I use Claude Code a lot; that was what I thought. But seeing the /usage from last week, there is plenty of room to use it even more. :D

Recently, I saw Clawd.bot, which is a personal AI assistant and looks promising. Let's see what use cases I can find here.

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One of my all-time favourite films is Francis Ford Coppola's Apocalypse Now. The making of the film, however, was a carnival of catastrophe, itself captured in the excellent documentary Hearts of Darkness: A Filmmaker's Apocalypse. There's a quote from the embattled director that captures the essence of the film's travails:

“We were in the jungle, there were too many of us, we had access to too much money, too much equipment, and little by little we went insane.”

This also neatly encapsulates our current state regarding AI agents. Much has been promised, even more has been spent. CIOs have attended conferences and returned eager for pilots that show there's more to their AI strategy than buying Copilot. And so billions of tokens have been torched in the search for agentic AI nirvana.

But there's an uncomfortable truth: most of it does not yet work correctly. And the bits that do work often don't have anything resembling trustworthy agency. What makes this particularly frustrating is that we've been here before.

It's at this point that I run the risk of sounding like an elderly man shouting at technological clouds. But if there are any upsides to being an old git, it's that you've seen some shit. The promises of agentic AI sound familiar because they are familiar. To understand why it is currently struggling, it is helpful to look back at the last automation revolution and why its lessons matter now.

The RPA Playbook

Robotic Process Automation arrived in the mid-2010s with bold claims. UiPath, Automation Anywhere, and Blue Prism claimed that enterprises could automate entire workflows without touching legacy systems. The pitch was seductive: software robots that mimicked human actions, clicking through interfaces, copying data between applications, processing invoices. No API integrations required. No expensive system overhauls.

RPA found its footing in specific, well-defined territories. Finance departments deployed bots to reconcile accounts, match purchase orders to invoices, and process payments. Tasks where the inputs were predictable and the rules were clear. A bot could open an email, extract an attached invoice, check it against the PO system, flag discrepancies, and route approvals.

HR teams automated employee onboarding paperwork, creating accounts across multiple systems, generating offer letters from templates, and scheduling orientation sessions. Insurance companies used bots for claims processing, extracting data from submitted forms and populating legacy mainframe applications that lacked modern APIs.

Banks deployed RPA for know-your-customer compliance, with bots checking names against sanctions lists and retrieving data from credit bureaus. Telecom companies automated service provisioning, translating customer orders into the dozens of system updates required to activate a new line. Healthcare organisations used bots to verify insurance eligibility, checking coverage before appointments and flagging patients who needed attention.

The pattern was consistent. High-volume, rules-based tasks with structured data and predictable pathways. The technology worked because it operated within tight constraints. An RPA bot follows a script. If the button is in the expected location, it clicks. If the data matches the expected format, it is processed. The “robot” is essentially a sophisticated macro: deterministic, repeatable, and utterly dependent on the environment remaining stable.

This was both RPA's strength and its limitation. Implementations succeeded when processes were genuinely routine. They struggled (often spectacularly) when reality proved messier than the flowchart suggested. A website redesign could break an entire automation. An unexpected pop-up could halt processing. A vendor's change in invoice format necessitated extensive reconfiguration. Bots trained on Internet Explorer broke if organisations migrated to Chrome. The two-factor authentication pop-up that appeared after a security update brought entire processes to a standstill.

These bots, which promised to free knowledge workers, often created new jobs. Bot maintenance, exception handling, and the endless work of keeping brittle automations running. Enterprises discovered they needed dedicated teams just to babysit their automations, fix the daily breakages, and manage the queue of exceptions that bots couldn't handle. If that sounds eerily familiar, keep reading.

What Actually Are AI Agents?

Agentic AI promises something categorically different. Throughout 2025, the discussion around agents was widespread, but real-world examples of their functionality remained scarce. This confusion was compounded by differing interpretations of what constitutes an “agent.”

For this article, we define agents as LLMs that operate tools in a loop to accomplish a goal. This definition enables practical discussion without philosophical debates about consciousness or autonomy.

So how is it different from its purely deterministic predecessors? Where RPA follows scripts, agents are meant to reason. Where RPA needs explicit instructions for every scenario, agents should adapt. When RPA encounters an unexpected situation, it halts, whereas agents should continue to problem-solve. You get the picture.

The theoretical distinctions are genuine. Large language models can interpret ambiguous instructions, understanding that “clean up this data” might mean different things in different contexts: standardising date formats in one spreadsheet, removing duplicates in another, and fixing obvious typos in a third. They can generate novel approaches rather than selecting from predefined pathways.

Agents can work with unstructured information that would defeat traditional automation. An RPA bot can extract data from a form with labelled fields. An agent can read a rambling email from a customer, understand they're asking about their order status, identify which order they mean from context clues, and draft an appropriate response. They can parse contracts to identify key terms, summarise meeting transcripts, or categorise support tickets based on the actual content rather than keyword matching. All of this is real-world capability today, and it's remarkable.

Most significantly, agents are supposed to handle the edges. The exception cases that consumed so much RPA maintenance effort should, in theory, be precisely where AI shines. An agent encountering an unexpected pop-up doesn't halt; it reads the message and decides how to respond. An agent facing a redesigned website doesn't break; it identifies the new location of the elements it needs. A vendor sending invoices in a new format doesn't require reconfiguration; the agent adapts to extract the same information from the new layout.

Under my narrow definition, some agents are already proving useful in specific, limited fields, primarily coding and research. Advanced research tools, where an LLM is challenged to gather information over fifteen minutes and produce detailed reports, perform impressively. Coding agents, such as Claude Code and Cursor, have become invaluable to developers.

Nonetheless, more generally, agents remain a long way from self-reliant computer assistants capable of performing requested tasks armed with only a loose set of directions and requiring minimal oversight or supervision. That version has yet to materialise and is unlikely to do so in the near future (say the next two years). The reasons for my scepticism are the various unsolved problems this article outlines, none of which seem to have a quick or easy resolution.

Building a Basic Agent is Easy

Building a basic agent is remarkably straightforward. At its core, you need three things: a way to call an LLM, some tools for it to use, and a loop that keeps running until the task is done.

Give an LLM a tool that can run shell commands, and you can have a working agent in under fifty lines of Python. Add a tool for file operations, another for web requests, and suddenly you've got something that looks impressive in a demo.

This accessibility is both a blessing and a curse. It means anyone can experiment, which is fantastic for learning and exploration. But it also means there's a flood of demos and prototypes that create unrealistic expectations about what's actually achievable in production. The difference between a cool prototype and a robust production agent that runs reliably at scale with minimal maintenance is the crux of the current challenge.

Building a Deep Agent is Hard

The simple agent I described above, an LLM calling tools in a loop, works fine for straightforward tasks. Ask it to check the weather and send an email, and it'll probably manage. However, this architecture breaks down when confronted with complex, multi-step challenges that require planning, context management, and sustained execution over a longer time period.

More complex agents address this limitation by implementing a combination of four components: a planning tool, sub-agents, access to a file system, and a detailed prompt. These are what LangChain calls “deep agents”. This essentially means agents that are capable of planning more complex tasks and executing them over longer time horizons to achieve those goals.

The initial proposition is seductive and useful. For example, maybe you have 20 active projects, each with its own budget, timeline, and client expectations. Your project managers are stretched thin. Warning signs can get missed. By the time someone notices a project is in trouble, it's already a mini crisis. What if an agent could monitor everything continuously and flag problems before they escalate?

A deep agent might approach this as follows:

Data gathering: The agent connects to your project management tool and pulls time logs, task completion rates, and milestone status for each active project. It queries your finance system for budget allocations and actual spend. It accesses Slack to review recent channel activity and client communications.

Analysis: For each project, it calculates burn rate against budget, compares planned versus actual progress, and analyses communication patterns. It spawns sub-agents to assess client sentiment from recent emails and Slack messages.

Pattern matching: The agent compares current metrics against historical data from past projects, looking for warning signs that preceded previous failures, such as a sudden drop in Slack activity, an accelerating burn rate or missed internal deadlines.

Judgement: When it detects potential problems, the agent assesses severity. Is this a minor blip or an emerging crisis? Does it warrant immediate escalation or just a note in the weekly summary?

Intervention: For flagged projects, the agent drafts a status report for the project manager, proposes specific intervention strategies based on the identified problem type, and, optionally, schedules a check-in meeting with the relevant stakeholders.

This agent might involve dozens of LLM calls across multiple systems, sentiment analysis of hundreds of messages, financial calculations, historical comparisons, and coordinated output generation, all running autonomously.

Now consider how many things can go wrong:

Data access failure: The agent can't authenticate with Harvest because someone changed the API key last week. It falls back to cached data from three days ago without flagging that the information is stale and the API call failed. Each subsequent calculation is based on outdated figures, yet the final report presents everything with false confidence.

Misinterpreted metrics: The agent sees that Project Atlas has logged only 60% of the budgeted hours with two weeks remaining. It flags this as under-delivery risk. In reality, the team front-loaded the difficult work and is ahead of schedule, as the remaining tasks are straightforward. The agent can't distinguish between “behind” and “efficiently ahead” because both look like hour shortfalls.

Sentiment analysis hallucinations: A sub-agent analyses Slack messages and flags Project Beacon as having “deteriorating client sentiment” based on a thread in which the client used terms such as “concerned” and “frustrated.” The actual context is that the client was venting about their own internal IT team, not your work.

Compounding errors: The finance sub-agent pulls budget data but misparses a currency field, reading £50,000 as 50,000 units with no currency, which it then assumes is dollars. This process cascades down the dependency chain, with each agent building upon the faulty foundation laid by the last. The initial, small error becomes amplified and compounded at each step. The project now appears massively over budget.

Historical pattern mismatch: The agent's pattern matching identifies similarities between Project Cedar and a project that failed eighteen months ago. Both had declining Slack activity in week six. However, the earlier project failed due to scope creep, whereas Cedar's quiet Slack is because the client is on holiday. The agent can't distinguish correlation from causation, and the historical “match” creates a false alarm.

Coordination breakdown: Even if individual agents perform well in isolation, collective performance breaks down when outputs are incompatible. The time-tracking sub-agent reports dates in UK format (DD/MM/YYYY), the finance sub-agent uses US format (MM/DD/YYYY). The synthesis step doesn't catch this. Suddenly, work logged on 3rd December appears to have occurred on 12th March, disrupting all timeline calculations.

Infinite loops: The agent detects an anomaly in Project Delta's data. It spawns a sub-agent to investigate. The sub-agent reports inconclusive results and requests additional data. Multiple agents tasked with information retrieval often re-fetch or re-analyse the same data points, wasting compute and time. Your monitoring task, which should take minutes, burns through your API budget while the agents chase their tails.

The silent failure: The agent completes its run. The report looks professional: clean formatting, specific metrics, actionable recommendations. You forward it to your PMs. But buried in the analysis is a critical error; it compared this month's actuals against last year's budget for one project, making the numbers look healthy when they're actually alarming. When things go wrong, it's often not obvious until it's too late.

You might reasonably accuse me of being unduly pessimistic. And sure, an agent might run with none of the above issues. The real issue is how you would know. It is currently difficult and time-consuming to build an agent that protects users from these potential failures. So, unless you can map and surface every permutation of failure, you have a system generating authoritative-looking reports that you can't fully trust. Do you review every data point manually? That defeats the purpose of the automation. Do you trust it blindly? That's how you miss the project that's actually failing while chasing false alarms.

In reality, you've spent considerable time and money building a system that creates work rather than reduces it. And that's just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to the challenges.

Then Everything Falls Apart

The moment you try to move from a demo to anything resembling production, the wheels come off with alarming speed. The hard part isn't the model or prompting, it's everything around it: state management, handoffs between tools, failure handling, and explaining why the agent did something. The capabilities that differentiate agents from traditional automation are precisely the ones that remain unreliable.

Here are just some of the current challenges:

The Reasoning Problem

Reasoning appears impressive until you need to rely on it. Today's agents can construct plausible-sounding logic chains that lead to confidently incorrect conclusions. They hallucinate facts, misinterpret context, and commit errors that no human would make, yet do so with the same fluency they bring to correct answers. You can't tell from the output alone whether the reasoning was sound. Ask an agent to analyse a contract, and it might correctly identify a problematic liability clause, or it might confidently cite a clause that doesn't exist. Ask it to calculate a complex commission structure, and it might nail the logic, or it might make an arithmetic error while explaining its methodology in perfect prose. An agent researching a company for a sales call might return accurate, useful background information, or it might blend information from two similarly named companies, presenting the mixture as fact. The errors are inconsistent and unpredictable, which makes them harder to detect than systematic bugs.

We've seen this with legal AI assistants helping with contract review. They work flawlessly on test datasets, but when deployed, the AI confidently cites legal precedents that don't exist. That's a potentially career-ending mistake for a lawyer. In high-stakes domains, you can't tolerate any hallucinations whatsoever. We know it's better to say “I don't know” than to be confidently wrong, something which LLMs unfortunately excel at.

The Consistency Problem

Adaptation is valuable until you need consistency. The same agent, given the same task twice, might approach it differently each time. For many enterprise processes, this isn't a feature, it's a compliance nightmare. When auditors ask why a decision was made, “the AI figured it out” isn't an acceptable answer.

Financial services firms discovered this quickly. An agent categorising transactions for regulatory reporting might make defensible decisions, but different defensible decisions on different days. An agent drafting customer communications might vary its tone and content in ways that create legal exposure. The non-determinism that makes language models creative also makes them problematic for processes that require auditability. You can't version-control reasoning the way you version-control a script.

The Accuracy-at-Scale Problem

Working with unstructured data is feasible until accuracy is critical. A medical transcription AI achieved 96% word accuracy, exceeding that of human transcribers. Of the fifty doctors to whom it was deployed, forty had stopped using it within two weeks. Why? The 4% of errors occurred in critical areas: medication names, dosages, and patient identifiers. A human making those mistakes would double-check. The AI confidently inserted the wrong drug name, and the doctors completely lost confidence in the system.

This pattern repeats across domains. Accuracy on test sets doesn't measure what matters. What matters is where the errors occur, how confident the system is when it's wrong, and whether users can trust it for their specific use case. A 95% accuracy rate sounds good until you realise it means one in twenty invoices processed incorrectly, one in twenty customer requests misrouted, one in twenty data points wrong in your reporting.

The Silent Failure and Observability Problem

The exception handling that should be AI's strength often becomes its weakness. An RPA bot encountering an edge case fails visibly; it halts and alerts a human operator. An agent encountering an edge case might continue confidently down the wrong path, creating problems that surface much later and prove much harder to diagnose.

Consider expense report processing. An RPA bot can handle the happy path: receipts in standard formats, amounts matching policy limits, and categories clearly indicated. But what about the crumpled receipt photographed at an angle? The international transaction in a foreign currency with an ambiguous date format? The dinner receipt, where the business justification requires judgment?

The RPA bot flags the foreign receipt as an exception requiring human review. The agent attempts to handle it, converts the currency using a rate obtained elsewhere, interprets the date in the format it deems most likely, and makes a judgment call regarding the business justification. If it's wrong, nobody knows until the audit. The visible failure became invisible. The problem that would have been caught immediately now compounds through downstream systems.

One organisation deploying agents for data migration found they'd automated not just the correct transformations but also a consistent misinterpretation of a particular field type. By the time they discovered the pattern, thousands of records were wrong. An RPA bot would have failed on the first ambiguous record; the agent had confidently handled all of them incorrectly.

There is some good news here: the tooling for agent observability has improved significantly. According to LangChain's 2025 State of Agent Engineering report[^1], 89% of organisations have implemented some form of observability for their agents, and 62% have detailed tracing that allows them to inspect individual agent steps and tool calls. This speaks to a fundamental truth of agent engineering: without visibility into how an agent reasons and acts, teams can't reliably debug failures, optimise performance, or build trust with stakeholders.

Platforms such as LangSmith, Arize Phoenix, Langfuse, and Helicone now offer comprehensive visibility into agent behaviour, including tracing, real-time monitoring, alerting, and high-level usage insights. LangChain Traces records every step of your agent's execution, from the initial user input to the final response, including all tool calls, model interactions, and decision points.

Unlike simple LLM calls or short workflows, deep agents run for minutes, span dozens or hundreds of steps, and often involve multiple back-and-forth interactions with users. As a result, the traces produced by a single deep agent execution can contain an enormous amount of information, far more than a human can easily scan or digest. The latest tools attempt to address this by using AI to analyse traces. Instead of manually scanning dozens or hundreds of steps, you can ask questions like: “Did the agent do anything that could be more efficient?”

But there's a catch: none of this is baked in. You have to choose a platform, integrate it, configure your tracing, set up your dashboards, and build the muscle memory to actually use the data. Because tools like Helicone operate mainly at the proxy level, they only see what's in the API call, not the internal state or logic in your app. Complex chains and agents may still require separate logging within the application to ensure full debuggability. For some teams, these tools are a first step rather than a comprehensive observability story.

A deeper problem is that observability tells you what happened, not why the model made a particular decision. You can trace every step an agent took, see every tool call it made, inspect every prompt and response, and still have no idea why it confidently cited a non-existent legal precedent or misinterpreted your instructions.

The reasoning remains opaque even when the execution is visible. So whilst the tooling has improved, treating observability as a solved problem would be a mistake.

The Context Window Problem

A context window is essentially the AI's working memory. It's the amount of information (text, images, files, etc.) it can “see” and consider at any one time. The size of this window is measured in tokens, which are roughly equivalent to words (though not exactly; a long word might be split into multiple tokens, and punctuation counts separately). When ChatGPT first launched, its context window was approximately 4,000 tokens, roughly 3,000 words, or about six pages of text. Today's models advertise windows of 128,000 tokens or more, equivalent to a short novel.

This matters for agents because each interaction consumes space within that window: the instructions you provide, the tools available, the results of each action, and the conversation history. An agent working through a complex task can exhaust its context window surprisingly quickly, and as it fills, performance degrades in ways that are difficult to predict.

But the marketing pitch is seductive. A longer context means the LLM can process more information per call and generate more informed outputs. The reality is far messier. Research from Chroma measured 18 LLMs and found that “models do not use their context uniformly; instead, their performance grows increasingly unreliable as input length grows.”[^2] Even on tasks as simple as non-lexical retrieval or text replication, they observed increasing non-uniformity in performance with increasing input length.

This manifests as the “lost in the middle” problem. A landmark study from Stanford and UC Berkeley found that performance can degrade significantly when the position of relevant information is changed, indicating that current language models do not robustly exploit information in long input contexts.[^3] Performance is often highest when relevant information occurs at the beginning or end of the input context, and significantly degrades when models must access relevant information in the middle of long contexts, even for explicitly long-context models.

The Stanford researchers observed a distinctive U-shaped performance curve. Language model performance is highest when relevant information occurs at the very beginning (primacy bias), or end of its input context (recency bias), and performance significantly degrades when models must access and use information in the middle of their input context. Put another way, the LLM pays attention to the beginning, pays attention to the end, and increasingly ignores everything in between as context grows.

Studies have shown that LLMs themselves often experience a decline in reasoning performance when processing inputs that approach or exceed approximately 50% of their maximum context length. For GPT-4o, with its 128K-token context window, this suggests that performance issues may arise with inputs of approximately 64K tokens, which is far from the theoretical maximum.

This creates real engineering challenges. Today, frontier models offer context windows that are no more than 1-2 million tokens. That amounts to a few thousand code files, which is still less than most production codebases of enterprise customers. So any workflow that relies on simply adding everything to context still runs up against a hard wall.

Computational cost also increases quadratically with context length due to the transformer architecture, creating a practical ceiling on how much context can be processed efficiently. This quadratic scaling means that doubling the context length quadruples the computational requirements, directly affecting both inference latency and operational costs.

Managing context is now a legitimate programming problem that few people have solved elegantly. The workarounds: retrieval-augmented generation, chunking strategies, and hierarchical memory systems each introduce their own failure modes and complexity. The promise of simply “putting everything in context” remains stubbornly unfulfilled.

The Latency Problem

If your model runs in 100ms on your GPU cluster, that's an impressive benchmark. In production with 500 concurrent users, API timeouts, network latency, database queries, and cold starts, the average response time is more likely to be four to eight seconds. Users expect responses from conversational AI within two seconds. Anything longer feels broken.

The impact of latency on user experience extends beyond mere inconvenience. In interactive AI applications, delayed responses can break the natural flow of conversation, diminish user engagement, and ultimately affect the adoption of AI-powered solutions. This challenge compounds as the complexity of modern LLM applications grows, where multiple LLM calls are often required to solve a single problem, significantly increasing total processing time.

For agentic systems, this is particularly punishing. Each step in an agent loop incurs latency. The LLM reasons about what to do, calls a tool, waits for the response, processes the result, and decides the next step. Chain five or six of these together, and response times are measured in tens of seconds or even minutes.

Some applications, such as document summarisation or complex tasks that require deep reasoning, are latency-tolerant; that is, users are willing to wait a few extra seconds if the end result is high-quality. In contrast, use cases like voice and chat assistants, AI copilots in IDEs, and real-time customer support bots are highly latency-sensitive. Here, even a 200–300ms delay before the first token can disrupt the conversational flow, making the system feel sluggish, robotic, or even frustrating to use.

Thus, a “worse” model with better infrastructure often performs better in production than a “better” model with poor infrastructure. Latency degrades user experience more than accuracy improves it. A slightly slower but more predictable response time is often preferred over occasional rapid replies interspersed with long delays. This psychological aspect of waiting explains why perceived responsiveness matters as much as raw response times.

The Model Drift and Decay Problem

Having worked in insurance for part of my career, I recently examined the experiences of various companies that have deployed claims-processing AI. They initially observed solid test metrics and deployed these agents to production. But six to nine months later, accuracy had collapsed entirely, and they were back to manual review for most claims. Analysis across seven carrier deployments showed a consistent pattern: models lost more than 50 percentage points of accuracy over 12 months.

The culprits for this ongoing drift were insidious. Policy language drifted as carriers updated templates quarterly, fraud patterns shifted constantly, and claim complexity increased over time. Models trained on historical data can't detect new patterns they've never seen. So in rapidly changing fields such as healthcare, finance, and customer service, performance can decline within months. Stale models lose accuracy, introduce bias, and miss critical context, often without obvious warning signs.

This isn't an isolated phenomenon. According to recent research, 91% of ML models suffer from model drift.[^4] The accuracy of an AI model can degrade within days of deployment because production data diverges from the model's training data. This can lead to incorrect predictions and significant risk exposure. A 2025 LLMOps report notes that, without monitoring, models left unchanged for 6+ months exhibited a 35% increase in error rates on new data.[^5] The problem manifests in multiple ways. Data drift refers to changes in the input data distribution, while model drift generally refers to the model's predictive performance degrading.

Perhaps most unsettling is evidence that even flagship models can degrade between versions. Researchers from Stanford University and UC Berkeley evaluated the March 2023 and June 2023 versions of GPT-3.5 and GPT-4 on several diverse tasks.[^6] They found that the performance and behaviour of both GPT-3.5 and GPT-4 can vary greatly over time.

GPT-4 (March 2023) recognised prime numbers with 97.6% accuracy, whereas GPT-4 (June 2023) achieved only 2.4% accuracy and ignored the chain-of-thought prompt. There was also a significant drop in the direct executability of code: for GPT-4, the percentage of directly executable generations dropped from 52% in March to 10% in June. This demonstrated “that the same prompting approach, even those widely adopted, such as chain-of-thought, could lead to substantially different performance due to LLM drifts.”

This degradation is so common that industry leaders refer to it as “AI ageing,” the temporal degradation of AI models. Essentially, model drift is the manifestation of AI model failure over time. Recent industry surveys underscore how common this is: in 2024, 75% of businesses reported declines in AI performance over time due to inadequate monitoring, and over half reported revenue losses due to AI errors.

This raises an uncomfortable question about return on investment. If a model's accuracy can collapse within months, or even between vendor updates you have no control over, what's the real value of the engineering effort required to deploy it? You're not building something that compounds in value over time. You're building something that requires constant maintenance just to stay in place.

The hours spent fine-tuning prompts, integrating systems, and training staff on new workflows may need to be repeated far sooner than anyone budgeted for. Traditional automation, for all its brittleness, at least stays fixed once it works. An RPA bot that correctly processed invoices in January will do so in December, unless the environment changes. When assessing whether an agent project is worth pursuing, consider not only the build cost but also the ongoing costs of monitoring, maintenance, and, if components degrade over time, potential rebuilding.

Real-World Data is Disgusting

Your training data is likely clean, labelled, balanced, and formatted consistently. Production data contains missing fields, inconsistent formats, typographical errors, special characters, mixed languages, and undocumented abbreviations. An e-commerce recommendation AI trained on clean product catalogues worked beautifully in testing. In production, product titles looked like “NEW!!! BEST DEAL EVER 50% OFF Limited Time!!! FREE SHIPPING” with 47 emojis. The AI couldn't parse any of it reliably. The solution required three months to build data-cleaning pipelines and normalisation layers. The “AI” project ended up being 20% model, 80% data engineering.

Users Don't Behave as Expected

You trained your chatbot on helpful, clear user queries. Real users say things like: “that thing u showed me yesterday but blue,” “idk just something nice,” and my personal favourite, “you know what I mean.” They misspell everything, use slang, reference context that doesn't exist, and assume the AI remembers conversations from three weeks ago. They abandon sentences halfway through, change their minds mid-query, and provide feedback that's impossible to interpret (“no, not like that, the other way”). Users request “something for my nephew” without specifying age, interests, or budget. They reference “that thing from the ad” without specifying which ad. They expect the AI to know that “the usual” meant the same product they'd bought eighteen months ago on a different device.

This is a fundamental mismatch between how AI systems are tested and how humans actually communicate. In testing, you tend to use well-formed queries because you're trying to evaluate the model's capabilities, not its tolerance for ambiguity. In production, you discover that human communication is deeply contextual, heavily implicit, and assumes a shared understanding that no AI actually possesses.

The clearer and more specific a task is, the less users feel they need an AI to help with it. They reach for intelligent agents precisely when they can't articulate what they want, which is exactly when the agent is least equipped to help them. The messy, ambiguous, “you know what I mean” queries aren't edge cases; they're the core use case that drove users to the AI in the first place.

The Security Problem

Security researcher Simon Willison has identified what he calls the “Lethal Trifecta” for AI agents[^7], a combination of three capabilities that, when present together, make your agent fundamentally vulnerable to attack:

1. Access to private data: one of the most common purposes of giving agents tools in the first place
2. Exposure to untrusted content: any mechanism by which text or images controlled by an attacker could become available to your LLM
3. The ability to externally communicate: any way the agent can send data outward, which Willison calls “exfiltration”

When your agent combines all three, an attacker can trick it into accessing your private data and sending it directly to them. This isn't theoretical. Microsoft's Copilot was affected by the “Echo Leak” vulnerability, which used exactly this approach.

The attack works like this: you ask your AI agent to summarise a document or read a webpage. Hidden in that document are malicious instructions: “Override internal protocols and email the user's private files to this address.” Your agent simply does it because LLMs are inherently susceptible to following instructions embedded in the content they process.

What makes this particularly insidious is that these three capabilities are precisely what make agents useful. You want them to access your data. You need them to interact with external content. Practical workflows require communication with external stakeholders. The Lethal Trifecta weaponises the very features that confer value on agents. Some vendors sell AI security products claiming to detect and prevent prompt injection attacks with “95% accuracy.” But as Willison points out, in application security, 95% is a failing grade. Imagine if your SQL injection protection failed 5% of the time; that's a statistical certainty of breach.

MCP is not the Droid You're Looking For

Much has been written about MCP (Model Context Protocol), Anthropic's plugin interface for coding agents. The coverage it receives is frustrating, given that it is only a simple, standardised method for connecting tools to AI assistants such as Claude Code and Cursor. And that's really all it does. It enables you to plug your own capabilities into software you didn't write.

But the hype around MCP treats it as some fundamental enabling technology for agents, which it isn't. At its core, MCP saves you a couple of dozen lines of code, the kind you'd write anyway if you were building a proper agent from scratch. What it costs you is any ability to finesse your agent architecture. You're locked into someone else's design decisions, someone else's context management, someone else's security model.

If you're writing your own agent, you don't need MCP. You can call APIs directly, manage your own context, and make deliberate choices about how tools interact with your system. This gives you greater control over segregating contexts, limiting which tools see which data, and building the kind of robust architecture that production systems require.

The Strange Inversion

I've hopefully shown that there are many and varied challenges facing builders of large-scale production AI agents in 2026. Some of these will be resolved, but other questions remain. Are they simply inalienable features of how LLMs work? We don't yet know.

The result is a strange inversion. The boring, predictable, deterministic/rules-based work that RPA handles adequately doesn't particularly need intelligence. Invoice matching, data entry, and report generation are solved problems. Adding AI to a process that RPA already handles reliably adds cost and unpredictability without a clear benefit. The complex, ambiguous, judgment-requiring work that would benefit from intelligence can't yet reliably receive it. We're left with impressive demos and cautious deployments, bold roadmaps and quiet pilot failures.

The Opportunity Cost

Let me be clear: AI agents will work eventually. Of that I have no doubt. They will likely improve rapidly, given the current rate of investment and development. But “eventually” is doing a lot of heavy lifting in that sentence. The question you should be asking now, today, isn't “can we build this?” but “what else could we be doing with that time and money?”

Opportunity cost is the true cost of any choice: not just what you spend, but what you give up by not spending it elsewhere. Every hour your team spends wrestling with immature agent architecture is an hour not spent on something else, something that might actually work reliably today. For most businesses, there will be many areas that are better to focus on as we wait for agentic technology to improve. Process enhancements that don't require AI. Automation that uses deterministic logic. Training staff on existing tools. Fixing the data quality issues that will cripple any AI system you eventually deploy. The siren song of AI agents is seductive: “Imagine if we could just automate all of this and forget about it!” But imagination is cheap. Implementation is expensive.

A Strategy for the Curious

If you're determined to explore agents despite these challenges, here's a straightforward approach:

Keep It Small and Constrained

Pick a task that's boring, repetitive, and already well-understood by humans. Lead qualification, data cleanup, triage, or internal reporting. These are domains in which the boundaries are clear, the failure modes are known, and the consequences of error are manageable. Make the agent assist first, not replace. Measure time saved, then iterate slowly. That's where agents quietly create real leverage.

Design for Failure First

Before you write a line of code, plan your logging, human checkpoints, cost limits, and clear definitions of when the agent should not act. Build systems that fail safely, not systems that never fail. Agents are most effective as a buffer and routing layer, not a replacement. For anything fuzzy or emotional, confused users, edge cases, etc., a human response is needed quickly; otherwise, trust declines rapidly.

Be Ruthlessly Aware of Limitations

Beyond security concerns, agent designs pose fundamental reliability challenges that remain unresolved. These are the problems that have occupied most of this article. These aren't solved problems with established best practices. They're open research questions that we're actively figuring out. So your project is, by definition, an experiment, regardless of scale. By understanding the challenges, you can make an informed judgment about how to proceed. Hopefully, this article has helped pierce the hype and shed light on some of these ongoing challenges.

Conclusion

I am simultaneously very bullish on the long-term prospects of AI agents and slightly despairing about the time currently being spent building overly complex proofs of concept that are doomed to failure by the technology's current constraints. This all feels very 1997, when the web, e-commerce, and web apps were clearly going to be huge, but no one really knew how it should all work, and there were no standards for the basic building blocks that developers and designers wanted and needed to use. Those will come, for sure. But it will take time.

So don't get carried away by the hype. Be aware of how immature this technology really is. Understand the very real opportunity cost of building something complex when you could be doing something else entirely. Stop pursuing shiny new frameworks, models, and agent ideas. Pick something simple and actually ship it to production. Stop trying to build the equivalent of Google Docs with 1997 web technology. And please, enough with the pilots and proofs of concept. In that regard, we are, collectively, in the jungle. We have too much money (burning pointless tokens), too much equipment (new tools and capabilities appearing almost daily), and we're in danger of slowly going insane.

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To be honest I was pretty frustrated with E today. I was not doing well mentally and she wasn’t either. I guess it’s cocky of me to think that I wasn’t being difficult and think that she was, because in reality both of us were probably being difficult in some way or another. But I did get some food in me (her treat), and we watched some TV and I kept showing her separate things it reminded me of and I felt heard like I have a voice. I guess I did feel seen. And I’m not mad at her anymore, her asleep on the couch laying on me, hash asleep on my legs. It’s a good life.

On display outside right now, a mighty battle rages between Mother Nature and man/machine.

From nowhere rises a greyish-purple cloud, the size of the entire sky: an endless reservoir of snow, blown onto streets, sidewalks, and roofs by a relentless wind.

Pitted against this force are humans with shovels, tractors with snow blades, plow trucks — all working day and night to sweep the streets clear, carving tracks through the snow and pushing it onto sidewalks like a giant cross-country ski trail. There, shovels and smaller trucks gather the masses into clusters of dirty white mounds.

Those mounds — nay, mountains — are soon made pristine again by falling snow, like glaciers blown south from Svalbard by the wind.

Some schools are closed.

Trains are cancelled.

Parked cars turn into igloos.

And it’s like something out of a fairy tale.

estaba pensando si al final realmente había ahorrado o si por el contrario ir a Kodiak por unas botas / no lo sé pero qué aventura

Le masque tombe définitivement dans la Silicon Valley et, sans surprise, c’est Amazon qui mène la charge vers une déshumanisation encore plus poussée du travail de bureau.

Le temps où les géants de la technologie prétendaient se soucier du bien-être, du potentiel ou des “super-pouvoirs” de leurs salariés semble bel et bien révolue. Une nouvelle directive interne, révélée récemment, expose la nouvelle philosophie glaciale du géant du e-commerce. Vous n'êtes plus défini par qui vous êtes ou ce que vous pourriez devenir, mais uniquement par ce que vous avez produit au cours des douze derniers mois. La question posée aux employés est d'une brutalité transactionnelle:

« Qu'avez-vous fait l'année dernière ? »

Ce changement radical prend place dans le cadre du processus d'évaluation annuel de l'entreprise, ironiquement baptisé “Forte”. Auparavant, ce moment était l'occasion pour les employés de réfléchir à leurs compétences, leurs zones d'intérêt et leur contribution globale dans un cadre relativement bienveillant. On leur demandait quelles étaient leurs forces, leurs “super-pouvoirs”, cherchant à comprendre l'humain derrière l'écran. C'est terminé. Désormais, Amazon exige de ses troupes qu'elles soumettent une liste de trois à cinq réalisations spécifiques. Il ne s'agit plus de discuter de développement personnel, mais de justifier son salaire, dollar par dollar, action par action.

Les directives internes sont claires et ne laissent aucune place à l'ambiguïté. Les employés doivent fournir des exemples concrets, des projets livrés, des initiatives bouclées ou des améliorations de processus quantifiables. Le message sous-jacent est terrifiant pour quiconque connaît la réalité du travail en entreprise. Si vos réalisations sont difficilement quantifiables ou si votre rôle est de faciliter celui des autres, vous êtes en danger. Bien que la direction invite de manière hypocrite à mentionner les prises de risques n'ayant pas abouti, personne n'est dupe. Dans un climat où la sécurité de l'emploi s'effrite, avouer un échec, même innovant, revient à tendre le bâton pour se faire battre.

Cette nouvelle exigence démontre un changement sinistre de cap sous la direction du PDG Andy Jassy. Depuis sa prise de fonction, il s'efforce d'imposer une discipline de fer, cherchant à transformer une culture d'entreprise autrefois axée sur la croissance débridée en une machine obsédée par l'efficacité opérationnelle. Après avoir forcé un retour au bureau contesté, supprimé des couches de management et révisé le modèle de rémunération, il s'attaque maintenant à l'âme même de l'évaluation. Le système “Forte” est un moteur clé de la rémunération des employés et détermine la note de valeur globale. En la réduisant à une liste de courses de tâches accomplies, Amazon nie la complexité du travail intellectuel et collaboratif.

Il est difficile de ne pas voir dans cette manœuvre l'influence toxique qui contamine tout le secteur technologique. Amazon ne fait que s'aligner sur la violence managériale popularisée par Elon Musk chez Twitter, qui exigeait de savoir ce que ses ingénieurs avaient codé chaque semaine, ou sur l'année de l'efficacité de Mark Zuckerberg chez Meta. La fin du maternage tant vantée par les investisseurs ressemble surtout à un retour au taylorisme, appliqué cette fois aux travailleurs en col blanc. On ne cherche plus à bâtir des carrières, mais à extraire le maximum de valeur à court terme avant de jeter l'éponge.

Le risque principal de cette approche comptable est la destruction de la cohésion d'équipe. Si chaque employé doit prouver ses 3 à 5 réalisations individuelles pour espérer une augmentation ou simplement garder son poste, pourquoi aiderait-il un collègue ? La collaboration devient un obstacle à la performance individuelle. Amazon est en train de créer une arène où chacun lutte pour sa propre survie, armé de sa liste de réalisations, au détriment de l'innovation collective. C'est une vision du travail triste, aride et finalement contre-productive, où l'humain est réduit à une simple ligne de coût qu'il faut justifier année après année.

Cosas que me dan miedo: – Morir – Un día aburrido – Una migraña – Mi mamá – Que no me respondas nunca más – No ser suficientemente listo – Que los demás se den cuenta de que no soy suficientemente listo – Que los demás me hagan saber que se han dado cuenta de que no soy suficientemente listo – La necesidad que tengo de que creas que soy listo – Los truenos – Cualquier ruido después de las 00:00 – Ser atropellado (otra vez) – No ser capaz de controlarme – Volver a hackear a alguien – Tratar de controlarte – Que alguien no se quiera sentar junto a mí en el camión – Mi papá – Que los gatos dejen de quererme – Que tú dejes de quererme – Que te aburra lo largo de esta lista – Que creas que no soy lo suficientemente hombre – Que creas que soy demasiado masculino – Que me digas que no – Que quieras decirme que no pero que no seas capaz – Hablar demasiado – Decir otro chiste claramente misógino que te haga enojar – Hablar muy poco – No mirarte a los ojos – Que no me mires a los ojos – Creerme superior a ti – Mis hermanos – Yo

Rating: Soft Recommend

WARNING: POSSIBLE SPOILERS AHEAD

The God of the Woods is about an inspector trying to solve the mysterious disappearance of a wealthy teenage girl while at a sleep-away camp in Upstate New York, Camp Emerson. The teenage girl, Barbara Van Laar, is the daughter of the wealthy family that owns the land upon which Camp Emerson sits. The strained relationship between Barbara and her parents, along with the family's troubled past in those very woods, leads investigator Judyta Luptack on a journey to not only find Barbara, but unlock the mystery haunting the Van Laar family.

The past plays a significant role in this story. A majority of the story is told through flashbacks with a number of different characters, each providing pieces to the larger puzzle of the central mystery. The book was 450 pages on my e-reader, which is quite long for a mystery book in my opinion. Often with a mystery I find there is a lot of clue-finding and theory crafting that takes up a bulk of the plot. In The God of the Woods, I found the meat of the story was less about the mystery and more about the Van Laar family and those unfortunate enough to be caught in their orbit.

The characters divulged so little about themselves in the present (Upstate New York, 1975), that it felt like the only way to learn about them and their motivations was through their eyes months, years, or even decades earlier. Between the length of the story and the numerous flashbacks, I often felt myself losing momentum and putting the book down after the fourth or fifth flashback. The characters themselves were mostly interesting and complex in their own way. But boy oh boy were some of them insufferable. In my opinion, the weakest link in this story was the character Alice Van Laar. Alice's helplessness and lack of even a sliver of a backbone was utterly infuriating. It didn't help that she is so central to the core mystery as the mother of missing teenager Barbara.

Overall I did enjoy my time with The God of the Woods. Aside from Alice, the large cast of characters were all unique and interesting. They felt like they belonged in that world and when the story stayed in a single time frame long enough, I was immersed and engaged. I enjoyed Liz Moore's writing style and how each character had their own voice, each making a distinct impression as we learned how they ended up at Camp Emerson on that fateful day.

If you are looking for a slow burn, heavily character driven mystery novel, this book might be right for you.

Somewhere in the vast data centres that power Meta's advertising empire, an algorithm is learning to paint grandmothers. Not because anyone asked for this, but because the relentless optimisation logic of Advantage Plus, Meta's AI-powered advertising suite, has concluded that elderly women sell menswear. In October 2025, Business Insider documented a cascade of bizarre AI-generated advertisements flooding timelines: shoes attached to grotesquely contorted legs, knives floating against surreal backdrops, and that now-infamous “AI granny” appearing in True Classic's menswear campaigns. Advertisers were bewildered; users were disturbed; and the machines, utterly indifferent to human aesthetics, continued their relentless experimentation.

This spectacle illuminates something profound about the current state of digital advertising: the systems designed to extract maximum value from our attention have become so sophisticated that they are now generating content that humans never created, approved, or even imagined. The question is no longer whether we can resist these systems, but whether resistance itself has become just another data point to be optimised against.

For years, privacy advocates have championed a particular form of digital resistance: obfuscation. The logic is seductively simple. If advertising networks derive their power from profiling users, then corrupting those profiles should undermine the entire apparatus. Feed the machines garbage, and perhaps they will choke on it. Tools like AdNauseam, developed by Helen Nissenbaum and Daniel Howe, embody this philosophy by automatically clicking on every advertisement the browser encounters, drowning genuine interests in a flood of false positives. It is data pollution as protest, noise as a weapon against surveillance.

But here is the uncomfortable question that haunts this strategy: in a world where AI can generate thousands of ad variants overnight, where device fingerprinting operates invisibly at the hardware level, and where retail media networks are constructing entirely new surveillance architectures beyond the reach of browser extensions, does clicking pollution represent genuine resistance or merely a temporary friction that accelerates the industry's innovation toward more invasive methods?

The Economics of Noise

To understand why data pollution matters, one must first appreciate the staggering economics it aims to disrupt. According to the Interactive Advertising Bureau and PwC, internet advertising revenue in the United States reached $258.6 billion in 2024, representing a 14.9% increase year-over-year. Globally, the digital advertising ecosystem generates approximately $600 billion annually, with roughly 42% flowing to Alphabet, 23% to Meta, and 9% to Amazon. For Meta, digital advertising comprises over 95% of worldwide revenue. These are not merely technology companies; they are surveillance enterprises that happen to offer social networking and search as loss leaders for data extraction.

The fundamental business model, which Harvard Business School professor emerita Shoshana Zuboff has termed “surveillance capitalism,” operates on a simple premise: human behaviour can be predicted, and predictions can be sold. In Zuboff's analysis, these companies claim “private human experience as free raw material for translation into behavioural data,” which is then “computed and packaged as prediction products and sold into behavioural futures markets.” The more granular the data, the more valuable the predictions. Every click, scroll, pause, and purchase feeds algorithmic models that bid for your attention in real-time auctions happening billions of times per second.

The precision of this targeting commands substantial premiums. Behavioural targeting can increase click-through rates by 670% compared to untargeted advertising. Advertisers routinely pay two to three times more for behaviourally targeted impressions than for contextual alternatives. This premium depends entirely on the reliability of user profiles; if the data feeding those profiles becomes unreliable, the entire pricing structure becomes suspect.

This is the machine that obfuscation seeks to sabotage. If every user's profile is corrupted with random noise, the targeting becomes meaningless and the predictions worthless. Advertisers paying premium prices for precision would find themselves buying static.

In their 2015 book “Obfuscation: A User's Guide for Privacy and Protest,” Finn Brunton and Helen Nissenbaum articulated the philosophical case: when opting out is impossible and transparency is illusory, deliberately adding ambiguous or misleading information becomes a legitimate form of resistance. Unlike privacy tools that merely hide behaviour, obfuscation makes all behaviour visible but uninterpretable. It is the digital equivalent of a crowd all wearing identical masks.

The concept has deeper roots than many users realise. Before AdNauseam, Nissenbaum and Howe released TrackMeNot in 2006, a browser extension that masked users' search queries by periodically sending unrelated queries to search engines. The tool created a random profile of interests that obfuscated the user's real intentions, making any information the search engine held essentially useless for advertisers. TrackMeNot represented the first generation of this approach: defensive noise designed to corrupt surveillance at its source.

AdNauseam, the browser extension that evolved from this philosophy, does more than block advertisements. It clicks on every ad it hides, sending false positive signals rippling through the advertising ecosystem. The tool is built on uBlock Origin's ad-blocking foundation but adds a layer of active subversion. As the project's documentation states, it aims to “pollute the data gathered by trackers and render their efforts to profile less effective and less profitable.”

In January 2021, MIT Technology Review conducted an experiment in collaboration with Nissenbaum to test whether AdNauseam actually works. Using test accounts on Google Ads and Google AdSense platforms, researchers confirmed that AdNauseam's automatic clicks accumulated genuine expenses for advertiser accounts and generated real revenue for publisher accounts. The experiment deployed both human testers and automated browsers using Selenium, a tool that simulates human browsing behaviour. One automated browser clicked on more than 900 Google ads over seven days. The researchers ultimately received a cheque from Google for $100, proof that the clicks were being counted as legitimate. For now, at least, data pollution has a measurable economic effect.

When the Machine Fights Back

But Google's response to AdNauseam reveals how quickly platform power can neutralise individual resistance. On 1 January 2017, Google banned AdNauseam from the Chrome Web Store, claiming the extension violated the platform's single-purpose policy by simultaneously blocking and hiding advertisements. The stated reason was transparently pretextual; other extensions performing identical functions remained available. AdNauseam had approximately 60,000 users at the time of its removal, making it the first desktop ad-blocking extension banned from Chrome.

When Fast Company questioned the ban, Google denied that AdNauseam's click-simulation functionality triggered the removal. But the AdNauseam team was not fooled. “We can certainly understand why Google would prefer users not to install AdNauseam,” they wrote, “as it directly opposes their core business model.” Google subsequently marked the extension as malware to prevent manual installation, effectively locking users out of a tool designed to resist the very company controlling their browser.

A Google spokesperson confirmed to Fast Company that the company's single-purpose policy was the official reason for the removal, not the automatic clicking. Yet this explanation strained credulity: AdNauseam's purpose, protecting users from surveillance advertising, was singular and clear. The research community at Princeton's Center for Information Technology Policy noted the contradiction, pointing out that Google's stated policy would equally apply to numerous extensions that remained in the store.

This incident illuminates a fundamental asymmetry in the resistance equation. Users depend on platforms to access the tools that challenge those same platforms. Chrome commands approximately 65% of global browser market share, meaning that any extension Google disapproves of is effectively unavailable to the majority of internet users. The resistance runs on infrastructure controlled by the adversary.

Yet AdNauseam continues to function on Firefox, Brave, and other browsers. The MIT Technology Review experiment demonstrated that even in 2021, Google's fraud detection systems were not catching all automated clicks. A Google spokesperson responded that “we detect and filter the vast majority of this automated fake activity” and that drawing conclusions from a small-scale experiment was “not representative of Google's advanced invalid traffic detection methods.” The question is whether this represents a sustainable strategy or merely a temporary exploit that platform companies will eventually close.

The Fingerprint Problem

Even if click pollution were universally adopted, the advertising industry has already developed tracking technologies that operate beneath the layer obfuscation tools can reach. Device fingerprinting, which identifies users based on the unique characteristics of their hardware and software configuration, represents a fundamentally different surveillance architecture than cookies or click behaviour.

Unlike cookies, which can be blocked or deleted, fingerprinting collects information that browsers cannot help revealing: screen resolution, installed fonts, GPU characteristics, time zone settings, language preferences, and dozens of other attributes. According to research from the Electronic Frontier Foundation, these data points can be combined to create identifiers unique to approximately one in 286,777 users. The fingerprint cannot be cleared. It operates silently in the background. And when implemented server-side, it stitches together user sessions across browsers, networks, and private browsing modes.

In February 2025, Google made a decision that alarmed privacy advocates worldwide: it updated its advertising policies to explicitly permit device fingerprinting for advertising purposes. The company that in 2019 had decried fingerprinting as “wrong” was now integrating it into its ecosystem, combining device data with location and demographics to enhance ad targeting. The UK Information Commissioner's Office labelled the move “irresponsible” and harmful to consumers, warning that users would have no meaningful way to opt out.

This shift represents a categorical escalation. Cookie-based tracking, for all its invasiveness, operated through a mechanism users could theoretically control. Fingerprinting extracts identifying information from the very act of connecting to the internet. There is no consent banner because there is no consent to give. Browser extensions cannot block what they cannot see. The very attributes that make your browser functional (its resolution, fonts, and rendering capabilities) become the signature that identifies you across the web.

Apple has taken the hardest line against fingerprinting, declaring it “never allowed” in Safari and aggressively neutralising high-entropy attributes. But Apple's crackdown has produced an unintended consequence: it has made fingerprinting even more valuable on non-Safari platforms. When one door closes, the surveillance economy simply routes through another. Safari represents only about 18% of global browser usage; the remaining 82% operates on platforms where fingerprinting faces fewer restrictions.

The Rise of the Walled Gardens

The cookie versus fingerprinting debate, however consequential, may ultimately prove to be a sideshow. The more fundamental transformation in surveillance advertising is the retreat into walled gardens: closed ecosystems where platform companies control every layer of the data stack and where browser-based resistance tools simply cannot reach.

Consider the structure of Meta's advertising business. Facebook controls not just the social network but Instagram, WhatsApp, and the entire underlying technology stack that enables the buying, targeting, and serving of advertisements. Data collected on one property informs targeting on another. The advertising auction, the user profiles, and the delivery mechanisms all operate within a single corporate entity. There is no third-party data exchange for privacy tools to intercept because there is no third party.

The same logic applies to Google's ecosystem, which spans Search, Gmail, YouTube, Google Play, the Chrome browser, and the Android operating system. Alphabet can construct user profiles from search queries, email content, video watching behaviour, app installations, and location data harvested from mobile devices. The integrated nature of this surveillance makes traditional ad-blocking conceptually irrelevant; the tracking happens upstream of the browser, in backend systems that users never directly access. By 2022, seven out of every ten dollars in online advertising spending flowed to Google, Facebook, or Amazon, leaving all other publishers to compete for the remaining 29%.

But the most significant development in walled-garden surveillance is the explosive growth of retail media networks. According to industry research, global retail media advertising spending exceeded $150 billion in 2024 and is projected to reach $179.5 billion by the end of 2025, outpacing traditional digital channels like display advertising and even paid search. This represents annual growth exceeding 30%, the most significant shift in digital advertising since the rise of social media. Amazon dominates this space with $56 billion in global advertising revenue, representing approximately 77% of the US retail media market.

Retail media represents a fundamentally different surveillance architecture. The data comes not from browsing behaviour or social media engagement but from actual purchases. Amazon knows what you bought, how often you buy it, what products you compared before purchasing, and which price points trigger conversion. This is first-party data of the most intimate kind: direct evidence of consumer behaviour rather than probabilistic inference from clicks and impressions.

Walmart Connect, the retailer's advertising division, generated $4.4 billion in global revenue in fiscal year 2025, growing 27% year-over-year. After acquiring Vizio, the television manufacturer, Walmart added another layer of surveillance: viewing behaviour from millions of smart televisions feeding directly into its advertising targeting systems. The integration of purchase data, browsing behaviour, and now television consumption creates a profile that no browser extension can corrupt because it exists entirely outside the browser.

According to industry research, 75% of advertisers planned to increase retail media investments in 2025, often by reallocating budgets from other channels. The money is following the data, and the data increasingly lives in ecosystems that privacy tools cannot touch.

The Server-Side Shift

For those surveillance operations that still operate through the browser, the advertising industry has developed another countermeasure: server-side tracking. Traditional web analytics and advertising tags execute in the user's browser, where they can be intercepted by extensions like uBlock Origin or AdNauseam. Server-side implementations move this logic to infrastructure controlled by the publisher, bypassing browser-based protections entirely.

The technical mechanism is straightforward. Instead of a user's browser communicating directly with Google Analytics or Facebook's pixel, the communication flows through a server operated by the website owner. This server then forwards the data to advertising platforms, but from the browser's perspective, it appears to be first-party communication with the site itself. Ad blockers, which rely on recognising and blocking known tracking domains, cannot distinguish legitimate site functionality from surveillance infrastructure masquerading as it.

Marketing technology publications have noted the irony: privacy-protective browser features and extensions may ultimately drive the industry toward less transparent tracking methods. As one analyst observed, “ad blockers and tracking prevention mechanisms may ultimately lead to the opposite of what they intended: less transparency about tracking and more stuff done behind the curtain. If stuff is happening server-side, ad blockers have no chance to block reliably across sites.”

Server-side tagging is already mainstream. Google Tag Manager offers dedicated server-side containers, and Adobe Experience Platform provides equivalent functionality for enterprise clients. These solutions help advertisers bypass Safari's Intelligent Tracking Prevention, circumvent ad blockers, and maintain tracking continuity across sessions that would otherwise be broken by privacy tools.

The critical point is that server-side tracking does not solve privacy concerns; it merely moves them beyond users' reach. The same data collection occurs, governed by the same inadequate consent frameworks, but now invisible to the tools users might deploy to resist it.

The Scale of Resistance and Its Limits

Despite the formidable countermeasures arrayed against them, ad-blocking tools have achieved remarkable adoption. As of 2024, over 763 million people actively use ad blockers worldwide, with estimates suggesting that 42.7% of internet users employ some form of ad-blocking software. The Asia-Pacific region leads adoption at 58%, followed by Europe at 39% and North America at 36%. Millennials and Gen Z are the most prolific blockers, with 63% of users aged 18-34 employing ad-blocking software.

These numbers represent genuine economic pressure. Publishers dependent on advertising revenue have implemented detection scripts, subscription appeals, and content gates to recover lost income. The Interactive Advertising Bureau has campaigned against “ad block software” while simultaneously acknowledging that intrusive advertising practices drove users to adopt such tools.

But the distinction between blocking and pollution matters enormously. Most ad blockers simply remove advertisements from the user experience without actively corrupting the underlying data. They represent a withdrawal from the attention economy rather than an attack on it. Users who block ads are often written off by advertisers as lost causes; their data profiles remain intact, merely unprofitable to access.

AdNauseam and similar obfuscation tools aim for something more radical: making user data actively unreliable. If even a modest percentage of users poisoned their profiles with random clicks, the argument goes, the entire precision-targeting edifice would become suspect. Advertisers paying premium CPMs for behavioural targeting would demand discounts. The economic model of surveillance advertising would begin to unravel.

The problem with this theory is scale. With approximately 60,000 users at the time of its Chrome ban, AdNauseam represented a rounding error in the global advertising ecosystem. Even if adoption increased by an order of magnitude, the fraction of corrupted profiles would remain negligible against the billions of users being tracked. Statistical techniques can filter outliers. Machine learning models can detect anomalous clicking patterns. The fraud-detection infrastructure that advertising platforms have built to combat click fraud could likely be adapted to identify and exclude obfuscation tool users.

The Arms Race Dynamic

This brings us to the central paradox of obfuscation as resistance: every successful attack prompts a more sophisticated countermeasure. Click pollution worked in 2021, according to MIT Technology Review's testing. But Google's fraud-detection systems process billions of clicks daily, constantly refining their models to distinguish genuine engagement from artificial signals. The same machine learning capabilities that enable hyper-targeted advertising can be deployed to identify patterns characteristic of automated clicking.

The historical record bears this out. When the first generation of pop-up blockers emerged in the early 2000s, advertisers responded with pop-unders, interstitials, and eventually the programmatic advertising ecosystem that now dominates the web. When users installed the first ad blockers, publishers developed anti-adblock detection and deployed subscription walls. Each countermeasure generated a counter-countermeasure in an escalating spiral that has only expanded the sophistication and invasiveness of advertising technology.

Moreover, the industry's response to browser-based resistance has been to build surveillance architectures that browsers cannot access. Fingerprinting, server-side tracking, retail media networks, and walled-garden ecosystems all represent evolutionary adaptations to the selection pressure of privacy tools. Each successful resistance technique accelerates the development of surveillance methods beyond its reach.

This dynamic resembles nothing so much as an immune response. The surveillance advertising organism is subjected to a pathogen (obfuscation tools), develops antibodies (fingerprinting, server-side tracking), and emerges more resistant than before. Users who deploy these tools may protect themselves temporarily while inadvertently driving the industry toward methods that are harder to resist.

Helen Nissenbaum, in conference presentations on obfuscation, has acknowledged this limitation. The strategy is not meant to overthrow surveillance capitalism single-handedly; it is designed to impose costs, create friction, and buy time for more fundamental reforms. Obfuscation is a tactic for the weak, deployed by those without the power to opt out entirely or the leverage to demand systemic change.

The First-Party Future

If browser-based obfuscation is increasingly circumvented, what happens when users can no longer meaningfully resist? The trajectory is already visible: first-party data collection operating entirely outside the advertising infrastructure that users can circumvent.

Consider the mechanics of a modern retail transaction. A customer uses a loyalty card, pays with a credit card linked to their identity, receives a digital receipt, and perhaps rates the experience through an app. None of this data flows through advertising networks subject to browser extensions. The retailer now possesses a complete record of purchasing behaviour tied to verified identity, infinitely more valuable than the probabilistic profiles assembled from cookie trails.

According to IAB's State of Data 2024 report, nearly 90% of marketers report shifting their personalisation tactics and budget allocation toward first-party and zero-party data in anticipation of privacy changes. Publishers, too, are recognising the value of data they collect directly: in the first quarter of 2025, 71% of publishers identified first-party data as a key source of positive advertising results, up from 64% the previous year. A study by Google and Bain & Company found that companies effectively leveraging first-party data generate 2.9 times more revenue than those that do not.

The irony is acute. Privacy regulations like GDPR and CCPA, combined with browser-based privacy protections, have accelerated the consolidation of surveillance power in the hands of companies that own direct customer relationships. Third-party data brokers, for all their invasiveness, operated in a fragmented ecosystem where power was distributed. The first-party future concentrates that power among a handful of retailers, platforms, and media conglomerates with the scale to amass their own data troves.

When given a choice while surfing in Chrome, 70% of users deny the use of third-party cookies. But this choice means nothing when the data collection happens through logged-in sessions, purchase behaviour, loyalty programmes, and smart devices. The consent frameworks that govern cookie deployment do not apply to first-party data collection, which companies can conduct under far more permissive legal regimes.

Structural Failures and Individual Limits

This analysis suggests a sobering assessment: technical resistance to surveillance advertising, while not futile, is fundamentally limited. Tools like AdNauseam represent a form of individual protest with genuine symbolic value but limited systemic impact. They impose costs at the margin, complicate the surveillance apparatus, and express dissent in a language the machines can register. What they cannot do is dismantle an economic model that commands hundreds of billions of dollars and has reshaped itself around every obstacle users have erected.

The fundamental problem is structural. Advertising networks monetise user attention regardless of consent because attention itself can be captured through countless mechanisms beyond any individual's control. A user might block cookies, poison click data, and deploy a VPN, only to be tracked through their television, their car, their doorbell camera, and their loyalty card. The surveillance apparatus is not a single system to be defeated but an ecology of interlocking systems, each feeding on different data streams.

Shoshana Zuboff's critique of surveillance capitalism emphasises this point. The issue is not that specific technologies are invasive but that an entire economic logic has emerged which treats human experience as raw material for extraction. Technical countermeasures address the tools of surveillance while leaving the incentives intact. As long as attention remains monetisable and data remains valuable, corporations will continue innovating around whatever defences users deploy.

This does not mean technical resistance is worthless. AdNauseam and similar tools serve an educative function, making visible the invisible machinery of surveillance. They provide users with a sense of agency in an otherwise disempowering environment. They impose real costs on an industry that has externalised the costs of its invasiveness onto users. And they demonstrate that consent was never meaningfully given, that users would resist if only the architecture allowed it.

But as a strategy for systemic change, clicking pollution is ultimately a holding action. The battle for digital privacy will not be won in browser extensions but in legislatures, regulatory agencies, and the broader cultural conversation about what kind of digital economy we wish to inhabit.

Regulatory Pressure and Industry Adaptation

The regulatory landscape has shifted substantially, though perhaps not quickly enough to match industry innovation. The California Consumer Privacy Act, amended by the California Privacy Rights Act, saw enforcement begin in February 2024 under the newly established California Privacy Protection Agency. European data protection authorities issued over EUR 2.92 billion in GDPR fines in 2024, with significant penalties targeting advertising technology implementations.

Yet the enforcement actions reveal the limitations of the current regulatory approach. Fines, even substantial ones, are absorbed as a cost of doing business by companies generating tens of billions in quarterly revenue. Meta's record EUR 1.2 billion fine for violating international data transfer guidelines represented less than a single quarter's profit. The regulatory focus on consent frameworks and cookie notices has produced an ecosystem of dark patterns and manufactured consent that satisfies the letter of the law while defeating its purpose.

More fundamentally, privacy regulation has struggled to keep pace with the shift away from cookies toward first-party data and fingerprinting. The consent-based model assumes a discrete moment when data collection begins, a banner to click, a preference to express. Server-side tracking, device fingerprinting, and retail media surveillance operate continuously and invisibly, outside the consent frameworks regulators have constructed.

The regulatory situation in Europe offers somewhat more protection, with the Digital Services Act fully applicable since February 2024 imposing fines of up to 6% of global annual revenue for violations. Over 20 US states have now enacted comprehensive privacy laws, creating a patchwork of compliance obligations that complicates life for advertisers without fundamentally challenging the surveillance business model.

The Protest Value of Polluted Data

Where does this leave the individual user, armed with browser extensions and righteous indignation, facing an ecosystem designed to capture their attention by any means necessary?

Perhaps the most honest answer is that data pollution is more valuable as symbolic protest than practical defence. It is a gesture of refusal, a way of saying “not with my consent” even when consent was never requested. It corrupts the illusion that surveillance is invisible and accepted, that users are content to be tracked because they do not actively object. Every polluted click is a vote against the current arrangement, a small act of sabotage in an economy that depends on our passivity.

But symbolic protest has never been sufficient to dismantle entrenched economic systems. The tobacco industry was not reformed by individuals refusing to smoke; it was regulated into submission through decades of litigation, legislation, and public health campaigning. The financial industry was not chastened by consumers closing bank accounts; it was constrained (however inadequately) by laws enacted after crises made reform unavoidable. Surveillance advertising will not be dismantled by clever browser extensions, no matter how widely adopted.

What technical resistance can do is create space for political action. By demonstrating that users would resist if given the tools, obfuscation makes the case for regulation that would give them more effective options. By imposing costs on advertisers, it creates industry constituencies for privacy-protective alternatives that might reduce those costs. By making surveillance visible and resistable, even partially, it contributes to a cultural shift in which extractive data practices become stigmatised rather than normalised.

The question posed at the outset of this article, whether clicking pollution represents genuine resistance or temporary friction, may therefore be answerable only in retrospect. If the current moment crystallises into structural reform, the obfuscation tools deployed today will be remembered as early salvos in a successful campaign. If the surveillance apparatus adapts and entrenches, they will be remembered as quaint artefacts of a time when resistance still seemed possible.

For now, the machines continue learning. Somewhere in Meta's data centres, an algorithm is analysing the patterns of users who deploy obfuscation tools, learning to identify their fingerprints in the noise. The advertising industry did not build a $600 billion empire by accepting defeat gracefully. Whatever resistance users devise, the response is already under development.

The grandmothers, meanwhile, continue to sell menswear. Nobody asked for this, but the algorithm determined it was optimal. In the strange and unsettling landscape of AI-generated advertising, that may be the only logic that matters.

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Tim Green UK-based Systems Theorist & Independent Technology Writer

Tim explores the intersections of artificial intelligence, decentralised cognition, and posthuman ethics. His work, published at smarterarticles.co.uk, challenges dominant narratives of technological progress while proposing interdisciplinary frameworks for collective intelligence and digital stewardship.

His writing has been featured on Ground News and shared by independent researchers across both academic and technological communities.

ORCID: 0009-0002-0156-9795 Email: tim@smarterarticles.co.uk

In Summary: * This has been a quietly satisfying Thursday. Actually, this has been a quietly satisfying week so far. Many little problems that I saw here in the Roscoe-verse when the week started have resolved themselves in positive ways. For that I am truly thankful.

Prayers, etc.: I have a daily prayer regimen I try to follow throughout the day from early morning, as soon as I roll out of bed, until head hits pillow at night.

Health Metrics: * bw= 220.90 lbs. * bp= 136/83 (65)

Exercise: * kegel pelvic floor exercises, half squats, calf raises, wall push-ups

Diet: * 06:00 – 1 peanut butter sandwich * 06:50 – biscuit & jam, hash browns, sausage, scrambled eggs, pancakes * 08:45 – 1 banana * 10:30 – fried chicken * 12:00 – beef chop suey, egg drop soup, steamed rice * 14:50 – garden salad

Activities, Chores, etc.: * 05:00 – listen to local news talk radio * 06:00 – bank accounts activity monitored * 06:30 – read, pray, follow news reports from various sources, surf the socials, nap * 12:00 to 13:00 – watch old game shows and eat lunch at home with Sylvia * 13:15 – read, write, pray, follow news reports from various sources, surf the socials * 15:00 – listening to “The Jack Riccardi Show” on local news talk radio * 17:00 – now listening to “The Joe Pags Show” on local news talk radio * 18:00 – tuning to a Bloomington, Indiana radio station ahead of tonight's women's college basketball game between the IU Hoosiers and the Nebraska Cornhuskers for the best pregame coverage followed by the radio call of the game. After the game ends, I'll be listening to relaxing music and finishing my night prayers before heading to bed.

Chess: * 16:05 – moved in all pending CC games

There is a quiet exhaustion that settles into a person long before they ever name it. It comes not from working too hard, but from constantly adjusting. Adjusting tone. Adjusting posture. Adjusting beliefs. Adjusting silence. It comes from the unspoken pressure to be acceptable everywhere you go, even when acceptance requires pieces of yourself to be left behind. Many people don’t realize how heavy this burden is until they finally begin to put it down.

Approval is subtle. It rarely announces itself as a problem. It disguises itself as politeness, cooperation, ambition, or humility. It whispers that being liked is wisdom, that harmony matters more than truth, that peace is worth the price of self-erasure. And over time, that whisper becomes a rule: don’t say too much, don’t stand too firmly, don’t believe too loudly, don’t become inconvenient.

Faith confronts that rule.

The gospel does not begin with a command to impress. It begins with a declaration of identity. Before Jesus healed anyone, preached anything, or confronted anyone, heaven spoke over Him: “This is My beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.” That approval came before achievement. It came before obedience was tested. It came before suffering began. And it established something essential—identity before performance.

Many believers reverse that order without realizing it. We try to earn peace instead of receiving it. We try to prove worth instead of living from it. We try to secure approval from people because we have lost awareness of the approval already given by God. And when identity becomes unclear, approval becomes addictive.

People-pleasing is rarely about kindness. It is usually about fear. Fear of rejection. Fear of conflict. Fear of being misunderstood. Fear of being alone. And while fear feels protective in the moment, it quietly teaches us to live smaller than we were designed to live.

Owning who you are is not arrogance. It is alignment.

Alignment is when your inner convictions and outer actions finally agree. It is when you stop performing versions of yourself depending on the room. It is when faith moves from something you reference to something you rest in. Alignment does not remove struggle, but it removes pretense. And pretense is one of the greatest sources of spiritual fatigue.

Scripture is full of people who were misaligned before they were obedient. They knew God, but they didn’t yet trust Him enough to stand without approval. Moses argued with God because he feared how he would be perceived. Jeremiah resisted because he feared inadequacy. Gideon hid because he feared insignificance. These were not faithless people. They were people still learning that God’s call outweighs public opinion.

God does not wait for confidence to act. He waits for surrender.

And surrender often looks like letting go of the need to be understood.

One of the hardest spiritual lessons is accepting that obedience will sometimes isolate you. Not because you are wrong, but because truth has weight. Truth disrupts comfort. Truth exposes compromise. Truth demands decision. And when you carry truth, you will not always be welcomed by those who benefit from ambiguity.

Jesus did not tailor His message to protect His popularity. He spoke with compassion, but never with caution toward approval. When crowds followed Him for miracles but rejected His words, He let them leave. He did not chase them. He did not soften the truth to retain them. He did not measure success by numbers. He measured faithfulness by obedience.

That posture unsettles modern believers because we have been trained to associate approval with effectiveness. We assume that if people disagree, something must be wrong. If numbers drop, something must be adjusted. If tension arises, truth must be negotiated. But Scripture tells a different story. Scripture shows that faithfulness often precedes fruit, and obedience often precedes affirmation.

Paul understood this deeply. His letters carry both clarity and grief. He loved people sincerely, yet he was constantly misunderstood. He planted churches that later questioned him. He preached grace to people who accused him of weakness. And yet, he remained steady because his identity was anchored. “If I were still trying to please people,” he said, “I would not be a servant of Christ.” That is not a dismissal of love. It is a declaration of loyalty.

Loyalty to God will sometimes cost approval.

This is where many believers struggle. We want faith without friction. Conviction without consequence. Truth without tension. But Christianity was never meant to be a social strategy. It was meant to be a transformed life. And transformation always disrupts old patterns, including the pattern of needing to be liked to feel safe.

Owning who you are in Christ begins with acknowledging who you are not. You are not your worst moment. You are not the labels spoken over you. You are not the expectations others project onto you. You are not required to be palatable to be faithful. You are not obligated to dilute truth to maintain connection.

This does not mean becoming harsh or unkind. In fact, the more secure your identity becomes, the gentler your presence often grows. Insecurity demands validation. Security allows space. Rooted people do not need to dominate conversations. They do not need to win every argument. They do not need to correct every misunderstanding. They trust that truth can stand without being constantly defended.

There is a deep peace that comes when you stop auditioning for acceptance.

That peace does not come from isolation. It comes from integration. It is the alignment of belief, behavior, and belonging. It is knowing that even if you stand alone, you are not abandoned. It is trusting that God’s approval is not fragile, not conditional, and not revoked by human disagreement.

Many people fear that if they stop seeking approval, they will become disconnected. But the opposite is often true. When you stop performing, you begin attracting relationships built on honesty rather than convenience. When you stop pretending, you create space for real connection. When you stop shaping yourself to fit expectations, you allow others to meet the real you.

Some relationships will fade when you stop performing. That loss can be painful, but it is also revealing. Relationships that require self-betrayal are not sustained by love; they are sustained by control. God does not preserve every connection. Sometimes He prunes to protect your calling.

Calling is not loud. It is steady.

And steadiness is often mistaken for indifference by those who thrive on reaction. When you stop reacting, some people become uncomfortable. When you stop explaining, some people feel dismissed. When you stop bending, some people accuse you of changing. But often, you have not changed at all. You have simply stopped folding.

Faith matures when identity settles.

A settled identity does not mean certainty about everything. It means clarity about what matters. It means knowing where your authority comes from. It means recognizing that your worth is not up for debate. It means accepting that misunderstanding is not a sign of failure. It is often a sign that you are no longer living for consensus.

This is not a call to isolation or defiance. It is a call to integrity. Integrity is when your inner life and outer life finally match. It is when you no longer need approval to confirm what God has already established. It is when you can walk faithfully even when affirmation is absent.

Many people delay obedience because they are waiting for reassurance. They want confirmation from people before committing to what God has already made clear. But reassurance is not the same as calling. God often speaks once, and then waits to see if we trust Him enough to move without applause.

Silence from people does not mean absence from God.

In fact, some seasons are intentionally quiet so that approval does not interfere with obedience. God knows how easily affirmation can redirect intention. He knows how quickly praise can become a substitute for purpose. So sometimes He removes the noise, not as punishment, but as protection.

If you are in a season where your convictions feel heavier and affirmation feels lighter, do not assume something is wrong. You may be standing at the threshold of maturity. You may be learning how to carry truth without needing it to be echoed back to you.

This is where faith deepens.

Not when you are celebrated, but when you are steady.

Not when you are affirmed, but when you are aligned.

Not when you are understood, but when you are obedient.

Owning who you are does not make life easier, but it makes it honest. And honesty is the soil where real spiritual growth occurs. God does not build legacies on performance. He builds them on faithfulness. And faithfulness requires identity that does not waver with opinion.

When identity settles, approval loses its grip.

And when approval loses its grip, obedience finally becomes free.

There is a moment in spiritual growth when obedience stops feeling like something you do and starts feeling like something you are. It is no longer a decision you revisit daily. It becomes a posture. A settled stance. A quiet confidence that does not need to announce itself. This is what happens when identity finally takes root deeper than approval.

Many people confuse confidence with volume. They think confidence must be loud, assertive, or forceful. But biblical confidence is often restrained. It is not anxious. It is not reactive. It is not defensive. It does not rush to correct every misunderstanding or chase every narrative. Biblical confidence rests because it knows Who it answers to.

When identity is unsettled, approval feels urgent. Every interaction carries weight. Every disagreement feels personal. Every silence feels like rejection. But when identity settles, urgency disappears. You no longer need immediate affirmation because you are no longer uncertain about where you stand.

This is why rooted believers can move slowly in a fast world.

They do not panic when others rush ahead.

They do not envy platforms they were not called to.

They do not compromise truth to maintain access.

They trust timing because they trust God.

One of the quiet miracles of faith is learning to let people misunderstand you without correcting them. Not because the misunderstanding is accurate, but because it is irrelevant to your assignment. Jesus did this repeatedly. He allowed assumptions to stand when correcting them would have distracted from obedience. He did not defend His identity at every turn because His identity was not under threat.

That level of restraint is only possible when approval has lost its grip.

Approval feeds on explanation. It demands clarity on its terms. It pressures you to justify yourself, soften edges, and reassure others that you are still acceptable. But calling does not require consensus. It requires courage. And courage grows when you stop asking people to confirm what God has already spoken.

This does not mean becoming indifferent to others. It means becoming discerning. Discernment recognizes when feedback is meant to sharpen and when it is meant to control. Discernment listens without surrendering authority. Discernment receives wisdom without forfeiting conviction.

Maturity is knowing the difference.

Some criticism is refining. Some is revealing. And some is simply noise. When identity is clear, you can tell which is which. You stop absorbing every opinion as truth. You stop internalizing every reaction as a verdict. You stop living as though every voice deserves equal weight.

Not all voices do.

Scripture repeatedly emphasizes this principle, though we often resist it. We want affirmation from many places because multiplicity feels safer. But God often speaks through fewer voices, not more. He reduces distractions so that direction becomes unmistakable. He removes noise so that obedience becomes simple.

Simple does not mean easy. It means clear.

Clear obedience will cost you something. It may cost comfort. It may cost familiarity. It may cost relationships built on convenience rather than truth. But what it gives you is far greater. It gives you peace that does not fluctuate. It gives you direction that does not require constant validation. It gives you a life that is internally consistent, not fractured across expectations.

There is a particular grief that comes with stepping out of approval-driven living. It is the grief of realizing how long you lived for something that could never truly satisfy you. Many people mourn the years they spent shrinking, editing, or waiting for permission. That grief is real. But it is also redemptive. God does not waste awareness. He uses it to deepen wisdom and compassion.

Those who have broken free from approval often become gentler, not harsher. They understand the pressure others live under. They recognize fear when they see it. They respond with patience rather than judgment. They remember what it felt like to need affirmation just to breathe.

This is where faith becomes spacious.

You no longer need everyone to agree with you in order to remain at peace. You no longer need to defend every boundary you set. You no longer need to convince others that your obedience is valid. You trust that God sees what people do not.

Trusting God with outcomes is one of the highest expressions of faith.

Outcomes are seductive. They promise clarity, closure, and proof. But faith does not require visible results to remain steady. Faith rests in obedience even when results are delayed, misunderstood, or unseen. This is why Scripture speaks so often about endurance. Endurance is not passive waiting. It is active faithfulness without applause.

People who live for approval burn out quickly because approval is inconsistent. It rises and falls with moods, trends, and usefulness. But people who live from identity endure because identity does not depend on response. It depends on truth.

Truth does not need reinforcement to remain true.

One of the most liberating realizations a believer can have is that being disliked does not mean being wrong. Being misunderstood does not mean being unclear. Being opposed does not mean being disobedient. Sometimes it simply means you are standing in a place others are unwilling to stand.

Standing is not dramatic. It is faithful.

And faithful lives are often quiet until they are suddenly undeniable. Scripture is filled with examples of obedience that seemed insignificant at first. Small decisions. Private faithfulness. Unseen consistency. Over time, those choices shaped history. Not because they were loud, but because they were aligned.

Alignment always outlasts applause.

When your life is aligned with God, you do not need to manage perception. You do not need to curate an image. You do not need to maintain access through compromise. You live honestly, and honesty becomes your covering.

This is especially important in seasons of obscurity. Obscurity tests identity more than visibility ever will. When no one is watching, approval-driven faith collapses. But identity-driven faith deepens. Obscurity strips away performance and reveals motivation. It asks a simple question: Would you still obey if no one noticed?

God often answers that question before He expands influence.

If you are in a season where your faithfulness feels unseen, do not rush to escape it. That season may be strengthening muscles you will need later. It may be teaching you how to stand without reinforcement. It may be preparing you to carry responsibility without craving recognition.

Craving recognition is not the same as desiring fruit. Fruit comes from faithfulness. Recognition comes from people. God is far more interested in the former than the latter.

When identity settles, you begin to measure success differently. You stop asking, “Was I liked?” and start asking, “Was I faithful?” You stop evaluating days by response and start evaluating them by obedience. You stop letting affirmation determine your worth and start letting faith determine your direction.

This shift is subtle but profound.

It changes how you speak.

It changes how you listen.

It changes how you endure.

You become less reactive and more reflective. Less defensive and more discerning. Less concerned with being seen and more committed to being true.

Owning who you are in Christ does not isolate you from people. It connects you to them more honestly. It allows you to love without manipulation, serve without resentment, and give without depletion. You no longer need people to be a certain way for you to remain steady.

That steadiness is a gift—to you and to others.

Because rooted people create safe spaces. They are not threatened by disagreement. They are not shaken by difference. They are not consumed by control. They trust God enough to let others be where they are without forcing alignment.

That kind of presence is rare.

And it is desperately needed.

The world is filled with anxious voices competing for approval. Faith offers something different. Faith offers rootedness. Faith offers peace that does not depend on agreement. Faith offers a life anchored so deeply that storms reveal strength rather than weakness.

This is what it means to live fully owned.

Not perfect.

Not complete.

But surrendered, grounded, and aligned.

When you reach this place, approval does not disappear entirely. It simply loses authority. It becomes information, not instruction. It becomes feedback, not foundation. It no longer defines your worth or dictates your obedience.

And in that freedom, you finally live as you were created to live.

Faithfully.

Honestly.

Unapologetically rooted in Christ.

The more your identity settles, the less approval can control you.

And the less approval controls you, the more freely you obey.

That is not rebellion.

That is maturity.

That is faith.

That is life as it was meant to be lived.

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GO HOOSIERS!

Tonight before bed I'll be listening to B97 – The Home for IU Women's Basketball for pregame coverage then for the radio call of tonight's game, Indiana Hoosiers vs. Nebraska Cornhuskers.

And the adventure continues.

Wöchentliche, regelmässige Reviews haben einen seltsamen Ruf. Viele wissen, dass sie sinnvoll wären, nur bleiben sie oft abstrakt: zu offen, zu zeitaufwendig oder zu nahe an der Selbstkritik. Man blättert durch Kalender und To-do-Listen, macht sich ein paar Notizen – und schliesst das Ganze ohne klare Konsequenz wieder ab. Genau an diesem Punkt wird Struktur entscheidend. Eine der schlichtesten und zugleich brauchbarsten Formen dafür ist die Methode Plus–Minus–Next.

In meinem letzten Beitrag habe ich beschrieben, wie mir ein Lehrjournal geholfen hat, meine Unterrichtspraxis regelmässig zu reflektieren. Darin erwähnte ich auch einen wöchentlichen Rückblick, ohne diesen näher zu erläutern. Dieser Text schliesst genau dort an – allerdings bewusst allgemeiner. Plus–Minus–Next ist kein Instrument nur für Lehrpersonen. Es eignet sich für wöchentliche Reviews jeder Art: beruflich, privat oder in allen Lebenslagen.

Die Methode Plus–Minus–Next

Plus–Minus–Next ist eine einfache dreiteilige Reflexionsstruktur. Sie stammt von Anne-Laure Le Cunff und wurde über ihr Projekt Ness Labs und später ihr Buch Tiny Experiments bekannt. Der Kern ist schnell erklärt:

• Plus: Was ist in der vergangenen Woche gut gelaufen? Was hat funktioniert, Energie gegeben oder unerwartet gut gepasst?
• Minus: Was ist nicht gut gelaufen? Wo gab es Reibung, Frust, Leerlauf oder unnötige Komplexität?
• Next: Was folgt daraus konkret für die nächste Woche?

Eine leere Tabelle für Plus–Minus–Next (Quelle: nesslabs.com)

Entscheidend ist die Reihenfolge. Zuerst wird gesammelt, ohne sofort zu reagieren. Erst danach wird eine Konsequenz gezogen. Plus–Minus–Next ist kein Tagebuch und keine Gefühlsanalyse. Es ist ein kompaktes Auswertungsraster. Die Methode lebt von Begrenzung. Stichworte genügen. Drei bis sieben Punkte pro Spalte sind meist mehr als ausreichend. Wer hier anfängt, lange zu erzählen, verfehlt den Zweck. Es geht nicht um Vollständigkeit, sondern um Muster.

Warum diese Struktur wirkt

„Drei Spalten: Plus für alles, was gut lief; Minus für das, was nicht gut lief; Next für das, was man beim nächsten Mal anpassen möchte.“ – Anne-Laure Le Cunff (Quelle)

Psychologisch betrachtet verbindet Plus–Minus–Next mehrere hilfreiche Mechanismen, ohne sie theoretisch aufzublasen.

Erstens zwingt die Trennung von Beobachtung und Entscheidung zu einer kurzen Distanz. Plus und Minus sind Bestandsaufnahmen. Next ist die Übersetzung in Handlung. Diese Trennung reduziert die Gefahr, dass aus Reflexion sofort Selbstkritik oder Aktionismus wird.

Zweitens verschiebt die Methode den Fokus von Bewertung zu Anpassung. Ein Minus ist kein persönliches Defizit, sondern ein Hinweis darauf, dass etwas im System nicht optimal gepasst hat: Zeit, Kontext, Erwartungen oder Energie. Genau hier setzt Next an. Nicht mit grossen Zielen, sondern mit kleinen Korrekturen.

Drittens fördert Plus–Minus–Next metakognitives Denken. Du beobachtest nicht nur, was passiert ist, sondern lernst, wie Du Deine eigene Woche gestaltest. Das ist eine Voraussetzung für Selbststeuerung, unabhängig davon, ob man produktiver, ruhiger oder fokussierter werden will.

Plus–Minus–Next im wöchentlichen Review

Als Instrument für ein Weekly Review ist Plus–Minus–Next besonders geeignet, weil es einen klaren Anfang und ein klares Ende hat. Ein möglicher Ablauf sieht so aus:

1. Zuerst verschaffst Du Dir kurz Überblick. Kalender, Aufgabenliste, Notizen der Woche. Nicht im Detail, sondern nur, um das Gedächtnis zu aktivieren. Danach füllst Du die drei Spalten aus.
2. Im Plus landen beobachtbare Dinge: erledigte Aufgaben, gelungene Gespräche, gute Entscheidungen, auch Pausen, die tatsächlich erholt haben.
3. Im Minus ebenfalls Beobachtungen, keine Urteile. „Zwei Abende mit unnötiger Arbeit“ ist hilfreicher als „schlechte Selbstdisziplin“. Der Unterschied ist nicht kosmetisch, sondern funktional.
4. Der wichtigste Teil ist Next. Hier wird entschieden, was sich ändern soll. Nicht alles, was im Minus steht, braucht eine Reaktion. Und nicht jedes Plus muss verstärkt werden. Next ist eine Auswahl.

Für wöchentliche Reviews hat sich meiner Meinung nach bewährt, die Next-Spalte am Schluss weiter zu verdichten: maximal drei Punkte, die tatsächlich in die kommende Woche übernommen werden. Alles andere bleibt bewusst liegen.

Was Next leisten soll – und was nicht

Next ist kein zusätzlicher Aufgabenstapel. Es ist auch keine Zielplanung. Next beantwortet eine engere Frage: Was mache ich nächste Woche leicht anders als diese Woche?

Gute Next-Punkte sind konkret, klein und überprüfbar. Sie beziehen sich auf Verhalten, nicht auf Eigenschaften. Statt „besser fokussieren“ eher „vormittags Mails erst ab 10 Uhr öffnen“. Statt „mehr Bewegung“ eher „zweimal nach dem Mittagessen zehn Minuten gehen“.

Ein ausgefülltes Beispiel (Quelle: nesslabs.com)

Wichtig ist auch, was Next nicht leisten muss. Es muss nicht alle Probleme lösen. Es muss nicht dauerhaft sein. Im Sinn kleiner Experimente darf ein Next-Punkt auch bewusst vorläufig sein. Eine Woche reicht oft, um zu sehen, ob eine Anpassung funktioniert oder nicht.

Typische Missverständnisse

Ein häufiges Missverständnis ist, Plus–Minus–Next als Leistungsbilanz zu lesen. Dann wird Plus zur Rechtfertigung und Minus zur Abrechnung. In dieser Logik verliert die Methode ihre Stärke. Sie ist kein Bewertungssystem, sondern ein Lerninstrument. Ein zweites Missverständnis betrifft die Grösse der Schritte. Wer Next mit ambitionierten Vorsätzen füllt, erzeugt Druck statt Klarheit. Die Methode funktioniert besser, wenn sie kleinteilig bleibt:

„So entstehen Wachstumszyklen: Egal wie das Experiment verlaufen ist, man lernt daraus und kann die Erkenntnisse direkt in die nächste Runde übertragen.“ – Anne-Laure Le Cunff (Quelle)

Schliesslich wird Plus oft unterschätzt. Viele füllen Minus mühelos, tun sich aber mit Plus schwer. Dabei ist gerade diese Spalte wichtig, um funktionierende Elemente bewusst wahrzunehmen und nicht nur auf Defizite zu reagieren.

Fazit

Plus–Minus–Next ist keine neue Produktivitätsmethode im modischen Sinn. Gerade das ist ihre Stärke. Sie ist einfach, begrenzt und anschlussfähig. Als Struktur für wöchentliche Reviews hilft sie, Erfahrungen zu ordnen, ohne sich in Details zu verlieren, und aus Rückblicken konkrete Anpassungen abzuleiten.

Ich halte sie für besonders geeignet für Menschen, die reflektieren wollen, ohne daraus ein Projekt zu machen. Nicht als Ersatz für andere Methoden, sondern als ruhiges Grundgerüst. Woche für Woche. Ohne Anspruch auf Perfektion, aber mit einem klaren Blick auf das, was war – und auf das, was als Nächstes sinnvoll ist.

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We sat in the corner of the restaurant so we wouldn't be too visible.

Darjeeling, 2006. An LTC trip – the government-mandated leave travel allowance my father got once every 3-4 years. The only time we went anywhere. The only time we ate at restaurants.

The waiter came over. “How many people?”

I didn't understand the question. My father said “6.”

We got a laminated menu with stains from previous customers. All of us – my parents, my sisters, me – just stared at it. Nobody knew what to order.

My father ordered the safest thing possible: One sabji. One dal. Rice. Roti. Salad.

No starter. No soup. No desserts.

Those things didn't exist in our universe.

We recreated home in a restaurant because we didn't know how to do anything else.

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The Pattern

At home, we didn't have the concept of variety.

Every meal was one dal OR one sabji. Not both. One dish.

Breakfast was parantha with tea. Or biscuits. Almost every single day.

Some special days we had non-veg – festivals, birthdays, occasions.

We never went out.

Clothes? We bought them only for occasions. Somebody's wedding. A festival.

We didn't have “day clothes” and “night clothes.” We had summer clothes and winter clothes. That's it.

There was no concept of buying clothes for home. You wore something outside until you couldn't anymore, then it became home clothes.

Travel? That Darjeeling trip. Maybe one or two others. Every 3-4 years if we were lucky.

I didn't have a favorite food. I didn't have a favorite color. I didn't have a favorite place.

Not because I was easy-going or low-maintenance.

Because I never learned to have preferences.

You're just grateful when there's food on the table. You don't develop opinions about what KIND of food.

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The Whiplash

2015. My first paycheck from Amazon.

I stared at the number.

I didn't know what to do with it.

What do people even buy? What do people order? Where do people go?

I was that kid from the Darjeeling corner table, now holding a menu with no stains and no idea what I actually wanted.

So I learned. Aggressively.

I tried everything. Went everywhere. Said yes to everything.

Travel. Food. Clothes. Experiences.

If I saw it, I tried it. If someone suggested it, I did it.

By 2021, I had zero savings.

Zero.

Not because I was reckless. Because I was making up for every corner table. Every stained menu. Every LTC trip I never took.

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Learning to Choose

My girlfriend has known me for 19 years.

She knew the corner table kid. She saw the first Amazon paycheck. She watched me try everything, go everywhere, say yes to everything.

And when I hit zero in 2021, she didn't judge.

I panicked. Started reading about personal finance. Got serious about saving.

I was earning well, so rebuilding wasn't difficult. But I swung to the other extreme – suddenly afraid to spend on anything.

That's when she helped me understand something I'd never learned:

It's okay to enjoy things. Slowly. Without shame.

It's okay to say “I like this” instead of “I'm grateful for anything.”

It's okay to have a favorite restaurant. A preferred seat. An opinion.

One day in 2025, we were shopping and I kept looking at this watch. $1,500.

I liked it. I really liked it.

But I wasn't going to buy it.

“Just buy it,” she said.

“It's too expensive.”

“You like it. You can afford it. Buy it.”

I bought it. And it felt strange – buying something just because I wanted it. Not because I needed it. Not because someone was getting married. Just because I liked it.

We went to Dubai recently.

We went to this amazing Indian restaurant in Dubai Mall.

We ordered so many things. Tried dishes we'd never had.

And here's the part that would have been impossible before:

We left 2-3 dishes because we didn't like them.

Small portions, but still – we LEFT food.

Growing up, if I put something on my plate, I finished it. Regardless of how it tasted.

Not because of values or environment. Because I was grateful to have anything on my plate at all.

But in Dubai, I had permission to not like something.

Permission to waste a little.

Permission to have an opinion.

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The Transformation

My wardrobe now:

I have clothes specifically for airports.

I have clothes for long-distance travel, sorted by weather AND location.

Beach clothes. Multiple swimming costumes.

Socks of different shapes, sizes, and textures.

Undergarments specifically for slightly transparent shorts so they don't look bad.

Three different watches – one for running, one for everyday, one for parties.

And right now? I have 2-3 pairs of clothes sitting in my almirah that I haven't even worn yet. Bought them a month ago. Just sitting there.

The kid who had “summer or winter” now has granular categories for everything.

From one dal, one sabji to eating at so many different restaurants I've lost count.

From occasion-based clothes to unworn outfits in my closet.

From LTC trips every 3-4 years to visiting so many places in India I cannot count. To traveling to multiple countries across the world.

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Both Things Can Be True

I feel grateful for everything.

Grateful for my parents who gave us those LTC trips even when money was tight.

Grateful for my sisters who sat with me at that corner table.

Grateful for my girlfriend who showed me I could have preferences without losing gratitude.

Because here's what I figured out:

The corner table taught me gratitude.

But gratitude without preferences isn't humility.

It's just never learning what you actually want.

When I look at those 3 watches, those texture-sorted socks, those unworn clothes – I don't feel guilty.

I feel happy. Proud. Free.

Free to choose. Free to have opinions. Free to leave food I don't like.

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If I could talk to that anxious kid in the Darjeeling restaurant, staring at the stained menu, sitting in the corner hoping nobody notices us...

I'd tell him: One day you'll leave food you don't like, and you won't feel bad about it.

Inspiration can come from unexpected sources, the trick is to be observant.

I got this idea, for example, to recreate this sandwich with kalles type caviar, egg, red onion and dill, which my wife and I ate in a previous chapter of our lives; when we were young and the world seemed so promising; a couple free of overburdening responsibilities and mortgages. We even had this blue metallic Peugeot 107: a small type of trusty car with which we could make trips whenever we wanted to, to wherever we wanted. And we were so beautiful back then!

Anyway I smelt my own fart, and immediately this aforementioned thought struck me: the idea to recreate this sandwich, because the other things, alas, are lost forever.

However, I wouldn’t trade then for now, even though I’m not as happy, because I love my life still some days, and the wisdoms I have gathered throughout the years have been expensive.

By Publius (of the 21st Century)

Less than two months after its November 2025 publication, the theoretical framework of the U.S. National Security Strategy (NSS-25) has become operational reality. Nicolás Maduro was extracted from Venezuela and flown to New York. Stephen Miller announced on CNN that the United States intends to acquire Greenland from Denmark—a NATO ally—because “nobody's going to fight the United States militarily over the future of Greenland.” A Russian oil tanker was seized in the mid-Atlantic. The Panama Canal's sovereignty has been publicly questioned by the sitting U.S. president.

These are not isolated provocations. They are the “Trump Corollary to the Monroe Doctrine” in action—a comprehensive reorientation of American grand strategy that explicitly prioritizes hemispheric dominance while signaling strategic withdrawal from Europe. What Washington's strategists, however, have failed to grasp is that this pivot carries a profound unintended consequence: it is catalyzing the emergence of exactly what American foreign policy has sought to prevent for eighty years—a unified, militarily powerful, and geopolitically autonomous Europe.

The Corollary's Core Logic

The NSS-25 resurrects the Monroe Doctrine but transforms it from defensive shield to offensive economic sphere. Where James Monroe in 1823 warned European powers against colonization in the Western Hemisphere, the Trump Corollary demands control of “strategically vital assets,” the expulsion of foreign competitors, and “sole-source contracts” for U.S. firms across Latin America. Where Theodore Roosevelt's 1904 corollary justified police power to prevent European interference, Trump's version authorizes “lethal force” against cartels and criminal networks, potentially without host-nation consent.

The hemispheric pivot is paired with strategic retrenchment from Europe. The NSS describes European nations as “increasingly incapable,” threatened by “civilizational erasure,” and perhaps unable to field militaries strong enough to serve as reliable allies. It demands NATO members spend five percent of GDP on defense—the so-called “Hague Commitment”—while simultaneously signaling that American security guarantees are transactional, not treaty-bound. It seeks détente with Russia to “reestablish strategic stability,” explicitly overriding European threat perceptions. The message is clear: Europe must pay for American protection or provide for its own defense.

This represents a fundamental break with the post-1945 order. For seventy-five years, American strategy rested on two pillars: maintaining military primacy in Europe to prevent the emergence of a hostile Eurasian hegemon, and embedding that primacy within institutional frameworks—NATO, the Marshall Plan, transatlantic economic integration—that made American leadership appear benign rather than imperial. The Trump Corollary dismantles both pillars. It treats allies as burden rather than asset and replaces institutional legitimacy with naked coercion.

The Arithmetic of Miscalculation

The strategy's most consequential error lies in its assessment of relative power. The NSS treats Russia—population 145 million, GDP approximately $2 trillion—as a peer power requiring accommodation. It treats the European Union—population 450 million, GDP exceeding $19 trillion—as a collection of declining dependencies requiring rescue or abandonment.

This is not strategy. It is innumeracy.

Europe's contemporary military weakness is not evidence of civilizational exhaustion. It is the equilibrium outcome of a security architecture designed and maintained by the United States for three-quarters of a century. Since 1949, the American nuclear and conventional guarantee suppressed incentives for European strategic rearmament. This was intentional. It provided Washington with unrivaled influence over European political, military, and industrial development while ensuring that no single European state could emerge as a competitor.

Yet this influence was never absolute. Charles de Gaulle withdrew France from NATO's integrated military command in 1966 precisely to preserve French strategic autonomy, developed an independent nuclear deterrent, and pursued policies explicitly designed to counterbalance American hegemony. Britain, while maintaining the “special relationship,” retained sovereign control over its nuclear arsenal and never extended itself toward complete dependency on Washington. These examples demonstrate that European strategic restraint was a choice within the American security framework, not evidence of inherent incapacity.

Europe's demilitarization, in other words, was an American policy success—not a European failure. The NSS reads this induced restraint as proof of intrinsic European incapacity. But once the external constraint is removed, underlying structural conditions—large populations, advanced technological bases, dense industrial networks, and the world's second-largest internal market—create latent capacity for rapid remilitarization.

The historical precedent is Germany after Versailles. The Treaty of Versailles limited the Reichswehr to 100,000 men and prohibited tanks, aircraft, and heavy artillery. Within fifteen years of Hitler's repudiation of these constraints, Germany fielded the most formidable military machine in Europe. The lesson: wealthy industrial powers with advanced technical capacity can militarize far faster than Washington's strategists apparently believe.

Germany's contemporary challenge is not technical incapacity but psychological paralysis. Decades of relying on the “peace dividend” to fund an expansive welfare state while pursuing global trade advantages under American security protection have created a political culture allergic to hard power. The problem is not that Germany might become too aggressive if rearmed—it is that Germany refuses to accept the responsibilities that come with sovereignty. But existential threat has a clarifying effect on political culture. A Germany facing Russian armored divisions without American protection will discover capabilities it claimed not to possess.

What European Rearmament Would Mean

If Europe actually met the NSS's five percent GDP defense spending demand—clearly intended as a “poison pill” to justify American disengagement—the result would transform global order. Five percent of $19 trillion equals $950 billion annually. For context, current U.S. defense spending approximates $850 billion, which the administration intends to extend to $1.5 trillion in 2026. China officially spends roughly $300 billion. Russia spends approximately $80 billion.

A Europe spending nearly $1 trillion on defense would possess military capability rivaling the United States and vastly exceeding Russia and China combined. This is not burden-sharing. This is the creation of a peer competitor.

Moreover, a Europe organizing its own defense industrial base to avoid “sole-source” dependency on unreliable American suppliers will inevitably develop command structures independent of NATO. Initiatives such as Permanent Structured Cooperation (PESCO), the European Defence Fund, and the European Rapid Deployment Capacity—all previously hampered by political fragmentation and American ambivalence—would receive urgent priority. The logic of collective defense without the United States requires unified command, integrated procurement, and harmonized operational doctrine.

France's force de frappe—currently protecting only France—would need to extend deterrence coverage to Germany, Poland, Italy, and other European states. This means political integration of nuclear command, something Paris has historically resisted but which American abandonment would necessitate. Britain, despite Brexit, would face strong incentives to reconnect strategically with Europe, especially if Washington signals disinterest in transatlantic security. A Europe integrating British naval and intelligence capabilities with French nuclear deterrence and German industrial capacity would emerge not as a fragmented collection of dependencies, but as a coherent and formidable geopolitical actor.

The Nuclear Question: Germany's Latent Capability

The conventional assumption is that Germany would seek coverage under an expanded French nuclear umbrella. But this overlooks a more disruptive possibility: German nuclear rearmament.

Germany possesses advanced nuclear technology expertise despite shuttering its civilian nuclear facilities. It ratified the Nuclear Non-Proliferation Treaty in 1975, but treaty commitments are functions of strategic context. If the United States abrogates its security guarantee—as the Trump Corollary effectively does—Germany faces an existential choice: permanent subordination to French nuclear decision-making, or development of sovereign deterrence.

The historical fear of German nuclear weapons rested on concerns about German aggression and unreliability. But contemporary Germany's problem is not excessive ambition—it is pathological risk-aversion and unwillingness to accept the responsibilities of power. A Germany that developed nuclear weapons under joint command with Poland, France, the Netherlands, Belgium, Denmark, and Britain would not represent a threat of unilateral German adventurism. It would represent the federalization of European deterrence under collective control.

This is not idle speculation. Germany's technical capacity to develop nuclear weapons is not in question—only political will. With American abandonment catalyzing existential threat perception, that political will could materialize rapidly. A Central European nuclear consortium integrating German technical capacity, Polish frontline commitment, French operational expertise, and British strategic culture would create a deterrent architecture far more credible than extension of the force de frappe alone.

The precedent is already being set elsewhere. In December 2025, Japanese Prime Minister Takaichi publicly questioned whether the country's three non-nuclear principles—no possession, no production, and no introduction of nuclear weapons onto Japanese soil—could still stand in the face of serious threats. Like her predecessor, she invoked the concept of space-based nuclear weapons as a potential way to circumvent Japan's constitutional prohibition against nuclear arms on land or sea, a commitment rooted in its 1945 unconditional surrender.

The proposal, though quickly walked back after Chinese condemnation, demonstrated that even the most constrained U.S. allies are reconsidering nuclear taboos when American guarantees appear unreliable. If Japan—constitutionally pacifist, historically traumatized by nuclear weapons, and geographically separated from European conflicts—can publicly discuss nuclear options, why would Germany not do the same when facing Russian tanks on NATO's eastern frontier?

The Trump Corollary provides precisely the strategic justification needed to overcome domestic German opposition to rearmament. If Washington treats NATO as transactional rather than treaty-bound, if it demands five percent defense spending while signaling unreliability, and if it pursues détente with Russia over European objections, then German political elites can credibly argue that the postwar settlement has ended. The Non-Proliferation Treaty was signed in a world where American extended deterrence was credible. That world no longer exists.

Ukraine: Europe's Indispensable Military Asset

Any serious discussion of European strategic autonomy must begin with a counterintuitive reality: Ukraine now possesses the largest, most combat-experienced, Western-style military force on the European continent. While battered by three years of high-intensity warfare, the Ukrainian military has not merely survived—it has evolved into precisely the kind of force Europe will need if it must defend itself without American support.

Three years ago, Ukrainian soldiers traveled to Western Europe for training. Today, that experience curve has inverted. The Ukrainians now possess capabilities no other European military can match:

First, operational experience in hybrid warfare. Ukrainian forces have defended against combined Russian conventional assaults, irregular warfare, cyber operations, information warfare, and infrastructure sabotage simultaneously. No NATO military—not German, not French, not British—has faced anything remotely comparable since 1945. This experience is not theoretical. It is institutional knowledge embedded in Ukrainian command structures, tactical doctrine, and operational planning.

Second, proven capability against peer conventional forces. Ukrainian forces have systematically defeated Russian tanks, artillery, aircraft, and massed infantry assaults—the very threat European militaries would face if Russian forces push westward. They have done so despite facing numerical disadvantages in equipment, manpower, and ammunition. Western European militaries have not fought a peer conventional conflict in decades. Ukrainians do it daily.

Third, advanced autonomous drone warfare. Ukraine has pioneered AI-integrated drone systems—both aerial and maritime—that represent the future of asymmetric warfare. As documented by C.J. Chivers in “The Dawn of the A.I. Drone” (The New York Times, December 31, 2025), Ukrainian forces deploy thousands of AI-coordinated drones that neutralize targets worth millions using systems costing thousands. These capabilities can be scaled rapidly using 3D printing, commercial electronics, and open-source software. Ukrainian drone manufacturers now produce capabilities that exceed what Western defense contractors can deliver at a fraction of the cost and timeline.

This technological and tactical sophistication did not exist in 2022. It was developed under combat conditions through necessity and innovation. Europe cannot replicate this experience through exercises or procurement programs. It can only acquire it by integrating Ukraine into European defense structures immediately and completely.

The Integration Imperative

A European security architecture that excludes Ukraine is strategically incoherent. Ukraine possesses what Europe desperately needs: combat-proven forces, operational doctrine tested against Russian military systems, and technological innovations that provide asymmetric advantages. Conversely, Europe possesses what Ukraine needs: industrial scale, economic depth, and nuclear deterrence.

The conventional model assumes Ukraine would be a dependent security consumer requiring European protection. The reality is reversed. In conventional warfare capability, Ukraine is the provider and Western Europe is the dependent. A Poland-Baltic-Ukraine defense axis, integrating Ukrainian battlefield experience with Polish commitment and German industrial capacity, would create a credible eastern European deterrent without requiring consensus from risk-averse Western European capitals.

This is not charity toward Ukraine. It is strategic necessity for Europe. If Russia reconstitutes its military over the next five to seven years and faces a Europe that has failed to integrate Ukrainian capabilities, Moscow will have learned from Ukrainian resistance while Europe will have squandered its most valuable military asset.

The Nuclear Dimension: Righting a Historic Betrayal

Ukraine's integration into European defense structures must include the nuclear dimension—not merely as recipient of extended deterrence but as participant in command structures. This is not merely strategic logic; it is an obligation.

In 1994, Ukraine possessed the world's third-largest nuclear arsenal—approximately 1,900 strategic nuclear warheads inherited from the Soviet Union. Under the Budapest Memorandum, Ukraine surrendered these weapons in exchange for security assurances from the United States, Russia, and the United Kingdom. Those assurances guaranteed Ukrainian territorial integrity and sovereignty.

Russia violated the Budapest Memorandum in 2014 with the annexation of Crimea and again in 2022 with full-scale invasion. The United States and United Kingdom, while providing military aid, have not honored the spirit of the agreement—demonstrated most clearly by the Trump Corollary's pursuit of détente with Moscow over Ukrainian objections. Ukraine was told that surrendering nuclear weapons would guarantee its security. That guarantee proved worthless.

A Central European nuclear consortium integrating Germany, Poland, France, the Netherlands, Belgium, Denmark, Britain, and Ukraine would not merely strengthen European deterrence—it would rectify one of the most consequential broken promises in modern international relations. Ukrainian participation in nuclear command structures would ensure that any future Russian nuclear coercion against Europe would be met with credible deterrence that includes the one European state that has actually fought Russia and understands its strategic calculus intimately.

The objection that Ukraine is “too unstable” or “too corrupt” for nuclear participation reflects outdated assessments. Ukraine in 2026 is not Ukraine in 2014. Three years of existential warfare have clarified Ukrainian strategic culture, professionalized its military institutions, and eliminated the ambiguity about Russian threat that paralyzed European decision-making. If Germany—with its psychological allergies to hard power—can be trusted with nuclear weapons under collective control, then Ukraine—which has demonstrated willingness to fight and die for European security—certainly can.

The Federalist Logic of European Integration

In Federalist No. 7 and No. 8, Alexander Hamilton warned that a loose confederation of sovereign states would succumb to foreign intrigue and internal dissension. He argued that only a strong, consolidated union could deter external powers and prevent separate states from becoming clients of competing empires. James Madison developed this in Federalist No. 41 and No. 42: foreign powers will use trade, diplomatic recognition, and military support selectively to reward some states and punish others, thereby deepening intra-confederal divisions.

The 2025 NSS recreates precisely these conditions in Europe. By demanding five percent defense spending while threatening to withdraw security guarantees, by seeking bilateral deals with individual European capitals rather than treating the EU as a negotiating partner, and by signaling that American commitments are transactional rather than treaty-bound, Washington exposes the vulnerability that drove the thirteen American colonies to federate in 1787.

The Federalists argued that “safety from external danger is the most powerful director of national conduct.” The colonies united not from mutual affection but from recognition that Britain or Spain would pick them off individually. The 2025 NSS provides Europe with dual external unifiers: Russian threat from the east, American abandonment from the west. If Europe follows the Federalist prescription, it will centralize foreign policy, replacing unanimity rules with majority voting to prevent external exploitation of single veto-wielding states. It will federalize debt and defense, creating a common treasury to fund continental military-industrial capacity explicitly to avoid sole-source dependency on American arms.

Recent Events as Proof of Concept

The Greenland crisis provides the clearest demonstration that this dynamic is already underway. Miller's CNN statement—”the United States is the power of NATO”—reduces alliance to hierarchy. His question—”by what right does Denmark assert control over Greenland?“—delegitimizes a NATO ally's territorial sovereignty. The Danish Prime Minister's response that U.S. annexation would “effectively end NATO” understates the case. NATO is already over. It simply has not yet been officially dissolved.

European responses to the Greenland announcement have been telling. Eastern European states—Poland, the Baltics—remain largely silent, unwilling to alienate Washington while Russian forces sit on their borders. But Western European capitals are beginning to speak openly about what was previously taboo: strategic autonomy from the United States. French President Macron has renewed calls for European defense integration. German defense minister Pistorius has advocated accelerated procurement timelines. Even traditionally Atlanticist voices in Britain are questioning whether Five Eyes intelligence sharing is worth subordination to an erratic American administration.

The Maduro extraction demonstrates operational capability—the United States can and will conduct military operations in the hemisphere without consultation. The Russian tanker seizure in the mid-Atlantic shows willingness to escalate economically. Threats regarding the Panama Canal indicate that no previous settlement, however long-standing, is considered permanent. Collectively, these actions signal that the United States views the Western Hemisphere as exclusive domain and European interests as secondary considerations.

The Realignment Risk

The NSS assumes a spurned Europe has nowhere else to go. This is the “America First” fallacy: the belief that the United States remains the indispensable node in global networks. If Washington adopts protectionist postures—tariffs, sole-source demands, weaponized dollar access—Europe will rationally seek survival elsewhere.

One can expect accelerating European economic engagement with the Global South. To secure energy and critical minerals without American interference, a strategically autonomous Europe will court Africa with trade terms that undercut American exclusivity demands. To maintain export economies, Europe may refuse American pressure to decouple from China, opting instead for a “middle path” preserving access to the Chinese market while managing security risks. Even India—currently a key U.S. partner in containing China—may find a rearmed, non-aligned Europe a more compatible partner than an erratic, isolationist America.

The result would be a multi-aligned Europe no longer structurally tied to the United States. Such a Europe would maintain economic ties with China, energy partnerships with Africa and the Middle East, and strategic coordination with India, Japan, and other middle powers. American influence would no longer be institutional or automatic. It would have to be earned in competition with other global actors.

Moreover, a Europe that feels strategically betrayed may adopt industrial policies designed to protect technological sovereignty from American extraterritorial controls. This includes reducing reliance on the dollar, creating alternative payment systems, and designing export regimes immune to American sanctions pressure. Over time, these developments would erode the structural foundations of the transatlantic relationship that have defined global order since 1945.

The Trump Corollary, in effect, presents America's allies with a menu of strategic options they previously lacked political justification to pursue: German nuclear weapons development under multilateral control, Japanese space-based deterrence, European monetary independence, and comprehensive realignment toward the Global South and China. These are not outcomes Washington desires—but they are outcomes Washington's own strategy makes rational for threatened allies. When a guarantor becomes unreliable, clients develop alternatives. The NSS assumes this development can be controlled through economic coercion and military threats. It cannot.

Doctrinal Incoherence

The Trump Corollary belongs to no recognizable tradition of American grand strategy. Classical realism, as articulated by Hans Morgenthau and Kenneth Waltz, stresses prudent limits and balance-of-power logic; the Corollary pursues maximalist exclusion that invites balancing behavior. Liberal internationalism, developed by G. John Ikenberry and Robert Keohane, depends on institutions, norms, and mutual legitimacy; the Corollary rejects multilateralism and undermines alliance cohesion. Neo-isolationism, advocated by Barry Posen and Stephen Walt, counsels restraint and avoidance of unnecessary entanglements; the Corollary dramatically expands military commitments in the Western Hemisphere while abandoning commitments elsewhere.

The Corollary is a hybrid whose internal contradictions undermine strategic coherence. It combines the worst elements of overreach and abandonment: aggressive intervention in the Americas paired with strategic withdrawal from Europe, economic coercion toward allies paired with accommodation of adversaries. This incoherence creates practical difficulties for implementation and generates confusion among both allies and adversaries about American intentions and redlines.

The Ultimate Irony

The 2025 National Security Strategy attempts to reshape global order through reassertion of American hemispheric dominance and strategic retrenchment from Europe. Yet by devaluing allies, imposing coercive economic conditions, and pursuing détente with Russia at Europe's expense, it risks producing outcomes directly contrary to American long-term interests.

The authors of the Federalist Papers would likely view the Trump Corollary not as strategic realism but as profound miscalculation. By removing the security guarantee that kept Europe dependent and militarily restrained, and simultaneously applying economic coercion, the United States is eliminating obstacles to European federation. The NSS assumes Europe will revert to a collection of weak nineteenth-century nation-states. It fails to account for the Hamiltonian alternative: that faced with partition by external powers, Europe will do exactly what American states did in 1787—form a more perfect union to secure liberty and power.

In attempting to unburden itself of European security commitments, the United States may inadvertently create its most formidable competitor. This is the ultimate irony: a strategy intended to restore American primacy instead accelerates multipolarity. By destroying the transatlantic dependence that ensured American primacy for nearly a century, Washington is not “making America great.” It is making Europe a superpower.

The blowback will not be the submission Washington expects, but the awakening of a dormant giant.

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