalyse, l'art, les mythes, et les rêves ainsi que des “domaines d'abstractions” tels que l'Informatique, l'analyse systémique et la Finance.

J'apprécie aussi la Physique .

Je suis attiré par la musique, particulièrement la musique Baroque, le Métal , le Grand classique, le Jazz, la Rétro Wave et le Chiptune.

Sinon, je pratique quelques instruments de musique, le fitness et organise ma vie dans des tableurs Calc.

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from Flat Mountain Dispatches

May as well change the name of this blog to Berry Mountain Dispatches.. maybe Jam Mountain Dispatches...

These bowls represent about 15-minutes gathering in the bushes crowded directly around the house. Mostly blueberries, red-currants and raspberries. Probs some gooseberries hidden underneath too.

The majority of the dense 'berry rich' outskirts of the forest remain untouched, because right now we don't have the space to store them all if we pick them. And lets be real, you can only eat so many berries every day! Our precious kitchen space is limited, and the fridge is already filled with jam.. and my partner keeps making more jam. Jam jam jam.

“Gonna make some more jam today” they exclaim, as I write this.

We got electricity installed in the barn the other week. This involved a laborious process of digging a trench from the house to said barn so we could run a cable across, occasionally having to manoeuvre through the fucking granite bedrock of the flat mountain and its impenetrable compressed layers of ice-age rock. This kind of landscape is why this area of Sweden has traditionally been so poor.. it's really, really difficult to work and farm land that's shot through with the rocky deposits of ice-age glaciers — but it's also a big part of why I love the landscape here so much.

Anyway. We did it, so now we have power in the barn, which means we can install a freezer box in there, making it much easier for us to store and preserve things like soft fruits in the future.

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from PEEPOOPEEPOO

#NewWorld: A Masterclass of development. Groundbreaking in many ways. Will it stand the test of time? The ball is in their court. (600 words)

I know this sounds a bit much for a first impression (10 hours) but I owe it to the New World Team because I wrote them off in alpha. I saw an empty world with no soul. Today, almost every aspect of this game has been improved and polished. I can't believe how far they've come despite in the face of harsh criticism faced by the public.

So, let's dig into some of the things that make New World worth the cost of three Chipotle Burritos. I've only taken one course of game development on Udemy so bear with me.

(1) Combat has been overhauled, fleshed out, or fleshed in. What's different from alpha is each weapon has two trees and carries its own vibe. Two-handed axe and hammers are very chad-like. Rapier folks fight with panache. Combat has variety and there's a place for skill to distinguish yourself from others. Amazon should buy all combat designers a fruit basket or something. It should be waiting for them Monday morning at their desk or at their doorstep if they are remote. Amazing job!

(2) Sound and Graphics – holy shit & stunning. Visuals and sound come together so expertly that they should get whatever the equivalent of the grammies is for gaming shit. I hope they get an award and I hope they dress up and give a speech and talk about how they always wanted to do this since the day they swallowed their first lego or some shit. I want to from the artists and creatives behind New World.

(3) Relaxing and straightforward harvesting and crafting New World has put a lot of love into the animations and sound around the harvesting experience. When you mine, you can hear your pick's echo wash across the mountain ranges. There is a sense of tranquility when exploring and engaging in New World. 420 is absolutely recommended.

(5) Factions – this is the lamest part You choose between joining (1) the high school chads; (2) the arrogant incels; or (3) overly preachy prudes. These options suck. There really needs to be a 4th faction of non-judgemental hedonists. Maybe this faction throws the best parties, best food, and certainly looks the best. I'm level 16 and haven't joined a faction and I'll hold out as long as I can. As you can see from below, I'm a non-conformist and will resist these groups as long as I can.

Non-conformist

I plan on providing more thoughts as I progress and get higher but honestly, if you wrote New World off, give it a second chance. When you're in the world, find some time to pause while you're mining or chopping wood. Listen, look around, and take in the world that these game development magicians created. Bravo to New World team! If they can't keep up and create compelling end game content that appeals to all, I think we have a new home for anyone that's been craving the MMO experience but holding out for something that felt like a new evolution of the genre. They may have succeeded right here.

My name is PEEPOOPEEPOO and if you see someone running around with a bee keeping hat that is probably me. See you in game.

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from G A N Z E E R . T O D A Y

Six years and some 250 pages later and I'm still on my bullshit.

In the final 30% stretch though, so edging closer to finishing this godforsaken project.

Off to New York tomorrow. Buncha things to do there, but compared to the amount of busy I've been lately, it's the closest I'll be getting to unwinding for a while.

Also, excited to be making a public appearance at Desert Island in Brooklyn on July 29th, 6-8pm. It'll be the first in-person public thing I've done in long long time!

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