from theidiot
I burn, she steadies; my wild flame finds home in the shelter of her love.
I am the keeper of a flame, tender of a gentle heat that flares to conflagration— burning, hurting, so fierce I hide it:
doors barred, windows shut, the flue sealed tight to starve the fire.
Yet I can never extinguish it. It is too precious to me.
And so the cycle turns: fear and exhaustion, retreat into silence.
Until— into my life came a hearth:
steady, strong, built of fireproof love. A home of beauty, a welcome shelter that guards me from myself, and from the world.
The hearth asks little— only that I give my warmth. She bears the rest.
At last: a port against the winds, a refuge from the tempest that raged in me for a lifetime.
And I— I can never go back
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