Tried to go on my usual morning walk today, but it was too damn cold. Made it to my car, sat in it to try and warm myself up for a bit, then it was back to the office. No walking on the trails around the office today. Outside temp was not even below 40F; it was 47F. But damn 10 mph wind gusts made it feel way colder. My vest was not enough to keep me warm. Should have brought a full jacket.

On the bright side, the Screamo mix that Spotify generated today is fire!

Going back to the car I sat in today. It was the Mazdaspeed3 that I drove to work today. I also drove it to work last Monday and Tuesday. I've noticed I've been driving it to the office more than the Mazda 3 Turbo. It's not that it's a better car than the newer Mazda 3; the Mazda 3 is a better daily driver. It's simply because I don't want to rack up miles on the newer car, especially when the Speed3 is still perfectly capable of driving me to work and back.

The Speed3 might already have 145K miles on it, but it still drives well, still looks good (from afar LOL) and can still haul ass when I need it to.

The Mazda 3 on the other hand just crested 16K miles and I'm cringing already. I want it to gain miles slower than the current rate it is gaining miles at. I'm trying to save it for longer drives like road trips, and for drives where I know I will be stuck in stop and go traffic. It doesn't help that the wife tries to drive it every chance she can get. She is literally addicted to driving this car because of how good it drives, the swell of low-end torque and the ease at which it can pass other cars on the highway. Oh and did I mention, there's no wheel spin when I floor it from a stop. Not even in this colder and sometimes rainy weather.

I understand that to some, this might seem like a luxury. Every morning I get to pick which car I want to drive to work in. In a sense, it is a luxury to have that option. On the other hand, none of the two cars I have are “luxury” cars. One is an old beater that happens to be a hot-hatch from a bygone era. — (Now that's a blog post for another day, making your own beater car.) — The other, is just a Mazda 3 with a turbo engine, though the interior is really quite... I'm not gonna say luxurious, but I will say... premium.

Regardless if its a luxury or not, I can tell you how I achieved such a feat. I pay off my cars and keep driving them, instead of trading them in for a new one right after paying it off. You save so much money by not having a monthly car payment. And if you save enough of that money, you can then buy another car in the future, and still keep your old car as backup.

#Journal #Cars #Mazda #Mazdaspeed3 #Mazda3Turbo #PersonalFinance

Here are some quick takeaways of some books I read this year.

Million Dollar Weekend – Noah Hagan

• Nice lessons: Always ask for what you want. Quantity > Quality. Visualize. A nice book to be put into a productive gear.

Sapiens – Yuval Noah Harari

• Sample theses: Physical communities are being replaced by virtual communities. Natural religions (nationalism, capitalism, moral frameworks, etc.) are replacing traditional deities. Real peace is the implausibility of war.
• In the last chapter, Harari describes Sapiens as god-like, but also perpetually dissatisfied and irresponsible. It’s less of a history textbook and more of a book using history to justify commentary on human behavior.

Zero to One – Peter Theil

• This is a book for the contrarian. What important truth do very few people agree with you on? Some main ideas are (1) Competition is bad. (2) Start small and don’t disrupt. (3) The power law – hedge in winners.
• I have reread this book once every few years. I can think about recent changes (AI, tech companies, competition, etc.) within the context of some simple ideas provided by this book.

The Best American Essays 2023 – Vivian Gornick

• This is basically an anthology of eclectic voices (e.g. a doctor treating an unusually unstable drug addict, a young adult in maximum security prison turned writer due to solitude, a girl finding out her mom is gay at the very end of her mom’s life through old photos, etc.)

Creating Database and Tables! This one is a bit “harder” because I have to plan the data model correctly. For the auth, I can reuse the Supabase auth tables, so the focus will be on the tables.

For the application I need 3 tables and a many-to-many table. For now this is enough to get the app going.

After creating the tables in the Supabase UI, I used the Supabase CLI to generate the types and applied them. Additionally, I added some API functions to be more prepared for the next day.

That was Day 04. ✅

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62 of #100DaysToOffload
#log #AdventOfProgress
Thoughts?

The silver full moon shines even through the clouds; illuminating them on the brownish blue night sky.

!!

And the frozen slush of molten dirty snow is blank and slippery — against the sky, however, it looks like it glimmers with gold.

And in the car it’s warm. And the dogs are warm.

And I have my family with me.

My whole world in this dark warm car.

Isn’t that something?

#poetry

Death of The Far Right

And men came to riches You and I were forever Impossibly bare Intoning what could be Extending our day The Price is Right Seconds to film See what works for the lampstand Made to fail inner workings And to not marry Alone at international customs The size of a hummingbird Preciously waiting with widgets Hair of a Druze just for her We were people on LinkedIn Maine sold a story Of the ever-bunch and bottomless pit Oversymptomification for four This day is running you Like a place without water Noticed every sin What a trapeze would have honoured- A slight spill There was Erudite change And spoken English But of someone cousin, and the love, Making perfect in the act- We were put out for bankruptcy because we were poor We ran for the gates Were put in government Nobody showed us the door Became the President I am the little one Praying for years about sex And a tiny embargo- A fortune- Was days from war And we owed and we sued For trouble of carriage Last in line Just like you

We, The People, Expected this world Were perfunctorily perfect Mythes of second hair A lil frail Popsicle on time Precious top Eating early Hatin’ no-one Friends for life Yeah we was no-one And we left the world better- In Black Power And Christ came

Pat McCarthy (left) with students in Liaoning, where he invested his life savings to advance education for the children of rural China through his non-profit school. Photo captured at the November 2025 Ireland-China Speech Festival.

Liaoning’s Dawn

In Liaoning's fields where quiet dreams reside,

Pat walks with purpose, love his only guide.

He gave his all—life’s savings in his hand—

To plant a school where hope could take its stand.

He does not beg, but beckons those with might,

To join his cause and bring the dawn to light.

O stewards of tomorrow, lend your flame—

Let legacy, not wealth alone, define your name.

To support this mission and help widen the horizon for children in rural China, please consider contributing through the GlobalGiving initiative Give 1,000 Rural Children an English Education.

#poetry

#IrelandChinaRelations

#RuralChina

#CharityinChina

© 2025 Europe China Monitor News Team

It’s 4am. The worst time. LT – 6 months old – is crying. Again. She last cried 40 minutes ago. And she cried 40 minutes before that. I’ve lost count and track of the times before. This is unusual. I’m not equipped for it.

But I’ve had enough. It’s late. Or is it early? I’ve had no sleep, and I have important things to do in the morning. (Not really, but they seem it at 4am.)

Six months. That’s old enough for her to be trying it on, isn’t it? This is beginning to feel like a tantrum. I’ll let her work it out by herself…

But she’s not stopping. She’s just working up to more and more distress. So I pick her up. Of course I do. And I hug, and I soothe, and I beg because I don’t know what else to do. She comes into our bed, and with some hugs and kisses and songs she eventually gets back off to sleep.

I look at the clock and decide I may as well get up. And I go to work, and I type, almost on autopilot. And I go to Smith’s where I forget to buy what I went in for, and leave my debit card in the machine when I go back in for the second time. And then I go home, tired, grumpy and dreading the night ahead.

“Her first tooth has come through!” my partner grins. And in six words, the confusion of the night before crystallises into sense. And I feel awful, because it wasn’t a tantrum, and I was a horrible Dad. And I realise those important things I had to do were, in fact, minuscule.

And I feel wonderful because she’s growing up and I’m there to see it.

I go to her, and she looks at me, and beams that big toothless grin – not so toothless now – and I sit beside her, and she reaches out and rests her hand on me. And whatever she’s capable of thinking or feeling, I feel welcome, forgiven and loved.

#notes #november2014

the origin repo is here.

this note records my questions and solutions of this project.

First two questions are:

• what is the code const todoInput = document.querySelector(".todo-input") try to do?
• what “event listeners” are (like the addEventListener parts)? or who listening the event?

The first one is to use dot selector to pass the todo-input-related to todoInput, and the code could use it for event listening logic writing. The second one is the browser that listening the event, the event listeners maybe a process of a browser, and when the code which contain addEventListener, browser then create a process for event listen. but actually I'm not sure the explain is right or not.

The whole things are: user write the content, and click the so called Send button, browser listening this button event, cuz the JS code we write is running in the browser, and the browser know, then execute the specific function, for example, addTodo.

Then another question is: if don't create div tag, what will happen?

If we change the code in addTodo from this:

todoDiv.appendChild(newTodo);
todoDiv.appendChild(completedButton);
todoDiv.appendChild(trashButton);
todoList.appendChild(todoDiv);

to this:

todoList.appendChild(newTodo);
todoList.appendChild(completedButton);
todoList.appendChild(trashButton);

which mean directly put the Send button, Delete button, and div on todoList. we could see: after changing the code, those three are divided, much ugly. Although I don't know why I refresh the page and everything become normal(maybe the browser is correcting my code).

Refactor

After read the function of getTodos, I know why after refresh. The page become normal because after refresh, the getTodos function is called, and there also a create todo logic in it, since there the logic is right, the page will still perform right.

But this also come up an issue that, there are repetitive codes in addTodo and getTodos, we can DRY that code.

I DRY that code myself, but seems some bugs occur, so I think I should read twice before coding.

Before, the functions addTodo and getTodos are looked like this:

function addTodo(e) {
  e.preventDefault();
  
  // Create todo div
  const todoDiv = document.createElement("div");
  todoDiv.classList.add("todo");
  
  // Create list
  const newTodo = document.createElement("li");
  newTodo.innerText = todoInput.value;
  
  // Save to local
  saveLocalTodos(todoInput.value);
  newTodo.classList.add("todo-item");
  todoDiv.appendChild(newTodo);
  todoInput.value = "";
  
  // Create Completed Button
  const completedButton = document.createElement("button");
  completedButton.innerHTML = `✓`;
  completedButton.classList.add("complete-btn");
  todoDiv.appendChild(completedButton);
  
  // Create trash button
  const trashButton = document.createElement("button");
  trashButton.innerHTML = `✗`;
  trashButton.classList.add("trash-btn");
  todoDiv.appendChild(trashButton);
  
  // Final Todo
  todoList.appendChild(todoDiv);
}

function getTodos() {
  let todos;
  
  if (localStorage.getItem("todos") === null) {
    todos = [];
  } else {
    todos = JSON.parse(localStorage.getItem("todos"));
  }
  
  todos.forEach(function (todo) {
    // Create todo div
    const todoDiv = document.createElement("div");
    todoDiv.classList.add("todo");
    
    // Create list
    const newTodo = document.createElement("li");
    newTodo.innerText = todo;
    newTodo.classList.add("todo-item");
    todoDiv.appendChild(newTodo);
    todoInput.value = "";
    
    // Create Completed Button
    const completedButton = document.createElement("button");
    completedButton.innerHTML = `✓`;
    completedButton.classList.add("complete-btn");
    todoDiv.appendChild(completedButton);
    
    // Create trash button
    const trashButton = document.createElement("button");
    trashButton.innerHTML = `✗`;
    trashButton.classList.add("trash-btn");
    todoDiv.appendChild(trashButton);
    
    // Final Todo
    todoList.appendChild(todoDiv);
  });

I think it's hard to refactor now, at least at this form.

About these code, here are some questions:

• what is 'e' and what is preventDefault do?
• why we need todoInput.value = "";

As we all know, when a button is submit type, its default action is submit the form to the remote server. But since here we only use local memory to keep the todo list, so don't need to do that. And the 'e' here is just a parameter to pass the related variable of clicking event define by browser.

Delete Myth

After commenting out the style.css link in index.html, I find a strange problem of this code: when I input, submit, and delete the note, it didn't delete at once, but after a refresh. Code is here:

function deleteTodo(e) {
  const item = e.target;

  if (item.classList[0] === "trash-btn") {
    const todo = item.parentElement;
    
    todo.classList.add("fall");
    todo.classList.add("completed");
    removeLocalTodos(todo);
    
    todo.addEventListener("transitionend", (e) => {
      todo.remove();
    });
  }
  
  if (item.classList[0] === "complete-btn") {
    const todo = item.parentElement;
    
    todo.classList.toggle("completed");
  }
}

Here I use console.log to test what is item, and found it is button. But something beyond my surprise:

const todo = item.parentElement;
console.log(todo)
todo.classList.add("fall");
todo.classList.add("completed");
console.log(todo)
removeLocalTodos(todo);

The first and the second log show the same content! which is a div have 3 class.

Last Word

Well, this project is poorly written, I give up reading it. Never, ever, read a rubbish project.

A long time after ChatGPT release, we heavily depending on all kinds of AI products.

• At the end of my college year, 80% of my paper was written by AI.
• After having a job(which is writting script), I use it to coding and give up coding myself.
• During AdventureX 2025, most of the products(including ours) here were created by AI.
• Even some Art Gallery start to put some so-called “AI-generated art” to show.
• Lots of “vibe coders” emege, develop software seems a thing that everyone could do.

We are so damn rely it that we almost lost our own thinking.

Of course I know someone will argue: “then why don't you criticise Google, Facebook, or Tiktok?” My answer is, they only change the way we see the infomation. Or worst, they just push what we wanna hear or see, we could still read the other media. But using AI, most of people will lost their thinking ability.

Don't use, you lose. When AI start its deep thinking, who the hell will think by themself? Once people are not thinking by themself, they are just a AI-prompt speaker, say what AI say, do what AI suggest.

Here is a talk from TED, it hold the same point with me.

On Feb 24th, I finish my first time hackthon on Devpost, with other three friends.

On June 24th, I receive an invitation email from AdventureX 2025. On July 28th, I finished the five days hackathon in Hangzhou.

Later, I joined a hackathon launched by Hackathon Weekly, a organization in Shenzhen.

I was excited, passionate, fall in love with these hackathons. I once hope that, in China, there will be more well-organized hackathons there waiting for people to join in. But now, what I wanna say is: Don't join any hackathon in China, and here are why.

Root weak here

Open Source community is weak in China, and due to the network policy, even in code&design, some people still don't know how to use oversea services.

Most of the hackathons in China don't have the enough revenue to run. They seldom have support from Big Tech like Tencent, Alibaba, Baidu or ByteDance, except for those launched by Big Tech. So there is far less hackathons here in China, and is reasonable why the hackathons in China is poor and low-quality: it just hard to launch new one.

Hasty is evil

Maybe this is not a special one in China, the hackathon oversea is also. But I still wanna say: lots of people are hasty here.

When I join in AdventureX 2025, you could hear at least five people here are drop out, or just don't care school work, just for join hackahton or embrace innovation. Everyone seems want to be next Elon, Jobs, Gates, want to build something great, but hardly sit for a single thing to do.

This won't just be a home for old writings. Just putting a few things here while I shutter some internet presences. Writings anonymised and in one place. Lovely.

#notes #december2025

Yesterday I watched a game of chess. This was the third game between two people: one homeless, the other suspended 20 to 30 feet above the Earth in a small perspex box near Tower Bridge. The score was one all.

The man in the box was renowned magician and levitator David Blaine. His latest trick, Above the Below, is to go 44 days without food in said box, thereby besting Jesus’ world record by four days.

I see Blaine’s opponent, Francois Greeff, at about 10 in the morning. A large chessboard plastic pieces is laid out. On it it says U R NOT ALONE.

Greeff strides into the field of play, an apparently ordinary gent in a suit. He carries a sign. “Hidden Disability is the Prime Cause of Homelessness”. Blaine acknowledges with a friendly wave.

Like many — maybe all — people affected by homelessness, Greeff is not the stereotype.. Most passers-by will see a man in a suit looking intently at a chess board. If they speak to him they’ll hear a well-spoken South African accent. Upon closer inspection, though: the tattered suitcase, fraying suit, laceless shoes.

After weighing down the mat — autumn is putting in an appearance, it seems — the game begins. Greeff hides two large pawns behind his back. Pointing, Blaine chooses. He’ll play white.

The ranks and files of the board are labelled in duct tape, 1 to 8 and A to H. Greeff and Blaine have developed a simple but effective sign language. Blaine raises a hand to indicate he’s ready to move. This gesture differs only slightly from the friendly but lethargic wave to visitors. Greeff acknowledges with a wave of his own.

Blaine holds up some fingers, corresponding to the rank where the piece he wants to move sits. If there’s more than one, Greeff points to a piece with a broomstick. Blaine wags a finger, and then points left or right. Before long it’s thumbs-up.

Next, Blaine holds up some fingers to show how many squares he wants to move. This time Greeff picks up Blaine’s piece puts it down in the various possibilities. Blaine responds either thumbs up or thumbs down. It’s all great fun to watch.

Blaine plans his moves with pen and paper. His attention only moves to the giant board as Greeff makes his grandiose moves. Blaine communicates alertly, keenly and seems generally normal. (This was at the time that some of his TV appearances were borderline catatonic.)

It’s played out in public, but this is a personal battle for Greeff. He doesn’t want help. He insists that you don’t point at the board when you speak to him, in case Blaine interprets this as taking advice. Otherwise, he’s happy to talk.

“There’s no doubt about it, there’s a real man up there”, he says to passers by who question whether Blaine’s stunt is somehow a trick. “You know when you arm-wrestle, you can feel the resistance and strength of your opponent? This game is the same. I can feel the strength and resistance of David’s mind.” Greeff’s mind isn’t too shabby either. Later I’d find out he’s written a guide to cryptic crosswords.

The game lasts six or seven hours. Sometimes there are errors. Blaine gives away a bishop cheaply in the opening phase. But these are players in unusual circumstances. David Blaine hasn’t eaten for 15 days. Greeff’s story is different. “My cause is more important than my name, so please refer to me as The Hidden Disability Guy, his website says.

Blaine takes longer to move than Greeff. Maybe he just wants to the entertainment to last. Most days there’ll be no game of chess. There’ll just be people waving, or make guerilla documentaries. On a bad day, people throw things.

Mid-afternoon the storm comes. Greeff, equipped with umbrella, continues undeterred. Later he tells me he’s pleased that it rained. As visitors hurry for cover, Greeff is resolved.

Greeff wins between 4 and 5pm. He’s nibbled away at Blaine’s material the whole game. Under-prepared, I watch the end game from the cover of City Hall.

Greeff eventually gives up the umbrella — too windy. He packs up his things with the help of a wobbly associate, dancing to the tune of Special Brew.

Later, I bumped into Greeff at London Bridge station. I congratulated him on his victory, two games to one. He’d arrange to get some pictures from the hipster media types, but he was skeptical that the media proper would be interested. I suggested the internet may be different. Encouraged, Greeff gave me a sticker with his contact details.

“Email me, but make sure you tell me who you are and where I spoke to you”, he said. “I have a disability that affects my memory.” Shaking hands, we parted ways. I went north, The Hidden Disability Guy went south.

#notes #september2003

Hace tiempo, cuando acumulé la suficiente fuerza para ello, me vi un video sobre las tradwives que me interesaba. La autora no es santo de mi devoción, ni la sigo ni nada, pero quería escuchar el discurso. Centra su video en recordarle a la gente que las tradwives son una performance, y no debería usarse como manual de ama de casa. Aún así me siento violenta y molesta porque se reitera con frecuencia que “muy bien por ellas, que hacen mucho dinero con su actuación, una forma más de trabajo y performance”. No, muy bien por ellas no, el hecho de que su performance mueva dinero no la hace más legítima (quizás lo empeore aún más, si cabe). La responsabilidad sobre lo que proyectan sigue estando ahí, no sobrecae solamente en las mujeres cansadas y enganchadas al scroll infinito de sus respectivas aplicaciones (por lo general) privativas. Destaco esto último porque es fácil que el algoritmo de estas apps enganchen una búsqueda de un perfil de mujer que consista en “tips para cocinar” o “tips para calmar a tu bebé” en una ola de tradwives.

Hay cosas de toda esta retórica de mujer ama de casa (más allá del movimiento tradwife) que me resulta muy complejo. Hay una asociación automática del cuidado del hogar con su contraposición, girl-boss creo que se llama popularmente, basada en la idea de excelencia y esfuerzo en el entorno laboral.

Escoge tu veneno.

Al rebuscar esos espacios que están entre ambos conceptos, me he visto en un aprieto. Cuando he leído a Adrienne Rich hablar de la casa y la maternidad en Nacemos de mujer, me he sentido tan violenta que he tenido que frenar. La maternidad se presenta como un yugo en el que se mezcla el amor por una criatura y el odio a todo lo demás que representa cuidarla. No puedo leerlo ahora mismo.

Cuando he leído a Vivian Gornick en Apegos feroces, empiezo a ver varios “registros” de mujer en la casa y veo reflejos de eso que busco, pero de nuevo el patriarcado deslumbra siempre en ese papel. Por ejemplo narrando como su madre se quedaba en la casa pese a haber empezado un trabajo porque su marido (pese a ser activo en círculos de izquierda de mediados de siglo XX en EEUU) sentía agresividad en la idea de que su hija se criase sin una madre constantemente en la casa.

Saltamos entonces, entre otros, a Ir más allá de la piel, escritos de Federici, donde por fin encuentro textos que sitúan el cuerpo, la mujer, la maternidad y el hogar desde otra mirada. Voy a destacar un parrafito que me llegó como una bocanada de aire:

(…) Y la maternidad podría no ser un acto performativo de género, sino entenderse como una decisión política e instauradora de valores. En una sociedad autónoma y autogobernada, este tipo de decisiones se tomaría teniendo en cuenta el bienestar colectivo, los recursos disponibles y la preservación de la riqueza natural. (…) la decisión de tener un hijo también debe contemplarse como una negativa a permitir que los planificadores capitalistas decidan quién puede vivir y quién tiene que morir o ni siquiera llegar a nacer.

Subrayo con el lápiz “podría no ser un acto performativo de género”, satisfecha. Ahí empiezo a encontrarme. Desde los feminismos hemos hablado tanto de cuidar y criar como una sentencia, que cuidar y criar parece el camino malo. Si bien es cierto que por lo general, la independencia económica ayuda a las mujeres a sortear algunos caminos de opresión (por ejemplo la diferencia de poder y su respectiva exposición a la violencia que supone depender de un hombre, pareja o familia), ensalzar la figura del trabajo solo sustituye una prisión por otra.

Volviendo al tema de las tradwives, leí en algún lado la frase “si es lo que quieren, no hay nada de malo”, acompañado de algún comentario sobre las feministas queriendo imponer elecciones vitales sobre las mujeres. Aquí hay varios puntos a destacar. Para empezar, casi todos estos videos (me he tenido que ver algunos o parte de ellos, poco a poco porque si no era una tortura emocional y mental) comentan algo en la línea de “mi marido me ha pedido X, y yo hago su deseo realidad porque él paga las facturas”, y por cierto, no he encontrado tampoco ningún tipo de reciprocidad de “él hace X por mí porque me quiere mucho” o similar. Hay una posición muy clara promovida en esos videos: el hombre (siempre hombre) que se supone que es mi pareja sentimental, es mi jefe. Mi vida doméstica y emocional son un anexo de su vida, él es el protagonista. Dentro de esto, algunas actúan mostrando algún tipo de cuidado (por lo general absurdamente sacrificado) a sus criaturas. Sea como fuere, este tipo de discurso sólo tiene sentido en un contexto que se asume patriarcal y poniendo el centro en quién pone el dinero (que se asume sin rechistar que es un hombre). Por lo tanto, ya de primeras eso de “libertad de decisión” necesita muchas comillas.

Por otro lado la proyección activa de ese rol a través de las redes está promocionando que la mujer (en general y sin avisos de ningún tipo sobre que están haciendo una performance) acepte ese papel. Lo romantiza, y lo eleva a una imagen que puede distar mucho de lo que realmente era tradicionalmente una mujer, su hogar y su familia. Quiero aclarar con esto último, no me refiero a que esta realidad fuera más atractiva ni mucho menos, si no destacar que no hay una búsqueda real sobre tradiciones o una investigación sobre la mujer de hace generaciones. Es sólo una selección muy concreta de fantasías: cocina, maternidad sacrificada (incluso en situaciones que no requerirían de sacrificio) y sumisión a la figura masculina. Generalmente acompañado también de una estética concreta de ropa y estilo.

En este espacio tan violento, ¿cómo encuentra una referencias para criar desde los feminismos? Pareciera que el simple hecho de criar y cuidar ya viene asociado a “rendirse” al patriarcado, si una escucha los ecos de las redes.

He estado luchando contra esta marea desde el momento en el que me quedé embarazada. Si buscaba referencias, videos, artículos, etc sobre crianza, era un auténtico campo de minas. Ese video cuqui que te enseña una receta interesante y esa madre que te explica como ha hecho un juego sensorial para su bebé, puede saltarte de pronto con una postura fantasiosa tradwife y te hace sospechar o, peor aún, dudar sobre ti misma. “Yo sólo quería cuidar y enseñarle el mundo a otra personita”, es lo que me he repetido muchas veces desde hace un año y algo. De pronto me he visto empujada a una situación en la que el trabajo se ve con otros ojos, y los roles de género que ya resonaban de antes a lo lejos ahora son campanazos diarios. No quería asumir ese papel de girl-boss pero tampoco actuar como madre sacrificada que se queda en la casa.

Para mi la respuesta ha sido una mezcla de varias cosas, como no tener cuenta en redes tipo Instagram , TikTok, Twitter, etc. Pero principalmente juntarme con otras madres. La soledad, el cansancio y la falta de tiempo facilitan que cualquier mensaje simple y fantasioso envenene la proyección de la realidad. Sin embargo juntarme y hablar con otras mujeres (que, irónicamente, es algo que sí ha hecho en otras generaciones), me ha ayudado a encontrar esa crianza de la que habla Federici. También, en mi caso, tener una pareja sensibilizada que ha hecho su búsqueda, estudio y trabajo personal en paralelo al mío para compensar esas cosas que el patriarcado asume de nuestra relación, como el hecho de que él sea una suerte de jefe.

Tener una red de apoyo fuera y dentro de la familia afecta también a ese concepto de sacrificio, y me hace pensar que si no llego y otras llegan, mi hija se beneficia de mi salud emocional y mental, así como de contar indirectamente de más amor a parte del mio. Mi hija sigue siendo mi hija, pero por ella se preocupan (y diferentes medidas) toda una comunidad, seleccionada con cuidado por su padre y por mí. En este descubrimiento de la crianza también caben muchas más posibilidades (quedarse o no en casa, en que medida, de qué manera, por ejemplo, sin que esto sea agresivo ni me haga dudar de mi apoyo a los feminismos. Los configura de una forma más abierta y realista.

Los cuidados como parte de esa proyección de sociedad amable, no como una soga patriarcal. Son una acción que rota. Un día mi pareja me cuida, otro le cuido yo, y así entre les dos, cuidamos a nuestra hija. A veces me siento perdida, pero otras madres tienen la experiencia que buscaba para encontrarme. La respuesta -para mí- estaba en la comunidad, y en salir de esa red de soledad, de individualismo envenenado que promocionan esas redes.

Las tradwife solo son actrices que se aprovechan de ese veneno tan lucrativo.

La crianza y los cuidados no son exclusivos de sus fantasías.

Y eso será lo que le muestre a mi hija.

JOURNAL 4 deécembre 2025

Les psy aujourd'hui m'ont dit que j'étais tout au bord de la falaise mais faut pas que j’aie peur de sauter. Je connais déjà la réponse et je ne veux pas l'accepter parce que ça va inévitablement me questionner après sur moi-même, et je ne veux pas. Et c’est vrai, je sais ce soir qu’ils ont raison. J’y ai bien réfléchi depuis. Oui ça y est, je sais, et je n’ai pas envie d’aller plus loin. Et je sais qu’il va bien falloir le faire, et A sera à mon côté. Mais je ne veux pas le faire tout de suite. Je veux d'abord un gros câlin, gros gros gros, je veux pas descendre au fond.

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el frío se pega a la ventana y aunque no es nada nuevo este tiempo es así de anticuado un invierno que atrapa la casa estira las horas mientras el silencio / según se mire es soledad o abrigo