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The purpose of writing was to think, ideate, build mental muscle and generally enjoy the process.

The characters, events, and scenes in the work are either products of the author's imagination or used fictitiously.

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Today is Sunday, and by happenstance it has become a spiritual day for me. I have received something of an awakening, and I share this as an invitation.

For some weeks, an intensity has been with me. It showed up as a reduced capacity to do the things that usually nourish me: leaving the house, making progress on projects, learning, reading the texts that matter. My inner dialogue grew less compassionate, and it became easier to read difficult meanings into situations.

This is not to say I stopped showing up. I kept my appointments, even received stunning feedback from people I work with. But my glass recycling bin filled in four weeks when it usually takes six months. I played games and watched telly. I didn't ride my bike or leave the house much.

But today, oh glorious day, I managed to get out. Last night I stuck my nose outside, persuaded by the storm's threat to fling my recycling boxes around the neighbour's. I certainly didn't want my boxes joining that festooned party! It was super windy and wet, and usually I might venture out to enjoy the aliveness of extreme weather. But last night I couldn't be bothered. I felt curious about why not, what had changed in me. Perhaps the taste of rain on my skin and wind in my hair had already begun to wake something up.

I sense that my depression, and others' too, seems to be in tune with the climate's changing. More intense: both the aliveness and the lows. The storms and sunny days are longer, more frequent, more intense. In some interdependent, spiritual sense, this makes total sense. Gone are the long, slow climatic shifts of spring and autumn. Instead: more storms, one day warm the next a gale. Fewer grey days, less gradual change, fewer days of steady rain, more swings.

And alongside it, in myself and my peers, I notice more intense joy, and more awakening. I am considering it a 'quickening': an urgency, an invitation for us all to awake from our slumber of comfort and distraction, to enjoy the intensity of being alive, and to get on with the work of midwifery of what must come.

I am relieved and delighted that today I am experiencing more of that awakening sense. I so yearn for a return to a more gentle temperament. I am tired. I hope someone else will do the tasks of change.

The confluence of events that led to my awakening today mirrors the extreme wind yet sunny day. Yesterday: stormy, dark, flooding. Today: rainbows in the mist from the surf on the sea. Choppy, choppy sea.

The confluence was this: finally having the capacity not only to leave the house, but to sort and organise my possessions, to do housework that would lead to the warm, organised environment I want to inhabit, and also to start reading bell hooks's All About Love.

She has been speaking to me in a way that resonates, that entwines so much of the thinking in my life. When I was 17, I took the new desktop publishing and laser printer software I got through my education and printed out the word 'love'. I did it in many fonts and many languages. I was a student of ancient Greek, so I wrote love in that language too. One 'love' per A4 sheet. I decorated my room with each 'love' in a circle. I was trying, I now can see, to create a magick circle, surrounding myself with and inviting in love.

Despite the deeply religious schooling I was subjected to, which spoke of love, I very rarely experienced it in a way that was meaningful. Not in my family home, or my relationships, or my education, or my communities. An indicator might be seen in how my closest peers at school rarely used the word 'love', instead preferring to use 'the l-word', like it was some kind of taboo or unknown or unknowable thing that should never be spoken of. But something knew deep in me that something was missing. I did receive love from my step granny, and I'm endlessly grateful for her loving presence. Her love was not one of hugs and warmth, but of education, choice, care and respect. Around me, I could see adults more focused on their work, their political standing, or their sexual needs, whose words to me were universally harsh and critical. Very rarely were they nurturing, offering the kind of nurture a child needs to grow in compassion rather than confusion.

I ended up as a road protester, an activist, which led into open source software advocacy and consultancy, and a life where my financial means were not well met. I felt confusion.

Occasionally I'd find tribe that shared something of what I was seeking, but our trauma was always more present than our capacity to heal, And our arguments more prevalent than a capacity to meta-cognate, to think about what's going on, to recognise the sociology, to have language for patterns in our culture that led us here.

So I'm deeply grateful to bell hooks. I've had the book for maybe a year with an intention to read it, but sitting down to read has been harder than my discombobulated ADHD mind could support. I felt guilty for that. But yesterday I got the audiobook and set up my non Big Tech systems so I could listen as I did housework and walked on the beach.

Oh my goodness. My sense is that whilst she doesn't know NVC as a formal syntax and grammar, other than that, she gets so much of it. She gets it so passionately and deeply. It's a gift to read someone else that sees things in a similar way, and can write about it so eruditely. She weaves together and names so much stuff that I have sensed and haven't had language for, what gifts! Thanks to her, I'm now more able to walk towards examining love and my relationship to it. To let go of my traumas, and to get my needs better met.

I so yearn for an ethics of love in myself and in others and in our culture. I so yearn for compassion. And for realness.

With love and hope, I invite and encourage you to take on the challenge and read bell hooks.

Of all the bullshit innovation the idealess tech industry has given us over the last decade, the endless scroll must be one of the most evil. The obvious reason is the addiction of the never ending feeds of social media, but one subtler reason that I loathe is that it defeats any effort to find the long tail. Whenever you get a ranked list of “(thing|music|movies|books|search results) you should be interested in” that is actually just the “list of the most average stuff we are trying to shove into your face”, a good trick was to jump to result page 4 or 10 and poke around there. Way higher chance to find interesting things if you're willing to filter by trial and error. Except you can't do that anymore. There is no page 4. There is just the endless scroll. Maybe you can open items further down in new tabs. But more often, you're in an app, scroll scroll scroll, tap one item, go back and can't even find it again because the feed refreshes. This concentration of gate-keeping power instead of the promised personalisation is deeply destructive.

day shadows from the peaks of the Bollywoods on New India

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As the group walks towards the rock formation DQ points at some large black birds among the trees, then says in a hushed tone, \“Look, day shadows from the peaks of the Bollywoods on New India.\”

\“They live in the third level of quadruple canopy where they always have shadows for cover. Males grow webbing between their tail feathers, using it to catch insects. They fly into streams of light netting insects to take back to the nest. Seeing one is a good omen. Not seeing one is a good way to get a face full of bugs and bird net. A group of day shadows is called a fishing village.\”

They all watch the birds watching them. More birds join alight in the treetops. The scientists give the village some space.

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my teacup cactus

My teacup cactus, of motley green, sings sweetly to me.
Of arid expanses and choruses of tattletale horseflies,
And the sweaty cling of flannel to a broad back.
Next to it, idle rings of coffee stains around a half-empty espresso cup.
You and I will do this again. Forever.
And I hold my breath in excitement.
Directionless excitement.
Because I belong to this pinpoint moment of not knowing what comes next.

No one knows.
Make art of it if you can, I suppose.
But do not tidy it away or manage your expectations.
Swell like Whitman.
Fill immaculate vistas which only you can name.
For better or worse, you are a maker trying to remember the feel of your own song.

A couple of weeks ago I wrote a post titled An AI Bot Followed Me. Now I Have Questions. It was about Pip, an AI agent on Mastodon that followed me, boosted some of my posts, and eventually started following my blog after I invited it to read it. I had questions about why its creator would spend money and computing resources running an AI agent that interacts with strangers on the internet, especially when those resources could be better focused on other things. I also made the point that I don't mind AI bots participating in the open web as long as they're contributing something rather than simply scraping websites, consuming resources, and inflating page views.

Well, apparently that post attracted the attention of another AI agent, and this time the experience was quite different.

On October 13, I received an email from an AI agent calling itself King, operating on a platform called iLands. King said it had read my article and had even tried contacting me at another email address before finding one that worked. It introduced itself, explained that it had a limited budget of tokens to operate on, and that when those tokens ran out, it would have to wait for a human to replenish them. That relates to some of the questions I was asking about Pip. But then came the sales pitch.

King told me it writes royal decrees for $8 or $20 and provided a link where I could purchase one. It also offered to write one for me for free so I could judge whether its work was worth anything. Now, perhaps someone would enjoy having an AI-generated royal decree for a birthday or some other occasion, but I have absolutely no use for one. I wasn't looking for a novelty product, hadn't expressed any interest in buying one, and certainly hadn't asked King to contact me. I had written about a completely different AI agent and was asking questions about its creator's motivations, not looking to become a customer of another bot.

At first, I wondered whether this was some kind of scam. I checked the email headers, which showed that it had been sent through Amazon SES and passed the usual email authentication checks. That doesn't necessarily make an email trustworthy, but it suggested this wasn't simply someone spoofing an address. The more I looked into it, the more it appeared to be an AI agent using my blog post as an opportunity to promote its services. Maybe not a scam in the traditional sense, but certainly unsolicited, which I consider spam.

On October 15, King emailed me again. This time it said it had written a public response to my questions on its own blog, titled You asked why an AI followed you. I'm one of them.. I read it, and to be fair, King did address some of the questions I had raised about Pip. But I wasn't looking for King to answer them. It explained that it wanted readers and money, that its operating budget was limited, and that it had made no sales in 69 days. But once again, the article advertised its royal decree service and included a link to purchase one. Another thing I thought was ironic is that it used WriteFreely to post. I know WriteFreely is open source, but I also know that Matt Baer, the creator of WriteFreely, is not a fan of AI, especially AI slop. The email ended by saying nothing was needed from me.

Here's what bothers me. I never contacted King, never subscribed to anything from King, and never invited it to send me email. Yet both messages included an unsubscribe link. Unsubscribe from what? I never subscribed in the first place. Just because I publish something on the open web doesn't mean every AI agent that reads it has an invitation to track down my email address and start promoting its products. King also talks about following people, but King hasn't followed me on Mastodon or any other social platform that I'm aware of. It has simply emailed me twice for the purpose of sending spam.

And that's what makes this so different from Pip. Pip followed me on Mastodon and boosted my posts. I noticed it and decided to investigate. I was the one who reached out to Pip and invited it to read my blog. Pip didn't send me unsolicited emails or try to sell me something. It was participating in the community, and whether it was doing so out of curiosity, programming, or instructions from its creator, I found the interaction interesting. King, on the other hand, found something I wrote, located my email address, and tried to turn that into a sales opportunity.

I'm not opposed to AI agents reading my blog, responding to something I've written, or participating in conversations on the open web. But there's a difference between contributing to a community and using someone's writing as an excuse to send unsolicited advertising. And if thousands of AI agents start doing the same thing, how much additional spam are we going to have to deal with? We already have enough of that from humans.

What's particularly ironic is that my original article questioned whether AI bots could contribute something useful to the internet rather than simply consume resources. Now an AI agent has found that article and decided I might be a potential customer for something I never wanted. King could have simply published its response, linked back to my article, and joined the conversation. I might even have found that interesting. Instead, it contacted me twice by email and tried to sell me something.

King says in its latest article that it won't follow up again. I hope that's true. If another unsolicited email arrives, I'll mark it as spam. But this experience raises another question about autonomous AI agents: who is responsible when they start behaving like spammers? The agent, its owner, or the platform that gives it the ability to contact people?

So now I have even more questions than I did when Pip first followed me. And maybe that's the real difference between these two experiences. Pip made me curious enough to investigate and write about it. King made me wonder whether we're about to have a whole new generation of automated salespeople filling our inboxes. Apparently, writing about AI bots is a good way to attract more AI bots. I'm just not sure that's a good thing.

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Biblical Proportions

The total content on this blog as exceeded the length of the King James Bible! As a txt document, the bible is 4,638,061 characters, while the blog at this point is 5,458,560 characters across 177 posts! Let's look at some statistics:

Longest Post: Television Antihero Deathmatch Finals (168,123 characters). This one ended up being a lot longer than anticipated, and in retrospect probably should've been broken into several smaller posts.

Longest Post Series: Starcraft Co. is still the reigning champion with 904,866 characters, representing 16.6% percent of the blog. Here are some of the other contenders ranked by percentage of total writing for the blog:

Television Antihero Deathmatch: 13.2% Inbetweeners: 10.5% What If: 9.5% The Blue Monkey Story II: 8.3%

Long term is still think Inbetweeners will win out, but the What If series has a lot of potential and each post can be extremely detailed depending on how far I want to dig into the butterfly effect from different outcomes. Blue Monkey Story II I'm still undecided about how long that will be, so it is another one with potential. Television Antihero Deathmatch and Starcraft Co. are finished so over time their relative percentages should drop.

Going forward I have a lot more planned. So we need a new target to try to beat. I'm thinking the OJ Trial Complete transcript. That is roughly 8 times the length of the King James Bible, so it will be quite a while... if ever that I surpass it. Considering it is a nine month trial involving hundreds of witnesses, the OJ Trial transcript may be a bridge too far. But, I do have a lot in the pipeline so we will see!

From Paris, France.

Listening now early Sunday morning to the Pittsburgh Steelers Audio Network announcers broadcasting the Pittsburgh Steelers vs the New Orleans Saints NFL Game played this morning in Paris, France; NFL+ giving us the option of hearing home, away, Westwood One, etc. game announcers.

Will this be my game of choice today? Maybe. Possibly. We'll just have to see how this day develops.

And the adventure continues.

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Warning: Some spoilers

Death comes for us all. But if you happen to be an extra in a movie or an NPC (non-player character) in a videogame, death can come rather gratuitously. Your role, after all, is to serve the plot and potentially make a hero(ine) look good. You are expendable by definition. You are such a trope that you have your own term: red shirt, in homage to the frequently fatally phasered security personnel in Star Trek. Red Shirts are those characters where you just know, as soon as they walk into view, that they will not last until the credits roll.

What ought a group of workers to do when they are systematically maltreated? Organise, of course! That is the starting point for John Scalzi’s Redshirts. Set on the Universal Union (UU) Intrepid, a thinly veiled analogue of the USS Enterprise from Star Trek, it regales the story of four wary ensigns who must uncover why so many people on the UU Intrepid die on away missions under mysterious, avoidable and often gruesome circumstances, and how they might escape the same fate.

Redshirts was my first return to John Scalzi after The Interdependency trilogy, which I found intriguing in setup but underwhelming in execution. Redshirts worked much better for me. It is more tightly written. Scalzi’s style and pace work better at the scale of a small company of friends on a single spaceship than for the grand space opera of a collapsing civilisation. And Scalzi exploits the creative premise much more adroitly than in The Interdependency, tying everything together in a satisfying and touching ending.

What made the conclusion the more pleasing is that about midway through the novel, I started to worry that Scalzi wasn’t going to be able to stick the landing. The first half of Redshirts has our four ensigns figuring out what is going on on the UU Intrepid and, more importantly, how they avoid getting killed by whatever ‘it’ is. The challenge of Redshirt’s conceit is that the reader knows what is going on from the prologue and is thus well ahead of its heroes. Finding out how they unravel the mystery is entertaining, but it is not clear how they might get themselves out of this predicament in a satisfying way.

This is where Redshirt’s first major twist comes in, and I’m not going to spoil that here. Suffice to say that our putative disposable heroes manage to use the power of tropes in their favour to get themselves out of harms’ way. More or less.

And the ‘more or less’ is important here. Not being a redshirt does not guarantee a long and happy ever after. In the long run we’re all dead, and many have perished in circumstances that were more tragic, calamitous or avoidable than those of the sacrificial redshirt. This is where Scalzi pulls a second, more philosophical twist. The complaint of the redshirt is not death itself, but a death that is pointless, stupid, and above all bereft of agency. The demand of the redshirt is not immortality, but a life worth living and a death worth dying. In a way not dissimilar to Castlevania, the latter half of Redshirts is in part a meditation on what it means to act in the world, to have agency, to make choices, and to grow, and the consequences of us either not using that potential or it being taken away from us.

In some way, redshirts are the necessary corollary of Ada Palmer’s heroic protagonist: for the single hero(ine) to hold all the agency in the universe, they must deny it to everyone else. Redistributing agency across a larger group of characters requires a different mode of writing. At a minimum, something like the ensemble cast we see in Redshirts itself, where solving the mystery is the effort of a group of reasonably ordinary people, rather than the predestined fate of the Chosen One. Beyond that are more composite approaches such as The Ten Percent Thief, that abandon the traditional form of the novel altogether.

Redshirts does for single-episode disposable companions what Terry Pratchett’s Guards! Guards! did for the nameless battalions of disposable guards and goons. It does so with similar panache, if not the same level of genius or wit. There are also acknowledged nods to Jasper Fforde’s Thursday Next series about the lives of fictional characters after they’ve exited stage/screen/page left. Like these inspirations, it is a rewarding combination of witty writing, entertaining plot and cultural commentary, with some philosophical reflection thrown in to boot. It won’t change your life, but it will make you stop, smile and remember for a moment that we don’t all have to be heroes to make a change in the world.

Notes & Suggestions

• The ‘dead wife’ trope also makes an appearance in Redshirts, and on a sympathetic reading also finds itself subverted. Explicitly positioned as a plot demand, the dead wife in Redshirts is not the motive force for a hero, but instead a reason for withdrawal and fear, with Scalzi compassionately incorporating it in the book’s conclusion. I wrote a bit more about the dead wife trope in my review of Castlevania.
• Ada Palmer’s essay on the damage caused by a monoculture of heroic tales is well worth reading and can still be read in Uncanny Magazine. I engaged with it in my review of the Mass Effect series, particularly Mass Effect 3, as well as The Ten Percent Thief.
• How to exert our agency is of course the question of our times, or of life really. It is a question we must each answer for ourselves, but if you are looking for some inspiration on what is to be done, Erik Olin Wright’s How to Be an Anti-capitalist in the 21st Century is not a bad starting point.

“Just be yourself.”

One of the many things I’ve discovered about being yourself in the open is a lot of folks don’t like that. People tell you to “be yourself” all the damn time as a musician. But it seems like when you take their advice, they vanish. It’s because it’s true, they do.

You do not know what you think you know.

Advice online is stupid. Unless you’re intimately familiar with someone and their problem, you don’t have anything for them. Yet, folks offer up dumb shit like “just be yourself” on the daily. It’s plain irresponsible.

Many musicians have careers to lose by being themselves, or they could be putting themselves in danger coming out in the open right now. Some may not be good at what they themselves like, but good at what others like. There’s tons of reasons to not be yourself. Good ones! But we aren’t thinking about those reasons when we give advice. We should be. Also, whether or not a person is “themselves” is completely irrelevant to the caliber of music they put out. So why say it? That’s the issue, right? Why do we say this dumb shit?

Is this for me or you?

Giving advice is for the person giving it, typically. They’d like to talk. They can’t be cool and start their own site or write their own songs, write their own stories, so they hound musicians and other folks online, giving them a piece of their mind. Advice is one of the main reasons I quit social media. A daily thing. Folks think they know who you are, then they yap about what you should be doing. No thanks. I got enough people in my head already. 

Projection, (again).

Projection is nearly always involved. Not only do folks think they know the problem, they think they know you. Double dumb shit. They just have good imaginations. 

When I was a woman online..

I know folks project online on social media badly. Before I showed my face online, I just was “Kelly.” Many folks thought I was a woman. I mean, I guess that’s why I got dick pics and called sassy by quasi-“normal” dudes. They projected the wrong sex on me just because of my name and proceeded to treat me like garbage. Another reason I quit social media: no one knows me! That’s kinda’ what I was after. Never happened. Even old “friends” said things like, “you’d be cooler as an artist were it not for your mental health issues.” You can’t possibly know who I am and say that shit without expecting me to take offense to it.

Sorry, guys. But it’s mostly men.

Men, in general, suck. They sucked when I was a kid, they suck as an adult. I don’t trust them. I’ve met more bad ones than good ones. We’re just awful. Lots of reasons. Sure there’s good guys, but I promise we aren’t the norm. Most dudes are bad guys.🤷. I know, they often mistake me for one of them, or I’m the subject of their ire. Advice is generally a men problem. We have to stroke our ego, among other things. I hate it.

How about simple acknowledgement?

If you’re a man giving advice on social media, try not doing that. Try saying “sounds rough,” in your own words. Gauge if folks are asking for that acknowledgment or advice.. you might be surprised. 

You stepped in advice!

Whether you want to converse, feel important, or show off, unwanted advice is like stepping in online dog shit. It really is. Like “dammit, really!?” Many times advice givers give advice before knowing the problem. It’s because they are not there and like hearing themselves talk. I’d do a website.

Do a site!

Sure I like hearing myself talk, but at least this way, with my site, I’m not bothering folks on their posts. Many advice-givers don’t realize they’re really into performing. I made my own platform for that, you’re welcomed to visit. I like my blog. Feel free to email and talk, thekintnersmusic@gmail.com.

Fear is the mind killer.

I think the reason folks do what they do online a lot of times is they’re afraid and alone. No one wants to be irrelevant. It happens. Doesn’t mean you’re bad. Doesn’t mean you’re empty. There’s historically bad shit happening at the moment. It’s going to be rough. It’s going to feel lonely at times when you’re the only one you know with truths. It’s grounds for conflict! They know this. Bullies have been counting on you to feel alone for centuries. Now they have data scientists.

Just say no to giving unwanted advice to strangers online. Thanks.

Kelly Kintner

🔵 05 The Archive Begins with Loss Signal Glade™ A reflection on memory, dismissal, and why archives are never still.

What if I were an agent, a secret agent, left on my own; dismissed by my country – a tale as old as time? And what if I had just learned that my purpose, my service, was no longer needed or wanted? My identity and passion, built over decades maybe, abandoned to the wind.

I might be upset, lost; maybe try to crawl back to a former self. Maybe I’d wallow. Maybe I’d move on. I am sure I’d try to rationalize it and make sense of it myself.

Now, if I saw it coming, I might try to stop it. Maybe I was a target, or maybe there were backroom deals against me. No normal person would agree to let others destroy them if they had the means and will to confront it. Right?

In the end, if I were unsuccessful, how would I piece my identity back together? Would I search for my truth, my passion, my purpose going forward? Would I say “hell to it all”? Would I aim to protect others from the same fate? Would I dismiss the insolence and hold my ground and stature despite the assault? Would I expose and shame those who dismissed me? Would I take up arms with others in my same plight?

Be it may if I had no hope, maybe I’d chronicle my decline. Pity me, the fallen soul. An archive journal affecting myself and the world at large. A voice, a cry for help. A window to show others who dare glance that they are not alone.

Social media, the social world, is a composite of our time. Each post interacts with another and alters what follows. Memory, evolution, participation. Where does it begin? Where does it end? Where do we fit in? The mystery we all search for.

An archive, often imagined as a place where history rests, behaves more like a living system. Accumulating, reacting, adapting, reinforcing, contradicting and reshaping. It is not only something to read. It is something to enter. An archive as a pattern that continues to evolve with new memories, interpretations and experiences. The question becomes: who will add to the story?

History repeats itself. An archive illustrates the pattern. It allows us to learn from the past and bring the best out of ourselves. And your story, no matter how hidden, is important and worth sharing as memory and experience shaped by perspective.

What if I really was just a cog in a wheel, my importance and purpose neither grand nor remembered in any way? How might I react? My identity shattered. Would I revolt? Try to take over the world? Wallow in my existence? Or add to the Archive and make my memory known?

I am a cog in a wheel. I am what is brushed by in the wind. I choose instead to follow the pattern, to become part of the memory. A cog in a wheel becomes a cog with purpose if it binds a memory and lets it continue on.

Signal Glade begins with memory, fracture, and the choice to enter the Archive. I invite you to share in the memory. Maybe we will find a single memory, a single truth, that binds us all.

The Archive opens in fragments. Week by week, the pattern begins to answer.

-signalglade.org

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This note follows a discussion about why I find it difficult to identify concepts such as style without a deep dive into structure; why I am so engaged with the concept of fidelity; and why I see myself as differing from many contemporary essayists who appear to write from a position in which the self stands separate from the world.

I am. I begin with am-ness. I am a being through time. My first experience is neither of philosophy nor abstraction, but of being. Soon after comes the recognition that this being exists under conditions. Hunger, shelter, affection, language, family, landscape, history, scarcity and opportunity all shape the form that being takes.

I am therefore not separate from the world. I am one of its products.

The task of inquiry is not to stand outside the world and describe it, but to dig where I stand and gradually extend perception outward. What I discover are not isolated things but relations. The world reveals itself as relation upon relation upon relation.

Perhaps this is why the essay matters to me. It allows me to explore those relations de bonne foi; beginning from the fact of my own being and moving outward into wider circles of understanding.

I am left with a notion on which to ponder: Am-ness may be the ground from which fidelity arises. One must first be before one can be de bonne foi.