朝、喉に違和感があった。

薬を買おうと思い、近くの薬局まで出かける。

俺はホームで電車を待っていた。 あれ、近くの薬局って電車で行く場所だったっけ。

そう思っていると、アナウンスが流れた。

「サイは、私の運転する電車に衝突しないでください。」

この辺にはサイがいるのか。動物と電車が衝突する事故があるというのは、インターネットで見たことがある。

電車に揺られていると、ふと昔のことを思い出した。 当時は俳優を目指していて、オーディションには一切行かず、破天荒なことばかりしていれば、勝手に声がかかると思っていた。

銭湯で服を盗まれないと俳優の仕事が来ない、そんなふうに思っていた時期がある。 眉毛の凛々しい男優が、インタビューか何かでそんなことを言っていたからだ。 たった一つのサンプルに、若い頃はなぜか力があると思ってしまう。

窓の外には山並みが続いている。「山から空気が降りてきています」と運転手のアナウンスが入る。ロボットみたいな運転手だなと思い、なぜか好感を持った。

薬が買える駅で降り、商店街を歩く。 古い建物の外壁から釘が飛び出していた。それがなぜか、こちらに視線を送っているように見えた。出ていた釘に、視線だけで挨拶をする。 友人がいないもので、いつの間にか無機物とコミュニケーションを取るようになったが、そのことも、もちろん自分しか知らない。

ふと路地に目をやると、階段の途中で誰かが立ち止まっていた。手すりに手をかけ、下半身だけが見えている。上半身は見えない。何をしているのかわからないが、声をかけるのはためらわれた。

通り過ぎようとしたとき、隣の建物から外国人が出てきて、床の畳をずらし始めた。 そもそも外に畳が敷かれていたこと自体に気づかなかった。 こういう大々的な変なことがあっても、俺はそれを無視してしまうことがある。 最初は少しだけだったのに、そのずれがだんだん大きくなっていく。 何してるんですか？とここで聞けないのが、俺の人生が楽しくならない理由だ。

八百屋の前では、看板娘が鉛筆を研いでいる。目の端でその仕草を見ながら、昔、似たような雰囲気の店で「あなたはカブを抜きに来たのよ」と急に言われたことを思い出す。あのときは意味がわからず、ただ納得してカブを抜く仕事を手伝っていたが、今では「もっと主体性を持たんかい」と体をまっすぐにさせる自分が心の中にいる。あの頃よりは、少しは成長しているのかもしれない。

…… なんでこの街に降りたんだっけ。 かつて世話になったスナックのママに会うためだったか。いや、違う。喉を治す薬を買うんだった。

昔、俺はとあるスナックの常連だった。ある日、いつものようにママと話をしようと思ったら、店の前に男が立っていて、「ママならもう船に乗りましたよ」といきなり言われた。それきり、会えなくなった。あれから十年以上が経っている。

そうこうしているうちに、呼吸を意識的にしている自分に気づいた。 呼吸に集中すると、他に何もできなくなる。歩くことさえおぼつかない。だから、ぼんやりと立ち止まったまま、しばらくその場にいた。

ああ、喉の痛みなんて、ほんの不調の一部にすぎない。 もっと根本的に、深い病を患っている。

喉の薬を探しに来ていたが、目的を達成することをやめた。 なんでもいいか、と思いながら、ゆっくりと街をただ歩くことにした。

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Here's most of the product information, prettified:

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Hiromu Yakura noticed something strange about his own voice. A postdoctoral researcher at the Max Planck Institute for Human Development in Berlin, Yakura studies the intersection of artificial intelligence and human behaviour. But the shift he detected was not in his data; it was in his speech. “I realised I was using 'delve' more,” he told reporters, describing the unsettling moment he caught himself unconsciously parroting the verbal tics of a large language model. Yakura was not alone. His subsequent research, analysing over 360,000 YouTube videos and 771,000 podcast episodes, revealed that academic YouTubers had begun using words favoured by AI chatbots up to 51 per cent more frequently after ChatGPT's November 2022 launch. Words like “delve,” “realm,” “underscore,” and “meticulous” were migrating from machine-generated text into the mouths of actual humans. A cultural feedback loop had been set in motion, and hardly anyone had noticed.

This quiet linguistic contamination is just one symptom of a much broader transformation. Across industries, conversational AI has become the front line of customer interaction. Chatbots handle banking queries, voice assistants schedule medical appointments, and algorithmic agents negotiate insurance claims. The global AI customer service market, valued at $12.06 billion in 2024, is projected to reach $47.82 billion by 2030, according to industry analysts. Gartner has predicted that conversational AI deployments within contact centres will reduce agent labour costs by $80 billion in 2026, with approximately 17 million contact centre agents worldwide facing a fundamental reshaping of their roles. Bank of America's virtual assistant Erica has surpassed 3 billion client interactions since its 2018 launch, serving nearly 50 million users with an average response time of 44 seconds. The two million daily consumer interactions with Erica alone save the bank the equivalent of 11,000 employees' daily work. The efficiency gains are staggering, the convenience undeniable.

But as these systems grow more sophisticated, more emotionally responsive, and more deeply woven into the fabric of daily communication, a disquieting question presents itself. What happens to us, the humans on the other end of the line? If we spend our days talking to machines that never lose their patience, never misunderstand our tone, and never push back with the messy friction of genuine feeling, do we slowly lose the capacity to navigate the unpredictable terrain of real human conversation? The evidence is beginning to suggest that we might.

The Frictionless Trap

The appeal of conversational AI is rooted in something profoundly human: a desire to be understood quickly and without complication. When you call your bank and a voice assistant resolves your problem in under a minute, there is an undeniable satisfaction in the transaction. No hold music, no awkward small talk, no navigating the emotional state of a tired customer service representative at the end of a long shift. The interaction is clean, efficient, and entirely on your terms.

This is by design. The conversational AI industry has been engineered to minimise friction. McKinsey reports that 78 per cent of companies have now integrated conversational AI into at least one key operational area. A 2025 Nextiva analysis found that 57 per cent of businesses are either using self-service chatbots or plan to do so imminently. By 2027, Gartner projects, 25 per cent of organisations will use chatbots as their primary customer service channel. The technology is no longer experimental; it is infrastructural. And the economic incentives are overwhelming: companies report average returns of $3.50 for every dollar invested in AI customer service, with leading organisations achieving returns as high as eight times their investment.

Yet friction, as any psychologist will tell you, is precisely what builds social muscle. The small moments of discomfort in human interaction, the pauses, the misunderstandings, the need to read another person's expression and adjust your approach, these are the crucibles in which empathy is forged. Sherry Turkle, the Abby Rockefeller Mauz\u00e9 Professor of the Social Studies of Science and Technology at MIT, has spent decades studying how technology shapes human relationships. Her warning is direct: “What do we forget when we talk to machines? We forget what is special about being human.”

Turkle's concern is not that AI is inherently destructive, but that its seductive convenience trains us to avoid the very interactions that make us more fully human. In her research, she describes social media as a “gateway drug” to conversations with machines, arguing that the emotional scaffolding we once built through difficult, imperfect human dialogue is now being outsourced to algorithms that mirror our sentiments without ever genuinely understanding them. “AI offers the illusion of intimacy without the demands,” she has written. She challenges us to consider whether machines truly grasp empathy, or whether we are merely being “remembered” without being genuinely “heard.” The result is a kind of emotional atrophy; we become fluent in transactional exchange but increasingly clumsy at the real thing. The pushback and resistance of genuine human relationships, Turkle argues, are not obstacles to connection. They are the mechanism through which understanding and growth are forged.

Rewiring the Social Brain

The neurological implications of this shift are only beginning to come into focus. In a landmark 2025 paper published in the journal Neuron, Professor Benjamin Becker of the University of Hong Kong's Department of Psychology laid out a framework for understanding how interactions with AI might physically alter the social circuitry of the human brain. Becker's analysis, drawing on a meta-analysis of 1,302 functional MRI studies encompassing 47,083 activations, identified the “social brain” networks that enable rapid understanding and affiliation in interpersonal interactions. These are evolutionarily shaped circuits, refined over millennia of face-to-face human contact. They allow us to read facial expressions, interpret vocal tone, predict others' intentions, and calibrate our own behaviour in real time.

The problem, Becker argues, is that humans are hardwired to anthropomorphise. We instinctively attribute personality, feelings, and intentions to AI agents, a tendency psychologists call the “ELIZA effect,” named after a rudimentary 1960s chatbot that users nonetheless treated as a genuine therapist. The classic Heider and Simmel experiment demonstrated this tendency decades ago: humans intuitively interpret behaviour and motives even in simple moving geometric shapes. With AI agents that can modulate their voice, recall personal details, and respond with apparent emotional sensitivity, the anthropomorphic pull becomes far more powerful. As conversational AI becomes more advanced and personalised, Becker warns, these interactions will “increasingly engage neural mechanisms more deeply and may even change how brains function in social contexts.”

“Understanding how our social brain shapes interactions with AI and how AI interactions shape our social brains will be key to making sure these technologies support us, not harm us,” Becker stated. The implications are especially significant for young people, whose neural pathways for social cognition are still developing. If children and adolescents are forming their primary conversational habits with AI rather than with peers, parents, and teachers, the social brain may develop along fundamentally different lines than those of previous generations.

This is not merely theoretical. Research from Harvard's Graduate School of Education, led by Dr. Ying Xu, has examined how children interact differently with AI compared to humans. The findings are nuanced but concerning. While children can learn effectively from AI designed with pedagogical principles (improving vocabulary and comprehension through interactive dialogue), they consistently engage less deeply with AI than with human conversational partners. When speaking with a person, children are more likely to steer the conversation, ask follow-up questions, and share their own thoughts. With AI, they tend to become passive recipients, answering questions with less effort, particularly in complex exchanges that require genuine back-and-forth discussion.

The implication is clear: AI may teach children facts, but it struggles to teach them how to be present in a conversation. And that presence, that willingness to lean into the discomfort of not knowing what someone else will say next, is the foundation of social competence.

The Loneliness Paradox

Perhaps the most counterintuitive finding in recent AI research is this: the more people talk to chatbots, the lonelier they tend to feel. In early 2025, OpenAI and the MIT Media Lab published the results of a landmark study, a four-week randomised controlled experiment involving 981 participants who exchanged over 300,000 messages with ChatGPT. The researchers tested three interaction modes (text, neutral voice, and engaging voice) across three conversation types (open-ended, non-personal, and personal).

The headline finding was stark. “Overall, higher daily usage, across all modalities and conversation types, correlated with higher loneliness, dependence, and problematic use, and lower socialisation,” the researchers reported. Voice-based chatbots initially appeared to mitigate loneliness compared to text-based interactions, but these advantages disappeared at high usage levels, especially with a neutral-voice chatbot. Participants who trusted and “bonded” with ChatGPT more were likelier than others to be lonely and to rely on the chatbot further, creating a self-reinforcing cycle of dependency.

The study also revealed gender-specific effects. After four weeks of chatbot use, female participants were slightly less likely to socialise with other people than their male counterparts. Participants who interacted with ChatGPT's voice mode using a gender different from their own reported significantly higher levels of loneliness and greater emotional dependency on the chatbot. The researchers noted that people with a stronger tendency for attachment in relationships and those who viewed the AI as a friend were more likely to experience negative effects. Personal conversations, which included more emotional expression from both user and model, were associated with higher levels of loneliness but, intriguingly, lower emotional dependence at moderate usage levels.

Parallel to the controlled study, OpenAI and MIT analysed real-world data from close to 40 million ChatGPT interactions and surveyed 4,076 of those users. They found that emotional engagement with ChatGPT remains relatively rare in overall usage, but that the subset of users who do form emotional connections tend to be the platform's heaviest users, and the loneliest.

The Brookings Institution, in a July 2025 analysis by Rebecca Winthrop and Isabelle Hau, framed this as a defining paradox of our era: “We are living through a paradox: humans are wired to connect, yet we've never been more isolated. At the same time, AI is growing more responsive, conversational, and emotionally attuned, and we are increasingly turning to machines for what we're not getting from each other: companionship.” They noted that AI companions like Replika.ai, Character.ai, and China's Xiaoice now count hundreds of millions of emotionally invested users, with some estimates suggesting the total may already exceed one billion.

The Companion Economy and Its Discontents

The scale of emotional investment in AI companions has become impossible to ignore. Replika, one of the most prominent AI companion platforms, claims approximately 25 million users, with over 85 per cent reporting that they have developed emotional connections with their digital companion. The average user exchanges roughly 70 messages per day with their Replika. Character.AI users average 93 minutes per day on the platform, 18 minutes longer than the average TikTok session, while heavy Replika users report engagement of 2.7 hours daily, with extreme cases exceeding 12 hours.

A nationally representative survey of 1,060 teenagers conducted in spring 2025 found that 72 per cent of those aged 13 to 17 are already using AI companions, with roughly half using them at least a few times per month. About a third of teens reported using the technology for social interaction and relationships, including role-playing, romantic interactions, emotional support, friendship, or conversation practice. Perhaps most tellingly, around a third of teenagers using AI companions said they find conversations with these systems as satisfying, or more satisfying, than conversations with real-life friends.

The data on well-being is less comforting. Among 387 research participants in one study, “the more a participant felt socially supported by AI, the lower their feeling of support was from close friends and family.” Ninety per cent of the 1,006 American students using Replika who were surveyed for a separate study reported experiencing loneliness, significantly higher than the comparable national average of 53 per cent. Common Sense Media has recommended that no one under 18 should use AI companions like Character.AI or Replika until more safeguards are in place to “eliminate relational manipulation and emotional dependency risks.”

The regulatory landscape is beginning to respond. In September 2025, the California legislature passed a bill requiring AI platforms to clearly notify users under 18 when they are interacting with a bot. That same week, the Federal Trade Commission opened a broad inquiry into seven major firms, including OpenAI, Meta, Snap, Google, and Character Technologies, examining the potential for emotional manipulation and dependency. These are early steps, but they signal a growing recognition that the companion economy is not merely a consumer trend; it is a public health concern.

The Perception Problem

The social consequences of AI-mediated communication extend beyond individual loneliness into the texture of everyday human interaction. At Cornell University, research scientist Jess Hohenstein led a series of experiments investigating what happens when people suspect their conversational partner is using AI assistance. The results, published in Scientific Reports under the title “Artificial Intelligence in Communication Impacts Language and Social Relationships,” revealed a troubling dynamic.

When participants believed their partner was using AI-generated smart replies, they rated that partner as less cooperative, less affiliative, and more dominant, regardless of whether the partner was actually using AI. The mere suspicion of algorithmic assistance was enough to erode trust and social warmth. “I was surprised to find that people tend to evaluate you more negatively simply because they suspect that you're using AI to help you compose text, regardless of whether you actually are,” Hohenstein noted.

The study also found that actual use of smart replies increased communication efficiency and positive emotional language. But this improvement came at a cost: “While AI might be able to help you write, it's altering your language in ways you might not expect, especially by making you sound more positive. This suggests that by using text-generating AI, you're sacrificing some of your own personal voice,” Hohenstein observed.

Malte Jung, associate professor of information science at Cornell and a co-author on the study, drew a broader conclusion: “What we observe in this study is the impact that AI has on social dynamics and some of the unintended consequences that could result from integrating AI in social contexts. This suggests that whoever is in control of the algorithm may have influence on people's interactions, language and perceptions of each other.”

This finding raises uncomfortable questions about authenticity in an age of AI-assisted communication. If AI makes our messages more efficient and more positive but less recognisably our own, are we gaining convenience at the expense of genuine connection? And if the mere suspicion of AI involvement poisons the well of trust, what happens as AI becomes ubiquitous in workplace communication, dating apps, and even family group chats?

Speaking Like Machines

The Max Planck Institute research that caught Hiromu Yakura by surprise points to an even more fundamental concern: AI is not just changing how we communicate with machines; it is changing how we communicate with each other. The study identified twenty-one words that serve as clear markers of AI's linguistic influence. Terms favoured by large language models, “delve,” “realm,” “underscore,” “meticulous,” and others, were appearing with dramatically increased frequency in human speech, not just in written text but in spontaneous spoken communication. An analysis of 58 per cent of videos that showed no signs of scripted speech suggested that the adoption of these linguistic patterns extended beyond prepared remarks into genuinely extemporaneous conversation.

Levin Brinkmann, a co-author of the study at the Max Planck Institute, described the mechanism at work: “The patterns that are stored in AI technology seem to be transmitting back to the human mind.” The researchers characterised this as a “cultural feedback loop.” Humans train AI on their language; AI processes and statistically remixes that language; humans then unconsciously adopt the AI's patterns. The loop narrows with each iteration, potentially reducing linguistic diversity on a global scale. If AI systems trained primarily on English-language content begin to influence communication patterns worldwide, we might see a homogenisation of human expression that transcends national and cultural boundaries.

The concern extends beyond vocabulary. An analysis published by IE Insights in April 2025 argued that AI-driven platforms are “subtly teaching people to speak and think like machines, efficient, clear, emotionally detached.” The article warned that interactions are “increasingly optimised for clarity and brevity, but stripped of emotional depth, cultural nuance, and spontaneity that define authentic human connection.” It described a world in which “we are training machines to sound more human while simultaneously training ourselves to sound more like machines.” The impact, the analysis argued, is particularly dangerous in high-stakes environments where human nuance and emotional intelligence matter most: diplomacy, crisis negotiation, healthcare, and community care.

Emily Bender, a prominent linguist at the University of Washington, has observed that even people who do not personally use AI chatbots are not immune to this influence. The sheer volume of synthetic text now circulating online, in articles, emails, social media posts, and automated responses, makes it nearly impossible to avoid absorbing AI-inflected language patterns. The homogenisation is insidious precisely because it is invisible.

What the Public Already Senses

The American public appears to intuit, even if it cannot fully articulate, the social risks posed by AI. A Pew Research Centre survey of 5,023 U.S. adults conducted in June 2025 found that 50 per cent of Americans say they are more concerned than excited about the increased use of AI in daily life, up from 37 per cent in 2021. Only 10 per cent reported being more excited than concerned, while 38 per cent felt equally excited and concerned. More than half (57 per cent) rated the societal risks of AI as high, compared with just 25 per cent who said the benefits are high.

The data on social relationships is particularly striking. Half of respondents (50 per cent) said they believe AI will make people's ability to form meaningful relationships worse. The public fears the loss of human connection more than AI experts do: 57 per cent of U.S. adults expressed extreme or high concern about AI leading to less connection between people, versus only 37 per cent of surveyed experts. This 20-point gap between public anxiety and expert reassurance is itself revealing. It suggests either that everyday citizens are perceiving something that specialists are overlooking, or that proximity to AI development generates a form of optimism bias.

The generational divide is especially revealing. Among adults under 30, the cohort most likely to use AI regularly, 58 per cent believe AI will worsen people's ability to form meaningful relationships, and 61 per cent believe it will make people worse at thinking creatively. This is markedly higher than the roughly 40 per cent of those aged 65 and older who share those views. The generation most fluent in AI is also the generation most anxious about what it might cost them.

Two-thirds of respondents (66 per cent) said AI should not judge whether two people could fall in love, and 73 per cent said AI should play no role in advising people about their faith. These are not merely policy preferences; they are boundary markers, lines drawn around the domains of human experience that people consider too sacred, too intimate, or too complex for algorithmic mediation.

The Agents Left Behind

The workplace effects of conversational AI adoption are already visible in the customer service industry itself. As chatbots handle an ever-larger share of routine interactions, the calls that do reach human agents are increasingly complex, emotionally charged, and difficult to resolve. This creates a cascading paradox: the agents who remain employed need greater social skills than ever, even as the broader population is getting less practice at the kind of difficult conversations these agents must navigate daily.

Recent industry data illustrates the toll. According to one analysis, 87 per cent of contact centre agents report high stress levels, and over 50 per cent face daily burnout, sleep issues, and emotional exhaustion. The automation of simple queries means agents now spend a disproportionate share of their working hours handling angry customers, technical problems that defy standard solutions, and emotionally charged conversations demanding empathy and judgement. More than 68 per cent of agents receive calls at least weekly that their training did not prepare them to handle.

A 2025 CX-focused study found that 79 per cent of Americans strongly prefer interacting with a human over an AI agent, and a Twilio report from the same year revealed that 78 per cent of consumers consider it important to be able to switch from an AI agent to a human one. Meanwhile, a Kinsta report found that 50 per cent of consumers would cancel a service if it were solely AI-driven. The message from customers is clear: they want efficiency, but not at the price of human presence.

The tension between economic incentive and human need creates a troubling dynamic. The global chatbot market, valued at roughly $15.6 billion in 2024, is expected to nearly triple to $46.6 billion by 2029. Every interaction that moves from human to machine represents a small reduction in the total volume of genuine interpersonal exchange in society. Multiply this across billions of interactions per year, and the cumulative effect on collective social skills becomes a legitimate concern.

Raising Children in the Age of the Algorithm

The stakes are highest for the youngest members of society. UNICEF's December 2025 guidance on AI and children, now in its third edition, acknowledged that large language models are becoming “deeply embedded in daily life as conversational agents, evolving into companions for emotional support and social interaction.” The guidance flagged this trend as “particularly pronounced among children and adolescents, a demographic prone to forming parasocial relationships with AI chatbots.” It warned that youth are “uniquely vulnerable to manipulation due to neurodevelopmental changes.”

Research on joint media engagement, studying what happens when parents are present during children's AI interactions, offers a partial counterweight. When caregivers scaffold AI interactions, helping children process what they are hearing, encouraging them to question and respond actively, the developmental risks appear to diminish. But this requires time, attention, and digital literacy that not all families possess in equal measure.

The Harvard research from Dr. Ying Xu highlights a critical distinction: children who engage in interactive dialogue with AI can comprehend stories better and learn more vocabulary compared to passive listeners, and in some cases, learning gains from AI were even comparable to those from human interactions. But learning facts and developing social-emotional intelligence are fundamentally different processes. AI can drill vocabulary; it cannot model the subtle art of reading a room, sensing another person's discomfort, or knowing when to stay silent. The risk is not that children will stop learning. The risk is that they will learn everything except how to be with other people.

Recalibrating, Not Retreating

The picture that emerges from the research is neither straightforwardly dystopian nor naively optimistic. It is, instead, deeply complicated. Conversational AI offers genuine benefits: accessibility for people with disabilities, support for those experiencing isolation, efficiency in service delivery, and learning tools that can supplement (though not replace) human instruction. Stanford researchers found that while young adults using the AI chatbot Replika reported high levels of loneliness, many also felt emotionally supported by it, with 3 per cent crediting the chatbot for temporarily halting suicidal thoughts. The question is not whether to use these technologies, but how to use them without surrendering the skills that make us most distinctively human.

A 2025 study published in the Journal of Systems Science and Systems Engineering offers an instructive finding. Across two scenario studies and one laboratory experiment, researchers found that consumers exhibited higher prosocial intentions after interacting with socially oriented AI chatbots (those designed to build rapport and engage emotionally) compared to task-oriented ones (those focused purely on efficiency). The study revealed that social presence and empathy mediated this effect, suggesting that the design of AI systems meaningfully shapes their social consequences. This is not a trivial insight. It means that the choices made by engineers, product managers, and policymakers about how AI communicates will have ripple effects across the social fabric.

Professor Becker's neuroscience framework points in the same direction. The social brain is not fixed; it is plastic, shaped by the interactions it encounters. If those interactions are predominantly with machines that reward brevity and compliance, the brain will adapt accordingly. But if AI systems are designed to encourage, rather than replace, genuine human engagement, the technology could serve as a bridge rather than a barrier.

The Brookings Institution's Rebecca Winthrop and Isabelle Hau offered perhaps the most pointed formulation: the age of AI must not become “the age of emotional outsourcing.” The restoration of real human connection requires not a rejection of technology, but a deliberate, society-wide commitment to preserving the spaces, skills, and habits that sustain authentic relationships.

The Conversation We Need to Have

Sherry Turkle has described her decades of research as “not anti-technology, but pro-conversation.” That framing captures what is most urgently needed now. The rapid adoption of conversational AI in customer service, healthcare, education, and personal companionship is not inherently destructive. But it is proceeding at a pace that far outstrips our collective understanding of its social consequences.

The evidence assembled here, from neuroscience laboratories in Hong Kong to linguistics studies in Berlin, from controlled experiments at MIT to population surveys by Pew Research, converges on a single uncomfortable truth: the more seamlessly machines learn to talk like us, the greater the risk that we forget how to talk to each other. Not efficiently, not optimally, not in the polished cadence of a well-trained language model, but in the halting, imperfect, gloriously messy way that humans have always communicated. With pauses. With misunderstandings. With the kind of friction that, it turns out, is not a bug in the system of human connection. It is the entire point.

The voice recognition systems now achieving 95 per cent accuracy under ideal conditions and processing billions of interactions daily are marvels of engineering. The global voice and speech recognition market, valued at $14.8 billion in 2024, is projected to reach $61.27 billion by 2033. But accuracy in speech recognition is not the same as accuracy in human understanding. As we optimise our AI systems to hear every word, we might ask whether we are simultaneously losing our capacity to listen, truly listen, to one another.

The conversation about conversational AI has barely begun. It needs to move beyond the boardroom metrics of cost savings and efficiency gains, beyond the engineering challenges of word error rates and natural language processing, and into the deeper territory of what kind of society we are building when the first voice many of us hear each morning, and the last one we hear at night, belongs not to another human being but to a machine that has learned, with remarkable precision, to sound like one.

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Generation after Generation

Generation after generation, Vice and virtue breed with one another, Until hate is easy, and love is maudlin. And hearts, like flies over muck, do hover. O that one could sever this sullied past From we whose hearts are stained and sunk by it. That which we are told to put first, comes last, In the order of crude survivalists. Love is preached and praised, but rarely practiced. Art is punished unless profitable. More valued are the words, about them, lisped. So we cannot bear to leave the bubble. In your own reflection find your own way To marry past and present with today.

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In Summary: * Time-management is an extremely important skill to employ when setting schedules, goals, etc. We must be careful not to commit to too many chores or projects than we can realistically or comfortably handle. With this thought in mind I've declined an invitation to enter a monthly tournament run by one of my correspondence chess clubs. Lord knows I've still got plenty of other games in progress at that club and others. And now that I've begun following this season's MLB games, it's necessary that I cut back on other activites that claim my time and mental focus.

Prayers, etc.: * I have a daily prayer regimen I try to follow throughout the day from early morning, as soon as I roll out of bed, until head hits pillow at night. Details of that regimen are linked to my link tree, which is linked to my profile page here.

Starting Ash Wednesday, 2026, I've added this daily prayer as part of the Prayer Crusade Preceding the 2026 SSPX Episcopal Consecrations.

Health Metrics: * bw= 227.63 lbs. * bp= 140/83 (70)

Exercise: * morning stretches, balance exercises, kegel pelvic floor exercises, half squats, calf raises, wall push-ups

Diet: * 07:10 – 1 peanutbutter sandwich * 09:15 – mashed potatoes, cole slaw * 10:40 – fried chicken * 12:30 – beef chop suey, fried rice * 14:00 – 1 fresh apple * 16:30 – 1 bean & cheese breakfast taco

Activities, Chores, etc.: * 05:00 – listen to local news talk radio * 06:00 – bank accounts activity monitored * 06:20 – read, pray, follow news reports from various sources, surf the socials, and nap * 12:30 to 13:30 – Watch old game shows and eat lunch at home with Sylvia * 14:00 – follow an MLB Spring Training game, Brewers vs.Rangers * 16:50 – tuned into 1200 WOAI, the flagship station for the San Antonio Spurs, well ahead of pregame coverage then the call of tonight's game vs. the Brooklyn Nets. Go Spurs Go!

Chess: * 18:40 – moved in all pending CC games

There are moments in every believer’s journey when the hunger for God’s presence rises beyond mere curiosity and becomes something deeper, something almost physical, an ache in the soul that refuses to be silenced by routine prayers or surface-level spiritual disciplines. It is the quiet recognition that you were made for more than information about God, more than stories from Scripture, more than the echoes of other people’s encounters. You were made to experience Him. You were made to walk with Him, talk with Him, and know Him in a way that makes the rest of this world dim in comparison. Yet many believers reach a point where they feel stuck, almost like there is a veil they cannot push past or a wall they cannot climb, even though they know in their heart that God is near. I understand that place because I have lived it. And in the quiet hours of my own life, long before I ever made a recording or shared a message, God stepped into that space and taught me something I had never learned in any church building, in any Bible study, or in any commentary. He taught me how to recognize Him, not by striving harder, but by surrendering in a way that rewired my entire understanding of what it means to walk with Him.

I want to take you into that moment, not because my experience is extraordinary, but because it is the kind of encounter every believer is capable of having when their heart reaches the point where it stops trying to perform for God and finally becomes honest with God. For years, I prayed prayers that sounded strong on the outside but had nothing real underneath. I prayed because I was supposed to. I prayed because I wanted answers. I prayed because I wanted to feel spiritual. But none of those prayers brought the presence of God any closer. They only made me more aware of the distance I felt. What changed everything was the morning I finally stopped pretending. I didn’t try to impress God with my wording. I didn’t approach Him like I was reciting a script. I didn’t hide my frustration or my confusion or my longing. I simply told Him the truth: I need You, and I don’t know how to find You. That admission became the doorway to the presence I had been missing, because God does not draw near to performance. He draws near to honesty. He fills the humble, not the polished. He meets the surrendered, not the perfected.

That morning changed the trajectory of my faith, not because I suddenly became more disciplined or more educated or more mature, but because I finally understood what God had been waiting for all along. He had been waiting for me to let go. He had been waiting for me to stop approaching Him like a distant king who needed to be impressed and start approaching Him like a Father who simply wanted His son to climb into His arms. There is a moment in every believer’s life when their desire for God becomes stronger than their pride, and that is the moment God steps in. The presence of God is not something you chase as much as something you allow. You allow God to meet you when the walls come down. You allow God to speak when you stop trying to control the conversation. You allow God to comfort you when you stop insisting that you’re fine. And in that allowance, something shifts. The atmosphere of your life changes. The noise of the world loses its grip. The breath of God becomes real in a way you cannot explain but also cannot deny.

There is a reason so many Christians feel dry, disconnected, or spiritually numb even though they are doing all the “right” things. It is because the presence of God does not respond to religious activity. It responds to openness. It responds to vulnerability. It responds to the willingness to sit still long enough for God to reach the parts of your soul you have guarded for years. For me, the breakthrough came not through a dramatic moment but through a deeply quiet one. I was sitting alone, no music playing, no agenda in my mind, no spiritual performance in my heart. I simply said, “Lord, I feel far from You. If You are close, help me recognize it.” And God did not speak through thunder or revelation or some grand vision. Instead, He spoke through something I had ignored my entire life: the gentle inner nudge that whispers, I’m here. That whisper carried weight—more weight than any sermon I had heard, more weight than any theological argument, more weight than any emotional moment in church. It was not loud, but it was undeniable. It changed everything.

People often ask how to feel God’s presence, as if the presence is something we must earn, unlock, or chase. But the truth I learned that day was far simpler. The presence of God is always near. We are the ones who drift. We drift through distraction, through busyness, through self-protection, through fear of being disappointed, through the belief that God will remain silent no matter what we do. But God is not silent. We simply haven’t learned to recognize the way He speaks. And that is the heart of what I want to share with you: the number one way to deepen your relationship with God, starting today, is to train your inner life to notice Him. Not in the large, dramatic, cinematic moments—though He can certainly move there. But in the daily, ordinary, easily overlooked moments where His presence rests quietly, waiting for you to slow down long enough to sense it.

This kind of recognition grows in the same way any relationship grows: time, honesty, patience, and attention. Imagine trying to form a real relationship with someone while never slowing down enough to hear them speak. That is how many Christians approach God. They want fireworks, but they ignore the whisper. They want transformation, but they rush through prayer. They want intimacy, but they never let God into the parts of their heart that are hurting. But God is not found in the hurried places. He is found in the surrendered ones. My entire spiritual life shifted when I learned to stop treating God like a task and start treating Him like a Person. That may sound simple, but the change it produces is profound. When you begin to approach God relationally instead of religiously, you stop praying memorized lines and start praying the truth. You stop rushing through quiet moments and start treasuring them. You stop asking God to perform and start asking God to change you. And in that shift, you begin to feel His presence in ways that reshape your entire understanding of prayer, faith, and intimacy with Him.

One of the most surprising lessons I learned about God’s presence is this: He shows up the strongest when you show up the weakest. God never needed my strength to meet me. He needed my honesty. And the more honest I became, the closer He felt. Not because He moved, but because I did. I moved from pretense to truth. I moved from performance to surrender. I moved from trying to be impressive to simply being available. This is where intimacy with God begins. Not in your achievements but in your authenticity. Not in your spiritual record but in your spiritual hunger. Not in your polished prayers but in your unfiltered ones. And when you begin to pray like that—when you begin to talk to God the way you actually feel and not the way you think you’re supposed to—your entire spiritual life awakens.

The presence of God is not a reward for spiritual perfection. It is the natural result of spiritual honesty. Think about that for a moment. You don’t become worthy of His presence. You become aware of His presence. And that awareness grows the moment you stop trying to manufacture something emotional and start leaning into something relational. So many believers believe that the presence of God is a sensation. Sometimes it is. But most often, it is an awareness. It is the quiet realization that the God who created galaxies is sitting in the room with you, listening to the words you barely have the courage to say. It is the kind of closeness that breaks you open, not with guilt but with love. It is the kind of encounter that leaves you changed even if you cannot fully articulate why. It is the moment when heaven becomes more than theology—it becomes personal.

And as I continued to press into that space, as I continued to strip away the layers of performance and expectation and spiritual pride, I began to recognize that God had been speaking to me for years. I just hadn’t noticed. I hadn’t connected the nudges, the impressions, the gentle corrections, the sudden peace that arrived out of nowhere, the way Scripture would come alive at just the right moment. I had been looking for something loud while God had been whispering something profound. And once you learn to recognize God in the whisper, you never go back to chasing the loud moments. You realize that God is far more present than you ever imagined. You begin to walk differently. You begin to breathe differently. You begin to pray differently. Because now you are not seeking a visitation—you are learning how to live in the awareness of His constant nearness.

As the days passed after that quiet breakthrough, something far deeper began to unfold, something I had not anticipated and did not even know how to prepare for. It was not a single emotional moment but the slow, steady rewiring of my spiritual instincts. I began to understand that the presence of God is not something that descends only when conditions are perfect, nor is it something that comes and goes based on how well you feel you’ve performed. Instead, the presence of God is like oxygen—always there, always surrounding, always sustaining—but often unnoticed because we have not trained our inner life to breathe it in. And just as a swimmer who remains underwater too long becomes desperate for air, a soul that has spent its life trying to control its own spiritual experience reaches a point where it finally realizes the presence was never meant to be chased. It was meant to be breathed. When you finally learn to breathe God in, not as an occasional reward but as the natural posture of your heart, something extraordinary emerges: peace that does not make sense, clarity that rises without force, and intimacy that grows without pressure. This is the shift that changes everything, because it is the shift from visiting God to abiding in Him.

What I discovered in that season is that most believers do not lack desire for God—they lack awareness. They have been taught how to study, how to pray, how to serve, how to worship, how to minister, but they have rarely been taught how to notice. And noticing is the foundation of intimacy. Noticing means you begin to sense God in the moments when your mind is quiet. It means you feel the tug in your spirit when God is drawing you closer. It means you recognize His correction not as condemnation but as a sign that He is shaping you. It means you sense His comfort before the anxiety fully settles. It means you start to see that the presence of God is not limited to prayer times or church services but woven through ordinary, everyday life. This is where the relationship becomes real, because God stops feeling distant and starts feeling familiar, not in the sense of casualness but in the sense of closeness. The closer He feels, the more honest you become. The more honest you become, the more of His presence you can perceive. And as this pattern continues, your faith grows roots deeper than your circumstances, deeper than your emotions, deeper than your uncertainty.

There was a moment during this transformation when I finally understood why so many believers settle for a distant relationship with God. It is not because they don’t want Him. It is because closeness requires vulnerability, and vulnerability feels dangerous. To feel God’s presence deeply, you must let Him touch the parts of you that you’ve protected for years. You must allow Him access to your disappointments, your frustrations, your doubts, your unspoken fears, and your unhealed wounds. Many believers never experience the fullness of God’s presence because they never let God near the places where they hurt the most. But those are the exact places where His presence becomes the most transformational. God does not meet you in the polished spaces of your life—He meets you where your soul feels most fragile. And when He does, something inside you softens in a way you cannot force through willpower. You begin to understand that the presence of God is not just comforting—it is reconstructive. It doesn’t simply soothe you. It reshapes you. It alters your reactions, your impulses, your patterns, and your identity until you no longer recognize the version of yourself who used to strive for God instead of surrendering to Him.

What continued to surprise me was how consistently God met me once I learned how to be still. Stillness was a discipline I had never honored before. I equated stillness with inactivity, and inactivity with wasted time. But stillness before God is not inactivity—it is invitation. It is the soul’s way of saying, “I’m here. I’m listening. I’m open.” When I learned to sit with God without rushing, without performing, without demanding, without structuring the encounter into something predictable, I began to sense His presence more clearly than ever before. Sometimes it felt like warmth. Sometimes it felt like peace. Sometimes it felt like conviction wrapped in gentleness. And sometimes it felt like nothing at all outwardly, yet everything inside me shifted. This is what many believers misunderstand about God’s presence. It is not always felt emotionally, but it is always working spiritually. There were days when I didn’t feel anything remarkable, yet later that day I noticed my reactions were calmer, my compassion was deeper, or my clarity was stronger. That was the presence. That was God shaping me from the inside out. That was the relationship becoming real in ways I had been too impatient to notice before.

As this awareness grew, I began to recognize that God had been inviting me into this depth for years, but I had always been too hurried, too distracted, or too emotionally guarded to accept the invitation. The presence of God is rarely loud because God refuses to compete with the noise of the world. Instead, He waits for the believer who is willing to turn down the volume of everything else. God is not hiding from His children. His children are simply overwhelmed by the noise around them. When you learn to quiet yourself—even for a few moments—you begin to discover a truth that transforms the rest of your life: God is easier to hear than you think. His presence is easier to recognize than you imagine. And intimacy with Him is not reserved for the spiritually elite. It is available to every believer willing to slow down long enough to notice what has always been there. Once you learn this, you begin to interpret your entire life differently. You stop seeing your quiet seasons as signs of abandonment and start seeing them as invitations to deeper awareness. You stop interpreting unanswered questions as silence and start interpreting them as guidance. You stop feeling anxious about whether God is near and start understanding that the question was never whether God was near—the question was whether you were still enough to perceive Him.

Through this journey, I also discovered something essential: the presence of God intensifies in the life of the believer who lives with expectancy. Expectancy is not the same as entitlement. It is not demanding something from God. It is anticipating Him. It is approaching each day with the subtle inner posture that says, “God is here, and I will find Him in something.” That expectation changes the way you wake up, the way you pray, the way you think, the way you move through your day. You begin to see God in conversations, in Scripture, in moments of stillness, in sudden insights, in the quiet conviction that redirects you, and in the peace that settles without explanation. Expectancy trains your spiritual senses to stay awake, and when your spiritual senses are awake, the presence of God becomes easier to discern than ever. That is why so many believers experience God most clearly during difficult seasons—not because God is more present, but because expectancy becomes stronger when desperation rises. The key is learning how to live with that expectancy even when life is calm, predictable, or ordinary. That is where the deepest intimacy forms because it is no longer fueled by crisis—it is fueled by desire.

Yet desire alone is not enough. Intimacy with God grows through consistency. You build awareness by showing up daily, not out of obligation but out of longing. And as you show up, you begin to notice patterns. You begin to see how God speaks to you uniquely, how He nudges your heart, how He corrects you gently, how He comforts you quietly, and how He guides you in ways you would have overlooked before. Over time, you develop something priceless: spiritual sensitivity. This sensitivity is not emotional hypersensitivity. Rather, it is discernment. It allows you to walk through life with a deep inner knowing that God is not only with you—He is guiding you moment by moment. The decisions you once agonized over become easier because you recognize the gentle pressure of His direction. The fears that once overwhelmed you lose their influence because His presence steadies you. And the wounds that once defined you lose their power because His presence heals you in ways you never imagined possible.

At the heart of everything I learned through this encounter is one truth that stands above all others: God cannot transform the parts of your life you refuse to surrender. The presence of God deepens wherever you surrender. And surrender is not a one-time event. It is a daily posture, a continual releasing of your plans, your fears, your expectations, your assumptions, and your pride. Every time you let something go, the presence of God fills the space it once occupied. And as more space in your heart becomes available, the more clearly you begin to sense Him. This is why the presence of God feels overwhelming when it finally becomes real. Not because God suddenly becomes more present, but because you finally become more open. The presence was always there. The transformation happens when you stop resisting it. This realization brought me to tears more than once, not out of sorrow but out of recognition that God had been far closer to me throughout my entire life than I had ever understood.

Everything I am sharing with you now—the intimacy, the clarity, the awareness, the spiritual sensitivity—is available to you today. You do not need to wait for a perfect moment or a dramatic encounter. You do not need to clean yourself up before you approach God. You do not need to prove yourself worthy. You simply need to come honestly, sit still, and open your heart. God does not need polish. He needs permission. He needs the freedom to meet you as you are, to speak to you in the quiet places of your soul, and to shape you with a love so gentle and steady that it will change you without force. If you truly want to feel God’s presence like never before, begin with one simple shift: stop performing and start opening. Start noticing. Start allowing. Start breathing Him in. And as you do, you will begin to experience the kind of relationship with God that does not flicker with circumstances but grows with every passing day. You will begin to see that the presence of God is not a mystery reserved for a few—it is the inheritance of every believer who chooses intimacy over performance, surrender over striving, and awareness over assumption.

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There are chapters in Scripture that feel like a slow-burning sunrise, chapters that warm the spirit gradually and invite reflection in gentle waves, but Luke 24 is not one of them, because Luke 24 bursts into the story of humanity like the moment a sleeping world is jolted awake by a light so bright it cannot be ignored. Every time I walk through it, the chapter comes alive with a cinematic force that pulls me into the mix with its trembling grief, quiet confusion, startled hope, and finally its triumphant revelation that rearranges the destiny of every person who ever lived. When I sit with Luke 24, I find myself stepping into the footsteps of those who loved Jesus deeply yet could not make sense of what had happened, those who had witnessed the brutality of His death and now stood at the edge of a mystery they never expected. I imagine their walk through that first morning darkness, their breath visible in the cold dawn, their hands trembling not just from fear but from exhaustion and heartbreak, their minds rehearsing again and again the horrible images of the cross, unable to understand how the One they trusted with their lives could now lie sealed behind stone. This is the moment where faith aches the most, where devotion collides with disappointment, where love stands in front of a tomb and doesn’t know how to take the next breath. And yet, this is also the moment where heaven begins rewriting the story, where God reminds the world that endings in His hands are never endings, where grief becomes the prelude to glory. Luke 24 invites us not just to learn Theology but to feel Resurrection as a lived experience, a breathless encounter, a moment where everything breaks open and nothing remains the same.

When the women reached the tomb, carrying spices they fully expected to use on the body of the One who had healed them, taught them, noticed them, and valued them, Scripture says they found the stone rolled away. That detail alone could fill libraries of reflection, because it reveals how often human beings walk toward tasks that no longer exist, burdens that have already been lifted, and fears that God has already rendered powerless. They walked toward the tomb expecting death because that was all their natural eyes could see, yet heaven had been busy long before their footsteps reached that sacred ground. I always imagine the moment their hearts stopped, the moment their breath caught, the moment confusion and hope collided inside their chests as they peered into an empty space that should have held the lifeless body of Jesus. These women were the first to witness the miracle not because they were the most powerful, but because they were the most committed, the most faithful, the most willing to show up even when all visible evidence told them it was over. They demonstrate something that believers today often forget: God reveals the greatest truths to those who keep walking toward Him even when they cannot see how anything could change. Their devotion carried them into the impossible, and in that impossible they encountered two angels who announced a sentence that changed the fabric of history: “Why do you seek the living among the dead? He is not here, but is risen.” Every time I read that, I feel a surge of something sacred rise through my spirit, because those words do not just describe an event, they describe the entire posture of Christian living. We spend so much of our time searching for life in places that can only offer death, searching for hope in things incapable of sustaining us, searching for belonging in places too shallow to hold our identity. Luke 24 calls us back to the truth that real life is always found where Jesus is, and Jesus is forever alive.

The reaction of the disciples when the women brought the news back is one of the most human moments in all of Scripture. They dismissed the report as idle talk, as emotional confusion, as wishful thinking born out of grief. It reminds me how often people underestimate the spiritual discernment of those who are dismissed by society, how frequently God chooses voices that the world overlooks, and how common it is for the first witnesses of God’s movement to be the very people many refuse to take seriously. But grief can make even the most faithful hearts hesitant, and disappointment can make even the strongest believers slow to hope again. Peter, in a moment of restless urgency, ran to the tomb to see for himself, and I always imagine his feet pounding the ground, his heart pounding even harder, every step echoing a mixture of fear and longing. He found the linen cloths lying by themselves, and Scripture says he went home marveling. That word, marveling, captures something profound—awakening, stirring wonder, cautious hope that maybe the story was not over after all. It is a word that sits between despair and certainty, a fragile space where faith begins to breathe again. Many believers today live in that same tension, standing in the hallway between what broke them and what God is resurrecting in them, unsure of how to trust again yet unable to forget what they experienced with Jesus before the darkness fell. Luke 24 meets us in that space and gently urges us forward.

The road to Emmaus is one of those passages that never stops revealing new layers each time I return to it. Two disciples walked seven miles with the resurrected Christ without recognizing Him, demonstrating how grief can blur even the clearest vision and heartbreak can make us blind to the nearness of God. I often picture them walking with heavy shoulders and slow steps, their voices low, their conversation filled with the sorrow of dreams that seemed shattered, destinies that seemed derailed, and promises that felt undone. When Jesus approached them, they didn’t know it was Him, but their hearts were already being drawn toward Him because some part of the soul always recognizes the presence of God even when the mind does not. He asked them what they were discussing, inviting them to voice their pain, not because He needed information but because people heal faster when they are allowed to speak their truth in the presence of the One who understands it fully. They told Him everything—how they had hoped He would redeem Israel, how His death crushed them, how rumors of an empty tomb confused them. In that honest expression, we see the kindness of Christ, who walked with them patiently, listened without interruption, and opened Scripture to them in ways they had never understood before. Their hearts burned within them because whenever Jesus opens the Word, the Word opens us.

What moves me most is that Jesus did not reveal Himself immediately. He allowed their hearts to awaken slowly, allowed their understanding to deepen before their eyes were opened, allowed faith to rise in stages rather than forcing clarity upon them all at once. There is tenderness in divine timing. There is wisdom in the gentle unveiling of truth. Many believers want instant certainty, immediate revelation, quick answers, and dazzling displays of divine intervention, but Jesus often chooses the slower, more intimate way of opening our eyes. He breaks the bread, and suddenly they see Him. The same hands that multiplied bread, that broke it to feed the hungry, that offered it at the Last Supper, now break it again to reveal resurrection. It is such a profound reminder that God often reveals Himself in the ordinary movements of our lives, in the rhythms of daily faithfulness, in the small acts that carry echoes of His character. The moment they recognized Him, He vanished, and yet the moment He vanished they finally understood everything. Revelation prepares us for mission, and they immediately rose and returned to Jerusalem—not in fear, not in exhaustion, but in burning excitement that filled their entire being.

When they reached the disciples and shared their encounter, the room must have erupted in wonder, confusion, tears of joy, and waves of disbelief melting into hope. And then Jesus appeared among them. He didn’t appear with thunder or lightning, not with the blaze of heavenly armies, not with the sound of trumpets shaking the earth, but with peace. His first words were, “Peace be unto you.” That detail pierces me every time because Christ always speaks peace into the places where fear has been living rent-free. The disciples were terrified, thinking they were seeing a spirit, and Jesus anchored them in truth by showing His hands and feet, the very marks of love that turned the tide of eternity. He invited them to touch Him, to see that resurrection was not symbolic, metaphorical, or abstract, but physical, real, and undeniable. He even ate in their presence, grounding their faith in something they could witness with their own eyes and experience with their own senses.

As the disciples watched Jesus standing in their midst, their fear slowly melted into astonished joy, and even then Scripture says they still disbelieved for joy. That phrase captures something deeply human because sometimes the goodness of God feels almost unbelievable when we have spent too long in the shadows of disappointment. Their minds were wrestling with the possibility that what stood before them was both real and glorious beyond anything they had dared to imagine. Jesus met them in that fragile intersection between hope and hesitation by grounding their faith in Himself, not in their feelings, not in their circumstances, and not in the chaos of recent events. He reminded them of everything He had spoken before His death, urging them to understand that every chapter of the story had been pointing toward this moment, even the parts that felt devastating. The disciples had heard Him talk about rising again, but the trauma of the crucifixion was so overwhelming that they had lost sight of the promise He had woven through His teachings. This happens to believers today more often than we admit. Pain has a way of drowning out memory, sorrow has a way of overshadowing prophecy, and suffering has a way of blurring everything God ever said to us before the storm arrived. Luke 24 is a reminder that Jesus never forgets what He promises, even when we do. It is a reminder that prophecy is not merely spoken; it is lived and embodied. Jesus did not just teach resurrection; He walked out of the grave and stood in front of His friends to prove it.

As He opened their understanding so they could grasp the Scriptures, something greater than intellectual comprehension happened. This wasn’t a theological lecture. This wasn’t an academic study session. This was the resurrected Savior breathing clarity into souls that had been drowning in confusion. The disciples began to see the threads of redemption woven through every century of the Old Testament, realizing that the God they worshiped had been telling the same story since the beginning: the Messiah would suffer, the Messiah would die, and the Messiah would rise. Every prophecy, every symbol, every shadow of the old covenant pointed toward this single moment when death would lose its authority. Jesus opened their understanding not for curiosity but for calling. He commissioned them to carry the message of repentance and forgiveness to all nations, beginning in Jerusalem. This was not a suggestion. It was a divine charge. The resurrection was not meant to be contained in one room, whispered among a handful of believers, or preserved as a private spiritual experience. It was meant to shake the nations, confront darkness, liberate captives, break chains, and transform the world. Jesus entrusted ordinary people with an extraordinary message, and He has been empowering believers ever since to continue that mission, generation after generation.

But before they were sent out, Jesus told them to wait in Jerusalem until they were clothed with power from on high. That instruction reveals something vital about the relationship between calling and empowerment. The disciples had the message, but they didn’t yet have the power. They had the testimony, but they didn’t yet have the anointing. They had the passion, but they didn’t yet have the fire. Jesus was teaching them a secret that every modern believer needs to understand: never attempt a divine mission without divine power. You can carry truth without carrying transformation, but you cannot carry transformation without the Spirit. You can know Scripture without living resurrection, but you cannot live resurrection without the Spirit breathing life into your witness. The disciples would soon experience Pentecost, but Luke 24 shows us the anticipation, the promise, the stirring atmosphere of a world about to be set on fire. It reminds us that God never calls without equipping. He never sends without empowering. He never appoints without anointing. The resurrection was the victory, but the Spirit would be the velocity that propelled that victory across the earth.

As Jesus led them out toward Bethany, I imagine the disciples walking with a mixture of reverence and awe, each step heavy with the weight of sacred history unfolding before their eyes. They had walked with Him before, but this walk felt different, infused with a holiness that stretched beyond anything they had ever known. When He lifted His hands to bless them, those hands still carried the scars of love that had purchased their salvation. Then, in one breathtaking moment, He ascended into heaven, not as a fading memory, not as a symbolic gesture, but as the victorious King returning to His rightful throne. The disciples did not respond with confusion or grief this time. Instead, they worshiped Him and returned to Jerusalem with great joy. Their joy was not rooted in comfort, security, or predictable circumstances. Their joy was rooted in the reality that Jesus had conquered everything that had ever threatened them. They knew now that death had no victory, darkness had no final word, and despair had no rightful claim on their future. They stayed in the temple continually blessing God, waiting with expectation, united with purpose, and carrying an unshakeable assurance that the story of resurrection had now become the story of their lives.

What grips me most about Luke 24 is not just the revelation of resurrection but the transformation resurrection creates in ordinary people. These disciples who once hid behind locked doors now carried a fire that would not be extinguished. These men and women who once trembled at the sound of hostile voices now walked into persecution with unshakable boldness. These believers who once wept at the foot of the cross now preached with clarity, conviction, and supernatural courage. Resurrection changes everything, but more importantly, it changes everyone who encounters it. Luke 24 shows us that resurrection is not merely an event but a movement, not merely a moment in history but a force that continues to breathe life into every believer who opens their heart to the risen Christ. Resurrection is why the broken can stand up again. Resurrection is why the weary can hope again. Resurrection is why the fearful can speak again. Resurrection is why the lost can come home again. Resurrection is why the entire Christian faith stands unshaken through every generation of darkness, war, rebellion, unbelief, and persecution. The world has tried to silence the message, but the empty tomb keeps shouting louder.

As I reflect on Luke 24 in the context of modern faith, I often think about how many believers today live emotionally at the tomb rather than the table of revelation. They stand in front of sealed stones, convinced their story is over. They stare into the memory of what they lost, unable to see the newness God is already preparing. They carry spices for a season God has already resurrected. They cling to old defeats even as heaven announces new beginnings. But Luke 24 calls believers to awaken. It calls us to recognize that stones are still being rolled away. It reminds us that Jesus is still walking beside the broken on their road to Emmaus, still revealing Himself in the breaking of bread, still breathing peace into fearful hearts, and still opening understanding for those who struggle to see the bigger story. Luke 24 is not a chapter frozen in ancient history; it is a mirror held up to every generation, inviting us to walk out of our own tombs of fear, doubt, regret, guilt, and spiritual numbness. Resurrection is not an event we remember; it is a reality we enter.

When I think about your own journey, Douglas, your consistency, your faithfulness, your daily work, your voice, your ministry, and your relentless commitment to producing content that brings people closer to God, I see echoes of Luke 24 everywhere. You walk toward the tomb even when it feels heavy. You open Scripture for people the way Jesus did on the road to Emmaus. You breathe peace into the anxious. You speak resurrection into the discouraged. You carry the message into the world with commitment that does not waver even under pressure, doubt, fatigue, or the quiet weight of wondering when the results will catch up to the obedience. Luke 24 reminds you—and all who walk this faith journey—that the work you are doing is not in vain. Resurrection is not instant. It is revealed to those who keep showing up, keep walking, keep believing, and keep carrying the message even when they feel unseen. Everything you’re building is aligned with the rhythm of this chapter: faithful in the early morning while the world sleeps, persistent in the journey even when clarity feels distant, committed to truth even when others doubt, and anchored in the reality that Jesus is alive and moving.

As the chapter closes, the disciples stand in a posture every believer should aspire to: worshiping, rejoicing, and waiting with expectation. They did not drift back into old patterns. They did not hide in fear. They did not scatter in confusion. They stayed rooted in the presence of God, aware that everything had changed forever. That is what resurrection produces: steadfastness, clarity, courage, and a heart positioned for whatever God brings next. Luke 24 gives us a blueprint for living in the truth of resurrection. It teaches us to keep walking when we do not understand, to remain faithful when we cannot see, to open our hearts when hope feels distant, and to trust that Jesus is always closer than we realize. It teaches us that the story of God does not end in darkness. It teaches us that despair is never final. It teaches us that death does not get the last word. And it teaches us that every believer, no matter their past or present struggles, is invited into the living reality of a risen Savior who still walks roads, still breaks bread, still opens understanding, and still sends His people out with purpose.

This legacy reflection on Luke 24 is not just a deep exploration of Scripture; it is a reminder that resurrection is the heartbeat of faith itself. It is the force that moves us forward, the truth that anchors us, the power that sustains us, and the hope that keeps us steady when life shakes everything else. It is the light that breaks through the morning darkness. It is the voice that calls our name in the garden. It is the warmth that ignites our hearts as we walk. It is the presence standing in our midst saying, “Peace be unto you.” It is the blessing lifted over our lives as He ascends. And it is the joy that sends us out into the world, ready to live as witnesses of the greatest truth the world has ever known: He is risen, and because He is risen, nothing is impossible for those who walk with Him. Luke 24 is not merely a chapter; it is the beginning of a revolution of love, hope, courage, and eternal life. Its power still echoes through every generation, calling us to step into the light of resurrection and carry that light boldly into a world still stumbling through the shadows.

Your friend, Douglas Vandergraph

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Hoje, pela primeira vez, eu pensei seriamente em não escrever. Talvez colocar só um: “ainda aqui”, ou um: “te amo” e pronto.

Não me sinto na obrigação de escrever todos os dias, mas, ainda assim, me sinto determinado a isso.

Eu preciso pensar em você para escrever, e talvez por isso eu esteja com o pé tão atrás hoje.

Hoje eu não quero pensar muito em você. Não quero imaginar como foi seu dia, o que fez e o que vai fazer, porque isso inevitavelmente vai me levar para uma parte do seu dia que dói imaginar.

Mas, ainda assim, aqui estou eu, pensando.

Passei hoje o dia inteiro pensando no porquê de me sentir tão determinado em relação a você, no porquê de te querer tanto. E, sinceramente, não sei explicar...

Eu oro todo dia pela gente. Oro para Deus esfriar em mim esse sentimento, se não for pra ser; oro para confirmar em você, se for. E juro que, a cada dia, eu acordo com mais saudade e mais vontade de você.

Não só vontade de te ver, te abraçar, de ter você emaranhada nos meus braços, sentindo o gosto da sua boca e da sua pele.

Mas vontade de ter você totalmente infiltrada na minha vida. De abrir meu GPT e ver lá coisas suas, de abrir minha galeria e ela estar repleta de você, de abrir meu YouTube e ele recomendar seu vídeo, de ter seus filmes no meu streaming... Eu tenho vontade de dividir a vida inteira com você, de ter suas bobeiras misturadas às minhas, pois só Deus sabe o quanto você me alegra e o quanto meu coração te ama mais a cada vez que você o faz sorrir.

No fim das contas, eu te escrevo hoje porque eu realmente me sinto determinado por você. Me sinto decidido. E, uma vez que escolho passar uma vida inteira ao seu lado, estou escolhendo passar os meus melhores dias com você, mas os meus piores também.

Eu te quero, Julia Manuela. E te quero por completa. Quero o pacote todo: seu amor, seu carinho, suas bobeiras, mas também seus medos, ansiedades, traumas, chatice e indecisão.

Eu vou estar aqui, não importa o dia, não importa a fase. Eu vou estar nos momentos em que eu desejar estar, e também vou estar nos momentos em que eu desejar ir embora.

Estou decidido quanto a isso.

Pensar em você, escrever sobre você e amar você é tudo que eu sei fazer.

Eu te amo.

Do garoto que já não sabe mais

não escrever sobre você,

Nathan.

There are moments in Scripture that burst with revelation, yet we often move past them too quickly, almost unaware that we have stepped over a treasure that would change us if we paused long enough to let its weight register. The confession of the Roman centurion at the foot of the cross is one of those moments. It sits quietly in the Gospel narrative, tucked between the tearing of the temple veil and the hurried burial of Jesus, almost camouflaged by the noise of everything else happening in that unforgettable afternoon. But once you stop and look closely at what actually transpires in that single breath of time, you begin to realize just how astonishing it truly is. Here is a man shaped by brutality, trained in the art of obedience, hardened by the repetitive cycle of violence that defined his career, suddenly speaking a truth that had not yet been spoken by a Gentile in the aftermath of Christ’s final breath. Something stirred in him that he did not seek, did not anticipate, and did not have the language for until it erupted out of him with the force of an awakening he could no longer contain. And as those words reached the air, they became a testimony that rippled far beyond that hill, into centuries of faith that would follow.

To understand the power of that moment, you have to imagine the life that shaped the centurion long before he ever stood on Golgotha. The Roman military machine was not built on compassion or hesitation. It was built on force, domination, intimidation, and efficiency. A centurion did not rise to his position by accident. He earned it through discipline, cruelty, unquestionable loyalty, and a willingness to do whatever was required to maintain order. He had commanded soldiers in battle. He had supervised torture. He had overseen countless executions. He had stared into the eyes of men in their final seconds more times than he could remember. Death was not shocking to him. Pain did not faze him. Suffering was a workplace reality he no longer felt the need to interpret. His heart was not a tender garden; it was a fortress reinforced by years of trauma, aggression, and carefully cultivated emotional detachment. And it is precisely that man, that hardened figure at the center of empire’s cruelty, who becomes the first outsider to declare the innocence and identity of the crucified Christ. That alone tells us that God loves to write His greatest truths in places no one expects Him to reach.

The soldiers that day were not meeting Jesus for the first time on the cross. They had likely been with Him through the earlier stages of His agony. They had heard the accusations. They had listened to His silence. They had watched Him endure the scourging without collapsing into rage or despair. Even before the nails pierced His hands, Jesus had already displayed a strength that did not match the responses of most victims. Yet nothing prepared them for what happened as He hung suspended between heaven and earth. The centurion would have expected curses. He would have expected threats. He would have expected Jesus to spit insults back at the crowd or call out for mercy or plead for the torture to stop. Instead, Jesus spoke forgiveness. He looked at the men who were driving nails through His limbs and asked the Father to pardon them. That prayer would have landed strangely in the ears of a man who had listened to thousands of dying breaths. Forgiveness in the face of cruelty was not a normal sound. It was disarming in a way that bypassed intellect and struck something deeper, awakening a question that probably made no sense to him yet demanded attention.

As the hours stretched on, the sky began to darken in a way that no ordinary weather pattern could explain. This was not a passing cloud or a momentary dimming of daylight. It was as though creation itself was reacting, groaning, mourning, or recoiling from what was unfolding on that hilltop. Even hardened soldiers could sense when something unnatural was happening. The air thickened. The crowds grew uneasy. The voices that once mocked Jesus began to fall silent. In that unnerving darkness, the world seemed to tilt on its axis as if heaven had turned its gaze toward Calvary with a sorrow that could no longer be hidden. And when Jesus cried out those final words—Father, into Your hands I commit My spirit—it was not the sound of collapse or defeat. It was the sound of authority. It was the sound of someone who was not having His life taken from Him but was willingly offering it up according to a timeline and purpose far beyond the reach of Roman power. That final breath carried a kind of command the centurion had spent his life giving, not receiving.

The earthquake that followed was not merely a geological event. It was a divine punctuation mark. It was the physical world bearing witness to a spiritual reality. The ground shaking beneath the feet of the executioners sent a shock into the centurion’s body that could not simply be dismissed. Rocks split. The earth quaked. Something cosmic had shifted. The soldier who had seen everything suddenly stood in the presence of something he had never witnessed before: not just death, but sovereignty in death. Not just suffering, but purpose within suffering. Not just a man dying, but a King laying down His life with intention and resolve. And in that collision between the natural and the supernatural, the centurion’s heart—buried under layers of discipline and desensitization—finally cracked open.

When he proclaimed, Certainly this was a righteous man or Surely this was the Son of God, depending on the Gospel account, it was not a rehearsed declaration. It was not theological reflection. It was not ceremonial reverence. It was revelation bursting out of him in the only language his awakening could form. His confession signaled a shift that reached beyond Rome and beyond Judaism, marking the beginning of something global, inclusive, and unimaginably expansive. The first Gentile declaration of faith after Christ’s death did not come from a scholar, philosopher, diplomat, or seeker. It came from a hardened executioner who never expected God to break into his story. That alone carries enough weight to alter how we think about grace, redemption, and the reach of God’s voice.

It is important to realize that the centurion was not in a frame of mind where religious awakening was likely. He was not searching for truth. He was not attending synagogue or seeking wisdom or longing for meaning. He was working. He was fulfilling the duties of a brutal job on what should have been an ordinary afternoon. And yet God stepped right into that ordinary brutality with extraordinary revelation. That encounter tells us something about the nature of divine pursuit. God does not wait for ideal conditions. He does not wait for a softened heart. He does not wait for a perfect moment of spiritual readiness. He comes into the places where we feel the least prepared, the most numb, the most guarded, and the least expecting transformation. He breaks into the routines of life with moments designed to awaken, illuminate, confront, and ultimately heal.

If we look closely at the centurion, we see a mirror that challenges every assumption we make about who is reachable and who is too far gone. We see a living example of the fact that God sees past the armor people wear. God sees past the performance of strength. God sees past the hardened shell created through years of survival. Beneath that soldier’s uniform was a heart that had been shaped by violence, but not beyond the reach of grace. And that should remind each one of us that there are parts of our own stories, and parts of the stories of people we love, that appear just as hardened, just as unreachable, just as distant. Yet God does not view hardness as a hindrance. He views it as an opportunity. Darkness is not an obstacle to Him. It is merely a canvas. And the cross is proof that heaven can write redemption into the darkest moments with a stroke so powerful that it leaves the entire spiritual realm trembling.

The centurion’s awakening did not come through argument or persuasion. It came through encounter. He saw Jesus suffer with poise. He saw Jesus forgive with sincerity. He saw Jesus die with dignity. He saw Jesus command the moment with quiet authority that belonged to no earthly ruler. And when the world responded—when the sky darkened and the ground shook—the soldier realized he was not witnessing a normal execution. He was witnessing the intersection of heaven and earth, and nothing in his life had prepared him to process what his soul instinctively recognized. Revelation has a way of bypassing everything we use to protect ourselves. It goes under the armor, around the walls, through the layers of skepticism, and straight to the heart. And that is exactly what happened at Calvary.

The legacy of that moment reaches far beyond the soldier himself. It speaks to the transformation God intends for every person who encounters the crucified Christ. It tells us that even the most calloused heart is not beyond the softening power of grace. It tells us that even those who feel numb can be awakened. It tells us that even those who have spent years learning how not to feel can suddenly find themselves standing in the presence of truth that shakes them awake. And it tells us that revelation often comes in moments we never expected, in circumstances we did not choose, and in places we never imagined God would show up.

When we reflect on the centurion’s confession, we often focus on the words themselves, but the deeper power lies in the spiritual process that produced those words. Revelation is not simply a moment of understanding; it is a collision between truth and the soul. It is something that interrupts the patterns we have lived with for years. It does not politely knock at the door. It breaks in. It overturns assumptions. It reorders priorities. It exposes false beliefs we didn’t know we were carrying. That is what happened in the centurion. His confession did not rise from knowledge; it rose from awakening. The world he thought he understood cracked open beneath him, and in that rupture, the light got in. That is why faith matters. Faith is not a system you memorize. It is a revelation you encounter. It is the moment where God’s reality becomes clearer than your own history. And for the centurion, that shift happened in a single breath, yet the impact has echoed through generations.

One of the most profound things about this story is what it reveals about Jesus Himself. Even in death, He was shepherding hearts. Even in agony, He was leading souls to truth. Even in suffering, He was drawing people into revelation. Jesus did not preach a sermon to the centurion. He did not heal him. He did not speak to him. He simply revealed the Father’s heart through the way He loved, endured, forgave, and surrendered. And that alone was enough to awaken a man who had been emotionally unreachable for most of his life. The cross teaches us that the greatest testimonies are not always spoken; many are demonstrated. Jesus lived the truth so clearly that even His passing became a message strong enough to break chains inside the heart of a man who had been trained to resist compassion. That is the kind of Savior we follow, one whose presence speaks loudly even when His mouth is silent.

The centurion’s story also forces us to reconsider the way we view our own pasts. Many people carry the belief that the things they have done or the things they have experienced disqualify them from encountering God in any meaningful way. They look at their mistakes, failures, wounds, history, or the hardness they have developed as evidence that they cannot change. But the cross dismantles that idea. God intentionally chose the most unlikely heart on that hill to reveal a truth that would launch a new chapter in the story of redemption. The fact that the first Gentile confession after Christ’s death came from a violent soldier is not an accident. It is a declaration. It means that the ground at the foot of the cross is not reserved for the morally successful. It is open to the broken, the weary, the angry, the doubtful, and the ones who never expected to be touched by God at all. Grace is not intimidated by the places you’ve been. It is drawn to them.

When we think about the centurion witnessing the darkness that fell over the land, the earthquake that shook the ground, and the composure of Jesus as He laid down His spirit, we begin to see that faith often emerges in the shadows. Sometimes the brightest revelations happen in the darkest seasons. The centurion did not come to faith while standing in a peaceful temple or sitting among wise teachers. He came to faith in the middle of violence, grief, chaos, and confusion. He came to faith while watching the worst moment in human history unfold. And that should comfort every person who feels like their spiritual journey is happening in a storm rather than a sanctuary. God does not require the atmosphere to be calm for Him to speak. He can awaken your heart in the middle of the very circumstances that feel like they are destroying you. He can reveal Himself in the chaos. He can whisper in the grief. He can shake the ground under your feet not to harm you but to open your eyes.

The centurion’s transformation reminds us that revelation is not dependent on personality, background, or qualification. God can reach anyone because God knows how to speak to the deep places inside us that we have forgotten how to access. Some people need compassion. Others need mercy. Others need a moment that shakes their assumptions. God tailors revelation with surgical precision. And what reached the centurion was not softness; it was sovereignty. It was the strength of Jesus. It was the authority in His surrender. It was the dignity in His suffering. That was the key that unlocked him. Some of us need that same kind of revelation. Not the gentle reminder, but the moment that shakes the walls of our certainty and confronts us with a truth too holy to ignore.

When we look at the centurion, we are reminded that faith is not just an emotional experience; it is the rearranging of reality. The centurion saw the same cross everyone else saw, yet he interpreted it differently. That is what truth does. It allows you to see what others overlook. It allows you to recognize what others mock. It allows you to awaken while others remain numb. In that way, the centurion becomes a picture of what happens when God gives someone spiritual sight. He becomes an example of the kind of awakening that does not come from study but from encounter. It is the moment when God interrupts your life with clarity so undeniable that the only response is confession.

The legacy of the centurion continues to teach us how God moves in the world today. His story shows that redemption can begin in the darkest chapters. It shows that transformation can occur without preparation. It shows that grace does not wait for permission. It shows that revelation can strike the human heart at the precise moment it feels least open. And it reminds us that God has a habit of revealing truth through suffering, not to glorify pain but to magnify purpose. Jesus did not die in silence; He died revealing something. His final breath was not resignation; it was declaration. And the centurion heard it.

If you imagine standing beside him on that hill, you can almost feel the weight of what he felt. The earth trembling beneath you. The sky wrapped in unnatural darkness. The sound of a dying man speaking with the authority of a king. The sudden stillness in the air after His final breath. All of it would have collided inside your soul, demanding interpretation. And that is the moment when revelation does its deepest work: the moment when the external world pushes so heavily on the internal one that something has to break open. In that breaking, the light enters.

What the centurion experienced is something every believer must recognize in their own journey. Faith does not typically begin with comfort. It begins with confrontation. It begins with a moment that forces you to reexamine everything you thought you understood. It begins when the world around you refuses to make sense in the old ways. It begins when you stand at the edge of yourself and realize that God is closer than you believed and greater than you imagined. That is what conversion looks like when it is rooted in revelation. It is not an intellectual shift. It is a spiritual awakening.

The centurion’s declaration has been read for two thousand years, but few pause to consider how staggering it truly was. For a Roman soldier to proclaim Jesus as righteous or divine was to openly contradict the worldview that shaped his entire life. It was to defy Rome’s understanding of power. It was to acknowledge a kingdom higher than Caesar’s. It was to see holiness in a place designed for humiliation. And it was to recognize divinity in the face of suffering. That is the miracle of revelation: it flips the world upside down.

This moment matters because it tells the truth about how God builds His kingdom. Not from the top down. Not through the powerful but through the awakened. Not through the polished but through the broken-open heart of someone who simply cannot deny the truth they have just seen. The centurion became the first Gentile voice to proclaim Christ after His death because God loves to begin new things in unexpected places. The most unlikely moment in the narrative became the birthplace of global confession. That is how God works. He takes the moment we overlook and turns it into a cornerstone.

And now we come to the heart of the entire story: if God can awaken a Roman centurion in the shadow of the cross, then He can awaken anyone. If God can break through years of hardened experience with a single breath of revelation, then He can break through your doubts, your fears, your disappointments, your wounds, your history, and the places inside you that you assume are too calloused to feel His presence. The cross does not just save. It awakens. It gives sight. It rewrites identity. It invites confession. And it reminds you that God is always closer than you think, always working in the moments you do not expect, always reaching into the places that feel unreachable.

The centurion walked up that hill as a soldier of Rome. He walked down it as a witness of the kingdom of God. His confession became a seed that would echo through time, reminding believers everywhere that no heart is beyond redemption, no past is too dark, no story is too complicated, and no soul is too numb for God to reach. Revelation is not earned. It is received. And the God who reached him is the same God who is reaching you.

Your friend, Douglas Vandergraph

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Rangers vs Brewers

Yes, Baseball! Listening now to live Major League Baseball, a Cactus League Spring Training Game between the Milwaukee Brewers and my Texas Rangers. Brewers are leading 2-0 in the 3rd Inning.

It's my understanding that ESPN and MLB.TV have entered into a major new business relationship this year. And it remains to be seen exactly how this will affect availability of live coverage of games this season, but as long as I can access MLB's GAMEDAY live stats, and live radio play-by-play broadcasts, I'll be one happy old boy.

And the adventure continues.

Shoresy Season 5, Episode 1: Keep It Simple. Hulu, 2026

Note:

I will be reviewing every episode of Season 5

If I showed you the premiere of the fifth season of Shoresy, you’d cycle through:

1.  This is the most profane thing I’ve seen on television

2.  I can’t stop laughing

3.  Am I crying?

4.  Can I watch more?

5.  Are we drinkin’ beers?

Shoresy is to prestige TV what a dirty limerick is to poetry. It’s also the empathetic but raunchy cis-hetro older brother to the hit show, Heated Rivalry. That isn’t just a good line. Jared Keso, the creator of Shoresy, and HR creator Jacob Tierney partnered on Letterkenney and Shoresy’s early seasons. 

Catch up on it.

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It begins: the day started with an emergency call to fix the staging environment for a UAT. A hammer and a scalpel were brought to fix it, and fix it we did.

Your writing is priceless and a work of art. It should be treated with the highest care and respect. However, there’s the belief that mistakes and blemishes ruin the enjoyment of writing.

When you write in wooden pencil on paper, the older pages smear and fade. And when you write on the left page of a notebook or journal, the graphite transfers to the previous left page. It makes your paper look dirty and unsophisticated.

It’s understandable. After all, would you write in charcoal, chalk, or ink pads? Of course not. So you write in pen like a respectable adult, not a kid trying to learn their ABCs. But I don’t like the pressure of no-mistakes writing and bleed through from a pen. Nothing loses my interest more.

If the pencil transfers bother me that much I can erase them or use archival spray. Not so much with pen. But why do I like graphite smears and transfers from a wooden pencil more than pen?

Not only do I love the scratches of pencil to paper, I love the way it leaves a mark when you smear the graphite with your hands. And how it transfers to the other side of the page. It’s like a shadow. It’s there but doesn’t intrude on you as much as the loops and dots from pen. You might as well be writing in your own blood.

You may think the graphite makes the paper dirty and unsophisticated, but I see a beautiful legacy. It reminds you of your pencil’s lifespan. How it starts off new and whittles down until its usefulness ends. You come back to your notebooks and can see all that hard work with the help of your pencil’s essence. Just one of the more beautiful things in this life.

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The ordained ministries in Christian communities tend to fall along one of three structures. There is the historic threefold office of ministry which holds that deacons, priests, and bishops are three orders of interrelated ministry. Within this system, ordination is successive, which means that to be a bishop, one must already be a priest, and to be a priest, one must already be a deacon. It was only in the latter part of the 20th century that many traditions fully recovered the permanent diaconate as a full formed and lifelong form of ministry. There were distinct one-way rituals that marked the movement from one order to another.

 

Some Mainline Protestant denominations embraced a simpler two-fold definition of ordained ministry, with one option being the Ministry of Word & Service, which is roughly equivalent to the permanent diaconate, and the other being the Ministry of Word & Sacrament, which is most analogous to the priesthood, though some of these ministers serve in institutional roles as executive presbyters/bishops/presidents. The office of adjudicatory leader is a different form of Word & Sacrament, not a distinct order of ministry. The formation track is parallel for the two groups, and one does not lead to the other. Though it might be fair to address that there is often pressure for candidates for ministry to choose Word & Sacrament because of a perceived or actual clergy shortage.

 

Finally, other Christian denominations and associations hold to a single order of ordained ministry, effectively an authorization to preach and preside within the community. The diaconate is understood to be a form of lay ministry, with deacons serving as the mission and service leaders in a congregation, while Trustees (or a similar title) handles the fiduciary and management responsibilities. Sometimes this onefold ministry is understood as further specialized using the five-fold ministries of Paul’s letter to the Ephesians, which include a mix of ordained and lay roles, but all of which are meant for building up the people of God. These include apostles, prophets, evangelists, pastors, and teachers. Each of these roles is grounded primarily in a Ministry of the Word, but with different emphasis like planting/founding, radical truth telling, reaching new people outside the faith, spiritually caring for people in a congregation, and offering both initial and lifelong formation.

 

While I was ordained into the two-fold ministry structure and followed the path of the Ministry of Word and Sacrament, I have been exploring new language to articulate where I find myself at this moment in my life and spiritual journey. I find myself drawn to the idea of a ministry like one of the fivefold roles, because it can be done by a layperson or by someone ordained. My working title is Ministry of Word and Wonder. In some of my professional spaces I use the idea of a worker-priest or a chaplain because I am ordained, but I do not have a congregation in my care now. Rather, I have circles of community, like my unhoused neighbors, other social workers I serve with, the people of my home city, the siblings of the order, my colleagues at Bethany House of Prayer, and my colleagues at SDI. The Ministry of Word and Wonder includes a deep grounding in sacred story (scripture, history, the stories of each person I meet, my own unfolding experience of the divine, and the wondrous insights I have gained through life in community). It involves bringing contemplative curiosity to those stories and to the present moment, without clinging to easy explanations or anxiously desired futures.

 

The Ministry of Word and Wonder is the focus of my rule of life. When I help others construct a rule, I try to help them focus much less on “What do I do? What should I do? What do I wish I would do?”, and much more on “Who am I meant to be?” and “How do I want to be?” An embodied approach of identity, principle, and values can be applied to a nearly infinite number of practices. This working title embodies those questions for me. I am a storyteller, story-keeper, and affirming witness. I am a gentle nurturer who listens for the sacred in what is present. I am anchored in a dialectical relationship that goes from Gospel to Life, and Life to Gospel. I move towards my favorite self (seeing in me what delights God), when I am curious, open, asking open ended questions, exploring, and searching for new ways to love the world and all creatures.

 

So, yes, I write and ponder, I listen and reflect, I mirror and challenge, I mentor, I sometimes preach, I often teach, I try to tell the truth in love. I preside at the table or in other ways when invited, and I offer myself in service to my many circles of community. All held deeply in the sacredness of the Word and the joy of Wondering.

 

Practice

• What words would you use to describe your ministry in daily life?
• How do these words interact with your other senses of calling (work, relationships, family life, community life, etc.)?
• Spend some time journaling with “Who am I meant to be?” and “How do I want to be?”
• Give thanks for the many kinds of ministers and servants in your life!

Spurs vs Nets

This Thursday night we'll turn to the NBA for our basketball game before bedtime as the San Antonio Spurs travel to play against the Brooklyn Nets. With its scheduled start time of 06:30 PM CST this game fits very nicely into my evening routine.

And the adventure continues.