I used to write. I used to read without a schedule and a goal. I used to look younger. I used to not think about aging except as a means for opportunity and change. I used to go to concerts alone and freely. I used to watch movies, I mean, films. I used to kiss boys on streets outside of noisy bars. I used to drink, I mean really drink. I used to be sad all the time. I used to have short hair. I used to wax my bush. I used to wear red lipstick every day. I used to have jean shorts. I used to care more. I used to care less.