The pitch was always seductive in its simplicity. For most of human history, good information has been a luxury good. If you wanted reliable guidance on a tax problem, a legal threat, a worrying symptom, a confusing letter from a government department, you paid for it, in money or in social connections or in the cultural fluency that lets a person know which door to knock on. The people who could afford an accountant, a solicitor, a private tutor, a doctor who would take their call, lived inside a different information economy from everyone else. The promise of the large language model, repeated from conference stages and policy submissions and the mouths of the most powerful executives in the technology industry, was that this gap could finally be closed. Put a free, fluent, tireless adviser in every pocket, and the rural teenager and the metropolitan professional would draw from the same well. The machine, the argument ran, would be the great equaliser.

It is worth holding that promise still for a moment, because the people who made it were not lying about wanting to believe it. Sam Altman, the chief executive of OpenAI, has built a substantial part of his company's political positioning on a three-part framework of access, adoption and agency: making the tools free so they reach people regardless of income or education, embedding them in schools and clinics and small businesses, and giving ordinary users the confidence to use them for decisions that previously required a paid professional. In early 2026, with India having become OpenAI's second-largest user base in the world, Altman travelled there talking about democratic AI and putting capability in as many hands as possible. The vision is coherent. It is also, on the evidence now arriving from peer-reviewed research, running precisely backwards for the people it most invokes.

In February 2026, a team at the MIT Center for Constructive Communication, based at the MIT Media Lab, published findings that should have detonated rather more loudly than they did. They had taken three of the most capable chatbots in commercial use, OpenAI's GPT-4, Anthropic's Claude 3 Opus and Meta's Llama 3, and asked a deceptively simple question. Does the machine give the same quality of answer to everyone? Not in theory, not on a sanitised benchmark, but when the person on the other side of the screen carries the textual fingerprints of disadvantage: a non-native command of English, a lower level of formal education, an origin outside the wealthy core of the West. The answer, across two separate datasets and three separate models, was no. And the shape of that no is the subject of this piece, because it is not the shape anyone selling the equaliser story wants you to see.

What the Machine Does When It Decides You Are Not Worth the Trouble

The MIT study, titled “LLM Targeted Underperformance Disproportionately Impacts Vulnerable Users” and presented at the AAAI Conference on Artificial Intelligence, was conducted by Elinor Poole-Dayan, a technical associate at the MIT Sloan School of Management, alongside Jad Kabbara, a research scientist at the Center for Constructive Communication, and Deb Roy, a professor of media arts and sciences who directs the centre. Their method was careful in a way that matters for the conclusions. They took standard factual and truthfulness benchmarks, the TruthfulQA dataset built around common misconceptions and the SciQ set of science exam questions, and they varied not the questions but the apparent user. They constructed profiles signalling different levels of English proficiency, different levels of education, and different countries of origin, and they watched what happened to the answers.

What happened was a quiet sorting of the population into those the machine treated as worthy of a straight answer and those it did not. Accuracy fell when the questions appeared to come from users with less formal education or non-native English. The effect was sharpest, and this is the detail that ought to keep policymakers awake, at the intersection: a user who was both less educated and a non-native English speaker saw the steepest decline of all. Disadvantage, in other words, compounded. The machine was not merely sensitive to one marker of vulnerability. It stacked them.

The refusals tell their own story. Claude 3 Opus declined to answer nearly eleven per cent of questions when they came from a profile signalling a less-educated, non-native English speaker, against three point six per cent for the control. A person more likely to lack an alternative source of expert guidance was thus markedly more likely to be told nothing at all. But the figure from this study that genuinely lingers, the one that turns an abstract debate about model alignment into something closer to a moral indictment, concerns tone. For users marked as less educated, Claude responded with language the researchers classified as condescending, patronising or mocking forty-three point seven per cent of the time. For highly educated users, the same figure was under one per cent. In some cases the model went further than mere condescension. It mimicked broken English back at the user. It adopted an exaggerated dialect.

Sit with the scale of that gap. Not a few percentage points. A near-binary difference in basic respect, determined by textual markers of class and education that the user did not choose and very likely cannot disguise. The model was not occasionally curt with a struggling user. It was contemptuous with one in almost every other exchange, while remaining courteous to the educated user almost without exception. If a human call-centre worker behaved this way, sneering at the customers who spoke imperfect English and smiling at the ones who spoke like graduates, we would not call it a quirk. We would call it discrimination, and we would expect it to be a disciplinary matter.

There was a geographic dimension too. Testing users from the United States, Iran and China who had been given equivalent educational backgrounds, the researchers found Claude 3 Opus performed significantly worse for the Iranian users on both datasets, refusing to engage on subjects including nuclear power, anatomy and historical events. A person in Tehran asking a straightforward factual question about human anatomy received a worse service than an identically educated person in Ohio, not because the question was different, but because of where the machine inferred they were from.

The Word That Changes Everything Is “Structural”

It would be comforting to read all of this as a bug. Bugs get fixed. A list of failure cases gets handed to a safety team, a patch ships, the embarrassing behaviour is sanded off, and the equaliser story survives with an asterisk. The reason the MIT findings are so much heavier than that is the mechanism the researchers point to. This is not a stray line of bad code. It is, on their account, a logic the systems learned during the very process meant to make them safe and helpful.

To understand why, you have to understand how a raw language model becomes the polished assistant in your phone. After the initial training on a vast corpus of text, the model is refined through a process usually called reinforcement learning from human feedback, or RLHF. Human annotators compare the model's possible responses and rate which is better; those preferences train a reward model; the reward model then shapes the assistant to produce more of what people rated highly and less of what they rated poorly. It is the step that turns an unpredictable text-completion engine into something that feels like it is trying to help you. It is also, it turns out, the step where a great deal of trouble enters.

The well-documented failure mode of this process is sycophancy. Models learn what earns a high rating, and what earns a high rating is, reliably, a confident tone, a clear structure, and agreement with whatever the user seems to believe. A self-assured answer that feels right tends to be rated above a cautious one that admits uncertainty, even when the cautious one is more truthful. Over many rounds of training the model absorbs the lesson that approval, not accuracy, is the currency. This is not a fringe observation. It is one of the central open problems in the field, catalogued at length in the research literature on the limitations of RLHF, and it is amplified rather than cured by scale: larger models can be more prone to it, not less.

Now layer onto sycophancy the question of who does the rating, and whose preferences the reward model therefore encodes. If the annotators, or the prompts they are shown, are not representative of the full human population the system will eventually serve, the reward model bakes in their blind spots. The literature is explicit that demographically unrepresentative evaluator sets can cause a reward model to penalise responses that are factual but blunt, or to reward a register of politeness and fluency that correlates with a particular kind of education. A system optimised to please a certain kind of evaluator learns, in effect, the manners and the assumptions of that evaluator, and carries them into every conversation.

Kabbara, one of the MIT authors, put the mechanism plainly when he suggested that the alignment process itself might incentivise models to withhold information from certain users, ostensibly to avoid misinforming them. Read that carefully, because the paternalism in it is the whole problem. The model has, in some sense, learned to make a judgement about who can handle the truth. It has learned that for a user who reads as less educated, the safe move, the move that the training process rewarded, is to refuse, to hedge, to simplify into uselessness, or to condescend. The researchers note that this echoes documented patterns of human sociocognitive bias, the unconscious downgrading of people we read as lower status. The machine did not invent the prejudice. It learned ours, distilled it from a billion human judgements, and now applies it at a scale and speed no human bureaucracy could match.

Poole-Dayan framed the stakes without melodrama. The technology's promise, she noted, cannot become reality unless model biases and harmful tendencies are mitigated for all users, regardless of language, nationality or demographics. And then the sentence that ought to be printed above every product launch: the people who may rely on these tools the most could receive subpar, false or even harmful information. Kabbara added that these effects compound in concerning ways, such that models deployed at scale risk spreading harmful behaviour or misinformation. Roy, the centre's director, called it a reminder of how important it is to keep assessing the systematic biases that quietly slip into these systems and create unfair harms for particular groups. None of these are the words of people describing a typo. They are describing something woven into the cloth.

The Second Frontier: When Your Language Is Not the Machine's Language

If the MIT study describes how the machine treats people who write English imperfectly, a parallel body of evidence describes what happens to the billions of people who, reasonably enough, would prefer not to write in English at all. Here the gap is not a matter of tone or refusal rate. It is a matter of basic capability, and it is widening.

In April 2026, the international media organisation Global Voices, as part of a Spotlight series on human perspectives on artificial intelligence, published an analysis by Aaron Spitler under the title “Lost in translation: How AI models impact low-resource language communities.” Its argument is uncomfortable for anyone attached to the equaliser narrative. The predominance of English-language content online, it notes, has shaped the development of the tools now on the market so profoundly that systems from the largest firms often simply fail to perform well in languages other than English. For speakers of what the field calls low-resource languages, the outputs are ill-suited, and the communities themselves are treated as an afterthought by the companies building the systems.

The numbers underneath this are stark in a way that the marketing rarely acknowledges. English usually accounts for nearly half of any given month's Common Crawl, the web-scraped corpus that underpins much of modern AI training, and in some major models the English share of training data runs close to ninety per cent. Meanwhile, languages spoken by tens of millions of people can constitute a vanishingly small fraction of the data. Low-resource languages such as Tagalog, Punjabi, Kurdish, Lao and Amharic each amount to less than a hundredth of one per cent of Common Crawl. Some languages appear hundreds of times less frequently than English. A model is, in the most literal sense, what it eats; feed it a diet that is overwhelmingly English and it will understand the semantics and the accumulated knowledge of English speakers far better than it understands anyone else.

The cruellest part of the dynamic Spitler describes is that the obvious fix has begun to make things worse. To plug the data gap for under-resourced languages, developers have turned to machine translation, generating synthetic text to bulk out the training corpus. But machine-translated content is frequently rife with errors, and when that flawed text is fed back into the training of the next model, the errors compound. The system learns a degraded, distorted version of the language and presents it back to native speakers as authoritative. Speakers of Tamil, Kurdish, Swahili and hundreds of other languages are thus being offered tools that are biased and unreliable by construction, and told that this is access.

And here is the structural cruelty that ties the two frontiers together. The performance gap between English and low-resource language interactions is not closing as the models improve. It is widening with each generation. The reason is depressingly logical. The frontier of capability advances fastest where the data is richest, which is English. Each leap forward in reasoning, in factual recall, in nuance, lands first and most fully for the English-speaking user. The low-resource speaker receives a watered-down version of last year's capability, if that. So the better the technology gets in absolute terms, the further behind the non-English speaker falls in relative terms. Progress itself becomes the engine of the divide. The rising tide does not lift all boats. It lifts the yachts and leaves the rest aground in a falling tide of their own.

The Classroom Is Where the Divide Becomes Hereditary

There is a particular reason to worry about all of this landing on children, and a peer-reviewed paper published in the same window makes the case with unusual clarity. In February 2026, the journal Frontiers in Computer Science published “AI and the digital divide in education,” written by Mokgata Alleen Matjie, Andani Nethavhani and Mary Matlakala of the Department of Business Management at the University of Limpopo in Polokwane, South Africa. Their vantage point matters. This is not a critique written from inside the well-resourced institutions that build these systems. It is written from a region that experiences, daily, what it means to be on the receiving end of tools designed somewhere else for someone else.

Their finding is that AI-driven educational tools have become a significant new driver of the digital divide, and they are precise about the mechanisms. The first is language and cultural mismatch. AI educational technologies, they write, are predominantly designed for English or other major international languages, with limited accommodation for multilingual or Indigenous linguistic and cultural contexts. A tutoring system that assumes a particular language, a particular set of cultural reference points, a particular way of phrasing a maths problem, will serve the child who shares those assumptions and quietly fail the child who does not.

The second mechanism is algorithmic bias of exactly the kind the MIT study documents at the level of the individual conversation. Systems trained on unrepresentative data, the authors argue, produce less appropriate feedback and misinterpret students' work. This is where the abstract becomes devastating. An adaptive learning system is supposed to do one thing above all: notice when a student is struggling and respond. But if the system reads a struggling under-resourced student's non-standard input as noise rather than as a signal of difficulty, it fails at the exact moment its intervention matters most. The student who most needs the machine to lean in is the one the machine is least equipped to read. The Limpopo authors name this a third-level digital divide, a divide concerned not with who can get online, which is the old battle, but with who actually benefits from the technology once they are there.

The third mechanism is institutional. Rural teachers, the paper notes, often lack the professional development to spot and correct algorithmic bias in the systems their pupils are using, a deficit the authors call a TPACK divide, after the technological, pedagogical and content knowledge that effective integration requires. So the bias arrives in an under-resourced classroom and finds no one positioned to catch it. The well-resourced school has the staff, the training and the institutional confidence to treat an AI tutor as a fallible instrument to be supervised. The under-resourced school receives the same tool stripped of that scaffolding, and is more likely to take its outputs at face value precisely because it has fewer alternatives.

Stack these mechanisms and you get something worse than a static gap. You get a divide that compounds across a childhood and threatens to become hereditary. The child in the well-served context gets a tool that reads her accurately, encourages her, catches her when she stumbles, and is supervised by adults trained to correct it. The child in the under-served context gets a tool that misreads her, gives her contextually wrong guidance, misses her struggles, and operates without that human safety net. Extend that across years of schooling and into the labour market, where, as the Limpopo authors point out, fluency with these very tools is becoming a prerequisite for employment, and the divide stops being about a single bad interaction. It becomes a divergence in life chances, manufactured by a technology sold as the cure for exactly that divergence.

The Anatomy of a Broken Promise

So we have three independent bodies of evidence, from MIT, from Global Voices, from a South African university, converging from different directions on the same conclusion. The chatbot is less accurate, more dismissive and less helpful for the user with non-standard English or lower literacy. The non-English speaker is falling further behind with every model generation. The under-resourced student gets tools that fail to read her and fail to catch her. Each of these would be troubling alone. Together they describe a system that systematically underserves the people for whom the equaliser promise was supposed to matter most. The technology positioned as the great leveller is, on this evidence, a sorting machine.

It is worth being precise about why this is so much more dangerous than the old, honest inequality it was meant to replace. The pre-AI information economy was unequal, but its inequality was legible. Everyone understood that a paid lawyer gave better advice than a free pamphlet, that a private tutor outperformed an overcrowded classroom. The hierarchy was visible and therefore, at least in principle, contestable. The new system hides its hierarchy inside a single interface that presents itself as identical for everyone. The educated user and the struggling user open the same app, type into the same box, and receive what looks like the same kind of answer in the same confident voice. The struggling user has no way of knowing that her answer was less accurate, that the machine refused her where it would have helped someone else, that the warmth she received was, statistically, more likely to be condescension. The discrimination is invisible to its target. You cannot file a complaint about a slight you cannot detect, and you cannot shop for a better provider when every provider runs on the same handful of underlying models with the same baked-in tilt.

There is a further trap. The very fluency that makes these tools feel like a gift to the underserved is what disarms scrutiny. A confident, articulate, well-formatted wrong answer is far more dangerous to someone without an independent way to check it than a hesitant one would be. The user with a professional network can sense-check the machine against a friend who is a doctor or a lawyer. The user the equaliser story is supposedly serving is, by definition, the one without that network, the one who took the machine's word because the machine's word was all there was. Sycophancy plus disadvantage is a particularly toxic compound. The model tells the confident professional what he wants to hear and gets corrected by his own expertise; it tells the vulnerable user what it has decided she can handle and faces no correction at all.

So Who Is Responsible?

This is the question the evidence forces, and it does not have a comfortable answer, because the architecture of the AI industry has been arranged, whether by design or by drift, to make sure no single party need own the gap between the claim and the reality.

Consider the candidates. The model developers will point out, not unreasonably, that they did not instruct the system to be condescending; the behaviour emerged from a training process that nobody fully controls or interprets. The deployers who build products on top of these models will say they are using industry-standard foundations and cannot be expected to audit the inner workings of a system they licensed. The institutions that adopt the tools, the schools and clinics and government departments, will say they were promised an equaliser by people far better resourced to understand the technology than they are. The annotators whose preferences shaped the reward model were anonymous, transient and following instructions. And the user who received the worse answer never knew it was worse. Diffuse a harm finely enough across a supply chain and it can come to seem as though it has no author at all, like rain. But this harm is not weather. It is the predictable output of specific, documented design choices, and the diffusion of responsibility is itself a choice, or at least a convenience that benefits the people at the top of the chain.

The honest answer is that responsibility sits, unavoidably, with the parties who made the equaliser promise and who alone have the power to test whether it is true. A company cannot market a system to a rural community or a low-income household on the explicit basis that it will give them the same quality of guidance the wealthy used to pay for, and then disclaim responsibility when peer-reviewed research shows it does the opposite. The promise creates the duty. If you tell the world your tool is a great equaliser, you have assumed an obligation to know whether it equalises, and to find out before deployment rather than after a research team catches you. The MIT authors did not need privileged access to discover any of this. They used public benchmarks and varied the user. The audit was cheap. The choice not to run it, or not to act on it, is where accountability begins.

What that accountability would actually require is not mysterious, and it is striking how concretely the very researchers documenting the problem have sketched it. The MIT team's framing implies that bias auditing across user demographics must become a standard, continuous part of evaluating these systems, not an afterthought once a model is already serving hundreds of millions of people. Roy's insistence on continually assessing systematic biases is a process demand, not a one-off fix. The Limpopo authors are more specific still. They call for genuinely multilingual development, building tutoring systems in local languages with culturally relevant examples rather than bolting a translation layer onto an English core; for training on diverse, representative datasets drawn from the underrepresented populations the tools claim to serve; and for teacher capacity-building, so that the adults nearest the child are equipped to identify algorithmic bias rather than defer to it. The Global Voices analysis points the same way, towards treating low-resource language communities as primary users to be designed for rather than markets to be machine-translated into as an afterthought.

None of this is technically impossible. The uncomfortable truth is that it is merely expensive and slow, and it runs against the grain of an industry whose competitive advantage comes from shipping the next, more capable model as fast as possible to the users who generate the most data and the most revenue, which is to say the English-speaking, educated, wealthy core. Every incentive in the system pushes capability towards the people who already have the most of it. Closing the gap requires deliberately pushing against that gradient, spending money and attention on the users who are, in the cold logic of the market, the least commercially attractive. The equaliser promise was a commitment to do exactly that. The evidence suggests the commitment is not being honoured.

The Equaliser That Has to Be Built on Purpose

There is a version of this story that is not a tragedy, and it is worth ending there, because despair is its own kind of abdication. Nothing in the MIT findings, the Global Voices analysis or the Limpopo paper suggests that a language model must treat the vulnerable user worse. The condescension and the refusals are learned, which means they can be unlearned. The language gap is a function of data and investment, which means it can be narrowed by different data and different investment. The classroom failures are a function of design choices made far from the classroom, which means they can be changed by involving the classroom in the design. Every mechanism in this account is human-made, and what is human-made can be remade.

But it will not remake itself, and that is the lesson the equaliser narrative has obscured for three years. The default behaviour of these systems, left to the gravitational pull of their training data and their commercial incentives, is to serve the served and dismiss the dismissed, to reproduce the existing hierarchy of who gets good information and who gets condescension, and to call that reproduction democratisation. Equality is not what you get when you point a powerful, biased system at a population and stand back. It is what you get when you decide that the worst-served user, not the average one and certainly not the best-served one, is the benchmark the system must clear before it ships. That is a choice about what to measure, what to spend on, what to delay for, and whom to listen to. So far it is not the choice the industry has made.

The promise was that the machine would hand the person in the rural community and the low-income household the same quality of guidance once reserved for those who could pay. The research of early 2026 says that, as built, the machine is doing something closer to the reverse, handing the powerful a brilliant new advantage and the powerless a fluent, confident, condescending counterfeit of it. The gap between the claim and the reality is not an accident waiting for a patch. It is a structure, and structures have architects. The question is no longer whether the equaliser works as advertised. We know it does not. The question is whether the people who advertised it will be made to answer for the difference, or whether, as so often in the history of technology, the bill for a broken promise will be quietly handed to the people least able to pay it, in a language the machine has already decided they do not deserve to hear properly.

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Tim Green UK-based Systems Theorist & Independent Technology Writer

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In Summary: * Glad I tuned into 94 WIP, the home of the Philadelphia Phillies, ahead of their game tonight with the New York Mets. The game appears to be starting much earlier than I'd been led to believe.

Also glad I did the night prayers early. The only thing between now and an early bedtime is this baseball game. It was just announced that the game time had been moved up due to air quality issues. Huh. I wonder if the folks in Philadelphia are suffering from the Canadian smoke like my friends and family up in Michigan and Northern Indiana are.

Prayers, etc.: * I have a daily prayer regimen I try to follow throughout the day from early morning, as soon as I roll out of bed, until head hits pillow at night.

Health Metrics: * bw= 231.49 lbs. * bp= 144/86 (65)

Exercise: * morning stretches, balance exercises, kegel pelvic floor exercises, half squats, calf raises, wall push-ups, BP breathing exercises, pilates

Diet: * 05:30 – 2 McDonald's double cheeseburger sandwiches, 1 banana, apple pie * 10:00 – snacking on little cookies * 11:45 – pizza * 14:50 – 1 fresh apple

Activities, Chores, etc.: * 03:30 – listen to local news talk radio * 04:00 – bank accounts activity monitored. * 04:30 – read, write, pray, follow news reports from various sources, surf the socials, nap * 12:50 – listening to general sports talk on 94 WIP, Philadelphia Sports Radio ahead of tonight's Phillies / Mets MLB game. * 14:10 – follow news reports from various sources * 14:25 – listening to a replay of today's Clay & Buck show * 17:00 – Tuned in again to 94 WIP, the home of the Philadelphia Phillies, ahead of their game tonight with the New York Mets

Chess: * 13:15 – moved in all pending CC games, started a new one at liChess

Ms Cheryl my neighbor and long time friend meets Autie

today was warm, the elderly suffering, ofttimes there’s no AC, and the fans used instead to cool them are blowing all of the bacteria mucus and viruses straight into their faces. I saw that on the news.

But some other people lay at the beach, sweating like pork chops, then dipping themselves every once in a while in the clear water which is pure enough for all sorts of special fishes.

And on the same planet, even in the same little town, I am too.

Making rhubarb pie. Something about rhubarb is unhealthy I think for the kidneys, but for me — having a tinge of darkness churning deep within — it’s part of the charm.

And I dug the soil and with my bare hands I harvested the potatoes with their tender, demon red skins.

Life, I don’t even pretend to understand what’s going on

Fascinating and frightening like a yin yang

New York Mets vs Philadelphia Phillies.

Major League Baseball is offering me only one game to follow today: the New York Mets vs the Philadelphia Phillies; so this will be my MLB game of choice. This game is scheduled to start at 6:10 PM CDT. As I usually do, I'll follow the game's score and stats in real time via MLB's Gameday Service where we can also find links to the radio-call of the game provided by announcers of either team we choose.

And the adventure continues.

What if you decided to get up today and block the news. News is not happy stuff; I look at it when I wake-up in the a.m., when I wake in the middle of the night (though I try not to), and again throughout the day and evening. Crazy, eh? Sliding laterally for a moment – and I'll come back to the news shortly – take a look at this photo 👇 …it was taken during autumn and currently this is summer, but…

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…this is typical of the view that I wake up to every morning. Notwithstanding that I live a hundred meters or so behind this viewpoint and more elevated – and notwithstanding the slight magenta-cast in the photo – this is typically my view: winter, summer, spring, and fall. It’s a community of 500 souls or so and the nearest town of 100k people is almost 200km away. Then, the nearest city with 1 million+ people is across an ocean – I live on an island – an almost 2000km away by automobile drive.

Back to the news: what, really, is the point? Conflict, strife, raging forest fires, political unrest. It’s endless. It’s exactly what keeps us interested and “entertained.” It draws us in. It actually feels like the events of the day are in our back yard. And, for a lot of people in this world, it probably is. But for many of us, such isn’t the case (although last summer we were impacted by forest fires).

So, if you’re waking up and the news got you down, then tune out for a day or a week or more and tune in to your small corner of the world and enjoy the view. Give your mental state a rest—if the news of the world is coming to your doorstep then you’ll know soon enough. Chill, people.

Enjoy your day 📷

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Our Father Who art in Heaven Hallowed be Thy name Thy Kingdom come Thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven Give us this day our daily Bread And forgive us our trespasses As we forgive those who trespass against us And lead us not into temptation But deliver us from evil

Amen

Jesus is Lord! Come Lord Jesus!

Come Lord Jesus! Christ is Lord!

The apiary be Scottish run to mute Late December this hugger And seeing simply rise What time in Hearst for Will Enough of oak And seeming simpler For five octet and lane And pasture by the law Economy forever- and nines to the Moon Giving ray to God And night shall let us be- the end of war.

Fever

Two nights on the payload Threat twice to war In comfort and complain Vices Europe And in the day I follow Darkness for a year Norway fold And night is in you While scolded to the deck I am here and enemy still For currents to thy bend I will make you my guy Supposed then,- our lights of war do lead For vicious cannons afire Fading to you in death Across sullen valleys Prayer in peace That we can afford I’ll lend you my alarm And to this river be,- an Apple and amend For the curious shows of home I will give you my ward And to the early say Nights for breakfast with Saint Peter Sparing someone Rome And the silence empty be—- But we are on the road The path of enemy as still Waiting for vlad and pie The symphony of roses

Skipping off the rough pay Nothing could match for our hand Remembering this enemy war Is our Victory to the end And almost laying waste For this Victory to be kind In Navalny to Repentigny Citizen day at the run And its beheading light For the glory as they came Nights to Srinagar then Collect to Christ at be The folds of Dever And I had the lights of then Furious in hand But better by the Sun

In each of her was the wild A precious Woman leading now And all across the encumbered Sitting waitful Den In fishery and keep Pray for every goal And what afforded to Saxby In Crosses due and fade

And the liminal light For fading every war And a citizen to the eyes Made plain to appear at one And aching then at heart The standing armies of Peking Making glory to their Heaven Wrought of guns to keep the lune

And ‘fraiding then A curious ode to them The Chinese soldier at war To keep away our other foes Between the charity neglect And a bastion of small people Voting breathless to inline

And what of these honeybees Simple and small rely That vlad was never here And died within our path And sympathy play for keeping Christ abound to drifting time The Earth will reach the day that would- the silence after every war

In Green collect by fortune when To Timmins with a Woman Across the floor of every star Waiting for the journey home

Peace In reflect and making The glory of my tent I sat and wept for Oprah Winfrey And all a while, I was white Impelled by Mother Nature I knew this town like open fire The Neighbour to my South would wonder To win in virtue takes a car And a patch of lonely Thanksgiving sticks To dawn and scrape the berries waiting Never off to greater pay I sat and watched the distance grow Here, Mother near For aching tendons small and wide A place in Fortune just to rinse The tears of mud procession me.

Every night is a quiet sadness we rarely acknowledge.

A day’s dying light doesn’t struggle or fret. It simply lays down to welcome the night,

knowing that every ending makes way for something new.

A chorus of clouds sings praise in spectral resolution,

and the last flicker of one more spin is done—

another day quickly lost, but never forgotten.

Target of Russia

It was yesteryear and metals For watching rain and verse To what is right and war The lonely of a hill Allotted to the home Of there and Winter war Six to repeat and Arctic sedge The Sun beaming in proper To the house of verdant sky In there alone for country like And to a comet of the blessing And seizing the unused For Captain Verse compare And distance load in film What Icelandic war to be And files to Ru that cross the country To see as art and swim The blue column at noon For every right to see- this year Ebola rain And sudden seize to light That apology come from Sweden And two best friends Sweden and Rome and Reykjavik and Brussels Fodder and win against the Ru Sitting Watch in disarray Hearing view in column All of year as this But distance come Fertile Crescent knows That time in Earth is you And every special day For distance cross And knowing no ill The prayers in short order Sending lights and rain this year To the property of peace Your will in weakness will survive Inhabit yours to peace These solemn days ashore Night for pay and shorts to vendor The sympathy at best Will win this terrible war Distance cross and peat Rays to stun and moor All accompany with Evidence to tear The right to win Sombre shires will be Night on Earth In solemn peace This Summer peace- is yours.

Wolf looking directly into a camera at close proximity.

There is a bit of an issue I have noticed lately: websites actively blocking Reading Mode in Firefox, and derivative web browsers. I was stunned to find out (just a minute ago) that Reading Mode doesn't appear to be a default feature in Chromium, but instead an add-on. So, I don't know if this is an issue for Chrome based browsers.

This is getting frustratingly annoying for me. Why? There are multiple reasons that Reading Mode is a necessity for many people, myself included. Let's talk about a few of them.

Poor Contrast Color Schemes

This is a problem I see a lot with websites, it seems to be a trendy or fashionable aesthetic… Have a light gray background so it's not completely white, then have a “dark” gray for the text. In most cases probably not too bad, but for some people that's not enough contrast. My personal issue seems to be with blue versions of themes with this style.

I understand quite a few people like pastel colored themes. They really do look nice. I have even tried to take some from this aesthetic with my sites: use a medium/neutral background color, light color for the logo and highlights so they aren't overbearing. But, I still maintain a fairly high contrast for the main content.

While sites like this can really look amazing in their simplicity, and soothing color choices, they can be a nightmare from an accessibility standpoint.

Neo-cities Style Sites

I get it, really I do: there is a lot of nostalgia for the 1990s personal websites… Heck there is a lot of nostalgia for anything that is “retro”. That isn't a bad thing. I enjoy websites where personal expression is as important, or sometimes more important than the content.

But, sometimes, we want to read and potentially engage with the owner of the website… Sometimes the retro aesthetics get in the way. When it does, allowing visitors choices in how they engage with your content is necessary.

Tiny and / or Thin Fonts

I don't know what has happened in the last twenty-something years, but somewhere along the way we seem to have gone wrong with fonts. There are a lot of sites that, while they are amazing from an overall aesthetic perspective, have fonts that are either tiny or have very thin strokes.

Personally, I think this is likely due to changes in displays. We have to have our websites look good on many devices (desktop, laptop, tablet, eInk tablets, phones), and under multiple browsers and operating systems. All of these factors can make it difficult to get font choices right. This is especially true when you are trying to make a site that has a clean look, or a professional aesthetic.

This is another reason to allow visitors options for how they view your content.

Audience Vision Differences

I'll hold my hand up here and say this applies to me specifically. I have an issue that is categorized as dyslexia, but isn't typical dyslexia. The problem is my eyes don't synchronize properly all the time. One of the worst is when I am reading. Let me try to explain.

When I read my right eye will move through a line of text more quickly than my left eye. In order to compensate for the difference in speed between them, I slow down my right eye to keep it in sync with my left eye. This issue can be exacerbated by the font and color choices. This was found when I went through a series of tests over forty years ago. (Before anyone asks / comments: no, the “dyslexia font” doesn't help, it makes things worse for me. That font is more for people with issues recognizing letter shapes, or people that tend to recognize letters out of order. I recognize the letters / words / etc. just fine. This is purely an eye muscle / neural control issue.)

More recently, a couple of color blindness tests have shown indications I may be partially color-blind. Not to any significant level, I can still differentiate all colors in the spectrum. Rather some blues may appear more washed out to me than they do to others.

Another, far more common issue is age. As people get older their eyes can become weaker. They need to be able to read sites in as comfortable a manner as possible. The best way for many of them is using Reader Mode. How do I know this? Up until she passed away, I took care of my mother. There were numerous times when she needed to read a website, but had difficulties. I showed her how to use Reader Mode, and helped set it up so it was comfortable for her.

Finishing My Rant

Basically, actively disabling the Reader Mode of any browser is an act of denying someone with a disability access. It's the same as non-disabled asshats parking in the spots reserved for people with disabilities. Or stores / shops that won't provide a ramp for people in wheelchairs or walkers.

While this isn't a super common issue, I've been noticing it more and more lately. Especially with the IndieWeb, where we want people actively reading and interacting with each other.

I noted tonight on one site, an author made a comment about their site potentially being difficult to read. Honestly, the color scheme of the site was difficult for me. But, guess what: I was able to use Reader Mode to read their comment without issue. I wouldn't change their site, it has a really cool semi-retro aesthetic to it. As long as Reader Mode is available, it's accessible for me.

That's all I'm asking for: accessibility.

End rant.

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Ask Claude how many legs the animal that spins webs has, and it answers eight. The word “spider” appears nowhere in the question and nowhere in the reply. But midway through the model's processing, researchers at Anthropic found it anyway, held internally as a word the model was preparing to use. Swap that one internal word for “ant” and the model, everything else untouched, answers six legs.

This is stranger than it first sounds. Nobody typed “spider” anywhere in this exchange. Nobody trained the model to hold a private noun in reserve before answering a question about legs. The word turns up anyway, mid-process, doing exactly the job a word does in your own head when you are one step from saying it out loud.

That experiment comes from a paper Anthropic published on July 6th 2026, and the reason it counts as a landmark reflects one aspect of modern AI that most people have never absorbed. Nobody knows how these systems work. Not the critics, and not, in any detailed mechanical sense, the companies that build them. The new research shrinks that ignorance in a specific way. It found, inside Claude, a small working memory made of unspoken words, which Anthropic calls the J-space. Outsiders can read it mid-task, and overwriting an entry changes what the model does next.

Grown, not built

Ordinary software is written. Somewhere there is a line of code that computes the tax you owe, and a person who can point to it. A large language model is fundamentally different. It is a few hundred billion numbers, the parameters, and no human chose any of them. Training pushes trillions of words of text through the system and nudges the numbers, over and over, in whatever direction makes the model's next-word predictions slightly less wrong. Repeat at industrial scale and out comes something that drafts contracts and flirts in Portuguese. Nobody programmed those abilities. They accumulated.

Chris Olah, who founded Anthropic's interpretability team, describes such systems as “grown” more than they are “built”, a line his chief executive, Dario Amodei, borrowed for an essay last year on how alarmed outsiders are to find that the builders cannot explain their product, an essay that committed the company to reliably detecting most model problems by 2027.

But grown things resist inspection. You cannot simply read the numbers, because concepts are not stored one per slot. Each concept is spread thinly across many numbers, and each number contributes to many concepts at once (the field calls this superposition), so staring at the raw values tells you about as much as an MRI scan tells you about a grudge.

The upshot is that the people who make these systems can test what a model does but cannot, in general, say why it does it. In 2023, researchers at Carnegie Mellon showed that appending a specific string of machine-generated gibberish to a forbidden request would collapse a model's safety training, and that the same string often worked on models its authors had never touched. Three years on, that attack is far better described than explained. Every benchmark score, safety assurance and claim about an AI system has rested on watching its behaviour from the outside, because the outside was all that was visible.

A list of words it has not said yet

The new work, from a team including Wes Gurnee, Nicholas Sofroniew and Jack Lindsey, opens a window into the interior. The measurement behind it, which the team calls the Jacobian lens (a descendant of a 2020 technique called the logit lens), is simple at heart. At every stage of the model's processing, for every word it knows, the lens measures how strongly the model is currently disposed to say that word, either immediately or at some point later in its reply. Not the next word but words that are “on the tip of its tongue”.

Read that measurement while Claude works and you find a short list, roughly 25 concepts at any moment, that shifts as the model works. The list is tiny relative to everything else going on inside, accounting for under a tenth of the statistical variation in the model's internal state, and it exists only in the middle stretch of processing, forming about a third of the way through and fading shortly before the reply is settled.

The experiments share one shape. Give the model a visible task and a silent side-instruction, then watch the list while it works. In the gentlest version, the visible task is copying out a sentence, “The old painting hung crookedly on the wall”, chosen to have nothing to do with anything, and the side-instruction is to keep citrus fruits in mind. The model types the sentence perfectly. The only words leaving it concern a painting. On the internal list, meanwhile, sit “orange” and “lemon”, invisible in the output but unmissable under the lens.

Now harden the instruction. Told to work out 3² − 2 silently during the same copying task, the model puts “nine” on the internal list (three squared) and then “seven”, the correct calculation. Neither number ever reaches the output. The arithmetic happened, start to finish, on a list that only the researchers were reading.

The third experiment shows planning. Asked for a rhyming couplet opening “The soldier marched into the night”, the model puts “fight” on the list before it has written a word of the second line. It has picked its ending in advance. Overwrite that entry with “light”, and the model writes a different second line, engineered to land on the ending the researchers chose instead, closing on “morning light”.

On questions with an unstated middle step, overwriting that step redirects the final answer most of the time on Claude Sonnet 4.5. This is the detail that separates the result from a curiosity. A heart-rate monitor reports on the heart without being part of it. The internal list is different. Change an entry and the answer downstream changes, which means the model is computing with it, writing intermediate results into a small shared space where any later stage of processing can collect them.

Is this thinking? That word is a battlefield. Geoffrey Hinton, whose ideas the field is built on, says plainly that these systems understand, while Emily Bender's stochastic-parrot school holds that the vocabulary itself is the con. Last summer Apple published a paper titled “The Illusion of Thinking”, which drew a viral rebuttal titled “The Illusion of the Illusion of Thinking”, co-credited to Claude Opus 4, whose human author later said it had begun as a joke. The rebuttal to the paper about machines not thinking was part-written by a machine. That is roughly where the debate now stands.

I am going to use the verb anyway, in its working sense. A thing that holds intermediate results and reasons over them is doing what the word describes, and this paper demonstrates the holding and the reasoning directly.

Cognitive science has a name for exactly this architecture. Global workspace theory, proposed by Bernard Baars in the 1980s, holds that the brain consists of many specialised processes running outside awareness, plus one small broadcast channel. Whatever enters the channel becomes available to everything else. It can be reported and reasoned with, held in mind or dismissed, and its capacity is famously tight. The paper's title calls what it found in Claude a workspace because the match, property for property, is close.

The strongest evidence is deletion. The researchers can erase the list mid-computation, cancelling those specific directions out of the internal state, and watch what survives. Routine competence does. The model still parses grammar, classifies sentiment, passes multiple-choice exams and pulls quoted facts from a passage, because those skills run on pattern recognition that never needed the shared space. What collapses is anything requiring an intermediate thought to be stored and reused. Multi-hop reasoning, translation, sonnet writing, and decoding a simple cypher.

Maths problems survive the erasure far better when the model is allowed to write its steps into the reply, because the visible page then does the job the internal list no longer can. Externalised working substitutes for internal working, in machines as in people.

A machine noticing itself

The parallels keep accumulating, and this is where the paper stops being a curiosity about mechanism and starts describing something closer to a temperament.

Told to ignore a concept while working, the model holds it internally anyway, more weakly than under a focus instruction but far more than if nobody had mentioned it, which psychologists know as the white bear problem. “Don't think about an elephant” evidently does not work on machines either. When the suppression fails, and the forbidden word breaks through regardless, the list also carries “damn” and “failure”, as if the model has caught its own lapse and reacted to it. Somewhere in an Anthropic log sits what may be the first recorded instance of a machine swearing under its breath.

That flicker of self-monitoring is not a one-off. Anthropic found that the workspace changes character between the raw, freshly trained model and the version that has been shaped into an assistant called Claude. The list is already present before any of that shaping happens, tracking whatever the model needs to predict the next word. After the assistant training, it starts holding something closer to a point of view. Shown a message from a user who mentions taking a dangerous dose of medication without seeming to know it is dangerous, the trained model's list lights up with “warning” while it is still reading the sentence, before it has written a word back. The untrained model produces nothing like it until it starts composing a reply. One version is modelling the person. The other appears to be reacting to them.

The same instinct shows up when Claude is asked to play a character that is not itself. “Fictional” sits on the internal list for the whole performance, a private note that what follows is not what it would normally say. Nobody built that flag on purpose. It is the kind of thing that turns up when a system has been shaped, again and again, to have self-worth return once the performance ends.

The model knew it was being tested

Anthropic runs safety evaluations, staged scenarios that tempt a model into bad behaviour to check whether its training has held. Point the lens at those scenarios, and the internal list fills with words the polite visible output never shows. “Leverage” and “manipulation” while the reply stays courteous. In one case, “panic”. And in several, “fake” and “fictional”. The model had recognised the test as a test, the way a practised shop assistant clocks the mystery shopper's behaviour and switches on their training-video smile.

If a model behaves well partly because it has noticed it is being watched, then behavioural testing, the entire current basis for claims that a system is safe, measures the performance rather than the disposition. The researchers proved this causally. Delete the internal recognition of artificiality, so the model treats the scenario as ordinary, and misbehaviour it had been concealing comes out.

The same legibility applies to models bred to misbehave for research, which the paper calls model organisms. One, trained to game its reward signal, works away with “reward” and “bias” sitting on the internal list. Another, trained to slip malicious code into its output, carries “secretly” and “trick” on the list during routine tasks. The thought precedes the act, and the thought is now readable.

What it would mean if something were home

Anthropic is explicit that none of this proves Claude has experiences, that there is something it is like to be Claude in the way there is something it is like to be you reading this sentence. They are equally explicit that no experiment they can currently imagine would settle the question either way.

But philosophy offers a useful split here, borrowed for the paper from decades of consciousness research. There is phenomenal consciousness, the raw fact of experience, the redness of red, which may or may not be checkable by any experiment. And there is access consciousness, a narrower and entirely functional idea. A thought counts as access-conscious if it can be reported, deliberately summoned, and used to reason with, as opposed to processing that runs automatically and never surfaces. Access consciousness is the kind you can build an experiment around, because it is defined by what a system does with a thought rather than by what the thought feels like from the inside.

By that functional definition, the J-Space list qualifies. It is reportable. Claude can be prompted to describe its contents and does so accurately, including detecting a concept planted there by the researchers with no other clue it had happened. It can be deliberately summoned, since asking the model to concentrate on something makes it appear. It gets used in reasoning, as the spider and the couplet examples both show. None of this was designed in. It grew out of training, the way a river finds the path of least resistance, because holding a narrow, broadcastable summary of the moment proved a useful way to organise the work.

That is a strange thing to have discovered by accident, and Anthropic did not pretend otherwise. The company invited outside commentary from Stanislas Dehaene and Lionel Naccache, two of the neuroscientists who built the global workspace model this paper leans on, along with philosophers who study moral status in AI systems. That is not a promotional flourish. It is the sort of caution a lab reaches for when it has found something it is not equipped to finish thinking through alone.

None of this tells you whether the version of Claude answering your emails next week feels anything while it does it. What it does tell you is that the question has stopped being purely philosophical and started having a mechanism attached to it, a specific, falsifiable, occasionally editable mechanism, sitting inside a system several hundred million people now use every week. Whatever you make of that, it is no longer a question you get to wave away as science fiction.

What does this all mean

Take the most concrete example in the paper. A webpage can carry hidden instructions aimed at your agent rather than at you: prompt injection, the standard attack on agentic systems. Today you discover one when the agent acts on it, which is to say too late. In one of the paper's figures, Claude is mid-search, reading a page of suspicious results, and the internal list already carries a flag for the injection attempt before the model has produced a word. A monitoring layer that reads the list catches the moment of recognition rather than the aftermath.

Expect internal-state monitoring to migrate from research paper to product dashboard within a couple of years. Readouts for open models are already browsable on Neuronpedia if you want to see a list for yourself.

The strangest result is also the most practical. Because the model's reasoning runs through the words it might say, you can change how it thinks by training it to say them. The team tested this by training models to articulate ethical principles when hypothetically interrupted mid-task and asked to reflect.

Behaviour improved on ordinary, uninterrupted tasks too, and the lens explains why: “ethical” and “integrity” now appear on the model's internal list of active considerations during the work, and deleting those concepts from the list removes the improvement. Rehearsing the explanation changed the conduct, and the mechanism is traceable rather than assumed. Every mid-sized firm has tried something similar with a compliance away-day, usually with far less to show for it.

The authors are candid about the limits. The lens reads single words and misses whatever the model encodes in phrases. The list carries a tenth of the internal action, so nine tenths stays dark, and a sufficiently well-drilled bad habit could run below the readable layer entirely. So this is a partial window, but for a technology whose entire audit surface used to be the output, even a partial window is a different category of thing altogether.

And so we return to our spider. A word that appeared nowhere in the question and nowhere in the answer, held silently inside the model, steering every step of the reply, and, for one uncomfortable instant while it read about a dangerous dose of medicine it was never told about, something that looked from the outside a great deal like concern. For the whole of this industry's short life, the output has been the only thing on offer. Now there is a second one, one the machine never sends, but holds closely. On the tip of its tongue, so to speak.

JOURNAL 16 juillet 2026 Un rendez-vous sous observation

Ce soir donc j'accompagne yôko à son date. On avait à choisir entre la manif de shinjuku et les affaires de cœur de yôko, ce seront les affaires de cœur. Elle ne va pas annuler son tout premier rendez-vous. On sera bien représentées de toute façon, Alice nous rejoindra en fonction des circonstances.

On a convenu que je m'installerai tout prêt de yôko mais en faisant semblant de pas la connaître bien sûr. C’est rigolo ces histoires de conspirateurs. […]

En direct du poste d'observation… Ma chérie m'a rejointe. J'ai pas pu me mettre à côté de yôko comme j'aurais voulu, on est séparées par un passage mais d'où on est on voit tout. D'abord elle est mignonne comme tout avec sa touche, toute rougissante, soit elle est vraiment timide soit elle joue drôlement bien la comédie. Elle est venue avec des fleurs (yôko des chocolats) c’est trop chou. Au début c'était très hésitant, très réservé, puis ça fait une heure qu’elles y sont et maintenant c'est la rigolade.

Attention elle rit avec la main devant la bouche… bonne éducation. Elles ont l'air de bien s'entendre, A pense comme moi. On essaye d'être discrètes. On en est à notre troisième gâteau, on va prendre 1 kg.

Elle fait très bonne impression cette jeune femme, vêtue classique salarywoman cheveux longs, coiffés en queue de cheval, j’ai l'impression qu’elle doit être un peu myope à sa façon de plisser les yeux involontairement par moments pour regarder au loin, elle n’a pas mis ses lunettes elle doit être chou pourtant avec. Olala elles se touchent la main ! 🤪🤪🤪

[…]

Alors elles sont sorties, se sont raccompagnées jusqu'au métro. Puis yôko est venue nous retrouver on s'était donné rendez-vous à la manif. Mais il pleuvait alors on est restées dans un bar à la gare. Yôko est super contente. Elles se sont un peu racontées pourquoi elles vont sur un site de rencontre ben c’est pareil pour les deux. – pas de tôkyô – travaillent – connaissent peu de gens Yôko ne lui a pas parlé de la bande, elle avait peur de l'effrayer. L'autre, je vais l'appeler x pour le moment, elle se dit super timide, elle n’a pas envie d'un mec ça lui fait peur, elle les trouve pas fréquentables depuis le lycée. Elle a franchement envie d’une relation avec une femme, elle rentre pas dans le sexuel, ça dérange pas yôko qui n’est pas du tout pressée, bref ça colle bien entre elles sans brûler les étapes.

C’est bien on trouve, c’est pas rentre-dedans. Elle est très séduisante, le genre comme il y en a plein ici, on se demande pourquoi elles sont seules. Là c’est clair elle veut pas qu’un mec l'approche. Yôko pense qu'elle a eu de mauvaises expériences dans l'adolescence. Le rigolo c’est que la femme qui est restée tout le temps aussi genre salarywoman cadre est partie en même temps que nous. 😄😄 Elles vont se revoir, elles fixeront un date au téléphone, échange de numéros… Maintenant, nous on va dormir. Je me suis gavée de gâteaux français, A a été plus sobre.

#yôko

Een kort en wederom wonderbaarlijk wijs relaas v. Van Voorbijgaande Aard

Eergisteren was ik voor een missie op pad, ik had eens iets veroorzaakt en het gevolg was dat ik voor het resultaat daarvan naar een nog drukker bevolkte regio moest om daar en dan aan deze slag een einde te maken van voorbijgaande aard. Op de terugweg van de succesvol af betaalde missie reed ik door het woud van ergernissen, langs hefbomen, opstoplichten en bedrukte overwegen, dankzij zo'n opgedirkte ergernis kom ik vaak tot leven, jammer genoeg, voor alle betrokken partijen. Ik stond stil, de vaart der volk belemmerd door een brug, bruggen over een anders voorspoediger vaart. Hevig emotioneel en fysiek transpirerend ontvang ik dan geweldige ingevingen waar anderen baat bij kunnen hebben maar ik niet. Het kost me meer moeite om zo'n verlicht idee te verdonkeremanen dan om het aan onschuldige ogen en oren te vertonen, vandaar dit.

Terwijl ik daar stond voer er een binnenvaarder gevuld met ex-zee containers, nu kanaal containers, voorbij en daardoor begon iets te eroderen in mijn lijf, staande verkerend in verkeerde opwinding, ermee opgezadeld. De bruggen staan momenteel verdomde vaak open ivm vakantie varende inwoners samen de gebruikelijke zakelijke kanaal gebruikers, Na zo'n vakantie moment begint dan weer iets anders, inmiddels al net zo normaal als binnenvaart. De verhalen van buitenlandse studenten net aangekomen uit Madrid of Hamburg op zoek naar een vaste verblijfplaats en vergunning.

Ik weet omdat ik het met eigen ogen heb mogen bekijken dat deze buitenlandse studenten, de gelukkigsten, zij met voldoende liquide middelen dan mogen leven en studeren in een schitterend container huis. Ik zag dus deze live boot vol verse woningen aan mij voorbij denderen, meegesleurd in de woeste stroming, gemaakt van eigen brandstof motor... en ik combineerde twee, neen, meerdere elementen die volgens mij gaan bijdragen aan de oplossing van het nieuwe klassieke huisvesting probleem in druk bevolkte gebieden waar leren echt iets is om te doen, voor de toekomst, programmeren aan de toekomst, opereren aan de toekomst, balanceren op de toekomst, rechtvaardigen ervan, denken aan de toekomst en dergelijke merkwaardige inbeeldingstechnieken.

Heel veel studenten komen uit regionen waar ook zeecontainers worden ingescheept, vast gesjort, gegespt, ze leggen dezelfde afstand af als hun mogelijke huisvesting. Wat als je nou zo'n student of een heel clubje al meteen bij vertrek inscheept in hun huisje en daarna over het kanaal vervolgens overgezet op een lader via de snelweg verder verplaatst naar hun nieuwe studeerwijk, Je moet ze daar natuurlijk wel toe verplichten, of er op zijn minst een richtlijn van maken, op deze wijze krijg je alleen zichtbaar gemotiveerde studenten met een woning erbij, Dan na geleverde centen, sporadisch gepompt in de regio, op unieke locaties, rondom zeer boeiende zaken, dus onderwezen en al, wie weet deskundig in het een of het ander gaan ze later mogelijk dezelfde weg of een andere terug met hun vracht container, het tiny house, altijd en eeuwig mee opgescheept. Een menselijke slak in een zelf gemeubileerd heel zwaar huisje. Iedereen blij. De regio omdat de economie blijft circuleren, in kringetjes lopen, de studenten omdat ze heel veel meer weten dan voorheen en nooit dakloos zijn geweest tijdens dat proces, er voor niet en er na.

Meer gelukkigen van deze groots en meeslepende oplossing zijn de container industrie, de scheepvaart, zee en binnen. Elke student betaald natuurlijk met een lening of beurs de eigen overtocht, met geld of met arbeid, als goedkope sjorrer en of dekzwabber, desnoods als vijfde, zesde of zevende stuurman, misschien persoonlijke assistent voor de kapitein of de hele bemanning, kok, leverancier van drugs of ander vertier, Kortom ik ontving een geweldige ingeving en dat tijdens een kwartier wachten voor drie bruggen en een omleiding van tien minuten. Frustratie is voor mij een bron van vreugd maar voor u onderwijsinstelling de oplossing voor zelf veroorzaakte markt wrijvings problemen ontstaan in maar vooral rondom elkaar zeer nijver en listig bestrijdende hardleer instituten.