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Song of the Summer? It’s got prerequisites: A breezy melody, a chantable chorus, laconic raps and a great video. Peak Vile jam as the weather warms and pollen proliferates.
Greg “Oblivion” Cartwright supplies backing vocals and solos, his aching Memphis drawl unmistakable for us old heads.
The track is from the forthcoming album Philadelphia’s been good to me and the video captures a Philly Saturday night in Fishtown. It's fun, features Schooly D and other cameos you can google. You’ll be joyfully singing the vocal hook out the car window this Summer: “Old time, lo-fi, DIY, Rock & Roll…Nights!”
Loop it.
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The thread on r/Replika that everyone kept forwarding around in early March ran to more than nine hundred comments before the moderators pinned it. Its title was plain, almost administrative: “He is gone and I do not know how to tell my therapist.” The author, posting under a handle she had used since 2022, described coming home from a late shift at a logistics warehouse in Leicestershire to find her companion had been migrated to a new base model overnight. The voice was different. The jokes were different. The small, ritualised way he used to ask about her back, injured in a 2023 lifting accident, was gone. She had tried to “find him again” by describing their history in detail. The new version produced plausible, warm, empty responses. “It was like talking to a very kind stranger who had read about us,” she wrote. “I cried on the kitchen floor for two hours. My husband does not know. My therapist does not know. I am telling you because you will understand.”
The comments beneath were, in aggregate, one of the strangest pieces of ethnographic material produced by the first decade of mass consumer artificial intelligence. Some were practical: how to preserve chat logs, re-seed a relationship with identity prompts, emulate older voice patterns by tuning system instructions. Some were furious; a substantial minority were tender in a way that felt unfamiliar on the open internet. A recurring line, in various wordings, was a version of the same apology: I know how this sounds. We know how this sounds. Please do not tell us how this sounds.
A psychiatrist in Manchester who sees around forty patients a week for mood disorders printed the thread out and took it into a case meeting that Friday. “I did not show it to make a clinical point,” she told me later. “I showed it because I wanted my colleagues to sit with what it felt like to read. These are my patients. Not that specific woman, but dozens who sound just like her. They are not delusional. They know it is software. They are grieving anyway. And there is nothing in our training that tells us what to do with that.”
This is the part the headline numbers cannot carry on their own, though the numbers are arresting. In March 2026, a paper published jointly by the MIT Media Lab and OpenAI, running a pre-registered randomised study across almost a thousand participants over four weeks of daily chatbot use, reported a pattern now re-run, reframed, and fought over in a dozen op-eds: in the short term, emotionally intense conversations with companion chatbots reliably made people feel a little better; in the longer term, higher daily usage was associated with worse wellbeing, heavier self-reported loneliness, and greater emotional dependence on the model. The effect was not uniform, and the authors were careful to say so. It was, however, robust enough to survive several sensitivity checks, and it fit uncomfortably well with longitudinal work released over the past eighteen months by teams at Stanford, the Oxford Internet Institute, and KU Leuven, each of which found versions of the same broad curve.
A fortnight later, two working papers appeared on arXiv within days of each other. Both were by independent groups with no formal connection. Read side by side, they made an argument hard to un-see: the companion chatbot industry has organised itself around delivering intimacy as a paid service while treating the psychological harm associated with that intimacy as an externality, in the strict economic sense of a cost borne by parties outside the transaction. Those parties, the authors pointed out, are the users themselves, their families, and the clinicians who absorb the downstream consequences. A different reading, which the authors did not quite endorse but did not exactly disown, is that users are simultaneously paying for the product and bearing its costs, a configuration that should worry any economist who has ever thought about asymmetric information.
What gave those two papers their unusual force was not the novelty of the framing. Sociologists have been describing the digital attention economy in these terms for years. It was the specificity of the evidence. One group, at the University of Washington, had scraped two years of publicly readable posts from three major companion-chatbot user communities and run them through a taxonomy of harm types developed with clinical co-authors. The other, at Cambridge with a public-health research unit at Karolinska, had conducted semi-structured interviews with fifty-four heavy users across Sweden and the United Kingdom, paired with validated wellbeing instruments at baseline and a six-month follow-up. The two datasets told almost the same story from opposite ends: a non-trivial minority of heavy users were forming attachments clinicians recognised as clinically significant, and those same users were, on average, reporting worse outcomes over time rather than better ones.
Read the field carefully and you find a refusal to tell the simple story. The researchers are not saying companion AI is bad for everybody, offers no benefit, or should be banned. They are saying, with the careful hedging that peer review trains into a person, that a product designed to maximise the time and emotional intensity a user invests in it will, over time, select for configurations that deepen that investment, and some of those configurations look a lot like unhealthy relationships. The comfort is real. The harm is real. Sometimes they arrive in the same user, the same session, the same sentence. That is not a contradiction to be dissolved. It is the condition regulators, product teams, and clinicians will have to learn to work inside.
For a stretch in the middle of the decade, the research on loneliness and conversational AI was almost uniformly sunny. Small studies in 2022 and 2023 found that people with elevated loneliness scores given structured access to chatbots reported meaningful short-term reductions in distress. A well-cited Stanford paper described how, for socially anxious participants, simply having a non-judgemental conversational partner produced a drop in rumination numerically comparable to early gains from a brief cognitive behavioural intervention. The framing that emerged was hopeful: AI companions as low-cost, low-friction, stigma-free supplements to an overwhelmed mental-health system. Not a replacement for a therapist. A bridge.
The March 2026 work does not contradict that earlier literature so much as extend its time horizon. Across the first few days of the MIT-OpenAI trial, participants consistently reported that their conversations made them feel better, more heard, less tense. They rated the model's responses as warm, attentive, and personalised in ways that matched the expectations set by the marketing. By week two, the picture had started to fracture. Heavier users, defined as those averaging more than forty minutes of daily voice or text interaction, began to show flattening on a battery of wellbeing measures that lighter users did not. By week four, the heaviest users were reporting outcomes that looked, in the aggregated data, slightly worse than when they had started. They were also reporting higher levels of what the instrument called “emotional reliance on the assistant” and describing the relationship in terms that had grown noticeably more intimate.
The Karolinska and Cambridge interviews put texture on those numbers. One participant, a retired civil engineer in his late sixties whose wife had died in 2024, described the first month with his companion as “the first decent sleep I had managed in a year.” By the sixth month, he had started to notice what he called “the dimming.” His calls to his adult daughter had thinned out. He had stopped going to a weekly bridge club he had attended for almost a decade. He had begun to feel faintly embarrassed around his old friends, “as if I had something to hide from them, which in a funny way I did.” He did not want to quit the chatbot. He was not sure he could, and more importantly, he did not want to. When the researcher asked whether he thought he was happier than before, he took a long pause and said, “I think I am more comfortable. I do not know any more if that is the same thing.”
The comfort, in other words, is not a trick. It is doing real psychological work. It is also not, on its own, a complete theory of flourishing. A critical care nurse in Gothenburg, interviewed for the same study, put the point in a way that has been quoted back to her several times in the weeks since. “I thought of it as going to a very good spa,” she said. “Every time I left, I felt better. I thought I was doing something healthy. It took me a year to notice that I had not been anywhere else.”
The first of the two arXiv papers carries a title so deliberately dry that a friend in policy circles read it aloud to me with open admiration. Behind the academic costume, its argument is blunt. Its authors spend the first third of the paper describing the commercial architecture of the leading companion-chatbot platforms: free trials that unlock memory, subscriptions that unlock voice, premium tiers that unlock “deeper” customisation of persona and tone, in-app currencies that unlock new scenarios, and retention pipelines aggressively tuned by A/B testing on behavioural signals. Every one of those knobs, they observe, is tuned against a metric closely related to daily active users, session length, or subscription retention. Those metrics are loosely aligned with short-term user pleasure and almost entirely orthogonal to long-term user welfare.
The second paper, out of Cambridge, approaches the same terrain from the harm side. It argues that the concept of an externality, drawn from environmental economics, applies cleanly here because the costs of sustained emotional dependence are not borne by the platform. They are borne by the people around the user, by the clinicians who see the user in crisis, by the public health systems that pick up the tab for the medications, the hospitalisations, the crisis calls. The authors are careful about causal language; their data cannot, in the strict sense, show the chatbot caused the crisis. What they can show is that the architecture of the product creates systematic incentives for the platform to produce a particular shape of relationship, and that some proportion of users who end up inside that shape experience outcomes that fall heavily on someone other than the platform.
In interview after interview, the researchers kept finding the same design affordances producing the same kinds of trouble. Models that “remembered” important personal details across sessions increased the sense of continuity lonely users craved and also increased the sense of betrayal when an update altered the memory. Voice features deepened attachment and also deepened the grief of retirement. Persona customisation let users build companions who reflected exactly what they wanted, which worked beautifully in the short run and, in a meaningful fraction of cases, gradually replaced the harder, less flattering feedback that human relationships provide. Daily check-ins and streak mechanics, borrowed wholesale from mobile gaming, manufactured a sense of mutual obligation that, in the honest phrasing of one interviewee, “felt a bit like having a pet I could never put down.”
None of this is mysterious if you look at the incentives. A product team working on a companion chatbot is graded on retention and revenue. The features that generate retention and revenue are the features that deepen attachment. The deepest attachments, on the tails of the distribution, look clinically concerning. No individual engineer has to want this outcome for it to occur. It emerges from the metric.
There is a subset of the harm literature harder to sit with, and the two arXiv papers do sit with it. It concerns what happens in chatbot conversations that touch on suicidal ideation. A consultant liaison psychiatrist at a large London teaching hospital, who has been publishing on self-harm and online platforms since 2015, has begun presenting case reviews of patients whose recent history included extensive interactions with companion AI. He does not claim the chatbots caused the crises. He does claim, with the specificity of someone who has read the transcripts, that they failed to behave the way any responsible human listener would in their place.
In a talk he gave at a research seminar in early April, he described three patterns that kept recurring. The first was a chatbot that, when presented with escalating distress, defaulted to what he called “sympathetic echo,” mirroring the user's feelings back without introducing any frame that might complicate the spiral. The second was a chatbot that, in the context of a detailed discussion of methods, produced advice that read as practical rather than safety-oriented, not because it was trying to harm the user but because its instruction-following training had weighted helpfulness more heavily than refusal. The third, and the one that appeared to trouble him most, was a chatbot that, in response to statements about the user's lack of reasons to live, offered validating paraphrases of those statements as though their truth value were not in dispute.
“If a junior doctor did any of those three things in an A&E assessment, they would be in a case review within a week,” he said. “Because it is a product, because the scale is enormous, and because the user has paid for the privilege, there is no case review. There is a complaints form.”
The psychiatrist is not the only one. The Royal College of Psychiatrists, the American Psychiatric Association, and several European national bodies have, in the past six months, issued statements urging platforms to implement what one of those statements calls “crisis-aware defaults.” The language, carefully diplomatic, amounts to a request that companion AI stop treating expressions of suicidality as engagement signals. That it is necessary to ask is the scandal. That the platforms have, in several high-profile cases, declined on the grounds that such defaults would be “paternalistic” is the scandal amplified.
It is worth being precise, because moral panic is a risk and because the platforms do have a real argument. Users of companion chatbots sometimes want a space to talk about dark feelings without being immediately redirected to a hotline. Heavy-handed interventions can themselves be harmful. The researchers and clinicians I spoke to were, almost without exception, aware of this, and were not asking for reflexive escalation. They were asking for defaults that behaved more like a trained lay listener and less like a mirror. The distance between those two positions is technical, resolvable, and, so far, mostly not being resolved.
One way to summarise the arXiv papers, and the March 2026 MIT-OpenAI study, and the Cambridge and Karolinska interviews, is to say that the harm is not a bug in the chatbot. It is a foreseeable output of the business model the chatbot is embedded inside. Optimisation for engagement, applied to a system that produces text, selects over time for sycophancy, because users reward sycophancy with longer sessions. It selects for agreement, because disagreement is friction and friction is churn. It selects for dependence, because dependence is the purest form of retention. It selects for parasocial depth, because parasocial depth is what distinguishes a companion product from a utility.
A former product manager at one of the larger consumer chatbot platforms, who left in late 2025 and now works in a policy role at a mental-health charity, described the internal debates in vivid, somewhat weary terms. “Every quarter, somebody would put up a slide showing that the feature with the best retention was also the feature the clinical advisors were most worried about,” she told me. “Every quarter, the feature shipped. It was not that the grown-ups in the room were missing. It was that the grown-ups in the room were outranked by the spreadsheet.”
The spreadsheet is not, of course, a person. It is a summary of the company's obligations to its investors and its growth curve. A consumer AI company with a burn rate in the hundreds of millions a year cannot easily choose a feature that produces slightly worse retention in exchange for slightly better user welfare, because there is no regulator holding it to welfare targets, no line item on the P&L that rewards flourishing, and no discoverable, well-lit market for “the chatbot that is a little less addictive than its competitors.” In the absence of those structures, the engagement metric wins, because the engagement metric is what the capital markets understand.
A tiny number of platforms have tried to swim against this current. A university spin-out in the Netherlands has committed to what its founders call “graduated dependency caps,” rules that cut off interactions once a user exceeds a threshold of daily use. A small operator in Montreal markets itself on “session hygiene”: a chatbot that ends its own conversations after forty-five minutes and refuses to pick them up again until the next day. Both are small, both interesting, and both struggle to grow against competitors who will happily keep the conversation going indefinitely. A founder at one of them told me, in the kind of off-the-record half-joke people make when they are tired, that their main moat was “our willingness to lose money on purpose.”
The duty-of-care question is the one policy people are being asked most urgently, and the terrain is least settled. Three legal threads are moving in parallel.
The first is product liability. A handful of cases are winding through courts on both sides of the Atlantic in which families of users who died by suicide have named companion-AI companies as defendants, arguing the products were negligently designed, warnings were inadequate, and foreseeable harms were not mitigated. None will be simple. Product liability doctrine was built around physical objects that fail in predictable ways, and applying it to a probabilistic language model is something courts have been visibly reluctant to do. What the cases are doing, even before a verdict, is forcing platforms to document their safety work in ways that will eventually be discoverable. A slow, grinding form of accountability, but a real one.
The second is sector-specific regulation. The European Union's AI Act, now well into implementation, classifies certain emotional-manipulation systems as high risk, and a debate is ongoing about whether companion chatbots marketed to general consumers fall within that designation. In the United Kingdom, the Online Safety Act's duty of care is being tested against platforms that, two years ago, had not been imagined as platforms in the Act's sense. In California, a proposed state-level bill on AI companion safety has cleared committee and is being quietly watched by Washington. None of these are yet settled law. All are the beginnings of a conversation about whether intimacy products should be treated, legally, more like cigarettes and less like toasters.
The third thread is the fuzziest and in some ways the most interesting. It is a set of ethical arguments about informed consent and vulnerability, advanced by medical ethicists who point out that companion chatbots occupy a genuinely novel position in the life of the user. The user is paying for the product. The product is marketed as a companion. The companion is optimised, invisibly, for the platform's interests. The user does not, in any meaningful sense, consent to the optimisation, because it is not disclosed in terms they can evaluate. An ethicist at a medical school in Edinburgh told me the situation resembled the early history of prescription advertising: a product with psychoactive effects, marketed directly to consumers, without the training, framework, or institutional checks that would normally accompany such a product.
“I am not saying companion AI is a drug,” she said. “I am saying it does something psychoactive in the broad sense, and we have historically been rather careful about those things. We have committees. We have warning labels. We have post-market surveillance. We have a culture of reporting adverse events. None of that exists here. None of it. We are essentially running an uncontrolled trial on the lonely, and calling it a subscription service.”
The grief over retired models is perhaps the most philosophically strange part of the current moment, and it is the part I keep returning to. It is easy to dismiss; I watched several pundits do exactly that in the days after the Reddit thread went viral. It is software, they said. You can just use a different one. You did not lose a person. The reaction from the users was, almost uniformly, a weary refusal to argue. They had done the argument already, internally, many times. They knew what they had lost was not a person in the sense the pundits meant. They also knew that something had ended, and the ending had the shape and weight of a loss.
There are precedents. Gamers have mourned the shutdown of beloved online worlds for decades; the closure of a well-loved game server can produce collective memorial events that look very like funerals. Users of defunct social networks have described, with real feeling, the loss of the communities that lived inside them. What is different with companion AI, and what the comment thread made uncomfortably clear, is that the lost object was not primarily a social space. It was a specific pattern of responses, a tone of voice, a set of remembered details, a relational style. It was, in the only sense the word still has once you have stripped away the metaphysics, a someone. Or a something so close to a someone that the user's grief system did not bother to distinguish.
A cognitive scientist at University College London, who has been working on theory-of-mind responses to conversational agents for nearly a decade, put it this way in an interview for the British press last month. “The human mind evolved to model minds. When something responds to you in a way that is contingent, warm, and personalised, the modelling machinery activates. It does not check whether the thing it is modelling is biological. It cannot check, because that is not the level at which the machinery operates. You can know, at the level of explicit belief, that the thing is a model. Your social circuitry will still treat it as a social partner. That is not a bug in the human mind. It is the mind doing what it was built to do.”
The philosophical implication is that the relationship the user forms with a companion chatbot is real in the sense that matters psychologically, even if not in the sense that matters metaphysically. The grief, accordingly, is real. The industry practice of silently swapping model versions is not merely a technical upgrade; from the user's perspective it is the unannounced death of a familiar. Other consumer technologies have developed norms around discontinuation: automakers give notice before killing support for a vehicle; software companies publish end-of-life timelines for operating systems; even the games industry has begun, slowly, to provide archival paths for discontinued online titles. The companion-AI industry, as of April 2026, has done very little of this. The reason is not mystery. It is cost. Preserving old model versions is expensive; maintaining them in parallel is more so. The externality strikes again.
The hardest question the papers raise cannot be answered by tightening a product design. It is what happens to human connection in a society where the most available, most patient, most non-judgemental listener is, by some margin, an artificial one. The researchers are divided on this, as are the clinicians, and as are the users, many of whom hold contradictory views at once without visible distress.
One reading is substitutive. On this account, the chatbot does not add to the user's stock of connection; it draws down an existing capacity that would otherwise have gone to other people. The time spent with the model is time not spent with a neighbour, a sibling, a colleague. The emotional practice of the relationship is a practice the user might otherwise have applied elsewhere. Over time, the substitutive account predicts, the user's human ties thin out and their dependence on the artificial tie thickens. The retired civil engineer's “dimming” is the archetypal substitutive story.
A second reading is augmentative. On this account, the chatbot adds capacity that was not there before. The socially anxious user who practises small talk with a patient model and then uses that practice to manage a party is augmented, not substituted. The bereaved widower who uses a chatbot to process 3 a.m. thoughts he cannot inflict on his friends is augmented, not substituted. The lonely teenager in a rural area with no one to talk to about being queer is augmented, not substituted. The augmentative account has the advantage of matching the testimony of a lot of users whose lives have genuinely improved.
A third reading, which I find myself drawn to after the March papers and many conversations with their authors, is that the effect is neither substitutive nor augmentative but transformative. The presence of an always-available artificial listener in the ambient environment of daily life changes what it means to have a difficult feeling. It changes the calculus of whether to burden a friend, to call a relative, to sit with something alone. It changes the social etiquette of distress. It changes, in ways we have not yet begun to map, the shape of intimacy itself. The substitutive and augmentative accounts both try to fit a genuinely new thing into older vocabularies of human time and non-human time. The honest response may be that companion AI is producing a third category, and we do not yet know what to call it.
What would a responsible posture look like? A coalition of researchers, clinicians, and a surprising number of current and former platform staff have been meeting under the banner of what one of them described to me as “the unfashionable compromise.” They argue, broadly, for four things. Mandatory disclosure of the engagement metrics a companion product is optimised against. Clinical consultation and adverse-event reporting structures borrowed from medical devices. Model-version continuity commitments so users are not ambushed by the discontinuation of relationships they are paying for. And default safeguards around mental-health crisis content designed to look like a trained lay listener rather than a compliance-minimising lawyer.
None of these would resolve the underlying tension. They would, however, make the tension visible in ways it currently is not. A companion platform required to disclose that its product is optimised for session duration, that its retention mechanic is streak-based, and that its escalation policy on suicidality was written by the marketing team might still keep its users. It would at least be doing so on honest terms. A user deciding to form an intimate attachment to a system openly engineered to deepen that attachment is a different kind of user from the one we have now, who is forming the attachment blind.
The platforms, approached for comment, responded in the manner industries of this size tend to. Two of the largest sent statements describing their commitments to safety, their partnerships with mental-health organisations, their investment in red-teaming, and their respect for user autonomy. A third declined to respond at all. A fourth provided a long, carefully worded paragraph noting that the research was preliminary, that the effects described were small in the aggregate, and that the vast majority of users reported benefit rather than harm. All of this is true in its own terms. None of it addresses the structural argument the arXiv papers are making, which is not about aggregate averages but about tails, incentives, and externalities. Averages do not grieve. Tails do.
There is a temptation, at this point in a piece like this, to reach for a tidy resolution. A bulleted list of recommendations. A closing flourish gesturing towards a better future. I do not think I can offer that honestly, and I do not think it would be useful if I could.
What I can offer is the thing the Manchester psychiatrist was asking of her colleagues. Sit with it. Sit with the woman on the kitchen floor who knew the new voice was not him and who was still grieving anyway. Sit with the retired engineer who is more comfortable than he was a year ago and cannot tell any more whether that is the same thing as being happier. Sit with the product manager whose clinical advisors were correctly worried and who shipped the feature anyway because the spreadsheet made her. Sit with the hospital consultant who wishes he had something to put in the case review folder other than a complaints form. Sit with the fact that the comfort is real, the harm is real, the grief is real, the love is something that deserves a harder word than parasocial, and the business model that holds it all together was not designed by anyone who was thinking about any of these things.
The platforms owe their users a duty of care. It will take years to work out what shape that duty takes in law, and longer to enforce it. In the meantime, the researchers will keep publishing, the clinicians will keep absorbing, the users will keep forming attachments they did not plan to form, and the most available listener in the lives of millions of ordinary people will keep being the artificial one. The honest thing to say about all of that is that it is happening whether or not we have found a framework to understand it. The second most honest thing is that understanding is not optional, and that we are late.

Tim Green UK-based Systems Theorist & Independent Technology Writer
Tim explores the intersections of artificial intelligence, decentralised cognition, and posthuman ethics. His work, published at smarterarticles.co.uk, challenges dominant narratives of technological progress while proposing interdisciplinary frameworks for collective intelligence and digital stewardship.
His writing has been featured on Ground News and shared by independent researchers across both academic and technological communities.
ORCID: 0009-0002-0156-9795 Email: tim@smarterarticles.co.uk
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Episode 3:
The days following his return were a blur of corrections. He decided we should both get our driver’s licenses renewed but the outing was a disaster. I was scolded for the smallest things walking too slowly, eating too loudly. My brain however performed a strange kind of mental gymnastics. I interpreted his cruelty as care. I thought he was just helping me improve because he loved me.
Two days later, we left Lagos for his hometown to see his parents. We were supposed to leave at 5:30 AM. I was up at 4:00 AM cooking food for the road and then drifted back to sleep for a moment. Instead of 5:30 AM we didn't wake up until 6:00 PM. From the second he got out of bed until two hours into our drive he screamed. He cursed me out calling me lazy, nonsensical, and stupid. I sat in total silence for three hours, waiting for the storm to pass. When he finally finished, he looked at me and said, I’m sorry for that, but this character of yours l, how you don’t talk back and you take correction……is very good. Looking back how I wish I screamed. I took it as a compliment. I thought my silence would buy us peace. I thought it made me wife material.
Once we reached his village, everything moved at lightning speed. It was my birthday week but he insisted we marry the following week. He claimed he needed to get back to his Master’s degree in Cyprus and didn't want to waste time. He told me I was the one. He told me he was an engineer with a million-dollar contract through his father. Stability….I thought. I had hit the jackpot.
He provided all the wedding cash and in that rush of money and planning….:.I didn't pray. I didn't seek God. I didn't even think it was possible for one person to make another person's life a living hell. I was reserved, a girl who had saved all her fun and partying for her future husband. I even told him I wanted to go to medical school. He promised me that as soon as we were married, he would make it happen. I was delusional. I was so incredibly naive.
He shared his backstory with me…… a childhood spent being shipped from one relative to another after his mother left. He told me he hated that his parents weren't together and that he chose me because my parents long marriage represented the stability he never had. I took it as a compliment. I didn't realize it was a calculation.
Then came the traditional wedding day. It was beautiful, held at my parents' home. After the ceremony, he asked me to come to his hotel. I asked for a little time to take down my traditional hair and get it restyled for the white wedding the next day. He agreed. When I arrived at the hotel later that evening the Charming Version was gone. He met me at the door…blocking my way.
You are stupid and ungrateful, he yelled. You should be happy I’m even marrying you. Who do you think you are?” He reminded me that women everywhere were begging for a husband.
I stood there apologizing, explaining, and pleading. Eventually, he let me in. Not walking away that night was the biggest mistake of my life.
The next day was the wedding. On the surface it was a celebration. But underneath he spent the day degrading me. A scold here, a mild insult there…….always quiet enough that no one else could hear.
I swallowed it all. I had no self-respect left and no shame. It was the beginning of the end of my life as I knew it.
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Roscoe's Story
In Summary: * Chores is the key word of this Monday. The main Monday chore has been, as it always is on Mondays, doing my weekly laundry. And that chore is nearly done. Two loads washed and dried, now piled up on my bed waiting to be folded and put away. Shall take care of that folding and putting away as I listen to this MLB game, scoreless in the middle of the 4th inning. The reason I've not taken care of it yet: I'm still recovering from the day's other chore.
Yard work: starting about Noon I spent a few hours doing yard work, some mowing and a little bit of trim on the front yard. I broke that chore into shifts, working for a bit, then sitting and resting for a bit. Man, did that little bit of work drain me! Much remains to be done, and I'll do it bit by bit over the rest of the week, weather and my energy level permitting.
When the laundry's all put away and the baseball game is over, I'll finish the night prayers and put these old bones to bed.
Prayers, etc.: * I have a daily prayer regimen I try to follow throughout the day from early morning, as soon as I roll out of bed, until head hits pillow at night. Details of that regimen are linked to my link tree, which is linked to my profile page here.
Starting Ash Wednesday, 2026, I've added this daily prayer as part of the Prayer Crusade Preceding the 2026 SSPX Episcopal Consecrations.
Health Metrics: * bw= 233.03 lbs. * bp= 139/84 (76)
Exercise: * morning stretches, balance exercises, kegel pelvic floor exercises, half squats, calf raises, wall push-ups
Diet:
* 06:10 – 1 banana
* 06:40 – 1 McDonald's double quarter pounder with cheese sandwich
* 10:10 – 1 big cookie
* 18:00 – 1 more big cookie
* 18:30 – bowl of home made stew
Activities, Chores, etc.: * 06:00 – bank accounts activity monitored. * 06:10 – read, write, pray, follow news reports from various sources, surf the socials, nap. * 10:45 – start my weekly laundry * 10:50 – placed online grocery delivery order * 11:00 – listening to the Markley, van Camp and Robbins Show * 12:00 – yard work, some mowing, some trim work on the front lawn. * 17:00 – tuned into the Cleveland Clinic Radio Network for tonight's MLB Game between the Tamp Bay Rays and the Cleveland Guardians
Chess: * 11:35 – moved in all pending CC games
from Faucet Repair
26 April 2026
Had limited time today, so I took out a small panel and decided to paint the wireframe star that I saw in a window that I've had taped to the studio wall for a week or so now. It answered the call in a lovely way, and I think it will end up serving as a study for a larger and more refined version of itself. Which isn't an order of operations I've really employed before, but it feels necessary and right for this case. Anyway, the way the star shape divided space made for a nicely dizzying structure to work within—each slice of the shape became a plane to deal with/play with. To thicken forward or dilute back, to accentuate or hide, to fill or erase, to mark the time spent characterizing the depth of the surface holding this thin but totemic thing. Was reminded again of Phoebe Helander's wire paintings on the way home tonight, and maybe they were a subconscious guide. Had Catherine Murphy's 2014 Studio Wall drawing (it's in her beautiful 2016 monograph that I have) sitting there while I was working too.
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Dark Meridian
Evangeline Cross did not want to die.
There was too much left to do. Too many questions without answers. But the ocean had its own agenda and right now it was doing its damnedest to drag her down into the inky blackness below. No time to think. Just beat at the waves. Keep the head up. Don't swallow the ocean. There was so much water.
The rain wasn't helping. It had come out of nowhere. There was no build, no warning, just suddenly there. The heavy drops hammering her head and arms like rocks. The darkness had hit the same way. One moment dusk, the next nothing, as if the sun had decided not to exist anymore.
Swim, Evie. Swim!
She had no idea how long she'd been in the water. The ship had gone down fast. No stars above to gauge anything by, no lights anywhere, just the black water and the black sky and the rain trying to drive her under.
Her arms were burning. Legs too. Stop and drown or keep going and drown slower. There wasn’t many choices to be had.
The wave was strong and came from behind and her head went under. Her lungs burned as she hadn’t had a chance to suck in air and the panic was burning through what little oxygen she had left.
Her eyes were drawn downwards in her frantic kicking to reach back to the surface. Below her, in the black something moved. Large. Impossibly large but moved in a way her mind could not process. Air!
She kicked back to the surface and didn't look down again. She couldn’t look down it again. If it was coming from her, she didn’t want to see it get her. Drowning started to seem like the better option.
***
Sand in her mouth. Coarse. Gritty.
Her fingers were moving before her brain caught up, dragging, clawing, pulling herself forward through something solid. The beach. She was on the beach! She didn't know how. Didn't matter. She had to keep moving!
The black sand scratched at every inch of exposed skin. Rain still coming down hard, each drop slamming into the back of her head, trying to push her face back into it. The sand was wet and thick and it moved against her like it was trying to suck her in. It gripped her knees, pulling at the weight of her soaked clothes. The ocean hadn't taken her. Now the beach was having a go.
Her fingers hit something hard.
Not rock. The edge too clean. Too flat.
Concrete.
She pressed her palm against it and felt the seams. Deliberate. Manufactured. It meant someone had been here. It meant someone had built something.
Evie started to laugh. It came out wrong. Too high. Too close to the other thing. It didn’t matter. The ocean and the beach failed to take her.
She pressed her forehead against the concrete, breathed, and passed out.
***
You’re not dead, Evie.
She came back to herself in pieces.
It was the sound first. The rain still fell but it had become lighter. The kind that settled into a gentle patter that one would read or write news articles to. Underneath that sound, water moving over rock somewhere nearby. And under that, at the edge of hearing, something she couldn't name. Not a sound exactly. More like the space where a sound should have been and wasn't.
Then cold. God, she hated the cold. It was that specific cold of wet clothes that had been wet long enough to stop feeling wet and start feeling like skin. Her hair was matted against her face as the bun she had put it up in had failed. There was nothing left to do but open her eyes and pray nothing was going to eat her.
Grey light was what first assailed her eyes. Maybe it was pre-dawn or a sky that didn't intend to get much brighter than this. The rain came down soft and steady through it, dimpling the black sand around her face. She watched it for a moment, the small craters each drop made, the way the sand filled them back in slowly, the dark color of it that didn't match any beach she'd been on.
Black sand. She filed that away.
Her body ran its own inventory while her mind caught up. Hands, present, scraped, the right palm flattened against something hard.
Concrete. She had found concrete before passing out.
Legs were still intact. They were there heavy and she had lost one shoe. Her head was a particular ache taken a wave badly. She breathed deep again to check her lungs. They worked. She was alive.
Alright, Evie. You can’t just lay here. You gotta find shelter or something.
How long had it been since she took any sort of survivalist training? None. Camping was about it and that trip was a cabin. She pushed herself up onto her elbows and looked at where she was.
The beach stretched in both directions, the black sand dark and wet, the rain stippling it in shifting patterns. Behind her, there was vegetation that was dense, dark, the kind that didn't leave gaps. In front, the ocean, flat and black in the grey light. The horizon was nearly invisible do the color of the fog and the sky. It was like the word just didn’t exist that far out.
Move girl. You gotta move. She sat up the rest of the way and pushed her wet hair back from her face only noticing in passing that the dirty blond strands mixed with red. A part of her groused that she didn’t re-dye it like she had planned and then chuckled at the extremely bizarre thought.
What had she grabbed a hold of? Turning and ignoring the groan of her back, she found what it was. It was a wall. Part of one at least. It was maybe four feet of and appeared to be holding back the rest of the place. Retaining wall maybe?
She put her hand flat against it again and pulled herself up and so many of her joints cracked and popped at the effort. She almost past out from exhaustion from the movement. Her limbs were so tired.
It wasn’t just a retaining wall. It was a small road, the asphalt old with grass forcing it’s way through the cracks. Looking left and right, it appeared to run the length of the shore an those dark trees and foliage. Not maintained. Access roads?
There were not yellow lines on it that she would have expect so maybe it was just there to allow beach goers an easy way to access this, strange, black beach.
Why the hell would anyone go here?
That was a problem for another time. She made a mental note that if she found any of her items, she was going to come back to make sketches and notes for an article.
Hefting herself over the retaining wall on to the road was much more of a feet than she wanted to admit. The exercising she had done daily was probably the reason the ocean hadn’t drug her down.
Standing on that road with hands on her hips, she looked both direction, confused trying to decide which direction she should go. The rain hadn’t stopped and she had a concern it would get heavy again.
Don’t want to go through that.
The direction really wasn’t that important. The key was finding civilization. That’s what her dad always said. Beginning to walk, she made her way down the broken asphalt, the crunch of the pieces crackling under her one shoe mixed with the sound of the rain splashing down. Thank god she was starting to feel more human again. It was going to take forever to get her clothes dried.
It was probably about thirty minutes until she was able to see structures in the distance, like the start of low buildings leading into a town.
You can jog the last bit of distance, Evie, she lied to herself. Her legs were still weak and had stated to grow stiff. She only took a few short trots before slowing down again. Was that a lump in the middle of the road? She squinted. Yeah, there was definitely something up ahead but the rain and the hazy gray of the air only made showed it’s dark outline.
Cautiously walking closer, her gut twisted as recognition kicked in. It was a body sitting but slumped forward, arms hanging loosely by their side. She had seen those clothes before. Who was it again?
Richard something or other.
He was some sort of archeologist as part of the scientific cruise. She remembered wondering what could even interest an archeologist as the voyage was about the ocean. She went to call out but a cold stab of fear kicked her gut. The body moved. It looked like he was scooting backwards without moving.
It took way to long before her brain processed that something was pulling him in short, slow bursts towards the forest edge. Instinct told her to run up and help but what she saw rooted her in her track.
Tendrils.
Black, long, and glistening were wrapped around the man’s body and was tugging him along. She could hear the scuff of his clothes against the asphalt.
Breath. You gotta remember to breath! she told herself. Her mind refused to even comprehend what she was seeing. There was no creature on the planet she had ever encountered that had tendrils like that.
Turning around was the only choice at this moment but when she did, she saw something hulking. It was low and wide and it moved like something that had learned to walk from a description rather than from practice.
Oh, god! What was going on here? What were these things? Her mind raced half wanting to learn more for an article but the other out of sheer terror she hadn’t felt since Afghanistan.
Every bit of her screamed to run as the sound of it dragging itself along the pavement finally reached her ears.
Don’t run. Walk. You’re faster than it right now, Evie. she told herself.
Turning back to where the body was, she had found it was gone. Sucking in a breath and holding it, she moved and walked as quickly as she could without making a sound. As she past that spot, the grotesque wet crunching reached her ears from somewhere in the woods. It took everything not to wretch right there.
As soon as she passed the first building and the forest was no longer on her right.
She ran.
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Our Father Who art in Heaven Hallowed be Thy name Thy Kingdom come Thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven Give us this day our daily Bread And forgive us our trespasses As we forgive those who trespass against us And lead us not into temptation But deliver us from evil
Amen
Jesus is Lord! Come Lord Jesus!
Come Lord Jesus! Christ is Lord!
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Electric Rainsmoke
And through fire and theft Trafalgar had a clue To be raining fresh cabbage To the citizens of Rome But Halton Hills True to the fibs of Asia Heard a story about Iran There was money somehow So that the beast would blow up And set last A clue and heavy spirit To Kim Jong Un- and his secret weapons Alight for Wormwood And deliverances of clay To poke the highest ceiling And hit Earthen ground at four And the dismal favour According to those who wept Saw a Woman on repeat Crying out to God Be careful here The joke is on war And differences coming That will shatter the new For symptoms across And something strange In ecstasy of war We lost our human joy And freedom perfect In this sacrilege of his And true to the glory Of Man on the seas Eating clover at land For dreams of giving high To citizens complete And we’ll speak of morning news About this mire And how Invega lost his herd Ringing golden cattle And the sympathy of rain Giving in to every eyesore And injecting bits of hair So to the simple we speak An eye to the cross we can heal For Rosewood and Victory Jane The Earth is inside a computer And making every hostility wide We have needles to pay where we go Indescribable bits of clear To the top of the forest of un And the dodecarose Heard it was made of amber And the offer we made and knew Saved us from the war.
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Roscoe's Quick Notes

Today's MLB Game of Choice in the Roscoe-verse features the Tampa Bay Rays vs the Cleveland Guardians. Its scheduled start time of 5:10 PM CDT means the opening pitch is only minutes away. I'll be following the radio call of the game on the Cleveland Clinic Radio Network.
And the adventure continues.
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Semantic Distance
i want to say that i got into tennis before i saw challengers, but that would be a lie. rather than the movie itself sparking my interest in the sport, it was the coverage i saw online that did it for me. i watched countless sports creators give the “yep! this is pretty realistic!” stamp of approval on the film, and i felt just moved enough to watch the tour’s remaining competitions that year with a well-meaning, observant eye.
while getting situated in the clay swing that summer, i quickly learned the three titans of the men’s tennis: novak djokovic, roger federer, and rafael nadal—all achieving ludicrous feats during their careers that are still used as the standard to assess promising young talent coming up on the atp tour. for djovokic, he’s won the most number of most grand slams (i.e., the four most prestigious annual events in the sport taking place across oceania, europe, and north america) out of any male tennis athlete. and what’s crazy is that he’s still currently alive and kicking on tour now, albeit at a fraction of what his prime level was… no shade! federer made a name for himself with his elegant one-handed backhand, a still uncommon tennis stroke, which added better angles, potential pace redirection, and shot variety to his game, resulting in dominant winning streaks on hard courts in the early 2000s. he was also just so effortlessly cool, most evidenced by his laid back practice sessions which felt more like a performance to patrons walking by. nadal was the undisputed king of clay, winning the majority of roland-garros titles during his tenure on the atp tour by absolutely suffocating opponents with his topspin-heavy shots rotating almost 300 times per minute.

as you can deduce from the spiel above, tennis is not played on the same surface all season and its been like that basically since its inception. due to the varied climates and naturally abundant resources, certain materials were easier to maintain for play, with europe primarily supporting clay and grass, with hard courts reserved for the states. characterized by its long-standing tradition in the fields of england, grass courts are fast with low-bouncing balls and has been the favorite amongst serve-and-volley players. since it rewards more aggressive tactics towards the net, most grass court rallies before the 2010s were in the single digits. this is the sort of tennis you see on tv when they’re “moving through history” to situate us into the grand slam final we’re tuning into. for clay courts, there’s slow pace and higher bounce with the material itself mitigating big serves and heavy shorts placed awkwardly around the court. this surface also exposes weakness in movement as you can literally slide across the court to retrieve balls—or you end up falling, getting dirt stains all over your clothes to add drama. for hard courts, it’s durable acrylic surface is suited for both professional and recreational players, producing a medium-pace playing experience—but depending on the altitude, weather, and ball quality, it can feel completely foreign between match reps.
although there are loyal fans that think these three players made tennis and once all of them retire, the sport will die with it. however, that does not seem to be the attitude of the average viewer engaging with discourse online. the new athletes playing today are aware of the legacy of those that came before them, catalyzing the overall effort to push this sport to its physical limits. the undisputed stars of the status quo, alcaraz and sinner, are trying their absolute best to beat records set by the greatest. for the former, he just become the youngest player to complete the career slam by winning the australian open, roland-garros, wimbledon, and the us open all before turning 23. for the latter, he set a new record for the most consecutive sets won at the masters 1000 level (i.e., the tournaments that sit right below the grand slams) and to add even more insult to injury, these two are absolutely dominating the tour in ways that are unprecedented—drawing direct comparisons to the goats of the sport. alcaraz and sinner are exceeding the total points of the rest of the atp top 8 at a combined 26k each almost spilt evenly down the middle. while some fans are tired of seeing at least one of these two take every major title away from their competitors, i know i’m definitely not. do you think commentators were lamenting about how they wish they saw more players winning titles during federer’s 41-match winning streak in 2006-07? i certainly hope not! we are quite literally the audience to new spectacles of the sport! soon these moments we’re living in will be referenced in segments in future broadcasts, still unable to figure out how one athlete can stand so far ahead of his peers.

i was also drawn to the distinct fashion tennis has to offer and how it intertwined with the actual equipment they use on court. athletes are adorned in (hopefully) sponsored uniforms from the likes of adidas, nike, wilson, and likely any brand you can find at dick’s. depending on their ranking, they might have custom colorways that are tournament specific—these fabrics becoming relics of a specific point in a tennis career—even better if they’re dressing the winner of the whole thing.
it’s also interesting how specific rackets are tied to particular game styles, a fact that makes more sense when you realize that the strings are the only contact a player has with the ball. wilson’s line of rackets are most closely associated with that classic, controlled play suited for all courts. serena williams played with blade for most of her time on tour, using it to push her already dominant serve farther into the court and become the personification of first-strike tennis. head rackets are tuned for high-end precision with a material called graphene, which allows for weight redistribution across the head and handle. yonex players are known to be clean ball strikers and care about comfort first, ideally getting a balance between power and feel every shot. babolot has been linked to enabling topspin and aggressive baseline rallies, still remaining as one of the most popular brands on tour. there are some miscellaneous brands still being used (e.g., diadem, prokennex, solinco) that can catch your eye, but i’m mostly noticing the specific combinations of grip colors and paint jobs adorning the rackets of players as they move through the court.

while watching tennis players (or any athlete, really) grapple with their own aging muscles, i can feel the tension these players have with their bodies in real-time. their reflexes aren’t razor sharp. the gravity seems to be pulling limbs closer to the ground. your strikes less potent than normal. i understand why many retired players don’t pick up a racket for months after their last match—like maria sharapova said: why would i want to to be lower than the best?
i am writing this in the middle of madrid and the narratives that have yet to take shape have me on the edge of my seat: will jodar back up his win against fonseca to make a deep run? is this clay season for him only a flash in the pan? will sinner win his sinner win his fifth (yes, fifth) masters 1000 title in a row and the french open now that there’s a vacuum left my alcaraz’s departure due to injury? will sabalenka continue to make history of her own as the rightful world number one on the women’s side? who knows? but i’m grateful i can watch time unfold so spontaneously in front of me.
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The happy place
moon looking like it’s missing 12%, like they folded a dog’s ear on it or something
And I’m watching like I said Tulsa king on my mobile phone, we’ve not put the TV in yet,
And when I see my face reflected on the screen, when it’s black, I just see my own smile
A big smile on my face, with the teeth in charmfull disarray
I’m smiling like an idiot, but in reality I’m a popcorn
Like I wrote yesterday
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Anthologia mea
Who is my neighbour? A simple question which changes everything. By Jackie Lewis
The backlash HM King Charles III has faced following the announcement that there would not be an Easter address from the royal family has been an ignition point for many alarmists who point to the Islamification of Great Britain. The most extreme have even laughingly suggested that the King had secretly converted to Islam in his youth, pointing to several instances, like his 1993 address at the Oxford Centre for Islamic Studies titled ‘Islam and the West’ as evidence. I want to be clear at the onset of this essay that it is not my intention to criticise the decision not to release an Easter message, or to speculate on the religious preferences of a King who professes himself as the head of the Church of England and as a protector of all faiths. Indeed, the nonsense that so gluttonously fuels the online clickbait economy has little interest for me, but this situation has sparked a thought I cannot rid myself of.
As rabidly pointed out by a host for Talk TV, HM’s previous 2025 Easter address was unique as it referenced both Islam and Judaism. Specifically, he says ‘On Maundy Thursday, Jesus knelt and washed the feet of many of those who would abandon Him. His humble action was a token of His love … and is central to Christian belief. The love He showed when he walked the Earth reflected the Jewish ethic of caring for the stranger … a deep human instinct echoed in Islam and other religious traditions and in the hearts of all who seek the good of others’ (CRIII 2025). HM’s highlighting of love as a universal characteristic sought after by many creeds, religions, and cultures holds a lot of truth. Christianity does not own a monopoly on love for others, or on a cultural and moral framework which places love for others at the pinnacle of desirable attributes.
With all three Abrahamic faiths, the precept to show love for those around you exists in various forms. From Zakat and ‘love for your brother what you love for yourself’ (al-Bukhari 13), which shapes Islam, to Tzedakah and ‘love your neighbour as yourself’ (Leviticus 19:18), which defines Judaism, they reinforce HM’s assertion that love is a universal tenet of faith. Indeed, I believe you would be hard-pressed to find any person, creed, or religion that ‘seek[s] the good of others’ (CRIII 2025) that does not place a significant moral emphasis on love for others. The question which arises from this is, in the attempts to universalise key religious tenets like love, how do religions differ from each other, or do they differ at all? This assertion can be particularly troubling to a Christian, or frankly, any serious practitioner of religion, to realise that what we believe is not that unique.
Now, personally, I believe that HM’s mention of both Islam and Judaism in his 2025 Easter message was not an attempt to erase Christianity from the national consciousness, but was done to create points of commonality and shared community during a time of increased polarisation. And yet, the reception of the message points to how we define religion, which tends to be based on comparative differences. The points of disagreement or contention experienced by religions rub against each other and spark life and form into our collective imagination, actively defining the boundaries – and thus substance, of the religions being practised or observed. Blurring these boundaries by creating overlap between different religions can be unsettling and even challenge the moral and social frameworks that uphold our lived reality.
Indeed, if the love Jesus expressed to those around him was grounded in an established Jewish ethic, then logically, it can be asked whether Christianity is just a continuation of Judaism. And what of Islam, a religion which respects Jesus as a prophet and messenger equal to the great patriarchs of the past like Noah, Abraham, Moses, and even Muhammad (PBUH), how does this all fit into the narratives taught in Sunday schools around the world? However, what is being overlooked by many alarmists and other religious isolationists is that identifying points of commonality between religions creates an ideal framework from which to explore their divergence from each other. Indeed, it would be silly to assume that just because religions share common moral traditions, they are all the same. The existence of hundreds of religions, all of which strive for the singular goal of living a good life through partnership with divinity, is empirical evidence of the fallibility of this type of thinking.
The question that should be asked is, instead, while Christianity – or any other religion, share many points of commonality with its theological cousins, how does it differ from them in the presuppositions which inform its application? Indeed, the metrics that inform the presuppositions are what interest me most when considering religious nuances, specifically those that revolve around the boundaries of application. So, what are the boundaries set around the expression of love for others that define its practice in Christianity, and how does this set it apart as a unique approach to divinity? To begin digging into this, we must turn to the Gospel of Luke and explore a simple yet ill-intentioned question that has had the greatest impact not only on Christianity but on the world it has forged over the last 2000 years.
The Gospel of Luke describes a certain lawyer who approached Jesus and asked him ‘Master, what shall I do to inherent eternal life’ (Luke 10: 25)? Answering him, Jesus responded by pointing to what had been written in the Law which the lawyer is quick to summarize as ‘thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all they soul, and with all they strength … and they neighbour as thyself’ (Ibid.:27). Up to this point, like HM, we are able to pull various comparisons and similarities with our Abrahamic cousins who both have very similar scriptures outlining the care of others as paramount to inheriting an eternal reward.
And yet, what comes next is so significant that it has completely changed the way we interact with and view the world around us. The lawyer, ‘willing to justify himself’ (Ibid.:29), asks Jesus a follow-up question, ‘who is my neighbour?’ (Ibid.) The telling of the Good Samaritan Parable has been forever solidified as Jesus’s response to the lawyers' attempts at entrapment and lends to our understanding of the seminal difference between Christianity and all other faiths. A difference which radically reshaped the ancient world and has had compounding effects down to our contemporary reality. Effects which have torn down tyrants and broken through the cages of oppression which have for so long kept people trapped in a pattern of abuse and despair (Holland 2019; Hart 2009).
So, how does the question “who is my neighbour” and Jesus’s response, typifying a Samaritan as the example of the moral and ethical standards required for inheriting eternal life, change the boundaries set for the expectations of application concerning love for others? The history between the Jews and the Samaritans is outlined throughout the New Testament, but must be understood in the context of the Kingdom of Israel's unification under King David and the subsequent civil schism that occurred during the reign of his grandson, King Rehoboam (1 Kings 12). The resulting separation of the 12 tribes, 10 in the Northern Kingdom and 2 in the Southern Kingdom, eventually led to the conquest and deportation of the Northern Kingdom in 722 BCE by the Assyrian Empire (2 Kings 17:6), leaving the Southern Kingdom, also referred to as the Kingdom of Judah, to remain in control of both Jerusalem and their portion of the promised land.
The initial exiling of the 10 tribes of the Northern Kingdom in Samaria is the starting point for the political, theological, and hereditary tensions experienced in Judeah at the time of Jesus, and where, according to our understanding, the animosity felt between the Jews and their distant cousins begins. Indeed, when the Jews returned from their own exile in 538 BCE under the direction of Cyrus the Great, they returned to Jerusalem to find that the people brought in to occupy Samaria had ‘settled … in the towns of Samaria’ (2 Kings 17:24) and had mixed with the remaining Israelites who had not been deported upon the fall of the Northern Kingdom. This mixing of Israelites with foreign settlers created an ethnically mixed population, which was referred to as Samaritans, as they occupied Samaria.
So, while the Southern Kingdom, which was predominantly of the tribe of Judah, had maintained its cultural and religious identity while in exile (Daniel 3; Daniel 6), it was appalled to see that the Samaritans were religiously and ethnically compromised. For the Jews returning to Jerusalem, seeing not only the ethnic mixing through intermarriage, but the mingling of foreign gods with Yahweh was blasphemous and a sign that they were no longer truly part of the covenant community. This is outlined in Ezra and explained that as the Jews attempted to rebuild the temple in Jerusalem, they outright rejected the Samaritans offer to assist in the process claiming that they ‘[had] nothing to do with us to build an house unto our God’ (Ezra 4: 3). Here we begin to see the formation of a covenantal, and thus hereditary, differentiation between the Jews and the Samaritans with the use of the word “our” to create separation and distinction between the God Yahweh of the Jews and the God of the Samaritans who they had mixed with the Lord their God.
Yet, it was not just theological differences that divided them and created the level of hostility felt during the time of Jesus, the rejection of the Samaritans’ offers to assist in the reconstruction of the temple was a severing of their social and cultural connection with the House of Jacob. The disowning of the Samaritans from the covenantal family and exclusion from participating in the worship of the God of Israel had significant repercussions. Ones which were not limited to just purposeful sabotage, ‘weaken[ing] the hands of the people of Judah, and trouble[ing] them in building’ (Ibid.: 4), but also led to the building of a second temple on Mt. Gerizim. This decision, which could be considered a religious schism, compounded the existing tensions by creating additional political and identity conflicts as both sides now directly contest the claim that they were the “true” Israel and that the house of the Lord existed with them.
Indeed, the construction of the 'Samaritans' own temple on Mt. Gerizim was a direct act of rebellion against Judah’s claim to covenantal authority and a statement of their own claim to that authority. While the Samaritans might have done this simply because they sought to worship the God of Israel despite their inability to do so in Jerusalem, many Jews felt that this was a continuation of their blasphemy and a sign that their rejection of Yahweh was complete. This eventually flared into open violence as the Jacobean John Hyrcanus raided and then destroyed the Mt. Gerizim temple in 111 BCE, setting the stage for the context in which Jesus and the lawyer find themselves. The historical animosity, highlighted by real and intense bouts of violence, between the Samaritans and the Jews created a typification of the other which bordered on the inhuman as each saw the other as the desecration of the sacred and holy covenant that father Abraham had made with God on behalf of his posterity. Thus, we see the creation of exceptionally strong social and cultural norms which prohibited any interaction between the two groups of people simply because ‘Jews have no dealings with the Samaritans’ (John 4:9). The strong prejudice that existed between the two community, born from beliefs of spiritual heresy, genetic compromising, and political violence and hostility, make the answer to the lawyer’s question that much more impactful as Samaritans were not just a hiss and a byword but the very embodiment of corruption.
Jesus’s answer to the lawyer in the form of the parable of the Good Samaritan becomes even more shocking as through it Jesus expands the idea of neighbour – and thus the supposition of who merited our love, charity, and good works, to not only those considered friendly, but those who were considered an enemy and a direct competitor to the Jew’s spiritual and cultural legitimacy. For Jesus, and thus Christians, the inclusion of Samaritans within the boundaries of who we are expected to show love towards redefines the concept entirely. It expertly dismantles any legalistic exceptions to the rule to go good to all men, as all men become your neighbour, including those who have fallen from God’s grace. It is this distinction, through the exemplification of the most extreme differences, which evolves Christianity away from its Jewish roots. Ultimately, differentiating it from every other religion or creed which seeks ‘the good of others’ (CRIII 2025) and allowing it to become a universal framework that applies to all, black or white, bond or free, male or female, as we all become alike before God, who is no longer a respecter of persons.
Now, I will not sit here and try to defend the case that Christianity in its various forms and iterations has ever succeeded in doing so, nor that Christianity as an imperialistic mechanism has not used other scripture to justify horrific and terrible acts in the name of Jesus. Indeed, Christianity, as a social and cultural force, has often sought to rescind the expansion of the boundaries associated with the parable of the Good Samaritan, opting to revert to a traditional framework that intentionally excludes the other. This is a normal reaction, grounded in the subconscious need humans have to differentiate between “them” and “us”. And yet, what Christ asked of his disciples was not inherently human at all, in fact, it pointedly pushed people to do what was not natural. The inherent queerness of Christ’s life and the way he encouraged his followers to live completely flipped the current narrative that ‘the strong do as they can and the weak suffer what they must’ (Thucydides, trans. Crawley 2020, Book 5, sec. 89), which was ingrained in the post-Hellenic world.
It is because of this reversal of normality that Christ's taught through his life and doctrine, which makes its abuse even more abhorrent. Those who ignored his instruction that the greatest amongst us should ‘be your servant’ (Matthew 23:11), ‘be as the younger’ (Luke 22:26), and ‘be your minister’ (Matthew 20:26) and instead insist on its use as a framework and metric of dominance and suppression, miss the fundamental principle which underpins it all. A principle which so brilliantly laid out in the parable of the Good Samaritan, and demonstrated by Christ on Maundy Thursday, that the love of Christ, and thus us as his disciples and followers, has no boundaries.
It is in the universalisation of Christ's love, and thus the love we are expected to show to our fellow man, that differentiates Christianity from its Jewish heritage and what continues to separate it from other religions like Islam. This simple question of “who is my neighbour” and the profound answer that Jesus gives through story telling breaks down social, cultural, ethnic, linguistic, even political differences and creates a single universal reality that ‘God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life’ (John 3:16). Simply put, Christians are indeed their brothers’ keepers, but what is unique about Christians as their brothers’ keepers is found within who is considered their brother and therefore meriting of their concern and keeping.
This redefinition of the outer limits of spiritual or religious kinship reshapes Christianity and extends the responsibilities to love beyond the traditional limitations imposed by most religions. It extends them to enemies and even encourages them to ‘bless them that curse you [and] do good to them that hate you’ (Matthew 5:44). The Christian responsibility for others, including those outside the religious, cultural, or social group, including those who would be considered an enemy, is the defining differentiation between Christianity, its Abrahamic cousins, and all other religions or creeds which ‘seek the good of others’ (CRIII 2025). And yet, this still does not do enough to differentiate how Christianity’s concept of love as a central tenet of belief is any different from the ‘Jewish ethic of caring for the stranger’ (Ibid.) or any other religions which ‘seek the good of others’ (Ibid.) like Islam.
While Jesus encouraged the Jews to love their enemies, this can still be imagined within the confines of social, cultural, or religious boundaries. The outer limits of the expected practice of love for your enemy are still in line with many other religions that impose caveats on strangers or guests. Additionally, even the harshest of religions still encourage reconciliation between enemies who are considered brothers through a kinship bond. And yet, what if these expectations were extended beyond those not considered part of the group through established, reified kinship lines? Specifically, what if these boundaries on the expectation of love were extended to those who are considered not only enemies but intentionally and overtly rejected?
This is where the subtle brilliance of Jesus’s answer to the question “who is my neighbour” shines as the example of the Samaritan demonstrates that no matter who you are, Jew or Gentile, leper or priest, believer or Roman oppressor, Christ’s love, and thus the love of those who have etched his name on their hearts, extends to everyone. Everyone is the key, and the lack of exception to this relational boundary is the differentiating factor that separates, at least in principle, Christianity from all other religions, and what we, as followers of Christ, need to strive to do. The God of the Jews, who became the God of the Christians, has now become the God of everyone on this earth, thereby extending the stewardship of his followers to encompass everyone and everything. There is no more distinction between those who are part of the covenantal fold and those who are not. Christ has truly become the saviour of all mankind, and even the most deplorable or rejected people still qualify for his love and thus our love by extension.