La frustration vient d’une attente non satisfaite. Mais je vais même aller plus loin : elle vient d’une volonté de résultat qui n’est pas en accord avec les choix que l’on fait.

Si je veux être à l’aise dans les interactions, je dois faire en sorte d’en créer davantage. Si je veux être un bon enseignant, je dois accepter les enfants tels qu’ils sont et essayer de faire éclore leur potentiel intérieur. Si je veux écrire comme Sylvain Tesson, je dois vivre comme Sylvain Tesson, faire ses sacrifices et choix de vie.

Tout est cohérence.

Un bon rythme de vie = une fatigue moindre = plus de temps pour m’occuper de moi = plus de confiance en moi = plus d’assurance dans certaines interactions = une meilleure gestion de mes émotions.

Surtout mon anxiété.Cette peur du rejet. Une peur de l’abandon.

Mais j’avance et les choses commencent à aller un peu mieux.

Het is tenslotte de elfde van de elfde, daarom heb ik hier deze nog gekkere versie van het H. van Veen lied 'Ik ben vandaag zo vrolijk' op het net ge Judokus Kwakt

1.

Ik ben vandaag zo ordentelijk zo ordentelijk, heel ordentelijk ik ben ongewoon ordentelijk zo ordentelijk als ik nu ben was ik nog nooit.

2.

Ik was wel vaker ordentelijk ordentelijk, netjes, opgeruimd maar zo ongewoon ordentelijk zo ordentelijk als op dit moment was ik nog nooit.

3.

Soms ben ik chaotisch Onrustbarend chaotisch Soms ben ik heel chaotisch Dan gedraag ik me hysterisch.

4.

Soms ben ik onevenwichtig rumoerig en rommelig warrig en schimmig maar vandaag ben ik nauwgezet.

5.

Ik ben vandaag zo ordentelijk zo ordentelijk, zeer ordentelijk Ik ben ongewoon ordentelijk zo ordentelijk als ik nu ben was ik nog nooit.

allemaal in koor

6.

Ja, wij zijn vandaag zo ordentelijk zo ordentelijk, zo beschaafd we zijn zo nauwkeurig en precies zo netjes waren we zelden tot nooit.

getweeën, twee maal

7.

Zij was wel vaker ordentelijk wel beschaafd, zeer nauwgezet Hij was soms uitermate correct maar nog nooit hebben we zo net beide puntjes op één ï gezet.

8.

Hij was wel eens minder ordentelijk zeer slordig en totaal niet nauwgezet Zij gemakzuchtig en allesbehalve net We deden dan maar wat en aldoende helemaal niet op ïnterpunctie gelet ,.huh?!watte

29 years old. Been a weirdo for more than 10 years now. The description of “weird” comes second only to “mad”. Every decision I make is challenged as weird in the eyes of “normalos”. How I lift my jacket, how I sit, how I speak, how I move. Even I, when I look at myself in the mirror, it seems as if there has been some noisy interference to the image. My face looks out of place. I am like an alien in human skin trying to convince others that I am kin. I am like a chicken that joined a flock of ducks. Or a cat that has been raised by a pride of lions. I am completely out of place. The uncanny valley. The people “sniff” me, look at me weird, scrutinize me in their ways and kindly allow me to be around them but knowing full well that I don't belong there. I know it too. I cannot not swim even if I try, and I cannot hunt pray like they do. I just pretend. I just try to make it as unnoticeable as possible. I won't crow in order to sound the part, I join them in the hunt pretending I am helping. But truly, I'm just there for the meat. To keep surviving I must pretend. Otherwise, I will be ostracized, unable to even fend for myself.

Every moment I fear they will discover me. I see the doubt in their eyes. Their scrutinizing look pondering if their hunch was wrong. If the feeling they felt of something being amiss was misplaced. It wasn't it. I am the one misplaced. But please don't see me. If you do, you'll hate me. And then I won't be able to live. They will probe with questions of which I try to answer normally. Sound like them. And make up stories. Flawed interpretation of what normality is like. I can only estimate since I can't relate. I lose my voice and I stutter because of the trepidation of contempt I will receive if I don't accurately play my role. Every person or group will have their own acting requirements. And I will try to adjust, to prides of lions, schools of fish or flocks of ducks. But I can't be perfect. After all, I'm only human. A weird human. But a human nonetheless. So the misses will accumulate and the picture will form. That I am a weirdo. Not like them. Not to be taken seriously or listened to or cared about. Only out of whatever “kind” responsibility they have, will they allow me to join them. That's not acceptance. It's allowance. Sometimes it's denial. And I dread that.

Even my own mother and father and sister are not my kin. I dread telling my mother of my free decisions and preferences, cause I know I will hear the disdain, contempt and disappointment in her voice. As for my father, even though he says he accepts what I want, even though we have conversations that seem to be more to something I look forward to, and even though I always have the hope that he perhaps is weird like me, he quickly shuns me. It's as if my negative influence is too much to bear for an extended period of time. It's as if I have negative effects which if he is exposed to for longer that some tens of minutes, he will be hurt. So he tries to end the conversation. I think he also only “allows” me and doesn't accept me. Yes he is also weird in many ways but he is not my kin-d of weird. If he was, he wouldn't be hurt . And I think, he wants to recharge his batteries from my drainage. I think he only talks to me out of responsibility to his child. Not out of love. Not out of genuine interest to what I do. But just so that he is not rude. My sister may be be the only one who accepts me of sorts. She doesn't accept the real me as she doesn't ever see that and I don't think she would if she did. But at least, she won't show contempt. At least she shows genuine love and interest. But she is not weird either. She wouldn't understand or accept my true individuality. My cousins are so normal by my standards. So are my uncles and aunts and grandparents and distant relatives. The few that I could maybe classify as my kin, have long been gone. I am alone.

And what about my own kin in the rest of the world? I think they are lost as well in this sea of tribes, unable to extricate themselves from it. Unable to find each other. Unable to form a group. Unable to survive independently. They themselves might not even be able to notice that they are different. Perhaps they have convinced themselves that this allowance is acceptance. Perhaps they have even be accepted. But if that's at the price of losing my identity, if it's at the price of submitting to their normality, then I'd rather be weird. We strangely appear at parts. After all, it's not “normal” to be born this way. It's not “normal” to grow to be this way. We are outliers. We are exceptions. We are a bug in the algorithm. An unlikely/unfortunate event. My kin doesn't last long. They either submit or die. We don't replicate. And we don't survive easily. So most of my kin perishes and the normalos remain. I don't think there are many as stubborn as me. And even I, am beginning to feel despondent. There are those that survive, persist, but by their nature, are isolated. It's a real struggle for such an anti-social social club to be formed. I live with the hope that somehow, I will find a way to gather my kin. To fight the captors who will punish us for stepping out of place. To free me foremost and my kin second. We have the power to form a group of weirdos. We are not defective. We are just weird.

College Basketball Tonight.

My Wednesday's game of choice has the (1-1) Michigan Wolverines Men's Basketball Team, ranked 20th nationally, hosting the (2-0) Marquette University Golden Eagles. With its scheduled start time of 6:00 PM CT, there's a good chance I'll be able to hear the whole game before sleep sends me to bed.

And the adventure continues.

Stukje onverklaarbare woede om iets

Weet je, ik zal je zeggen hoe het zit, ik ben echt teleurgesteld. Heel erg, en misschien ergens ook wel boos. Dit had zo niet gemoeten en nu zit ik ermee, het kan niet erger. Het zit me helemaal niet lekker, als het zo gaat en blijft gaan, opgejaagd voortwoekeren, nou dan moet er binnenkort iets veranderen, het nodige! Voorlopig vertik ik het om nog iets te doen hier, en daar ook niet, nergens ga ik wat aan doen, niks opkrikken, niets onderwerpen, veranderen van directie, ik bedoel richting, ik heb niet eens een directie, man, instellen van de afstelling. Ik ga vanaf dit moment op mijn plek stil zitten zitten en niks doen, dus nou, en daar gaat pas verandering in komen als ik wel wat doe, nou dat lijkt me duidelijk of niet dan. Dat zal ze leren, allemaal.

There’s something frustrating about paying for television and still spending half your evening looking for something to watch.

You open one app. The programme you want isn’t there. You try another, only to discover that you need a different package. Then your monthly bill arrives, and you wonder how watching TV became this complicated.

That’s what makes the idea of an IPTV subscription appealing.

Live television, movies, and series through an internet connection, with fewer boxes and potentially fewer separate subscriptions to manage.

But once you start searching for the best IPTV service, another problem appears: almost every website sounds the same.

Thousands of channels. Incredible quality. Instant activation. Perfect streaming.

After reading enough of those promises, you stop looking for bigger numbers. You want a straightforward answer:

Which service fits the way I actually watch television?

This comparison looks at five names you can investigate: Trimix IPTV, AERO IPTV, Nigma IPTV, Zoryflix, and StreamKing.

First, What Does an IPTV Subscription Actually Do?

IPTV stands for Internet Protocol Television. Put simply, television content reaches your device through your internet connection.

Depending on the service, that can include live channels, on-demand films, and television series.

You usually access the service through a compatible application or player using the login information provided after activation.

One detail can be confusing for beginners: the player and the subscription may be separate purchases.

Installing an IPTV app doesn’t necessarily give you any channels. The app displays the content made available through your service, and some players charge their own licence fee.

Understanding that before ordering can save you an unnecessary headache.

What Matters More Than a Huge Channel Count?

Nobody sits down in the evening and watches 40,000 channels.

Most of us return to the same handful of programmes, categories, or familiar favourites.

Finding the best IPTV service provider starts with knowing what you actually want to watch, which device you use, and how much you’re comfortable spending.

That’s why a useful IPTV comparison should focus on a few everyday questions:

• Does it have the programming you want?
• Does it work with your exact device?
• How many people can watch simultaneously?
• Is setup explained clearly?
• What is the full amount you’ll pay?
• Can you try it before committing?
• What help is available if something goes wrong?

Those answers tell you more than a homepage covered in impressive numbers.

1. Trimix IPTV — A Starting Point for French-Focused Viewing

If you’re comparing IPTV subscriptions for a French-speaking household, Trimix IPTV is a relevant place to start.

Its website focuses on France and presents plans by subscription length and simultaneous screen count. That makes the practical comparison straightforward: choose how long you want access and how many streams your household needs.

The published options include 6, 12, and 24 months, with one to three simultaneous screens. It also provides setup resources and invites customers to ask about trial availability.

What to look at:

• Your preferred French-language programming
• The full price for your chosen duration
• Whether one, two, or three simultaneous streams are needed
• Compatibility with your television and player
• Trial conditions for your intended setup

Here’s an easy mistake to avoid: owning three devices doesn’t automatically mean you need three simultaneous connections.

If you watch on your television at night and your tablet at another time, your needs are different from a household where three people watch separate programmes together.

Takeaway: Put Trimix IPTV on your comparison list if French-focused viewing and clearly listed screen options matter to you.

Website: trimixiptv.com

2. AERO IPTV — A Different Name to Add to Your Shortlist

It’s easy to keep comparing the same two providers simply because their names appear repeatedly.

AERO IPTV gives you another option to investigate, but approach the comparison with your own viewing habits in mind.

Start with the channels and content you actually use. A broad catalogue won’t help much if the few things you care about are unavailable.

Questions worth asking:

• Is your preferred programming available in the current package?
• Which player is recommended for your exact device?
• Is a trial available, and what does it include?
• What are the connection limits?
• What is the total price, including any separate app costs?

If you get trial access, use it during a normal evening. Browse the guide, change channels, and watch something for a while.

A quick demonstration can show you the interface. A proper evening of viewing tells you much more about whether you enjoy using it.

Takeaway: Compare AERO IPTV against a short list of your actual requirements before choosing a plan.

Website: aeroiptv.org

3. Nigma IPTV — Put Setup and Everyday Usability First

When comparing Nigma IPTV, give the setup experience as much attention as the advertised entertainment.

People often focus on what they can watch and forget to ask how they’ll access it.

Then the login arrives, the television asks for information they don’t recognise, and what should have been a relaxing evening turns into troubleshooting.

Before ordering, establish:

• The exact application you’ll need
• Whether it works on your device model
• Whether the application has a separate charge
• How you receive and enter your access details
• Where to find help with installation

Send a specific question instead of simply asking, “Does it work on Smart TV?”

Mention your TV model or streaming device. A useful answer should address that setup, not just repeat a general compatibility claim.

This is especially helpful if you’re buying for someone who wants to switch on the television and follow a familiar routine.

Takeaway: When evaluating Nigma IPTV, look for clear setup information and a viewing experience you can comfortably manage.

Website: nigmaiptv.com

4. Zoryflix — Compare It Around Your Evening Routine

Your viewing habits should guide your comparison of Zoryflix.

Are you mainly interested in live television? Do you spend more time watching series? Does everyone in the house want something different?

Those questions sound obvious, but they’re easy to forget when you’re comparing subscription offers.

Build your comparison around:

• The balance between live TV and on-demand viewing
• Availability of your preferred languages
• Navigation and search in the recommended player
• Simultaneous viewing requirements
• The total commitment of the plan you’re considering

If an on-demand library is important to you, ask about specific titles or categories. If live television matters more, focus your questions there.

And if you receive trial access, test the things you normally watch. There’s little value in judging a service entirely by a showcase channel you’ll never open again.

Takeaway: Evaluate Zoryflix against an ordinary evening in your household, rather than an idealised list of features.

Website: zoryflix.com

5. StreamKing — Compare the Full Commitment Before Buying

With StreamKing, apply the same rule you would to any subscription: understand what you’re paying for before focusing on the apparent discount.

A long plan can look attractive when its price is divided into a small monthly equivalent.

But that figure isn’t necessarily the amount charged at checkout.

Check these details first:

• The full upfront payment
• The exact subscription duration
• The number of simultaneous connections
• Activation arrangements
• Renewal terms
• Refund conditions and any exclusions

There’s also the question of flexibility.

If you’re trying a provider for the first time, a shorter available plan may help you assess how it fits your routine before making a larger commitment.

The cheapest monthly equivalent isn’t automatically the most sensible first purchase.

Takeaway: Compare StreamKing using the full price and terms, alongside any opportunity to test the service.

Website: streamking-iptv.com

How to Choose an IPTV Service Without Overcomplicating It

You don’t need a complicated spreadsheet to narrow down your options.

Start with five channels or types of programming you care about. Write down the device you’ll use and how many people need to watch at once.

Then ask each provider the same questions.

That gives you a fair comparison. Otherwise, it’s easy to compare one service’s cheapest single-screen offer with another provider’s longer, multi-screen package without noticing the difference.

If you’re comparing options for the best IPTV service in 2026, focus on everyday usability, clear pricing, and the channels that matter to your household.

If a trial is available, use your normal device and home connection. Check playback, navigation, and whether you can find what you want without getting frustrated.

For international viewing, choosing the best IPTV service for USA, Canada, and Europe means checking regional programming, language options, and availability in your location.

The best IPTV subscription for your household should fit your routine as well as your budget.

Frequently Asked Questions

What is the best IPTV subscription for beginners?

Start by looking for clear device-specific instructions, understandable pricing, and accessible support. Being able to complete setup confidently matters more than a huge advertised catalogue.

Can I use the same IPTV subscription on multiple devices?

That depends on the plan. Installing access on several devices and watching on several devices simultaneously are different things. Confirm both rules before ordering.

Does a 4K television guarantee 4K streaming?

No. The source content, player, device, and connection must all support the stream. A 4K screen cannot turn a lower-resolution source into native 4K.

Should I buy the longest plan to save money?

Compare the total upfront cost first. For a provider you haven’t used before, trial access or a shorter available plan can help you assess the service before committing for longer.

What should I check before paying?

Confirm content availability, device compatibility, connection limits, total cost, and the applicable terms. Choose services authorised to provide the programming you want in your location.

I went walking this morning. Just a little under two miles as I'm trying to get my feet back accustomed to doing longer distances in my barefoot shoes. I'm also trying to ease back into it, since I have a tendency of overdoing things and injuring myself. I am giving myself hard limits right now.

It was nice to see the squirrels, robins, and my raptor friends out amongst the Pines and Oaks. The first two were extremely busy gathering food. I was pleasantly surprised that I did not cough a single time while I was outside walking. Of course, five minutes after I get back inside I can't stop coughing. I am really over the coughing at this point. A month straight of constant coughing does not feel good.

I'm wanting to get the nerve up to walk with my walking sticks for the full body workout that it would be. I haven't quite worked up the nerve yet, because I will be extraordinarily self-conscious while doing it. I just have to remind myself that it is exercise and there is no reason to be embarrassed for looking like a fool using walking sticks where they are not needed. No reason at all. It's probably a good thing I didn't bring them today, because all of the coughing has my shoulders, neck, upper back, and triceps in agony.

I can't remember if I did my weekly update or not, but I have hit a new goal on my weight. So I am very pleased with that. I am also really pleased that my whole eating schedule and items is going to work pretty good, I think. It will take a little bit of adjustment, but I'm quite happy once I finish my meal, and the prep is easy peasy. In fact, as long as I cook up whatever meat I plan on eating during the week over the weekend, I can get away without cooking practically because I can do everything in the microwave. If I want to be extraordinarily lazy, which I don't for environmental reasons, I can use paper plates. Yes. I have figured out how to cook eggs on a paper plate in the microwave and thenm still taste wonderful and not have strange texture issues. Laugh. That is fine. When my back goes out as it often does, that will be the difference between me eating crap and me eating something good for my body and mind.

I get mocked quite a bit because I say that what you eat matters both physically and mentally. But it really does. I notice a drastic difference in my mind depending upon what I am eating. My focus, my memory, my emotions, my ability to stay in control of my anxiety all are affected by what I eat whether I like it or not.

I've been making very small micro-adjustments to my routine for the last few months. I do one thing and I make sure that it becomes a habit. Then I switch to a new thing. I am slowly getting things back to where I once had them before I came back online with social media and everything. I have to say, even though I miss certain aspects of social media. And I miss putting videos up, etc. I am much happier off of it. And now that I've canceled my YouTube premium, there is no way that I will doom scroll because I cannot stand advertisements. I refuse to pay to remove them from subscriptions, and I will stop watching a movie if it means I have to watch an advertisement half the time. I just find them extremely annoying. Plus the advertisements that they put up make my brain want to ooze out of my ears.

I wrote chapter one of the new novel yesterday. I'm pretty pleased with how it turned out, I think. I still need to do the preface, but I think I'm going to wait and do the preface when I do the epilogue. I still have some research to do, because there are certain aspects of the research that will be really important, but so far I'm comfortable with it.

I saw my neighbors as I was walking out my door this morning. They commented on only seeing me on their camera usually. I'm not going to think about that since I know how I usually open the door to get packages. I told them I wasn't sure if I should apologize or congratulate them. They laughed. Being able to have a poke at ourself is important. I'm either going to start wearing more clothes or just embrace it. Ugggh! I've got to learn to embrace it. I hate doorbell cameras.

That's a good start to the day. Now if only I can quit coughing. Time to go make my breakfast. For whoever it is that reads this, have an incredible day.

© 2026 AnOublietteofThought. All rights reserved.

I always think of my grandmother on this day during the eleventh hour minute of silence. She has been gone for many years now, but I remember her long black coat, and stockinged ankles. Nice shoes, or boots if it snowed. Oblivious to the cold. Sullen and silent. She would carefully lay the wreath by the cenotaph during the ceremony in the village where we all lived. Where she and my grandfather were building their life before the war.

My grandfather did not die in the war, but she told us that the person that left for war was not the same person that came back home. I do not know what he experienced. Assuming it was terror. He was there, in Normandy on D-Day. I was only five years old when he died. Died from the second of two heart attacks in the morning while eating corn flakes. As my brothers and I started to get older details like that started to emerge.

He wanted to teach you boys how to fish. So. Badly. She was always telling us things about who he was. Granddad would say this, or that. Would do this, or that. All that he might have done. Things she wished he could see. She missed the man he was before. After he came back home she would sometimes wake in the night to find him terrified, and taking shelter from artillery strikes that haunted his nightmares. They would have called that shell shock back then, not PTSD. There would not have been enough knowledge or medications back then to treat it.

I have wondered sometimes over the years if she wanted us to grieve and mourn the loss of him the way she did. I don't blame her for not wanting to carry that all alone. What could we do though? We were just little kids that were with him only for a few years when he was sick, before he died. I have no memories of him. To me he was just pictures she would show, and stories to be told. An empty chair in the corner where he used to sit reading books and smoking cigarettes.

For decades, or maybe even centuries, young men have been, and are still being ordered to slaughter each other, die, and blow shit up. I guess that is part of who we are as humans? Why?

The worst of the worst of us, inept moronic psychopaths, keep manipulating, buying, and lying their way into positions of power. They care only about power, money, and occupying territory that has things that they want. They want everything to be the way their fragile egos dictate. They don't care about who gets stepped on or crushed in the process of trying to make it happen. If they say it is about anything else it is a blatant lie. No matter how much land they take over, no matter how much power they have, no matter how much wealth they accumulate, by any means, it is, and never will be enough. It feeds a corrupt and unsustainable system that benefits themselves, and only a tiny percentage of the population. Past generations of those pieces of shit got away with stealing MOST for themselves. The current abomination wants it ALL.

Just the tip of many icebergs I suppose.

(This headline is meant as a pun. I have written this by my own, no LLMs involved, as will become obvious within a few sentences, I hope.)

This is probably my tenth try to write a consistent take about LLMs and their impact. So this time, I decided to wing it, not caring for consistency, not caring for well-thought-out structure and such. Think of this as a stream-of-consciousness kinda text.

A few weeks back, for the first time in ages, I lost a client (For readers missing context: I am, when I'm not working on Depfu.com a solo freelance software developer) and not in a particularly fun way.

I had my issues with the owner of the company (No, I won't go into details, it's too fresh and too sensitive for that) from the very start but one of the things that lead to my very spontaneous and specifically abrupt ousting was my unwillingness to let LLM tech creep into my team's workflows.

And so it begins, it seems. What's funny about this particular case is that I know my sentiments are shared by large parts of the company's developers and that a preliminary “AI policy” had just been established that very clearly laid out that nobody will be forced to use LLM tooling. Well, consistency is obviously for losers, so whatevs.

But it did make me think a couple of thoughts again I have been revisiting over these past couple of years every now and then:

1. Do I miss out on something important if I keep ignoring this technology? Will I be left behind?
2. Will this technology persist in the long run in our industry? If so, in what capacity?
3. Will there be another AI winter?
4. What does all of this mean for my place in this industry and what does it mean for my ethical, social and ecological concerns?

I don't have answers to all of these questions, of course. Nobody is able to predict what's going to happen when the financing bubble pops and LLM provider suddenly need to deal with the difficulty of getting their customers to pay real prices. I have ideas, of course.

First of all: While there may be some specific knowledge required to set up LLMs and agentic systems around them efficiently and effectively, the basic idea behind all of that is that it should be easier than software development itself. So I don't really think I need to be afraid of being left behind in that sense. I may miss out on opportunities, of course, but that is priced in into my decisions.

Will LLMs be around forever in software development? I surely hope they will be replaced by something that delivers similar value but with more consistency and less ... randomness. For example: to have a technology operate entirely on textual representations when much better forms of representation in the context of machine processing exist (AST's for example) makes no goddamn sense to me. But right now, text extrusion is all we have so that's what we're doing.

My (faint) hope is that in the long run, the LLM craze will lead to a reckoning within our industry on questions of quality, but also how we want to treat the humans in our processes and companies and how we have maybe gotten off track on all of these accounts long before the LLM rush started.

I think, just by virtue of finding out the correct pricing for LLM tech, we will see that this tech will probably find places where it continues to be used, but I am also relatively sure that usage will be considerably lower than it is now, just because people will need some time to find out about all the places where it doesn't make sense to use it, or, rather, where it produces actual harm. I do believe we will see, at least in some form, a cultural, social backlash on LLM tech, pushing it back in some areas, because of that. My hope is that this will include things like security screening, application processes, etc. but only time will tell, if we, as a species, are clever enough to make these decisions. My hope is that this will come with a general backlash on our current species of unregulated, wild running capitalism, but it is also only, at this point, a faint hope.

Last but not least, what does this mean for myself. I don't think my stance, which I've been very vocal about, regarding the social, ethical and ecological impact will change unless massive change will happen in the way we construct and use these systems. This also means that while I do not rule out occasional (sometimes involuntary) usage of these technologies for myself, I cannot base my whole existence in the form of my professional career on such technologies.

If this means that, in the long run, there is no longer a place for me here where I am right now, working as a freelancer on web applications (for the most part), then so be it. I believe myself to be resourceful and skillful enough to find niches for me for the time being. It's also important for me to point out that part of this stems from the fact that with programming, I have made one of my hobbies as a kid by profession. This isn't always the greatest idea, but in this case it very clearly means for me that a job where I would replace actual programming with instructing and herding a group of agents would mean that I would have to abandon this thing that I always found immensely fun and satisfying.

What it does also mean is that I will double down on what I think are good principles for my own work. I have not always been taking these super seriously, but :

1. Focusing on quality over speed of delivery. Be deliberate about changes. Understand the systems you're trying to build and shape them actively instead of “letting things happen”
2. Focusing on the humans. Make software for humans, not for KPIs or someone's bottom line. If this impossible in a system you're trying to work in, leave that system. Remember, every system works as it is supposed to.
3. Focus on consistency vs. dogmatism. For me, it is much more important to be overall consistent in my values and my belief systems than to be dogmatic about them but then being inconsistent where the dogmatism reaches its natural limits. For example: I'm okay with implementing an MCP server for a service I run, when I know this helps other people doing their job, but I'll write that implementation by hand.

I dreamt last night, that my belly, white and flabby like pizza dough, was enlarged, that it was hanging out visible below my black t shirt, which resembled more a tank top

And picking up these signals from my subconscious, I will go running again this lunch. I’ve been putting it off, because of the cold

It’s so cold and frosty out there.

But it’s true that all things worth having you need to fight for it.

It’s true for some of the things you don’t want too

fruit salad

Iife

Life

It’s a though world, I’ve never been hard enough to face it.

But I’ll yet my best Yeee haw

I’ll go down swinging!!!!!!

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I jogged now, it was unpleasant, but for ten seconds. For ten seconds, I felt a surge of energy, I felt I was flying, and then, the rest of the other 4390 seconds, it felt unpleasant.

However, it’s those ten seconds which I’m gonna remember

And I’ve spread myself too thin

I’ve spread myself too thin

I’ve got to let go of these castles, I gotta let go of them, because I haven’t sufficient resources to man them

We’ll have three entries, shown below, in the Friends of Huntley Meadows Park photo exhibit and contest that begins next month. The show displays nature-themed photos taken at Huntley Meadows by friends of the park that begins 20 Dec. and runs through Feb. 2027.

American green tree frog, Sept. 2026

Great blue heron in flight, July 2026.

Eastern bluebird, Jan. 2025

Huntley Meadows Park is a former general aviation airstrip and Cold War-era electronics testing facility converted to a wetlands and nature conservancy in Groveton, Virginia, south of Alexandria. In the 1970s, the U.S. government transferred the land to Fairfax County, Virginia where beaver dams helped create the wetland ponds.

The park is run by Fairfax County and offers a boardwalk across the wetlands, trails through forests, an observation tower, and visitor center. The Friends of Huntley Meadows Park acts as an advocacy group and provides educational materials and programs, particularly for the local schools.

The photo exhibit begins with an opening reception on 20 Dec. and continues through Feb. 2027 in the park’s visitor center.

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It seems ive finally found someone who understands me. he got fins, lives in a tank, and probably forgets i exist whenever im out of sight. his name is bubbles, which is an unfortunate choice on my part, but we’re past the point of changing it now. we’ve developed a little system btween us. theres a particular spot where i put his food, and whenever i tap on the glass, he swims stright over. he does the same whenever hes hungry. i never taught him any of this. im not a fish trainer, and i dont remember applying for the position. it just happened. we’re both quite good at communicating. i seem to get along with a fish better than i do with most people. i tap and he understands. no explanation needed no misunderstanding. no having to explain myself until i regret opening my mouth in the first place. at least he doesnt do that. well, he probably does, but i wouldnt know. perhaps hes been misunderstanding me this entire time. wouldnt be the first. still, theres something nice about it. having a little routine with something that responds to you. i dont think he understands much beyond the possibility of food, but theres more than i can say for some people. they could learn a thing or two from him but i doubt they’d appreciate the comparison.

But anyway, the weathers been good today, by the way. bubbles is doing well, too. hes been swimming around as usual. very busy schedule today. i should take notes. i fed hhim earlier and he seemed pleased. thats about as exciting as things get around here. what an afternoon.

Sincerely, On behalf of bubbles.

New Headphones, New Music!

I am checking out new headphones and catching up on listening while doing it. I came across this EP from 2020 I had to make a note of. That's what this is.

A word about headphones and me:

First, let me say, if you have had difficulty feeling comfortable with headphones on, me too! They're suction cuppy, they're clamped on my ears pressing them against my glasses. The noise-cancellation is often disorienting and uncomfortable. Not to mention, they often sound like speakers strapped to my ears. But that is over now. Now we have “open-back” headphones. If you relate to this paragraph at all, I urge you to give yourself some open-backs soon. Headphones got fun again.

The set I'm wearing is the Audio-Technica ATH-R50x.

Now, this EP, Fiver and the Atlantic School of Spontaneous Composition; You Wanted Country? Vol 1:

(This EP was listened to on Apple Music, but I found it other places as well.)

Country is evolving, that’s good!

The title of this EP indicates you are in for a country music experience. This is one thing I love about country music; it points out how language changes. This might have been country music in the ‘70s, but it's more rock now. This is like if Grateful Dead, Airplane, Creedence, and a whole host of other classic rockers made a country-ish album. I'm very cool with that concept.

Country Music means changing.. funny, but true!

Country Music changes like anything, everything. This hearkens back to a time when it meant something different than it does today. I hear folks complain about that with country music, but I think it's rad. I don't like modern country radio, but it's easy to see how it evolved, especially listening to stuff like this. I am a big fan of evolution, even when it applies to Country Music. It means “on the way to,” not “arrived.” Country is not at the end game. It's merely in transition. That's a comforting thought, considering how bad it sucks at the moment. Country Music could very well be much like the goofy adolescent that becomes a hero. It sounds very adolescent these days, why not?

You Wanted Country? Vol 1 is an opportunity for us to see growth. Maybe it’s growth in the wrong direction, but that is still valuable information!

What happened to impromptu? Did we mix that out?

You Wanted Country? Vol 1 is loaded with spontaneity. That is NOT typical in today's Country Music. There are kooky mixing decisions (looking at you, bass in left ear for one song). There are signs of impromptu up and down the thing. It's wonderful, but that's not “modern” Country.

Modern country is so tightly wound up and produced that it doesn't have any air. All the space is turned to brittle and static; there's no room for making anything up. In a very real sense, this EP is a breath of fresh air in saying, “to hell with that, but we still like country.”

The good country:

You Wanted Country? Vol 1 is a claim on the word “Country” I can get behind. It's loose, airy, has things sliding around and noodling all the time. It also has bizarre chord changes, terrifically interesting mixing, lush singing, witty words, and you can detect a care for the craft. This is the kind of CD that winds up on Antiques Roadshow someday. This is people, “people-ing.” That's Country Music, to me. I love that kind of Country.

Kelly

„Fünf Jahre Studium, sechzig Jahre Lernen“: So fasst uniAKTUELL die Strategie „Lifelong Learning 2030“ der Universität Bern zusammen. Im Interview erläutert Christina Cuonz, weshalb Hochschulen auch jenseits der Erstausbildung gefragt sind: Wissen veraltet, Berufe verändern sich, neue Kompetenzen werden nötig [1]. Das überzeugt mich. Aber Lernen sollte nicht nur eine Antwort auf berufliche Anforderungen sein. Menschen sollten auch dann Neues entdecken können, wenn niemand einen Nachweis verlangt.

Die vertraute Abfolge Ausbildung, Beruf, Pensionierung passt ohnehin nicht zu jeder Biografie. Manche qualifizieren sich mit fünfzig neu, andere verfolgen nach der Pensionierung ein lange aufgeschobenes Interesse. Für das Lernen gibt es keine feste Altersgrenze.

Nicht jedes Lernen benötigt einen Nachweis

Die Universität Bern erprobt neue Wege, Kompetenzen sichtbar zu machen: Ihre 2026 pilotierten Mikrozertifikate sollen ab 2027 schrittweise eingeführt werden. Cuonz selbst zeigt, dass Lernen mehr umfasst. Neben einer beruflichen Weiterbildung lernt sie privat Vallader, ein rätoromanisches Idiom, und plant eine Immersionswoche im Engadin. Die Bildungspartnerin ist hier keine Hochschule, sondern ein Dorf.

Mir begegnet beim Thema #Lernen im #Alter häufig ein anderes Nutzenargument: geistige Fitness. Es ist nicht falsch, Lernen auch unter diesem Gesichtspunkt zu betrachten. Problematisch wird es, wenn daraus die hauptsächliche Rechtfertigung wird. Wer einen alten Motor reparieren lernt, in einem Chor zu singen beginnt oder politische Debatten besser verstehen möchte, muss weder die eigene Gesundheit optimieren noch ein Zertifikat erwerben.

Hier habe ich bereits die Zusammenhänge von Lernen und kognitivem Altern diskutiert. Die Frage daraus bleibt: Ist Lernen nicht Teil eines guten Lebens selbst? Dazu passt Cuonz' noch vorsichtige Idee gemeinsamer Bildungsangebote für Gymnasiastinnen, Gymnasiasten sowie Seniorinnen und Senioren. Hier könnten Erfahrungen und Fragen zusammenkommen, ohne das Alter zur festen Trennlinie zu machen.

Wer hat Zugang?

Nur: Neugier allein öffnet keine Türen. Eine BFS-Auswertung für 2021 zeigt, dass die Teilnahme an organisierter Weiterbildung mit dem Bildungsstand zusammenhängt. Von den 55- bis 64-Jährigen, deren letzte Weiterbildung mindestens fünf Jahre zurücklag, nannten rund 26 Prozent das Alter als Hindernis. Unter Personen mit Weiterbildungswunsch, deren letzte Weiterbildung ebenfalls mindestens fünf Jahre zurücklag, nannten rund 37 Prozent persönliches Interesse als Motiv, rund 28 Prozent einen Abschluss. Mehrfachantworten waren möglich [2].

Die Erhebung fiel in die Covid-Zeit und umfasst nur 25- bis 64-Jährige. Über das Lernen nach der Pensionierung sagt sie also nichts aus. Sie macht aber deutlich: Ein Alter, das kein Bildungsende sein sollte, kann als Grenze erlebt werden. Neben bezahlbaren Kursen braucht es deshalb erreichbare Bibliotheken, Vereine, offene Lernorte und Angebote ohne formale Voraussetzungen. Cuonz fragt zu Recht auch, wie Bildung über die Lebensspanne finanziert werden kann.

KI als Unterstützung, nicht als Abkürzung

Im Interview steht #KI vor allem für neue Kompetenzanforderungen. Mich interessiert auch ihre andere Seite: Sie kann helfen, selbst gewählten Interessen nachzugehen. Wie würde ich ein KI-Lernangebot für ältere Erwachsene gestalten? Nicht mit einer Übersicht über Chatbots, sondern mit einem eigenen Lernvorhaben.

Wer die Geschichte des eigenen Quartiers erforscht, hält zunächst fest, was bereits bekannt ist und welche Fragen offen sind. KI kann Suchbegriffe vorschlagen oder historische Ausdrücke erklären. Ob ein Archiv oder eine Quelle tatsächlich existiert, wird im Bibliothekskatalog oder direkt beim Archiv geprüft. Zum Schluss formuliert die lernende Person ohne KI, was sie verstanden hat. Nicht als Leistungsnachweis, sondern zur eigenen Überprüfung. Weshalb diese Denkarbeit wichtig ist, habe ich hier unter dem Titel „Wenn sich Lernen leicht anfühlt“ beschrieben.

Auch dieser Weg setzt Zugang voraus. Kosten, digitale Fertigkeiten, Bedienbarkeit und Datenschutz können neue Hürden schaffen. Und manchmal sind ein Buch, ein Gespräch oder eine gemeinsame Exkursion die bessere Wahl.

Lebenslanges Lernen ist weder nur berufliche Anpassung noch ein Programm gegen das Altern. Damit Menschen selbst entscheiden können, was und wie sie lernen, brauchen sie Zeit, zugängliche Orte und die Freiheit, auch ohne Zweckvorgabe neugierig zu sein.

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Quellen [1] A. Tomczak, „Lifelong Learning 2030: Die Pläne der Uni Bern“, Interview mit Christina Cuonz, uniAKTUELL, Universität Bern, 5. November 2026. https://www.uniaktuell.unibe.ch/2026/lifelong_learning_2030_die_plaene_der_uni_bern/index_ger.html

[2] A. Widmer und E. von Erlach (Red.), Nichtteilnahme an Weiterbildung. Mikrozensus Aus- und Weiterbildung 2021, BFS Aktuell, Bundesamt für Statistik, Neuchâtel, März 2024, BFS-Nr. 2317-2100. https://dam-api.bfs.admin.ch/hub/api/dam/assets/30305516/master

Bildquelle Théo van Rysselberghe (1862–1926): A Reading by Emile Verhaeren, Museum für schöne Künste MSK, Gent, Public Domain (Wikimedia Commons).

Disclaimer Teile dieses Texts wurden mit Deepl Write (Korrektorat und Lektorat) überarbeitet. Für die Recherche in den erwähnten Werken/Quellen und in meinen Notizen wurde Gemini Notebook (ehem. NotebookLM) von Google verwendet.

Topic #Erwachsenenbildung | #Coaching

Today I ended up getting to the gym really late because of a work event. When I saw the schedule, I saw that I had 270 pound squats for five sets of four, and honestly I thought it must’ve been a mistake because that was more weight than I was used to doing. But I locked the fuck in and was kind of tweaking and a little bit delirious before each of my sets, and I just kept muttering to myself there’s no weight as my mantra. And it moved even easier than my last warm-up. I truly believe that I can manifest things with my mind, and no matter how delusional it sounds, I truly believe that the universe is intelligent and will do me right. M so I will have my faith in it, I will do the correct steps, and I will get the things I want, including finding a partner that will make me look back at it all and think that it was all done for a reason. It WILL happen.

Du 1er au 30 novembre, des dizaines de milliers de Français tentent d'arrêter de fumer dans le cadre du Mois sans tabac. Beaucoup se posent la même question : la cigarette électronique est-elle une aide sérieuse, ou une nouvelle dépendance ? La plus grande synthèse scientifique sur le sujet, mise à jour en août 2026, apporte une réponse nette, avec des limites qu'il faut connaître.

Le tabac recule, la vape s'installe

Le tabagisme baisse en France. Selon Santé publique France, un quart des 18-75 ans fumaient en 2024, contre près d'un tiers en 2021, et le tabagisme quotidien est descendu à 18 %. Le tabac reste pourtant la première cause de mortalité évitable : plus de 68 000 décès prématurés lui sont attribués en 2023, en raison des nombreuses maladies liées au tabac, des cancers aux maladies cardiovasculaires et respiratoires.

Dans le même temps, la cigarette électronique s'est installée dans le paysage. Chez les jeunes, son usage inquiète : en 2024, 46 % des lycéens déclaraient l'avoir déjà essayée, en grande partie à cause des « puffs » jetables, interdites à la vente depuis février 2025. La fiscalité de la vape a par ailleurs été au cœur des débats budgétaires de cet automne.

Entre ces deux réalités, une question reste centrale pour les fumeurs adultes : la vape peut-elle les aider à arrêter ?

Ce que dit la synthèse Cochrane d'août 2026

Cochrane est un réseau international indépendant, reconnu pour ses revues systématiques, considérées comme le plus haut niveau de preuve en médecine. Sa revue consacrée à la cigarette électronique est dite « vivante » : elle est mise à jour régulièrement à mesure que de nouvelles études paraissent.

La version publiée le 26 août 2026 rassemble 80 essais randomisés, portant sur près de 30 000 participants. Ses principaux résultats :

• Face aux substituts nicotiniques (patchs, gommes, pastilles) : les fumeurs qui utilisent une cigarette électronique avec nicotine arrêtent plus souvent. Les auteurs qualifient cette preuve de certitude élevée. Concrètement, cela représente environ 4 personnes de plus sur 100 qui parviennent à arrêter durablement.
• Face à une vape sans nicotine : la version avec nicotine fait probablement mieux, avec environ 2 arrêts supplémentaires sur 100 (certitude modérée).
• Face à un simple accompagnement, ou à l'absence d'aide : les résultats sont aussi favorables, mais moins certains, en raison de limites méthodologiques des études.
• Côté sécurité : les effets indésirables graves sont rares, et leur fréquence est comparable à celle observée avec les substituts nicotiniques.

Les limites à garder en tête

Ces résultats ne font pas de la cigarette électronique un produit anodin. Les auteurs le soulignent eux-mêmes :

• Les études portent sur des fumeurs adultes qui cherchent à arrêter. Elles ne disent rien en faveur d'une initiation chez les non-fumeurs ou les jeunes.
• Aucun préjudice grave à court terme n'a été mis en évidence, mais des essais plus longs et plus larges restent nécessaires pour évaluer la sécurité à long terme.
• Les résultats concernent des produits réglementés. Les produits illicites ou contenant d'autres substances, comme le THC, peuvent présenter des risques très différents.

Concrètement, pour un fumeur qui veut essayer

1. Se faire accompagner. Tabac Info Service propose un suivi gratuit par des tabacologues au 39 89 et sur son application. Le médecin traitant et le pharmacien sont aussi de bons interlocuteurs.

2. Choisir un dosage de nicotine adapté. Un taux trop faible pousse à revenir à la cigarette ; un professionnel peut aider à l'ajuster.

3. Viser l'arrêt complet du tabac. Le bénéfice pour la santé vient de l'arrêt de la cigarette, pas d'un usage mixte qui s'éterniserait.

4. Penser à la suite. À terme, l'objectif peut être de réduire progressivement la nicotine, à son rythme.

En résumé

La science a tranché sur un point : pour un fumeur adulte qui veut arrêter, la cigarette électronique avec nicotine est au moins aussi sûre à court terme que les substituts classiques, et plus efficace. Ce n'est ni une solution miracle ni un produit sans risque, mais un outil de plus. Pendant ce Mois sans tabac, c'est une option à considérer, idéalement avec un accompagnement.

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Sources : Lindson N. et al., « Electronic cigarettes for smoking cessation », Cochrane Database of Systematic Reviews, août 2026 ; Santé publique France ; OFDT.