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I know I'm not alone in this. It's no secret that many people use this feature to gain control of their screen time. But what may be a little-known secret to many Linux users is that you can do this exact thing on Ubuntu too. And it's not exclusive to Ubuntu, either. If you're a Linux desktop user running a modern version of GNOME, you should be able to take advantage of this as well. Here's how:

Enabling Monochrome Mode on GNOME

1. On your desktop, navigate to *Settings > Accessibility*.
2. From here, click on *Zoom*, and under “Magnifier,” change the *Magnification Factor* to 1.00.
3. Scroll down to “*Color Filters*” and move the *Color* slider to *None* on the far left.
4. Scroll back up to the top and toggle *Desktop Zoom* whenever you want to enable or disable monochrome mode.

Bonus Tip: Keyboard Shortcut

If you also navigate to *Settings > Keyboard*, scroll down to “*Keyboard Shortcuts*,” and click “*View and Customize Shortcuts*,” you can then select “*Accessibility*” and set a custom keyboard shortcut for “*Turn zoom on or off*.” Now, every time you want to jump between monochrome and colored modes, all you need to do is activate your keyboard shortcut. I personally set mine to *Super+c* (c for “color” in my mind).

It's that simple. If you also have a problem with over-consuming media on your computer the same way you do on your phone, this might be a good way to help you reclaim your attention.

Will this fix your screen addiction? No. Is it easy to just toggle color back on whenever you feel the urge to watch a video or scroll on social media? Yes. But it's not about creating obstacles to prevent you from doing those things. It's about reminding yourself what you are on your device for and to help you focus, minimize distractions, and stay on task.

I'm confident there are ways to do this on other desktop setups, whether that's other Linux desktop environments, macOS, or Windows. If you are on one of those, and you use this feature, feel free to share in the comments below how you achieve a monochrome desktop so we can all benefit from your wisdom.

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POTUS wants to control the Fed so that he can control the interest rates that banks charge him, and, lets face it, the guy has a lot of loans. Practically every piece of property he owns probably has a mortgage or two. If he can lower the interest rates on loans, he will pay less, and have more money.

So, why might this be good for borrowers like POTUS and not so good for others. When businesses get lower interest rates, they borrow and invest more. This means they will have more loans to pay off. Businesses need money to pay the banks. To get more money, businesses increase the price of the products they make. When prices go up it is called inflation.

Some businesses will take out loans so they can invest more in stocks or property. This can cause a bubble in prices. Bubbles are generally not sustainable and eventually cause a collapse in prices.

The other problem that this causes when interest rates are low is that banks cannot pay much to savers for the use of their money. You loan your money to the bank when you put it in a savings account. Many save for a down payment for a home. When inflation is low the bank pays less to use your money.

POTUS wants to control interest rates for two purposes. First, low interest rates allow him to borrow more money. During the up side of a low interest rate bubble, POTUS could say “See what I did! Credit Card interest is low.” During the down side of the bubble POTUS can say “Look what the FED did. Someone should control them.”

Stable prices and full employment make living easy. The Fed needs independence to give us both of these. Stay well and be happy with your friends and family,

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I realize it has been years since we last spoke and that this will come out of the blue, but you see, I realized I need to write you a letter to tell you what you meant to me. Meeting you was life-changing. You made my life better. So, that’s what I am doing. I’m even considering printing it out to snail-mail it, but we’ll see.

I just want to make sure to write this letter now and tell you how grateful I am before I get lost in uncertainty about my health and end up writing a different kind of letter entirely.

So,

Thank you for believing me when I said how bad things were.

Thank you for accepting that I was going to take Provigil whether you wanted me to or not.

Thank you for patiently being my doctor for such a long time. And though you eventually let me go, I want you to know that I have never thought of you with resentment.

Let me meander through my mind now, please. Catch you up a tiny bit.

As you told me back then, moods — they come and go. It was good for a long time, then okay, and then the last few years, pretty bleak.

Everything became grey and numb and I was increasingly unpleasant to be around. And it just went on and on and on. After a while I couldn’t sleep.

But then, a while back, a few months, I started to taper down on some meds, I started eating proper food. Three meals a day with vegetables and protein and lots of water, and the fog lifted again. I started thinking and doing things again. And finally, I became a not-horrible person to be around. It’s been a bit like back when I started seeing you and taking better meds and life finally became enjoyable.

Music, which has always been such a big part of my life, I have barely listened to anything the last few years.

Back when I saw you I had strong, wild feelings about everything. Perhaps I fell in love in inappropriate ways, but I also laughed and, yes, it was a whirlwind, but on the heels of that I started writing. Nothing world-altering, mind you, just coming-of-age stories, retelling my teenaged years, some of my adult years too. All set in the world of Harry Potter.

It’s funny, now that I think of it. Writing fan-fiction was liberating in the same way as knitting crooked rectangles and sewing them together into blankets were. No pressure to knit neat stitches. No patterns, or counting, just endless variations of colors and materials to not be bored.

Writing fan-fiction was like that. No pressure. No world-building. Just people working through the angst and alienation. It’s funny, because until I sat down to write this I had forgotten that’s why I chose fan-fiction. Because of the lack of pressure. But the weird thing is, it came back. Fan-fiction, as it turns out, is also a world of accomplishments in its small way, and how do I measure up? I found myself wanting.

So sadly, after that initial burst of creativity born out of needing to please no one, I haven’t been able to write, because the pressure to be better makes writing a chore. I want to be better at grammar, better at telling stories. Get the clicks and likes. So I edit and edit and edit. And really, who enjoys that?

I need to get back to writing crooked squares. You asked me once what I wanted to do with my life, and my answer might have seemed flippant at the time, but I really had thought about it a lot. I told you I wanted contentedness. A beautiful house with green walls and bookcases filled with books and two cats and sunshine through the windows bringing the beautiful grain in the wooden floors to life.

I know it was unsatisfying, my lack of vision, lack of longing for a real legacy. Perhaps it was sad how tiny my world was and you were right. But I have been small all my life. My wins, the things I achieved because I tried to, have always been small. I have never dreamt big, because when people told me I couldn’t do it or that I’m not good enough, I believed them. To be honest, they never even had to be explicit. I have always proactively looked for signs of dismissal and lack of respect, and if I once had big, sincere, unfettered dreams it wasn’t possible for them to persist in the kind of poison doubt and lack of confidence that gives off.

Everything joyous, dreams as well, die in a fearful mind. And that’s me. Too afraid to prove them all wrong, because if I fail, if I am found wanting, I’d have to feel the sting of humiliation and I’d doubt myself and wonder if it’s even worth it.

With that fear defining me, contentedness became what was left. Floating outside the world, untouchable by whatever regard or lack thereof others may have for me. That’s what contentedness is: never having to worry about failing, or trying, or feeling left out.

I have wondered if I was supposed to fight for it. If I should have called back after you said we couldn’t work together, and said I’d do better, that I understood what you were trying to do and how it was impossible when I didn’t follow through on my end of the bargain. But to me rejection has always been final, you see? There is no redemption, or shades of grey. It’s absolute. A judgment is a judgment; there is no ambiguity.

If I had tried and failed that might have knocked me out of the numbness and forced me to feel loss, and sadness, and regret.

But, let’s say, I have grown up. Let’s say I am ready for a dream — that if I were to dream, it would be to write a book, to have it published. Proper publishing, mind you. Being selected, and found special, and printed, and bound in a volume that can be found in a bookstore.

I think I see now that your strength and ability to follow through, and your optimism that there always is a state of mind worth living for, is non-trivial. It’s not innate. It takes guts. It takes hard work. It takes steel-reinforced conviction to be able to withstand the darkness and sadness. Perhaps you do it armed with unrelentingly executed routines. Eat, sleep, meds — and not necessarily in that order. But every day. Get up, make the bed, sit down and have breakfast, walk… The kind of dreary, boring, mundane life movies about people who are about to take the red pill lead. The kind of life protagonists are liberated from. But also the kind of life that truly is the foundation a mind that’s constantly in flux needs. When the turmoil is in your head, guns aren’t required for drama, but should they appear, then surely eating, sleeping and taking one’s meds will make it easier to face them, to be able to make the decision whether to hide, run or fight. (Or whatever, it’s hard for me to give up on a metaphor once I get going.)

Or as the stewardess says, place the mask over your own face first.

I have thought about writing you before, but I was worried you died and I was too afraid to find out. And then, I thought about rejection, and silence, and isn’t it just easier to decide that it’s not appropriate? It’s been a long time, and letting things slip away may not have served me particularly well, but it sort of works. You don’t have to suffer great pain, instead you just have a constant low-level kind of ache.

I feel better now.

I’m recovering from COVID, finally, perhaps. My mind is clearer than it has been in a long time, and while I would love to write a book, I still don’t have such lofty ambitions. I want to live a bit more, laugh a bit more, be kinder to others, make what they say less about me and perhaps that way allow myself to stay present, find some joy and pleasure.

I don’t want to regret, and I know not saying that you meant so much to me would be a regret. Living happily ever after is never in the cards with bipolar; you made me accept that. You also gave me a name for what has been plaguing me all my life. It wasn’t just being too dramatic or self-centered, it wasn’t just a personality flaw. It’s a part of me, yes, but it’s not a failure. It just is, and yes it makes life harder both for me and those around me, but it has a name and that makes it a tiny, tiny bit easier.

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I suppose it’s a little like that. I had a CT scan, and they found a neuroendocrine tumor in my ileum. The doctor said, as cancers go, that’s an OK one. I don’t really know anything yet. The doctor wasn’t particularly forthcoming about what happens now. Except I need some other kind of scan. I find the lack of information odd. Surely, even if you as a doctor have not yourself had the experience of illness and diagnosis, you must have seen enough medical dramas on TV to make it pretty obvious what hearing such a thing does to someone.

As that someone, here is what I suggest: prepare some answers for some of the questions your patient will be too shocked and scared to ask. Yes?

I get it. I need more tests and stuff. Maybe docs don’t want to commit.

I’ve had a lump in my armpit for a while. I've been talked out of worrying about it. Well, now I am working and whether they were able to feel it or not, I can. And tomorrow, when I go to the doctor’s office, I will slam my fist on the table and demand an ultrasound, or whatever it is that’s done about these things.

I want to be zen about this situation. I want to infuse my life with the knowledge that whether the prognosis is good or bad, life is more precious now, and I need to stop idling and start telling people I care for them. That I enjoy their company. I want to eat well, and not do stuff that is boring, or useless, or sucks. Who knows. It’s just a CT scan, maybe it’s something benign. Or at least something that can be removed and maybe I can have a full life. After all, my blood work is perfectly normal. Or, as the unforthcoming doctor said, “everything looks good by the numbers.”

I want to be zen, but it’s frightening and it’s hard to sleep. And I cry. I am fighting the creature that’s clawing away at the improvements I have made the last couple of months. The monster that is whispering and yelling, telling me that it’s pointless.

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I am sorry about laying this on you in a letter that’s supposed to be about gratitude, but I am scared and lonely and you made it through serious illness. But ultimately, the happiness I have had and the happiness that I will have regardless of this situation, and for however long it might be, is thanks to you. I won’t give up now. I am determined to live as well as I possibly can.

I wanted you to know I carry your influence with me, and it matters now more than ever.

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You crave the rawness of the world, You want to see its flaws, The inner belly behind the flesh that is disguises itself as to us, You seek the comfort of a home, Of stability, Of an organized plan, Then you’re bored, Craving the ever moving tides that guide you through the journey, You crave the meaning behind the world you see, Process, Place it in a box, Remove from box, Nothing fits into a box, An internal struggle you constantly face You are the air breezing from place to place, You crave to be tied down, Then fight to escape to the roaming winds once again, Being free of a town, An ever moving escape, For the Zen you crave, That no one seems to understand. -Jess Elyssa Rose

The Monster.

You suppress it all, And yet you carry it with in you, Everywhere you go, In the back if your mind it haunts you, Getting further pushed back into your subconscious, The thoughts you hate to remember, The fears you face, The insomnia you keep, From the daunting remembrance of those events you try harder and harder to subdue, Deeper and deeper into you, But you can only push so far before you irrupt like a volcano, Ruining everything its its wake, Only you ruin other things, The relationship you love, The friends you adore, You ruin it all, In an attempt to keep the monsters at bay. -Jess Elyssa Rose

AI: Absent Introspection

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For the past few days it has felt “off-topic” to write or think about anything other than the attacks on free speech in the U.S. But I don't have a framework – yet – for writing about that, and I do have a close-reading framework for thinking about the ways AI encourages us to think about and use it.

When I say AI I'm shorthanding for “GenAI,” or generative AI – take your pick of chatbots like ChatGPT or image generation systems like DALL-E. I'll be using examples primarily from ChatGPT because it's still the most well-known brand-name AI, but most of the underlying principles are common to all AI – yes, even your favorite, yes, even ChatGPT4 or 5, yes, even the ones that promise to be significantly “better” than previous models. This is a way to understand what the project of AI is and does, even if you aren't an advanced computer scientist.

Let's begin by setting the stage. In close reading of literture, I might introduce the conventions of the genre, or discuss relevant biographical details. Here, let's get on the same page about what GenAI is. And since I like to let the text speak for itself, here's ChatGPT describing its own epistemology: How does it “know” things?

Generative AI is a predictive algorithm that uses extremely large (and no, not always “publicly available”) datasets as context to predict the next word in a sequence. By this laborious process – which is a clue as to why the technology is so incredibly resource-intensive – it constructs answers to queries that both trawl and curate available information and present it to the user in a facsimile of human speech. Rather than getting a list of relevant search results (and don't get me started on how “relevancy” in search results algorithms has been a slow and steady bait-and-switch) you are given a paragraph of “speech” as if a friend is explaining the concept to you.

This speech is prioritized and shaped by a training system. This part is very vague and heavily policed by the companies that control each AI, so it's tough to get specifics, but here is ChatGPT with a reasonable summary of how it works (I cut off the first part, which is essentially “crunching a big dataset on its own, by trying to predict a word and then checking against a source to adjust for loss”):

(I want to be clear, since it would be very silly of me, that I'm not taking ChatGPT at its word here. I've done my own research over the last few years on how GenAI works and this is consistent and sufficient for an investigation into the way its “knowledge” is both produced and professed to be “knowledge,” even if the picture is not technically precise. If you want to learn more about the computer science of it all, I recommend Emily Bender's work on computational linguistics.)

It's natural to pause here and consider: How did the companies, and the individual computer scientists, who developed GenAI decide on this approach? In what ways is it a natural outgrowth of their access to, and immense pressure to monetize, large datasets? How does it reflect a “computer science epistemology,” that is, a way of understanding the production of knowledge that is informed by the methods and the deemed-important questions of the field of computer science? And how did this all come to be labeled “intelligence”?

I encourage you to think more about these questions, and would love to hear your thoughts. In the meantime, let's keep focus on just the process by which AI produces “knowledge.” By predicting the next word in a sentence – and let's acknowledge that of course its analytical process is more contextual than that, so it's really predicting the next word in a sentence within a paragraph within a query that points it to a knowledge-base – it is necessarily a synthesis-machine. It will take what it can analyze and attempt to find a word – read, an answer – of best fit, defined as a combination of most-popular (the parameters set by its first round of training) and most-desired (the parameters of its second round of human-mediated training – who are the reinforcers and what is their epistemology, by the way?).

It is a predictor of the middle-way and then, worse, it parses that middle way into approximate, predictive text. And this is a best-case scenario, if it works perfectly – even though, as a necessary consequence of a predictive process, hallucinations are going to be a feature and not a bug in the system.

Does that process describe critical thinking? Does that process align with your own ideas of what it means to produce knowledge? Sometimes, when what you want is not knowledge but an approximation of general feeling, that might be a reasonable way to go about it – though, of course, you're allowing a dangerous distance between your own ideas of what “approximation” and “feeling” mean for veracity and what the AI presents to you. But in its own way, that's not necessarily harmful, if we do as we are told and “double-check important info.” However, in the next post I will discuss how the rest of the apparatus in these screenshots, not to mention the way AI is discussed and economically incentivized, encourages the user to use the tool in place of research and critical thinking – in place of the user's intelligence.

Thanks for listening. ~

Why does the truth now lead to hatred, causing people to become enemies of those who share it? A happy life is cherished, and that happiness comes from embracing the truth. Perhaps it's because people love the truth only when it aligns with what they already cherish. They want to believe they are right and resist being shown otherwise. This is why they hate the truth—it threatens what they love more than the truth itself. They appreciate the truth when it enlightens them but despise it when it points out their faults. They want to avoid being deceived, yet they often deceive themselves. They love the truth when it reveals something positive, but they hate it when it exposes their flaws.

— St. Augustine, Confessions, Book X, Chapter XXIII

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Au cœur du sud de la Chine, à 700 mètres sous terre, une mission scientifique d'une ambition folle vient de démarrer. Son nom, JUNO (Jiangmen Underground Neutrino Observatory). Son instrument, une sphère titanesque de 35 mètres de diamètre. Sa cible, le neutrino, la particule la plus insaisissable de l'univers. Plongeons au cœur de cette expérience qui pourrait changer notre vision du cosmos.

Avant de comprendre la mission de JUNO, il est essentiel de savoir ce qu'est un neutrino. Souvent surnommées “particules fantômes”, les neutrinos sont des particules fondamentales qui possèdent des propriétés uniques. Ils sont extrêmement légers et possèdent une masse, mais elle est infime. Leur charge est neutre, ils n'ont donc pas de charge électrique, ce qui leur permet de ne pas être affectés par les champs électromagnétiques. Ils interagissent très peu avec la matière, au point que des milliards d'entre eux traversent notre corps et la Terre entière chaque seconde sans laisser la moindre trace. Cette nature fuyante rend leur détection incroyablement complexe et nécessite des détecteurs gigantesques comme JUNO pour espérer en capturer quelques-uns.

Le mystère de l'oscillation et de la masse des neutrinos

La physique des particules a été bouleversée lorsque les scientifiques Takaaki Kajita et Arthur Bruce McDonald ont prouvé que les neutrinos pouvaient osciller. Cela signifie qu'ils peuvent se transformer spontanément entre trois types, ou “saveurs”. L’électronique, la muonique et la tauique. Cette découverte, récompensée par le prix Nobel de physique en 2015, a prouvé deux choses fondamentales. Les neutrinos ont une masse et celle-ci est différente pour chaque saveur. Mais une question primordiale demeure: dans quel ordre ? C'est ce que l'on appelle la hiérarchie des masses des neutrinos et c'est le principal mystère que JUNO a pour mission de résoudre.

L'observatoire JUNO – Un piège à neutrinos révolutionnaire

Pour attraper ces fantômes, JUNO est un véritable chef-d'œuvre d'ingénierie. Voici comment il fonctionne:

1. Le Scintillateur Liquide: La sphère de 35 mètres est remplie de 20 000 tonnes d'un liquide spécial. Lorsqu'un rare neutrino (ou plus précisément un antineutrino provenant de centrales nucléaires voisines) frappe une particule dans ce liquide, il produit un flash de lumière minuscule.

2. Les Capteurs de Lumière: Des milliers de capteurs ultra-sensibles, appelés tubes photomultiplicateurs, tapissent la paroi interne de la sphère. Ils sont capables de détecter même un photon unique de lumière.

3. La Conversion du Signal: Ce flash lumineux est instantanément converti en un signal électrique, qui est ensuite analysé par les scientifiques.

Grâce à sa taille et à sa précision sans précédent, JUNO peut non seulement détecter ces interactions, mais aussi mesurer l'énergie de la particule avec une résolution exceptionnelle. Son but numéro un est de déterminer si la hiérarchie des masses des neutrinos est directe (le neutrino tau est le plus lourd) ou inversée (il est plus léger que le muonique). En analysant précisément les antineutrinos émis par deux centrales nucléaires situées à proximité, les chercheurs pourront observer les motifs de leur oscillation et en déduire l'ordre correct des masses. L'équipe scientifique estime qu'il faudra environ six ans de collecte de données pour obtenir une réponse statistiquement fiable. Cette découverte serait une avancée majeure pour la physique fondamentale et notre compréhension de l'univers.

Au-delà de la masse – Vers le secret de l'antimatière

La mission de JUNO ne s'arrête pas là. À plus long terme, ses données pourraient aider à percer une énigme encore plus profonde, l'existence du neutrino de Majorana, une particule théorique qui serait sa propre antiparticule. Si les neutrinos sont bien des particules de Majorana, cela pourrait expliquer l'asymétrie matière-antimatière, l'un des plus grands mystères de la cosmologie. Pourquoi notre univers est-il fait de matière alors que le Big Bang aurait dû en créer des quantités égales avec l'antimatière ? La réponse se cache peut-être dans les propriétés fondamentales du neutrino. JUNO est donc une fenêtre ouverte sur les lois les plus fondamentales de la nature. La chasse aux particules fantômes ne fait que commencer et les secrets qu'elle révélera pourraient bien redéfinir notre place dans l'univers.

It was the morning of the 8th of Summerrise. With the aim of arriving at the site of a fallen star they’d seen the day before, they pondered their course of action. The morning brought relatively mild weather, and they set out south through the tundra, but got lost. Cédric, the Elf hunter, used his survival skills to find the path again. While he was doing that, a couple other PCs hunted, and one of them successfully hunted a fox. Cédric was able to find the path again, and he took the role of the pathfinder for the next quarter day, leading them south. Blanken, the PCs’ scout, spotted a lone sled dog barking and whining. Blanken tossed the dog a piece of meat, which it happily gobbled up. The dog led them to its dead owner, a lone hunter and his crashed sled. The PCs looted a few coins from the corpse and took the lone dog as one of their own, adding it to their crew of 9 other sled dogs!

Behind the screen: The dog was a random encounter I rolled in the moment. I also rolled on the “simple carried finds” table for the dead man’s loot.

Our heroes crossed the Keld river, arriving in an outpost called Keldstead.

Behind the screen: There is a settlement on the map in a bend of the river Keld. It was right in the path of where the PCs were headed, so I randomly generated it before the session and rolled up a settlement with 14 inhabitants, an inn, and a tannery.

It was evening, so the PCs debated whether to stay the night in Keldstead or keep on towards the fallen star. They decided to stay the night at the inn.

Our heroes went straight to the tannery, and met the tanner Lars. The PCs traded a few pelts and goods with him, acquiring some vials of hide glue and leather. He then advised them to visit the fortune teller, which they did.

The fortune teller lived in a tent right outside the outpost. They entered and found that she already had a client in session, a cloaked halfling.

Behind the screen: This is where the rest of the party were finally introduced to Buck the halfling, a PC whose player had to miss the first two sessions. This player was also a player in my Raven’s Purge campaign a few years ago, and Buck was his PC back then, too. So, originally all the PCs were going to know each other already, but given the circumstances I thought it would make more sense for them to be introduced to Buck at this fortune teller. I also talked this through with Buck’s player, and we settled on this. It also ties into why he is in the Bitter Reach. I had the PCs roll for reputation to see if they’d heard of Buck, and one of them actually had!

The fortune teller, who was known as “Mother”, told them of the Winter King Ferenblaud, his downfall, and his executioner Namtarel. She urged them to break the seals and release the Bitter Reach from its wintry curse. Our heroes were really interested in this quest, questioned the fortune teller whether she’s told anyone else the same legend. She said yes, she’s given others similar legends and quests in the service of the greater good. The PCs decided to follow this plot hook and took on Buck as a formal member of their team.

They spent the evening resting, and some PCs spent XP to gain ranks in talents. Cédric successfully hunted a boar.

Night fell. Eery silence, broken by a sudden alarm. A watcher had spotted two Nanuiks—huge aggressive polar bears—barreling towards Keldstead! Our heroes immediately mustered and readied for a fight. Cédric loosed an arrow, Celedor and Jorn got up close and personal with their swords. Blanken rained a volley of crossbow bolts onto the beasts. Buck impaled one with a thrown dagger. Even Lars, the tanner, dealt a dramatic blow with a spear (the spear was shattered due to a pushed roll). The bears almost shredded Jorn, but his armor saved him. Buck was almost crushed, but dodged just in time.

Our heroes triumphed over the Nanuiks, but not without a couple of close calls. And the bears destroyed one of the three huts in Keldstead.

Behind the Screen: unlike the sled dog, the fight with the Nanuiks was not a random encounter, it was GM fiat. About halfway through the session, I noticed a bit of a lull in the action. There had been a lot of hiking, hunting, role playing, mishaps, etc. You know, the procedural stuff. So the sudden bear attack was a way to end on a high note.

Our heroes helped tend to the wounded, and the village went back to sleep. In the morning they set out south, intent on finding the fallen star.

To be continued…

✝️ The Cost of Silence

Silence can guard wisdom—or betray it. The difference is whether truth is left standing alone.

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I. The Silence That Protects

Not all silence is weakness. There is a silence that is holy—stillness before God, the kind that listens more than it speaks.

Even Jesus stood silent before Pilate at times. He wasn’t cowering. He was showing that not every accusation deserves a defense, not every lie requires engagement. Some words are too hollow to dignify.

This kind of silence protects what is sacred from being trampled. It gives space for wisdom to be heard in its own time.

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II. The Silence That Betrays

But there is another kind of silence, and its cost is heavy. It is the silence that lets corruption root deeper, that gives injustice the cover of night, that allows evil to name itself good without being challenged.

Ezekiel warned of the watchman who sees the sword coming but fails to sound the trumpet. When destruction falls, the people are unprepared—and the silence shares the blame (Ezekiel 33:6).

To be silent in the face of deception is not neutrality. It is surrender.

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III. Why We Stay Silent

Why do we hold back our voices? Because silence feels safer. Because speaking the truth risks rejection, misunderstanding, mockery, or loss.

But silence purchased by fear is too costly. It trades truth for comfort, and it leaves the vulnerable unprotected.

This is where the proverb lands with its sharp edge: “Even a fool, when he holdeth his peace, is counted wise” (Proverbs 17:28). But wisdom is not only in holding silence. It is in knowing when silence guards and when it betrays.

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IV. When Silence Breaks

There comes a moment when silence is no longer faithful. Esther’s moment came when Mordecai told her plainly: “If thou altogether holdest thy peace at this time … who knoweth whether thou art come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” (Esther 4:14).

The call was clear: if she stayed silent, others would perish. If she spoke, she might perish. But silence was the costlier path.

So it is with us. Truth rarely demands comfort. More often it demands courage—the kind that breaks silence even when the voice trembles.

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V. Benediction

Guard the silence that keeps you near to God. Break the silence that gives lies the final word. And when the trumpet must sound, do not wait for another to blow it.

“For there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; neither hid, that shall not be known.” (Luke 12:2)

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✝️ El Costo del Silencio

El silencio puede guardar la sabiduría—o traicionarla. La diferencia está en si la verdad queda de pie, sola.

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I. El Silencio que Protege

No todo silencio es debilidad. Hay un silencio que es santo—quietud delante de Dios, el que escucha más de lo que habla.

Aun Jesús guardó silencio ante Pilato. No estaba acobardado. Mostraba que no toda acusación merece defensa, ni toda mentira requiere respuesta. Algunas palabras son demasiado vacías para ser dignificadas.

Ese tipo de silencio protege lo sagrado de ser pisoteado. Da espacio para que la sabiduría sea escuchada en su debido tiempo.

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II. El Silencio que Traiciona

Pero hay otro tipo de silencio, y su costo es alto. Es el silencio que deja que la corrupción eche raíces, que da a la injusticia la cobertura de la noche, que permite que el mal se nombre a sí mismo como bien sin ser desafiado.

Ezequiel advirtió sobre el atalaya que ve venir la espada pero no toca la trompeta. Cuando la destrucción cae, el pueblo no está preparado—y el silencio comparte la culpa (Ezequiel 33:6).

Guardar silencio frente al engaño no es neutralidad. Es rendición.

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III. Por Qué Callamos

¿Por qué retenemos nuestra voz? Porque el silencio parece más seguro. Porque decir la verdad arriesga rechazo, burla, pérdida.

Pero el silencio comprado por miedo es demasiado costoso. Cambia la verdad por comodidad, y deja a los vulnerables sin protección.

Aquí es donde el proverbio golpea con filo: “Aun el necio, cuando calla, es contado por sabio” (Proverbios 17:28). Pero la sabiduría no está solo en callar. Está en discernir cuándo el silencio guarda y cuándo traiciona.

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IV. Cuando el Silencio se Rompe

Llega un momento en que el silencio ya no es fiel. El momento de Ester llegó cuando Mardoqueo le dijo claramente: “Si callas absolutamente en este tiempo … ¿y quién sabe si para esta hora has llegado al reino?” (Ester 4:14).

El llamado era claro: si callaba, otros perecerían. Si hablaba, ella misma podía perecer. Pero el silencio era el camino más costoso.

Así es con nosotros. La verdad rara vez demanda comodidad. Más a menudo demanda valentía—la clase de valor que rompe el silencio aun cuando la voz tiembla.

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V. Bendición

Guarda el silencio que te mantiene cerca de Dios. Rompe el silencio que da la última palabra a las mentiras. Y cuando deba sonar la trompeta, no esperes a que otro la toque.

“Porque nada hay encubierto, que no haya de descubrirse; ni oculto, que no haya de saberse.” (Lucas 12:2)

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