(for Tania, Goldie, Jack, Georgia, and Grey) – may you rest

Sedative Ketamine Rainbow

My dogs, my loves, my deers

These were your last memories, and I could only think to pick up shards of glass as you laid in urine.

Hardly the time.

I know how to clean like Glenn Gould plays the piano or how Howard Hughes knows germs.

I wish I had kept the stains, kept the beds. I wish I had made daisies of your golden deaths.

I must be completely mad.

I've spent the better part of September creating what has amounted to a 40-page document detailing builds and things that need getting made to get the home studio in order.

Why am I like this?

#journal #studio #cairo

Retour au post de guet, la fenêtre d’un studio loué dans une minicité (chambre-salon, cuisinette, douche-WC) ou [soi se tenant dans le fond du couloir] l’embrasure commune de la porte d’entrée. On piste du regard et de l’ouïe, non l’entièreté physique de la ville immense, inembrassable d’un coup, mais sa nuit, le trou de la ville-nuit, en quoi ‒ ou plutôt qui ‒ défilent, pareils aux nuages dans la troposphère, le questionnement [de soi], tel épisode de fantasmes que l’on tourne en séries, la marge équivoque des songes, une poussée de confiance ou de désespoir, et surtout l’image de la ville, qui voile son inconnu.

[Soi devant cette image mouvante.]

#Fenêtresurville #Didascalies

 

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Photo “deep forest 2” by the-photon-trap is licensed under CC BY-NC-ND 2.0.

too much tech is like escapism for our underlying human issues.

Somebody at church Wednesday night told me something I wrote on Facebook was labeled AI-created. Or AI-influenced. Or AI-something or another.

I laughed.

“Well, I use SpeakApp.”

And yes, apparently there’s some AI under the hood. I didn’t even realize that when I started using it.

I just knew the thing was useful.

I talk.

It listens.

Then it hands my words back to me.

That’s it.

I originally started using it because I’m a preacher and a hospice chaplain. Sometimes I need to remember exactly what was said. Sometimes the conversation is serious. Very serious. Sometimes I’m trying to determine whether somebody might hurt themselves:

“Do you intend self-harm? Do you have a plan, a tool, a device that could remove you from us or your pain?”

Words matter in those rooms.

So I started recording my thoughts and conversations when appropriate, then going back through them.

But somewhere along the road, I discovered something else.

I could write while driving.

Not typing.

Not staring at a screen.

Talking.

Like I’m doing right now.

SpeakApp is recording every word.

Later, I’ll go through it. Clean it up. Cut the fat. Straighten the crooked sentences. Make it sound like me.

I know exactly how I like to write. I love the voice of Pulp fiction. Noir.

Short sentences. Hard stops. A little thunder dripping off the edges.

Remember Mickey Spillane? That old noir style?

Somebody once asked me what pulp fiction writing sounded like. Years ago, before I started going to church, I used to give them this ridiculous example:

“She walked into my office. She was hot. Hotter than hot. She went through men like most men go through cigarettes.”

People laughed. They were supposed to. It was over the top. That was the point.

I wouldn’t write something like that today–too worldly. But I use it as a fairly good example of the writing style that I am most familiar with, the one that captures my “writing voice” and forges it into a hammer of vengeance when the need to make a point is paramount.

Pulp fiction writing isn’t trying to win a literary prize. It moves. Fast.

“He came through the door asking questions. I answered with my right hand. He wouldn’t be asking another one for a while.”

Swing the sledgehammer. Bang. Move on.

Bruce Willis could do that kind of thing on Moonlighting. Quick. Sharp. No wasted motion.

And frankly, I think that kind of writing works today because people’s attention spans aren’t exactly getting longer–thank you, X (the social media platform formerly known as Twitter).

So here I am. Driving down the road. I just dropped Vinnie off after chemo. I’ve already been doing chaplain work.

Now I’ve got to get home, grab my stuff, put on my little suit—the one that works for preaching and chaplain work—and head back out for a big meeting.

And through all of it, I’m talking. Capturing thoughts while they’re still warm. Before they disappear. Hands on the wheel. Voice in the App.

Because that’s the strange thing about writing. Every writer eventually develops what they call their “writer’s voice.”

You can study writing. Get an MFA. Get a PhD. Sit in classrooms and discuss “writer’s voice” until the coffee gets cold.

But this? This is literally my voice. My actual voice. Coming out of my mouth while I’m driving down the highway at 65 mph.

Then I take that spoken voice and hammer it into my writing voice. Cut a word here. Move a sentence there. Drop another one. Let a little pulp-fiction thunder drip down the page.

And then I post it.

So now I’m curious. What will Facebook call this?

AI-created? AI-assisted? AI-influenced? AI-derived?

Who knows? Who cares?

The thoughts are mine. The stories are mine. The experiences are mine. The voice coming through the microphone is mine. The machine just helps me catch it before it gets away.

And because of the voice recording, I’m writing more than I have in years. That matters to me.

Because I’m not sitting behind a keyboard trying to remember what I was thinking three hours ago. I’m catching the thought while it still has blood pumping through it.

I talk. I hit the red button. SpeakApp cleans up the dead air, the “uhs,” the pauses, the hiccups and coughs, and some of the verbal wreckage.

Then I go to work.

Sometimes I’ll even hear a preacher on YouTube say something worth remembering. I can capture the material, work with the transcript, and move what I need into Google Docs for my own notes and my own personal Bible study.

For a preacher, this thing is a toolbox. And don’t us guys just love tools.

A hammer doesn’t build the house by itself. A microphone doesn’t preach the sermon. A pen never wrote a book without a hand wrapped around it.

And software doesn’t have my memories.

It didn’t live my life. It didn’t drop Vinnie off at chemo today. It didn’t walk into hospice rooms yesterdays. It didn’t hold the hand of the dying patient, or lead that wayward soul into the Sinner’s Prayer. It didn’t stand behind my pulpit. It wasn’t there.

I was.

So call it whatever you want. AI-assisted. AI-influenced. Machine-polished.

I don’t particularly care. I’m still the guy behind the wheel. Literally.

And figuratively.

SpeakApp just helps me catch the words before they blow out the window.

Then I take them home… and make them thunder.

(Thank you, Jenny, for telling me that. I dedicate this blog post to you and our interactive Bible study questions at Wednesday Night Bible Study.)

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photo © Martina @Marty75

Upon rereading A place I cannot yet go, I noticed my framing through the use of the word yet. Such a small but profound word. Yet is not soon. Soon measures distance on a clock, the ticks that jump from second to second, as if time were some supreme mechanism ticking toward an appointed hour. But time is less a matter of gearworks than of celestial motion, bodies turning in relation to one another — souls intertwined despite and because of their geometry. Yet asserts not when but where, a place behind a door that only one key can open, and that key belongs to a particular hand.

Yet is also an admission, in both senses — the first, confession; the second, entry. Admissions have their own geometry, opening only at certain alignments of and by certain bodies, filtering the song from the noise, the performative from the real, and the heart from the heartless.

I'm listening to a very special playlist again, songs gathered across lifetimes, realities, and synchronicities. Some would call it nostalgia. I call it communion. I can't go home yet, can't be there together, and yet I can still feel it through the music — confirmation of bond as connection and destination. Perhaps that is how one remembers a place not yet reached, by looking back to look forward, listening patiently for the key to finally turn.

#Intermundia #Anomalology

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By D. Bowman | Nomina Numina is a journal of my reflections, moments, and meaning-making between worlds. Reply by email.

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AKISO Yoga Wear: Why 100% Cotton Clothing Is Ideal for Comfortable Yoga

Let's be honest — yoga isn't just about nailing a pose. Half the battle is just feeling comfortable while you're stretching, bending, sitting cross-legged, or trying to sit still and breathe. And what you've got on your body matters way more here than people realise. That's basically why so many people end up ditching the usual synthetic gym clothes and reaching for cotton instead. AKISO Yoga Wear is built around exactly that idea — comfy clothing made from natural fabrics, instead of the stretchy synthetic stuff every other brand pushes. So what's the actual deal with cotton? Why does it work so well for yoga? Let's break it down. Why Your Clothes Actually Matter on the Mat Your body's twisting, folding, and stretching in every direction during a session. And something too tight or stiff or just... wrong, quietly turns into a distraction you didn't sign up for. Good yoga clothes should just let you: • Stretch and move without thinking twice • Sit and meditate without fidgeting • Flow from one pose to the next without tugging at anything • Stay comfortable the whole way through, not just the first ten minutes The fabric, the fit, the actual design of the thing — all of it adds up to whether your clothes help you or get in your way. What's So Great About Cotton, Really? Cotton's been around forever for a reason — it's soft, it breathes, it just feels right against skin. For yoga specifically, that turns into a few real perks. It's just... comfortable. Yoga swings between movement and stillness, and soft fabric makes both feel better. If natural materials are your thing, 100% cotton yoga wear nails that balance — good whether you're mid-stretch or sitting dead still meditating. It actually breathes. Air moves through cotton in a way synthetic fabrics just don't manage. For slower sessions, stretching, or meditation, that breathability is the difference between feeling relaxed and feeling sticky. It moves when you move. Yoga pulls your body every which way, so your clothes better keep up. Decent cotton yoga pants handle the bending and sitting and pose-switching without putting up a fight. So Why AKISO, Specifically? Most activewear brands go all-in on synthetic fabrics made for intense training. And sure, that makes sense for some workouts. But yoga's not always that kind of workout, so why dress like it is? AKISO Yoga Wear goes with cotton and other natural fabrics instead. The whole idea is simple — your clothes shouldn't be something you're managing mid-practice. Home mat, studio class, quiet meditation corner — doesn't matter. Comfortable clothing just does its job and disappears into the background. How to Actually Pick Cotton Yoga Pants Your legs and hips need room to move naturally — this matters more than most people think when shopping. Stuff worth checking before you buy: • What the fabric's actually made of • How the waistband sits and feels • Overall fit • Length • How easily you can move around in them • Fabric weight Slower, meditative practice? Go relaxed fit. More active session? You'll probably want something snugger but still flexible. Men's Yoga Pants Worth Grabbing Guys need the same freedom of movement, just cut a bit differently. Look for room around the hips, thighs, and knees — without it turning into a baggy mess. Cotton works great here too, especially if you already lean toward natural fabrics for stretching and meditation. Honestly, fit beats everything else — you shouldn't be adjusting your pants mid-pose. Women's Yoga Pants Built to Actually Move For women, it's about that fit-flexibility-movement combo all coming together. Women's yoga pants come in a ton of styles these days, so it really comes down to your own practice and taste. Not into synthetic leggings? Cotton yoga pants are a solid swap — especially for gentler practices, meditation, or just lounging around the house afterward. Don't Sleep on the Top Your top matters just as much as the pants, even though it gets way less attention. A good cotton yoga top lets your shoulders and arms move freely without pulling tight. For slower practice, stretching, or meditation, a breathable cotton yoga top is honestly all you need. It should just stay put — so you're focused on your breath, not yanking your top back into place every two minutes. Yoga Matching Sets, Because Decision Fatigue Is Real If you like a coordinated look, yoga matching sets basically remove the “what do I wear today” question. You get a put-together outfit, pieces that actually work together, and one less thing to think about before your mat time. A few good sets in rotation, and your whole yoga wardrobe pretty much sorts itself. Does Cotton Work for Every Kind of Yoga? Mostly, yeah — especially gentle and moderate practices, stretching, meditation, everyday movement. But no fabric's perfect for literally everything. Doing hot yoga or something really intense? You might actually prefer technical, moisture-wicking fabric instead. Comes down to your style, your environment, and what genuinely feels right on your body. Keeping Cotton Yoga Wear Looking Good Nothing complicated here — just the basics, done properly. • Follow the washing instructions on the label • Skip unnecessarily harsh washes • Wash similar colours together • Dry as instructed • Store clean stuff somewhere dry That's really it. Final Thoughts At the end of the day, the best yoga clothing is whatever fades into the background and lets you actually focus on your practice. If natural fabrics are your thing, 100% cotton yoga wear is a genuinely comfortable pick — for yoga, stretching, meditation, or just moving through your day. Soft, breathable, and honestly a nice break from the synthetic activewear taking over every store shelf. Ready to switch to something that actually feels good on your skin? Check out AKISO Yoga Wear and find your next go-to yoga outfit.

It is funny how you can meet someone and just know. Isn't it? There's no rhyme nor reason, but as soon as you come across them even without word or look, something inside pings.

I have often wondered about this. Various beliefs have their opinion on it. I do think physics also is capable of explaining it. Fictional books, like the series I'm reading now, are often inspired by the idea. But what is it? What is it?

Mind you, when I say “someone” I do mean animal and plants, too. I find it odd that so many claim to never feel the awareness. Then again, how many are actually aware? Connection is a funny thing. I wonder why its embrace has such curious variables.

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En Dan Dit

'Nou de kop is er af' zei de beul staande bij het Håk™ hakblok tegen de ceremonie meester aan het begin van hun eerste werkdag op het gerenoveerde podium van het juridisch staatstheater.

Keer kerel, keer om, je verkeert in verkeerde kringen en daar doe je keer op keer verkeerde dingen.

Dikke Bult vers

De paardenknechten probeerden een merrie tot coopulatie te dwingen En dan en daar vanuit het niets horen zij engelen zingen... 'Help ons wij zijn van daarboven omlaag gevallen wij liggen op een hoopje tussen beide paardenstallen ik heb onder andere mijn enkel gebroken zij de hare verrekt of verstuikt en het raakt al ontstoken zijn bekken staat scheef en de heup is uit de kom en haar arm staat op een heel rare manier krom help ons alsjeblieft het was een behoorlijke smak help ons op de been en stel ons op het gemak we konden er niets aan doen de hemel brak open net op die plek waar wij onze trainingsrondjes lopen' De paardenknechten durfden er niet aan te beginnen ze raakten in paniek en zetten het op een rennen Teleurgesteld over het voortdurend uitblijven van verbeterende daden gingen ze zich vervolgens te buiten aan een scala van gruwelijke misdaden.

I haven't used Instagram in a long time. Kind of funny to note. When I typed that first sentence it said, I haven't looked at Instagram in a long time. I went back and changed it to used. It seemed more fitting, in the same sense as when a person says they haven't used heroin or cocaine in awhile. I kicked Instagram. Cold turkey.

It was part of my daily routine for a long time before I stopped. I would get home from work, and make something to eat. Then I would sit on the couch eating, and scrolling. One day I just randomly decided that I had enough of it. Wasn't even something I had planned to do that day. No build up or anything. I was just sitting there staring at my phone, and I thought, wtf am I doing?

No idea at all how long ago it was when I stopped. I guess there is likely a way to look that up in usage history data or something. I don't really care about it enough to bother. I don't miss it. It is interesting to think about how I could instantly live without it.

There were some okay things about it. A lot of good people post a lot of good content there. The biggest issue for me was the lack of control over what came up next. On top of the lack of control; it was very obviously being infiltrated by useless A.I. slop. That is likely worse now than it was when I stopped.

I was thinking about the words Artificial Intelligence. I found myself thinking of them on their own. Artificial. Intelligence. I had a weird thought that the thing we are calling Artificial Intelligence is not artificial or intelligent.

It is a bunch of massive computers, that are real. They have been fed things that their creators stole from us. Things that were created with our intelligence. It has all been converted into data. The things process that data with processors the size of warehouses, and their creators sell that as intelligence. And I guess we buy it.

They are like vampires draining things from humanity that we require for our existence. Where are they getting all the materials to build these things? Can those materials be used to make life better for humans in some way, and not for building massive computers? I don't know. Probably.

Draining water. Draining electricity. They say that they generate enough heat to warm the air around them. For miles around. Like we need that right now.

Do we need A.I.? Why?

It seems mostly so a tiny handful of rich a$$holes can be even richer than they already were, and so they can have more power, and more control.

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Well, after 104 days since my last day of work, and 226 days total of waiting I finally got my approval.

Nothing changes right away, I need to wait for things to get processed and wait for the approval to get mailed. While this feels life changing (and it is), it is also a reminder of how quickly things can change. The unfairness that surrounds us each and every day. The prejudice and injustice. The bias that encircles this awful judgment. It feels like a relief, yet I continue to live with this lack of freedom. I have to hold myself at such high standards, and still, my life can easily be held on such a tight and delicate string.

I was terminated from my job, so I will need to start over again. As exciting as this is, it doesn’t just mean I can get back to work ASAP. It will take some time to get back to regularity and I need to have some time to find myself and really define what is important to me. While this is a great sign and all I have been waiting for, it is only the beginning. I now have to move on to the next step; the fight is not over yet.

Don’t get me wrong, I am feeling a huge wave of gratitude and relief. Beyond happy for the opportunities available for me… including maybe swinging a visit to a special someone.

Thank you for your message. I am currently out of office — but not for much longer.