Doing so good. But now (1:07)… can’t sleep… and listening to all of these songs again. Music rewrites reality.

Like Paul said on the starship, There’s a melting acid fever streakin’ through my mind.

Straight to 88. Right to plaid. The phone booth is gummed & ringing. Circuits are primed and chevrons locked.

Your friends all want to hear you’re doin’ fine. And so do you.

And you are.

You are.

Because it simply must be.

What the hell else is there but to be just fine?

Magnets to the soul are unshieldable, only magnificate, magnificate, magnification.

Must grow taller, learn to survive.

There is no corner lonely enough, no ocean vast enough, to escape who we really are.

It’s a simple choice to walk against the wind and hold out hope that the loved get only the best. Work for everyone we love.

The advice to starve a feeling seems reasonable enough. But how do you fold a flood and put it in a drawer?

Does it not spill out upon the cedar floor? No, you cannot put out a fire which can start and burn itself.

First, irridescent. Then, transparent. Finally, Just absent.

God bless the patient ones, and forgive all the rest.

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willtherealslimhadypleasespeakup 🙊🙉🙈 #poetry #wyst #sxsw

I have been back writing a little, so to celebrate… here’s a new Questions No One Asked. I’m calling it NSFW but it’s probably mostly fine. Nothing explicit, just a few mentions of oversexed tieflings, weird preferences, and some super awful puns.

You have been warned.

#writing #nsfw #questionsnooneasked #ama

So, what’s your ideal partner? Vul.

I walked into that. Fine, what general traits do you look for in a partner?

I’m a bi, demi, sapio non-human introvert with trust issues. I mean, that like… gives you some ideas I hope? But if you’re confused… I like men and women, I need emotional connections, I connect best to smart people, I’m not human, I’m not super social, and I have issues trusting people.

And tbh I’m a snarky, salty bitch and apparently intimidating according to like, too many people. And I honestly can’t much be bothered most of the time so my default is undersexed and overhorny.

So let’s try this. What kind of boys do you like?

Oh. uh right. So the thing is, I’m like… new to liking boys? Well, I used to kind of like them but then I went on a low frat diet. You know, like, a vagitarian. I’ve not really been a fan of the bro-ffett. I-

OMG Dio, stop...

Ha ha ha fine. Okay like, all seriousness? I’m still experimenting and learning but like… mostly I’ve noticed boys that aren’t human. Like okay, you know Invincible? I think Allen is kind of hot, not gonna lie. It’s not just his look tho, I like his attitude and stuff. And obviously if you read my stuff, you know Runar is a vibe. So… right now, that means hench non-human boys, I guess?

So you’re into girls. What kind of girls?

I mean, lots of girls. So like… you might have noticed but I’m a little weird, so I like weird and edgy girls. Goth girls can be a vibe, but like… more scene and gamer and less existential crisis sorts. Smart, please always smart (I’ve dated not smart, I couldn’t stand it) and adventurers are totally necessary because seriously, adventurers dating non-adventurers doesn’t work well (again, tried it.) Looks I mean, I don’t know? As long as everything like, works well as whole person I am happy.

Anything weird?

What? What’s weird? Like tentacle girls or whatever? I mean, I dunno, I kind of have a thing for monster girls? Not like creepypasta weird stuff but… you know, cute ones? Like okay, you know Cherri Bomb from Hazbin? I like the look, she’s kind of cute. Yeah I know, I know, I’m going to end up ate by a stupid eldritch horror and not in a good way. Hey, whatever, I can’t help what I like. And TBH it’s not like I see many people like me outside of fiction so… what do you want from me?

So you’re not into humans?

I mean humans are fine, but they have this superiority complex that’s a pretty huge turn off. And getting told that I’m ‘cute for a tiefling’ is pretty much a permanent nope from me. But I mean sure, some humans might be appealing? But mostly they find me intimidating or scary, so I don’t bother.

But I’m not like… against them, I just don’t really find they’re into me.

What are your biggest turn-offs?

Bigotry, racism, sexism and all that are the biggest for me. I fucking hate bullies and all the ‘isms are just bullies. There are tons of small things, but those are the biggest.

Biggest turn-ons?

Not answering, figure them out!

earlier today, i put my skates on for the first time in 5 years

the tongue was stiff, my ankles tight, edges dull

no brakes, but i trusted myself that i wouldn't fall.

Prayers, etc.: * 05:00 – Prayer to St. Michael the Archangel * 06:00 – praying The Angelus * 07:15 – praying the Joyful Mysteries of the Holy Rosary, followed by the Memorare * 07:45 – Day 2 of 9 of the Immaculate Conception Election Novena * 10:10 – Thought for today from Archbishop Lefebvre: The means to become Christians and disciples of Christ are prayer, the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass, the sacraments, and devotion to the Virgin Mary. Those are the principal means by which God gives us grace and transforms us. * 12:00 – praying The Angelus * 14:50 – prayerfully reading The Athanasian Creed, followed by today's Daily Meditation found in Benedictus Magazine. * 18:00 – praying The Angelus, followed by praying the hour of Compline for tonight according to the Traditional Pre-Vatican II Divine Office, followed by Fr. Chad Ripperger's Prayer of Command to protect my family, my sons, my daughter and her family, my granddaughters and their families, my great grandchildren, and everyone for whom I have responsibility from any demonic activity. – And that followed by the Monday Prayers of the Association of the Auxilium Christianorum.

Health Metrics: * bw= 212.85 lbs. * bp= 141/77 (66)

Diet: * 07:00 – ½ pb&j sandwich * 07:30 – 1 banana * 09:30 – bowl of yogurt * 11:20 – bowl of macaroni salad * 14:30- another bowl of yogurt * 16:20 – can of V8 juice

Chores, etc.: * 09:15 – bank accounts monitored * 10:30 – starting my weekly laundry * 11:00 – follow news reports from various sources * 13:00 – watch NFL+ Press Conference Show * 16:00 – follow news reports from various sources * 16:50 – tuned into live coverage of Trump's Rally in Georgia via RAV * 18:35 – tuned into the Westwood One Radio National Coverage of tonight's Monday Night NFL Game, Steelers vs Giants

Chess: * 10:00 – moved in all pending CC games

posted Monday, 2024-10-28 ~19:40 #DLOCT2024

Settling into a relaxing Monday evening, listening to the Westwood One Radio's Pregame Show, part of their National Coverage of tonight's Monday Night NFL Game, Steelers vs Giants. Kickoff scheduled for ~30 min. from now.

posted Monday, Oct 28, 2024 at ~6:45 PM #QNOCT2024

• Cleaned up the bed that had bell peppers on it — Harvested the last of them, pulled weeds, planted garlic in the outer rows and a wheat winter cover crop in the middle rows
• Went into town and drove around Montford for a bit — Picked up about 6 bags of leaves. ‘Tis the season!

“If you are ready to be ashamed of your own country, this is the first step towards freedom today.”

— Slavoj Zizek, How to become Free

#radar

at daycare when I was seven or thereabouts, I took a toy airplane with thin styrofoam wings and I broke them into pieces just because I wanted to feel them snap and crumble in my hands.

The childminder lady who was the mother of the child who owned that airplane didn’t like that. She got angry.

I don’t like being yelled at.

It couldn’t explain myself.

Once when I was at school at art school and I was a vegetarian, a weird girl who I used to be friends with who lived with her weirdly old father far away in the middle of nowhere, she spat on my food. It was pancakes. For class she once drew a big picture of an angel and a devil coupling “doggy style” (erotic), she wore dr. Martens and we were friends until we weren’t and she spat on my pancakes.

I shall try to remember more about this and for example what lead up to the incident with the spittle pancakes.

7pm – October 21, 2024

A coal train clacks and rumbles by. There is a break in the track And the wheels sound Like a drummers patter. Ratta-tat-tat Ratta-tat-tat

Ratta-tat-tat Ratta-tat-tat

This is a long one. 200 cars at least. All of this coal, How many centuries Or millennia did it take?

Ratta-tat-tat

And here is it Scraped from a mine in the east And shipped across a continent In days numbering few. Where are you going?

Ratta-tat-tat

An electric plant south of here? Certainly not to fill stockings Or warm homes.

What do they do When the plant calls and The answer is, ‘Sorry, we’re all out of coal.’?

Ratta-tat-tat

Do tvs and dishwashers Suddenly become paperweights?

Ratta-tat-tat

Will all those love songs No long inspire Expressions of passion? Will they only be written By daylight? By candlelight? Who will read in the dark, When passions are most Readily needed?

Ratta-tat-tat

At least painters will Suddenly have a place again. Only their pigments will Be berries and mud.

7am – October 22, 2024

This morning The train is now Far away. I can hear the whistle Through the darkness Howling its lone call. Not to gather, But to warn. It warns us all at how Modernity drives us apart Creating social barriers Through the constructs Of Technology.

3pm – October 25, 2024

Over the midday din Which includes the nearby Hammers of a roofing crew And some kind of excavator Two blocks from here I can hear the train still. It is only a rumble now. Like an undertow of sound Pulling my thoughts to what kind of cargo it must me moving.

Is it still coal? Or oil? Perhaps grain, or corn.

When last I saw that track It was a half-mile of war machines. Hummers and tanks and trucks. Containers full of something Designed to take life As efficiently as possible. Eliminating designated enemies While turning a tidy profit for everyone upstream. Ah, the wheels of industry. That is the sound the Train makes. Only most of the west can’t hear What it physically sounds like When those wheels do their business. That is a privilege for working class neighborhoods And of course, For those downrange.

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words are our only real power

#poetry #essay

Peuple sale Peuple sable Cèdre & cendre D'amour & d'armes La langue me revient Tel un territoire & j'y plante des clous Y efface les frontières Je cultive un désert Dans chacun de mes soupirs Car j'appartiens au sable & mon sang retournera à ce sable Qui raye les cartes Enraye toute raison d'État Mais jamais je ne donnerai Mon souffle à ceux Ni des uns ni des autres Qui veulent faire Du sable un territoire Du drapeau un linceul

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Nebraska winters may be long and cold, but that doesn’t mean your garden has to be barren and lifeless. While many plants go dormant in the winter months, there are some hardy species that can withstand the cold and even bloom during this time, bringing a splash of color to the otherwise gray landscape. Whether you're a seasoned gardener or just looking to brighten up your outdoor space, here are some winter-blooming plants to consider for Nebraska's chilly climate.

1. Hellebores (Helleborus spp.)

Also known as Lenten Roses, hellebores are one of the best options for winter interest in Nebraska. These hardy perennials are known for their ability to bloom in late winter to early spring, often pushing through the snow to show off their beautiful flowers. Their blooms range in color from white, pink, and purple to even deep maroon, adding an elegant touch to any winter garden.

• Planting tip: Hellebores thrive in partial to full shade and prefer well-drained soil. Once established, they require little maintenance and are also deer-resistant.

2. Winter Aconite (Eranthis hyemalis)

For a bright pop of color, Winter Aconites are a fantastic choice. These low-growing bulbs produce cheerful, buttercup-like yellow flowers in late winter, often before the snow melts. Winter aconites are great for naturalizing, meaning they can spread and fill in your garden over the years.

• Planting tip: Plant these bulbs in the fall in well-drained soil and full to partial sun. They do well in woodland settings or under trees where they can enjoy the early spring sunlight before trees leaf out.

3. Witch Hazel (Hamamelis spp.)

Witch Hazel is a large deciduous shrub that blooms in late winter, providing a unique and fragrant addition to Nebraska gardens. Its spidery, ribbon-like flowers appear in shades of yellow, orange, and red, often before the leaves emerge in spring. Witch hazel is also known for its medicinal properties, and its branches add texture and interest even when not in bloom.

• Planting tip: Witch hazel prefers full sun to partial shade and needs moist, well-drained soil. It can grow up to 15 feet tall, so give it plenty of space to spread.

4. Snowdrops (Galanthus nivalis)

As their name suggests, Snowdrops are one of the earliest bloomers, often poking their delicate white bell-shaped flowers through the snow in late winter. These small but hardy bulbs are perfect for adding a touch of elegance to a winter garden and look stunning when planted in groups or drifts.

• Planting tip: Snowdrops thrive in rich, well-drained soil and do best in full sun to partial shade. Plant the bulbs in the fall for winter blooms, and be sure to water them well before the ground freezes.

5. Winterberry Holly (Ilex verticillata)

For vibrant red color in the winter landscape, Winterberry Holly is a standout choice. This deciduous shrub loses its leaves in the fall, revealing clusters of bright red berries that last throughout the winter, providing both beauty and a source of food for birds. While it doesn’t produce flowers in winter, its bold berries offer eye-catching color against a snowy backdrop.

• Planting tip: Winterberry requires both male and female plants for berry production, so be sure to plant at least one male nearby. It prefers full sun to partial shade and moist, acidic soil.

6. Camellia (Camellia japonica)

While Camellias are typically associated with warmer climates, there are cold-hardy varieties that can thrive in Nebraska’s winter. Known for their large, showy flowers in shades of pink, red, and white, camellias bloom from late fall to early spring, depending on the variety.

• Planting tip: Camellias prefer sheltered spots with well-drained, slightly acidic soil and partial shade. Be sure to mulch around the base to protect the roots from harsh winter conditions.

7. Mahonia (Mahonia aquifolium)

Also known as Oregon Grape Holly, Mahonia is a semi-evergreen shrub that brings year-round interest to your garden, including clusters of fragrant, bright yellow flowers in late winter. The spiny, holly-like leaves turn a beautiful bronze or purple hue in cold weather, adding further visual appeal.

• Planting tip: Mahonia prefers partial shade and well-drained soil. It can handle Nebraska's cold winters but may benefit from some protection in particularly exposed areas.

8. Christmas Rose (Helleborus niger)

The Christmas Rose is another variety of hellebore that blooms in mid-to-late winter. Its beautiful, large white flowers can bloom through snow, offering a stunning contrast to the otherwise dreary winter landscape. Despite its name, the Christmas Rose usually blooms in late winter, closer to February, depending on the weather.

• Planting tip: Like other hellebores, the Christmas Rose thrives in partial to full shade and well-drained soil. It’s ideal for planting in woodland areas or shaded garden beds.

9. Cyclamen (Cyclamen coum)

Hardy Cyclamen species, such as Cyclamen coum, can bloom during winter and early spring, producing small, charming flowers in shades of pink, white, and magenta. Cyclamen’s attractive heart-shaped leaves also add interest to garden beds.

• Planting tip: Cyclamen prefers partial shade and well-drained, slightly acidic soil. Avoid overwatering during the winter months, and plant them in areas where they are protected from strong winds.

10. Cornelian Cherry Dogwood (Cornus mas)

The Cornelian Cherry Dogwood is a deciduous shrub or small tree that offers an early burst of yellow flowers in late winter to early spring. Its clusters of small, bright yellow blooms are a welcome sight during the colder months and can provide early nectar for pollinators.

• Planting tip: Cornelian Cherry Dogwood is adaptable to various soil types but prefers well-drained, slightly acidic soil. It does well in full sun to partial shade and can grow up to 15-25 feet tall, making it a great addition to a larger landscape.

Final Thoughts

Nebraska's winters can be harsh, but with the right plant choices, you can bring life and color to your garden even during the coldest months. Whether you're drawn to the bright flowers of hellebores or the striking berries of winterberry holly, these winter-blooming plants will keep your garden vibrant all year long. With a little planning and care, your winter garden can be as beautiful as your summer one!